...Why?

by Inky Rainbow

Rating: mature
Tags: Death, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Original Character, Suicide / Self Harm, Tragedy, Violence
Length: 8598

Pearl Shimmers comes home from work to find her beloved cheating.

Pearl Shimmers comes home on Hearts & Hooves Day to see her marefriend, Cosmo, cheating on her with another. Not just a mare, a stallion!

However, Pearl does not take this lightly.

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A/N: Wrote this in a dark place and will continue to pour out twisted and dark stories. I have a few more stories in the works. Hope you enjoy this one.

Published 2023-02-26 08:10:00 UTC
Last updated 2023-03-19 08:33:04 UTC

Because.

"Okay, Ms. Buttons! I'm going home now! Have a Happy Hearts and Hooves day!" Pearl announced.

"Alright darling. Have a wonderful Hearts and Hooves day to you too." Ms. Buttons answered. Giving her fellow Unicorn a gentle grin. "Please do be safe on your way home!"

"I will!" Pearl replied, smiling very widely at the owner of Button Boutique. "Well, see ya!" She said before galloping off into the known town of Ponyville.

As she ran, she had two things in mind. The holiday known as Hearts and Hooves Day. And Cosmo, her very special somepony! Two special things Pearl considered very important in her life. For a week, she'd been planning an entire day out just for the two of them. It'd been a long time since the two of them had done anything together. If recalled correctly, they spent time together two Hearts and Hooves holidays ago! Which is definitely a long time. The reason why they haven't spent time together much is because they've been so busy in their workspaces. Something that the Unicorn regretted doing most of the time. But she swears that she'll be home more often this time.

Soon Pearl finally reached the far outskirts of Ponyville. She slowed herself down once spotting a house far on the left side. It was a medium sized house for one pony to reside in. Comfortable, yet cozy. A house in which Pearl adored for it's size and modernized fifties themes. She entered the place before shutting the door behind herself very quietly. Making sure she didn't slam it like last time. Being considerate of others is the right thing!

"Darling, I'm home!" Pearl Shimmers called out before walking straight into the kitchen. Automatically lighting up her horn to fling open the cupboards, only to grab herself a cup and filled it. Then quickly downed the liquid. Damn parchment! She let out a satisfied sigh before placing the cup into the sink. Humming softly as she began to trot herself upstairs all willy nilly.

As soon as she reached the top, she carefully opened the door to their shared bedroom.

"Oh darling, you won't believe what kind of day I've ha-" Her sentence immediately cut off at the sight of her lover, Cosmo (the slowest Pegasus in Equestria) and a Earth stallion in their bed. In. Their. Flockin'. bed. Huddled up and warm together like a normal couple would be. Pearl stared at the scenery before her in utter shock. Feeling the disrespect build up already in the back of her mind. The stallion spotted the bright yellow Pegasus' beloved in the doorframe. He gave a small, but surprised squeak. Now covering up his privates out of embarrassment.

"Oh crud..." He said, whispering under his breath. Cosmo, on the other hand, turned her head to see her 'beloved'. However, she did not react the way a cheater should. Rather, she looked unamused. Face blank as stone. How could anypony act the way she's reacting right now?

"...C-Cosmo?" The Unicorn stuttered, still a bit confused. Now taking a step forward. "W-What's... going on here?"

"What does it look like, love?" Cosmo replied, cocking her head to the side. "I'm in our bed with another."

She paused for a moment. Her face contorting nothing into anger, now stepping closer.

"Why?! Why do this??" Pearl almost screeched.

Cosmo closed her eyes for a long minute. Taking the time to really think about her answer. How could she reply to such a question? Hm. She didn't want to lie. For she already has been caught in the act now. It'd be impossible for her lie anyways. A long sigh could be heard from her.

"Well..." She trailed off. "Since you caught me and all. Might as well confess." She said, rolling her eyes.

"Confess? What're you talking about?!?" Pearl cried, still confused.

"I'm talking about how boring our relationship is, Pearlie." Cosmo flatly said.

"What??" Pearl looked very worried.

"I said what I said, Pearlie." Cosmo scowled, now looking away from the other. "Boring."

"Boring? H-How??" The white Unicorn yowled, now taking another step forward. Becoming very angry by each step.

Another sigh, but this time it sounded longingly. Cosmo's light pink eyes dart down over to her own hooves. Unsure if she wanted to really say the truth here. Because the truth sucked. Well, it's now or never for this. It's the only way, really. She'll never know how you feel about this relationship if you don't communicate, Cos.

"You haven't showed me love or attention in the past two years, Pearl." Cosmo said. "So... I found somepony else." Cosmo states, wrapping her hooves around the mysterious stallion. "Isn't it obvious?"

"So... that gives you a right to go cheat on me with this... t-this... foal?!" Pearl shrieked.

"No... but you haven't paid attention to me in over two years now. Who else is going to pay attention to me?" Cosmo whined a little.

"ME, YOU MORON!" The Unicorn angrily said, now pulling the covers off of the two confused ponies. "I'M SUPPOSED TO BE THE ONE WHO GIVES YOU THAT!" More shouting.

"But you haven't done that. All you ever do is come home and work, work, work! It's all you do!" Cosmo said, throwing her hooves in surrender.

"I'm sorry that I'm working? Trying to provide us some bits so we can keep this expensive ass house??" Pearlie retorted.

"Pearlie, that's on you. You wanted this house, not me." Cosmo deadpans. "You moved me out here to bum axe Ponyville while I didn't want to."

No emotion. No respect. No nothing. Pearl just stood there in shock, not knowing what to say. What could she say other than expressing that emotion? She felt herself beginning to tremble a little. Anger slightly building up, many thoughts pouring into her mind.

"How long, Cosmo? HOW LONG?!" Pearl asked, almost wailing.

"About a year now." Cosmo blandly replied.

"A-A year...? Wha-?" She said confused.

"Yeah." Cosmo sighed longingly, now closing her eyes.

"Shame on you!" Pearl pointed at her. "I hope you burn in Tartarus, diphole!"

Cosmo shrugged before opening her eyes. She didn't care about anything but herself. And that had Pearl by the goat.

"Look, I thought you would've picked up on the signs." Cosmo said, still stone-faced. "You know... of me lacking love and all."

"No!" Pearl Shimmers cried. "No I didn't, Cosmo! I didn't know until now! Not until you buckin' told me!" Pearl's voice hitched, expression now anger. "Nopony told me jack! You can't just expect me to know these things off the bat!!"

"Sorry, Pearlie." Cosmo tried to apologize.

"Shut up! You're not sorry! You're sorry that you're caught!" Pearl angrily stomped her foot. "I don't want to hear it!"

"C'mon Pearl..." Cosmo spoke up.

"NO! Shut the buck up! I'm done with you!" The Unicorn shouted at her.

Both the stallion and Cosmo watched the Unicorn 's horn light up slowly. As if it was being charged up. "You're gonna pay..." Pearl Shimmers hissed. Cosmo's eyes widened at what was going down. Her wings spreads outward and flew over to tackle her ex-lover. Causing the two to be thrown across the opposite side of the room. Soon, Cosmo's hoof collided with Pearl's left cheek. Making the other to spit out a bit of blood at her.

"What the Tartarus are you doing?!" Pearl Shimmers shouted. Using a hoof to pull at Cosmo's short magenta haircut. The Pegasus gave a loud yelp in response.

"Stopping you, that's what!" Cosmo spat out.

"No, you won't! I'll kill you before you could even try!" The Unicorn growled.

"Oh yeah?!" Cosmo replied, still tumbling with her.

"YEAH!" Pearl boomed.

Soon Pearl felt the strength in her hooves and pushed the heavy Pegasus right off her. Sending the other smashing into a wall, leaving heavy damage. Pearl immediately got up, quickly charging up her horn once again. This time, her emerald eyes focused onto Cosmo. Who was still stuck in the wall and trying to wiggle her own way out. Pearl did not focus her energy towards her anymore, rather she focused onto the stallion. The colt observed as the entire room went darker. Only the illumination of the horn would be the light of the room. Making her green eyes light up, showcasing the malice in her expression.

The stallion yelped out of fear as the Unicorn shot a beam at his left side, missing completely. He looked over to see the spot it hit... one of the pillows. Pearl growled before she charged herself up again. This time, she knew that she wouldn't miss this time. She couldn't! And she won't this time. Pearl found herself stepping closer to the stallion. Making him sweat a bit.

"P-P-Please don't kill me! I'm sorry for sleeping with your marefriend!" The colt cried out. "I promise I won't do it again!" The poor young colt whimpered.

"LIES! ALL LIES!" The Unicorn yelled so loud, her voice began to crack. "You participated in the bucking! Don't lie to me!"

"Please! I-I-I didn't know!!" He shouted.

"You lie!" Pearl wailed, tears coming out of the corners of her eyes.

"I'm not!" The colt shook his head.

"Just shut up and die homewrecker!" Pearl said, her magic at it's highest level of power. Making the brightness increase tenfold, almost blinding the stallion. Cosmo soon got herself out of the wall hole she'd created. However, the repercussion had been dizziness and vertigo. Oh man, her entire cranium is throbbing like no other.

"P-Please! Think about this! I didn't mean to hurt your relationship!!" The stallion begged, shielding his eyes.

"You know what you did. I saw with my eyes, boy! I maybe a bit older than you but I am NO fool! I saw what I saw. Do not fool me, sir!" Pearl spat out. Her magic increasing every time she became angrier. Much more frustrated now.

"I-I'm sorry!" He cried, now teary eyed.

"LIAR!" Pearl shrieked again.

She didn't have any mercy for those who cheat, lie and steal. And this time, she wasn't going to listen. No, she never did. Meanwhile, Cosmo finally snapped out of her dizzy spells before gazing over to the scene. Eyes widening like dinner plates.

Then, Pearl Shimmers directed her horn towards the mystery colt, making the colt sweat much greater. Rambling on about his life and how she should spare him. But, she did not listen. Why would she listen to a foal like him? After for what he did to her relationship? Yeah, no.

For she released her electric magic straight at him. Cosmo watched a giant orb of magic rushing towards her lover. The colt gave a guttural scream before being engulfed in it's energy. Cosmo also screamed aloud as he died in front of her. The Pegasus had watched her coltfriend get vaporized by her ex-lover's powerful, yet angry magical spell. And she didn't do a damned thing to stop it! Pearl cackled maniacally, enjoying her sweet victory. Cosmo stood there. Staring at the black spot in where her once coltfriend was supposed to be. Unable to pick out the words to say. It was like this for a while, until Cosmo's face changed right from stone to absolute dread. Realizing the cold reality in front of her.

"DUKE BRISTLES NO!" Cosmo finally screamed out in agony. Tears in her eyes.

The Pegasus took a minute to slowly process all of this. This was all wrong. Duke wasn't supposed to be cremated like this. Pearlie wasn't supposed to find out like this at all. Pearlie was supposed to not be here today. She was supposed to be a little late than early, shopping even. Oh Celestia and Luna... Why didn't she just come home late? This was bad. She was hoping to escape and get away with her plan. Not this.

Cosmo would slowly gaze over at his killer. She could feel the blood boiling within. And all Cosmo could see was red in her own vision. She really wanted to kill that mare. So bad.

And she will.

She gave a growl before finding herself racing across the room, tackling the other. Using her hooves to hit and punch several times at Pearl's face. It wasn't regular Cosmo rage. It was pure wrath and hate, something that Pearl's never experienced before... The Unicorn crossed her two hooves in a X like shape to block all of the Pegasus' moves. However, Pearl didn't have the strength but her own magical abilities. Without hesitation, she magically encased the Pegasus into a small sphere of magic. Before slamming her straight across the room again. Cosmo hit the wall hard, coughed out some blood and passed out. Pearl Shimmers laid there in her spot for a full minute, before getting back onto all hooves. Trying to catch some of her own breath. Then Pearl looked around, figuring that she had a few minutes before Cosmo woke up.

Immediately, she teleported to the kitchen.

She started to frantically open all of the cupboards and drawers for something very sharp. Her magic and hooves ripped out several utensils, pots, spoons, forks all over the floors. Making a whole mess for one to clean up. "C'mon now! There must be some kind of sharp thing in here!" She hissed. After a few moments of necrotic searching, she finally found what she's looking for. Actually, two things. A knife and a hammer. Pearl Shimmers hid the hammer in her long pastel blue mane. Wanting to make sure that she had the hammer for sometime later. You know, just in case for emergencies. Meanwhile, she would have the knife in hoof for her own protection. Gripping it tight for comfort.

Then, she teleported herself to somewhere in the house to hide. What a coward.

Cosmo slowly awoke to blurry vision. She blinked a few times, only to look around the place she was in and groaned. She rubbed her head a little to ease the throbbing ache in her brain. Oh Celestia... this headache really hurts! The Pegasus rolled over to stand back onto her hooves, trying to keep her own balance. Once she balanced, she noticed something. Something very different about the place.

It was too quiet.

She did not like that at all. Not one bit.

Soon the Pegasus started to slowly trot herself around the area, ears up for any odd sounds. Looking for something or somepony at least. After many moments of looking, Cosmo found nopony in the house. She found it really suspicious how one mare could disappear! So, she kept her guard up in this case. She had to.

"PEARL! COME OUT NOW! I KNOW YOU'RE IN THIS HOUSE! COME OUT, YOU COWARD!" Cosmo called out.

Suddenly, Pearl Shimmers zapped right in front of the mare.

"Hello, darling!" Pearl greeted.

Within a flash, the Unicorn stabbed the Pegasus right in the neck with the knife. A little bit of blood spluttered over the floors. Cosmo gave a very delayed scream, feeling the waves of pain hit. Pearl turned the knife sideways, making the Pegasus scream again. The Unicorn pulled out the knife before watching more blood gush out.

In retaliation, Cosmo weakly gripped the knife tight as she could, then pulled it out of her. Only to try to swing it at her ex-lover's face. It's blade barely leaving a small, but deep cut on her right cheek. Then another swing, only this time it was at the chest. Pearl screamed out of raw pain and agony. Blood spilt out like milk from a carton. Out of rage, Pearl suddenly headbutted the mare, making her fall to the floor.

Pearl jumped onto Cosmo before pinning her down to the ground. Eventually the blade slid across the Pegasus' neck, allowing blood to spray all over the Unicorn's body and floors. Pearl didn't hesitate to slice her again and again. Cosmo could be heard gurgling and spasming underneath her captor. Hooves clawing at her neck wound frantically, tears in her own eyes. Almost begging for help or mercy in a hoarse voice. But, Pearl did not have such thing on the cheater.

The magical mare glared down at her ex-lover with hate.

"I bucking hate you.." She whispered.

Than began the most longest trampling of the hooves to have ever exist. Pearl stomped, stomped and stomped until the other's face was no longer recognizable. Identifiable. Pearl laughed and laughed as she did so. Watching all the squishy flesh/blood fly around and onto her chest. She used her magic to encase all of the legs and hooves, only to rip them apart from their sockets. Making the Pegasus violently twitch and struggle. Sickening sounds of tearing flesh could be heard. Cosmo twitched more and more out of response. Pearl soon had all four of her legs circling in the air a few times, teasing her now victim. Though, she could not see anymore.

Guess she didn't need a hammer for backup after all.

"Tsk, tsk. Too bad." Pearl stared down at the Pegasus. "You shouldn't have cheated on me, Cosmos." She sounded very condescending. "We could've been so good together, you know." Pearl shook her head. "...But you had to cheat on me." A sigh. "And here I thought I was going to spend time with you."

Pearl Shimmers took a few steps back, only to stare down at her for a while blankly.

After a while, Pearl lit up her horn for a bit before releasing another orb at the pile of flesh and bone. Completely disintegrating the corpse in one go. Thank Celestia she didn't have to bury Cosmo or her stupid coltfriend. Too much time, work and dirt.

With a sigh, Pearl Shimmers stood silently and sadly hung her head.

And time slowed.

Valentine, Valentine

Why did you do this to me?
You were supposed to be mine.
Why couldn't you be patient?
I thought you'd understand.
I wanted to make it up to you.

But you chose to do this to me.
Did you even love me from the start?
I don't think you ever did.
But I loved you.
Yes, I did.

Author's Note

A idea that came to mind for the Holiday/Lurve month.

Errrrr. Yeah. Sorry, for it being so damn short in story.

I can't. [Pearl's letter]

Today, my heart felt like it was ripped out and torn to shreds. Probably the worst experience to have in this life.

How could Cosmo go and do this to me? Why couldn't she come to me and just talk? We could've talked it over and worked things out. Like normal ponies in their relationship. Sure, I may have... overacted on my part and offed both of them. But what in Tartarus was Cosmo thinking of cheating on me? What was her issue?

Oh right. I wasn't paying attention to her for over two years now, -according to Little Miss Cosmo.

It angers me that she had the nerve to cheat on me. After all of the crap that I worked hard for us to get over the years. Stuff for us to live by on. The expensive house. The food. Some clothing accessories that I provide for her lazy flank. And she goes on to do this to me?! Who in their mind would think of doing such a thing?? Ugh. Goes to show her true colors. I didn't do anything wrong but not provide the attention to her. Keep in mind, I WORK MY ASS OFF. EVERYDAY. So that makes me tired half the time. You know, working on fashion orders for everypony to wear and show off. My exhaustion has been shown in my work and personal life. I hate working at the Boutique, but somepony's gotta pay the bills around here. Cosmo knew this too and still chose to cheat on me.

I KNOW I did the damned best I could for her. Pleasing her wasn't the easiest, ya know. Cosmo was never the 'gimmie' type or the asking for alot type. Neither did she give clues on what she liked either. So, I ended up blindly buying her tons and tons of garbage for her to wear and use. Which now, I don't think she really used anything I got her. My best guess is that she left all of it in a box or in her closet. Figures. But, since she's been gone now... I don't think any of my efforts or items matter anymore.

A long, but solemn sigh was let out.

She could've definitely had broken up with me if she felt different about our relationship. Tartarus, I would've accepted that instead. Sure, it'd hurt like a thousand stakes in the heart, but at least that's more honest.

I sat alone in my living room chair. Just thinking about so many things in my head.

One of my thoughts contained the thought of both Cosmo and her stupid little coltfriend. Trying to understand how they both met and where. Did I come into play with this? Was it my fault that the two met? Did they meet when I sent Cosmo out for groceries or other items? Did they meet at our house? Did Cosmo sneak out when I wasn't looking? So many questions. But wherever and when they met is beyond me. I'll never know the full truth from her and I don't think I'd want to know.

And here she really thought she'd get away with it too. How pathetic. Did Cosmo actually think she would get away? That I wouldn't find out? That I'm dumb for not seeing it? No, Cosmo's definitely wrong about that assumption. But I'm NOT dumb. I'm just naïve and oblivious, that's all. I really didn't know anything at all. And everypony knows that I was at work. She's the one who's dumb, not me.

A long, but exasperated sigh was let out from me.

Honestly, one thing that I wish I found out earlier is the affair. It's the one thing I regret not knowing. How could I have not known about this? Why didn't I just pick up on the signs like Cosmo hoped? Why couldn't I be much smarter than the average pony? Why?? I could've done so much differently from the irrational option chosen, -but only if I knew. You'd know what I'd do? I'd choose to leave in silence. Let them both be in peace while I go out and find myself again. Say 'buck it' and go. Then, I probably wouldn't have wasted my magic on both of the two (I'm telling you... wasting my magic on them took a huge toll on me).

But. I chose violence instead. That's what I did.

I'll admit... I was angrier than the average pony. But, wouldn't others do what I did if they found out their beloved was cheating on them? Maybe some would use violence, some wouldn't. Whatever the case was, I'd call it justice myself. However, you'd call it very anti-hero and selfish. Unfortunately, I do not care for the opinionated public. I still call it justice in the end.

I sighed before taking a framed picture off the desk. Just staring straight down at both Cosmo and I at the Winter Wrap Up two years ago. Warm tears hit the glass pane. I can't believe I almost wasted three years of my life with her. Three whole buckin' years. And here I sit thinking... Did she ever love me from the start? Did she?? No... I don't think she ever loved me. Not with her actions.

But I loved her though. So much...

However, I must've loved her a little too much. Probably another reason why she cheated on me. I probably smothered her too much with love and affection in the start.

Another sigh.

I wonder... Was it something I did that made her that way? Sure, the answer is lack of attention, but... was there a point in time where she just switched off from our relationship? Did I disgust her with some type of appearance or personality change? Something must've turned her off about me. It must've been that way for a long time before she threw in that 'lack of attention' detail. Maybe that little detail is a cover up for the big things at hand. Things that she never told me personally.

I thought about how I ended up gruesomely killing Cosmo and that colt in the end. How easy it was to vaporize the one called Duke Bristles and watch the horror play out on his candy-eyed face. Even watching my ex-lover react in terror made me ultimately satisfied. It was one of the things I've enjoyed seeing. It was one of those times where I felt extreme joy. Like a part of me wanted this to happen.

I swear, it wasn't supposed to go down like that. Really, it wasn't. It was supposed to be a day of spending time with one another. Snuggling, loving, affection in the airs. The mushy gushy stuff. I really hoped for us to rekindle our love since I've noticed how distant we've become with one another. I truly, truly did have that little hope left. But, fate also seems to have something different in store for all of us.

One thing I honestly didn't expect to make- was the choice of acting violent and gruesome towards my ex-lover. I didn't want to, but I chose to. And the damage has been done. I officially have blood on my own hooves. Something that I never wanted in the first place. But it's on my life record.

I was guilty of everything before me. And I knew it deep down.

Suddenly, I'd slam down the picture onto the floor. Completely splitting the entire wooden frame in two.

And I screamed.

I think one sign I can pick up in hindsight now, was the fact she'd come home sometimes so... stone-faced. Cold hearted. Often distant than not.

During those times, I'd figured she had something on mind that she didn't want to expose. I never really questioned it because I was afraid of interfering or having her snapping at me. So, I always brushed it off as a "Cosmo problem", trying to come up with an excuse. Like maybe her sleep schedules where changing/shifting at a rate I didn't understand. Or if she's being moody from her days being all screwy. I always seem to dismiss it as a phase or something else. Whatever it was, it was none of the things I thought before.

Now looking back on it, I should've questioned her. Yeah, I should've done that instead. But, she'd deny everything and tell me something that I would've wanted to hear. I would've either done two things: read her, play her little game before I completely catch her in her act and finally leave without warning. OR I would've fell for her antics completely like a foal. Either options would've played out.

But it doesn't matter now.

What matters is that I killed two ponies without any second thought or emotion. That I have actual blood on my own hooves. And I sit here, deeply thinking about this problem. Then I think about Cosmo and all of the great times I've had with her. All of the times she pulled me up from darker places. Oh Celestia and Luna... Why did I kill her so suddenly? Why couldn't I just calm down and talk to her?? Why couldn't I be the one to reveal the mystery from the both of them? Why can't I be normal on these things?!

I'll tell you. It's because my head doesn't think first before acting. I just do whatever my heart tells me. I can't help it really.

Soon I felt sharp pains in my chest forming. And I wondered here. Was this... guilt? Was this remorse or shame? Whatever it was... it was eating me alive. And I didn't want that on my mind all the time. And here, I thought killing my ex-lover and replacement would actually make me happier. But I guess it didn't. In fact, all of this made me even more depressed. Didn't bother to speak, so I lowered my head in shame again.

...
...

Finally, I grasped onto reality that I'd killed my only best friend, my lover, my soon to be wife. It was not easy to unfold, but the raw truth could not be hidden.

It wouldn't hurt to admit it once in a while. So, here I go.

...I killed Cosmo and Duke Bristles.

And I'm sorry.

I can't do this.

I really can't.

Knowing that I'll just alone for the rest of my life without her. If I lived on, nothing would be the same. So what's the use? I know I wouldn't be of use, despite my old ass. Wiping my tears, I trotted around the house to find some paper, a quill and an envelope.

Once I found some in my personal room, I came back out to the living room. Soon, I started to frantically scribble on the paper.

Dear Whoever Finds This Letter,

My name is Pearl Shimmers. And as you read this letter, I'm already dead by suicide. There is no need to panic nor the need to help me out. For I wanted this myself.

The reason why I killed myself is that I cannot go on without the one I love... Cosmo. She's one of the rare ponies who lifted me up when I was in a bad place. Showed me different things and places I never knew existed. She was like my own guardian angel.

Unfortunately in these times, I found that she's been cheating on me with a colt named Duke Bristles for over a whole year. A wealthy stallion known for his name in the town of Canterlot. I believed that he also sold fashion design or something more simplistic there. Whatever he did is out of the equation to me. But, whatever business Cosmo had... My guess was that she's been chasing him for his money and or business. Or maybe, she really did love him. Whatever it was, I don't care. All I know is that Cosmo is a buckin' cheater.

If you're curious and want to search for both of them... tough luck. I already took care of them myself.

Another reason why I took care of myself is because I couldn't live in this world alone, destined to be without a beloved. I know it sounds dramatic, but it's the truth. Plus, I don't want to be on the run forever. And I'm not living on with this aching feeling for the rest of my days. If I did, the guilt would eat me alive. Soon after, I'd die of a broken and guilty heart.

So I've killed myself here to end this façade. To end the pain.

I expect none of you mares or stallions to remember neither Cosmo or I. Both of us were terrible ponies. Trust me when I state this. We truly were. When growing up, I had met Cosmo in my early foalhood, became friends with her and joined forces to take down everypony we deemed ugly, unworthy or not on our type of level. We'd literally beat up other fillies and colts just because we wanted to. Mostly angry all of the time. Moving on, over the years- we began to fall for each other around the ages of seventeen and early eighteen, -stuck together for a long time until we were older (But in our adult years, we did not get together in a relationship until the age 20). During these times, we had calmed down over the years. Became adults and settled in.

After turning twenty years old, we begun to grow bored and very irritated with the pony population. I was sick of it. She was sick of it. And we both knew that. One of the reasons why we moved out and lived in the far outskirts of Ponyville away from everypony. So we'd have barely any contact with equines like us. And to 'never see any of their ugly faces' again. But unfortunately, living far away ...meant walking all the way over to Ponyville. Just to get a job and other necessities to obtain. But I didn't mind the work and shopping myself.

What I'm trying to say is, I'm not a good person just because I work at some second rate shop (or peacefully shop) in Ponyville.

Whatever changed us down the line (in our relationship), it made our 'love' shatter within seconds. It's unfortunate that it had to end this way. Three years of my life gone down the drain. I still cannot believe I've wasted those three years on somepony like Cosmo (Well, my entire life wasted). Meeting her was the worse mistake of my life.

I hope to Celestia and Luna that I be reincarnated into another body so I can live another life of peace.

In all honesty, nopony knew that these events would happen. Not even me. Foremost, I still blame myself for whatever things I did to Cosmo. Despite what I stated earlier. If I did something to her that made her change her mind or disgust her, well I'm very sorry about everything I did. I truly am. I'm sorry you felt like you needed to continue on with me in a relationship too. You didn't have to feel that. I also do apologize to Cosmo for never truly showing her attention these past two years in the relationship. I should've done better and known better. I would've taken back everything and tried to heal us.

If my parents find this, I'm sorry I've disappointed you so much. I'm sorry you wanted me to do something different than the fashion career. I'm sorry I'm not that type of daughter that you wanted. You guys expected so much great things from me. And I failed to fulfil that destiny. I'm so sorry, Mom and Dad.

And one more thing to Cosmo the cheater... I regret all of the emotional and mentally messed up things I did to you. But I do not regret killing you for cheating on me.

Oh and, just a friendly reminder, Miss Cosmo and that lovely stallion--

If y'all think that you're safe now... well, think again. I'm coming after you, even in death's realm. No Purgatory, Tartarus or even the Afterlife could save your flank from my fury. So, prepare thyself for thine punishment. It's redemption time.

This shall be my eternal gift to you, darling. See you, Miss Cosmo. ;)

Goodbye everypony. We'll meet again someday.

-XOXOXO, Pearl Shimmers. P.S.: Please don't throw me a funeral or anything in my name. I want to be left behind.

I finally folded the letter with the help of my magic. Then I placed the letter onto the table in front of me.

I knew what must be done. And the thought of it made me sick. But I couldn't complain about it. For I must do it out of honor. After all, I said that I'd do it myself due to guilt.

Soon my hooves trudged on over to what was once Cosmo's room. My magic unlocking the door, only to walk inside to grab one thing. A mirror. One thing I knew is that Cosmo loved her mirrors. She was so vain sometimes. I shook my head before magically lifting the mirror and exited the room. I walked myself into to the kitchen. Then I placed it in front of one of the counters.

I sat far in front of the mirror.

I was ready. I was going to do this. I had to. I wanted to.

No... I needed to.

Suddenly, I stopped and stared directly at my reflection. I made sure that I stared long enough into it. Soon, I began to give thoughts. Once I did, two sides of me formed. Making me feel torn. One side told me not to go through with it. The other told me to do it and I wasn't needed here anymore. To be honest, it's hard to agree with the lighter choice. The other side is right. I am not needed here anymore. Nopony here is going to remember me anyways. Everypony will just move on and forget me. Like life does itself.

So, I positioned myself in an attack position. Slowly but surely, my horn's magic began to charge. At first, I could see the little spark firing up a few times, causing greater ones in return. Overtime, all the sparks began to gather together. Soon forming into a HUGE ball of energy above my horn. If I calculated correctly, it's been over a few minutes of this. Which should be enough time.

But then, I stopped right there and I thought... Am I about to really do this? Do I want to meet the afterlife right now? I blankly stared at the ground for a few moments. Deciding on when to do this. I stood for a long, long, loooong while. Thinking about this big decision.

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...

I must've stood for about a few hours now because when I looked at the clock, it was early in the morning. Now, it's in the late afternoon. Long forgetting my goal until I finally snapped out of my daze. Remembering that I didn't want to live without Cosmo.

That's when the tiny voice in my mind told me it was time.

So, I figured.

Finally, I released that ball of energy towards the mirror. Now watching it bounce off the mirror's glass and ricochet across the room a few times. My eyes followed the orb itself. It zapping around was pretty entertaining for a few seconds... I even laughed when it destroyed a few things of Cosmo's. Preferably pictures and some stupid shrine thing.

But then, I noticed the last bounce. That bounce made it suddenly hurl straight towards me.

Goodbye forever.

Author's Note

A few things I wanted to clear up here: Pearl and Cosmo have known each other since they were fillies. Didn't fall in love until their late adolescence years, but where TOO SCARED to form a relationship until they turned twenty. Since then they've been together about three years (since they actually met on Hearts & Hooves Day). This means Cosmo is 21 (turning 22), while Pearl is 22 (turning 23).

Yes, they are one year part. The "old" stuff is mainly an inside joke between the two.

An empty house. (epilogue)

February 15th.

Cherry nervously stood a few feet in front of the house's entrance. Pondering on the thought of going over, knocking on the door and bothering her. Would she be doing such a thing?

No!

Today's the day she and Cosmo where supposed to have a small knit party! Make a pair gloves and a scarf kinda deal. Then, she wanted to head out to the market. Why? Because both her and Cosmo need some food for the next month. It's a simple and mundane task to do, but it's worth the experience. Hopefully, she'll ask after their little party. A small sigh escaped the Earth mare, then she gave a glare at the ground. Unsure if she wanted to go inside and get her friend. It didn't seem right at this time. But, something itched at the back of her mind.

Do it.

Do it or you'll regret it.

Cherry sighed. Alright, don't be so pushy. Without hesitation, she trotted to the entrance before knocking on the door. "Hello?" She called out in her sweet voice, now waiting. Still no answer.

Very odd.

Cherry knocked once more, this time a bit heavier. Hoping that she'd get one this time. Hopefully.

Again... no answer.

Okay...

She gave a small sigh. "Hello? Cosmo? Pearlie? Anypony home at this hour?" She called out. "I brought hand picked cherries! I know you wanted some cherries! So, here's some for ya pie!" A small giggle before shaking the basket of cherries. "Totally fresh from the tree too!" A nod at that. But, her smile soon disappeared at the silence. Then a small unsettling feeling washed over her, making her swallow the lump in her throat.

Question. Why isn't anypony answering? She thought while her eyes darted around frantically. Okay, if nopony's going to answer... then...

"Cosmo, if you're in the back tending to the garden again... I'm gonna come in!" The rose pink pony announced. Finally, she pulled the door wide open... -only met with dead silence. Shivers travel down the mare's spine. This... She didn't like this...

Acting very cautious, the mare peeked her head inside a little and looked. But, there's no sight of the two anywhere. Usually, Cherry would come inside to see either Pearl cooking or Cosmo watching a movie. Either option was the case. But here? It wasn't. Within the home, it felt so warm and inviting. It always felt like a genuine home. Like a place that she'd come to over and over to, never get tired of it. It's better than the small but uncomfortable home of hers back at home.

But, this time... it felt so... different. It's like... somepony turned the heater all the way down. This time, her maroon mane and tail stood up like dog's. She did not enjoy this odd feeling. But...

One more time.

"...Cosmo? ...Pearl Shimmers?" Another call. This time it sounded very meek and child-like. Like before... no answer.

A sigh.

She walked around the living room, then the small sized backyard. Nope. Normally, she'd see Pearl with Cosmo, probably going off on the Pegasus about how her garden looks like horse manure. Yeah, classic. But, nopony's present this time. Weird! Why isn't one of them here? One of them has to be here. Atleast, that's how Cherry saw it. Maraschino gave a frustrated huff before she trotted back in the house. Right into the living room.

Her emerald orbs gave a sharp glance at the floor. She never got to see fully how bad the place was.

Cherry's eyes looked around for anything that might be stolen. After a few moments, Cherry concluded that it wasn't the case. Not in here. Not with the environment of few broken knickknacks and broken glass scattered everywhere. Something else went down here other than a robbery. It seemed like a fight of some sorts. With no time wasted, Cherry ran up the stairs. She wanted to see if the upper bedroom had anything to say.

When entered, she gave a small blink.

Whoa. Cherry gave notice of a gigantic mess all around the place. Blankets scattered into the corner, one pillow with a black hole in it, a huge whole in the plaster wall. And one broken lamp. What the Tartarus happened here? Another confused blink. Soon, she'd look more around, mostly at the ground for any damage. Yeah, there was. It's inches away from the bedframe. Cherry went over and leaned over to sniff it. Coming to the conclusion that it's that weird magical leftover after smell. You know, magical soot or something. But somepony used magic, preferably a Unicorn. Preferably... Pearl...

Slowly, but surely, the pink pony lifted up her head and stared blankly. And realized something off the bat.

Somepony had died here.

This does not sit well. It actually gave her an icky feeling. So, she needed to get the hay out of there! Sitting here in a room where a certain pony died isn't a good feeling. Death's totally not her strong suit. Soon, the mare trotted downstairs, heading down to the kitchen. The only place she hadn't looked in.

When she made her way in, Cherry seized walking. Staring at the sight of a mirror laying in front of the kitchen counter. Oh? What on Equestria is a mirror doing in their kitchen? Did Cosmo bring it here to look at herself again? Or did Pearl need it for some weird art project? Whatever it was... It was here. And it seemed to be used for something. Right?

Cherry whipped her head over, spotting a letter neatly placed onto the kitchen table. Cherry blinked, surprised. A letter? Huh? The pink mare got closer to see who wrote it. She didn't find anypony's name on it.

Suddenly, the mare gulped, feeling the painful lump in her throat swallow down. A feeling of dread washed over her head. The letter- she thought to herself. Cherry Diamond didn't want to read it... but she felt like it's the only thing that'd answer everything. She had to read it, she had no choice but to. Finally, she snagged the letter off the table. With a nervous sigh, she began to open it slowly. Her heart began to beat faster and faster...

And she read.

April 15th.

Cherry wailed, clutching a picture of Cosmo and Pearl both together. She sniffled a little, wiping her face away before her mascara smeared all over. Damn mascara. Cherry laid there, wondering how everything went all wrong. How did this all come to be? Why did it happen? When did it even start? A lot of those questions made her head pound like a drum. After a few moments, she calmed herself down. Though, aloofness seemed to wash over her. Green orbs stare intensely down at the picture for a few seconds. If her eyes where lasers, they'd burn holes through this thing. Cherry didn't move a single muscle. Rather she kept on staring for a long, long time. Just... seeing the picture for all of it's little details.

One thing that she's noticed... How the picture indicated happiness, warmth and how carefree they've been. No worries, no stress, no issues or problems to solve. Nothing. It was only because they where younger back then in the photo. At least, she saw it that way. But one question came to mind the most... Why? Why did Cosmo go and cheat on Pearl Shimmers? The both of them seemed to have a perfect life and relationship, so why'd Cosmo cheat? Was Cosmo not in love with Pearl anymore? Was she bored of her? What was the issue?

She didn't know.

Cherry gave a long sigh, rolled off the bed and trotted out to the kitchen. As she did, that question resurfaced to her mind. Why cheat on a good looking mare like Pearl Shimmers? Because, in her opinion, the mare thought that she's pretty attractive. Plus, she's an excellent cook, knows how to call shots, assertive, creative and a very fun pony. AND her company's the one thing that Cherry looks forward to when visiting. It made Cherry Diamond warm and oddly fuzzy inside. So, why cheat on somepony like her? Why? Boredom, probably. That's what Cherry's been observing about them two lately. How her best friend, Cosmo, grow distant from Pearl. Barely talking to each other or loving upon each other. It's like they became just roommates or something. For Cosmo? It was very suspicious behavior.

The mare gave a long, but sorrowful sigh.

Oh, Pearl.

Tears poured down the corners of her eyes. Cherry turned on the opposite side and sobbed for a few moments. Soon, she slowed down and paused. Having a single thought come to mind. One thought that she couldn't shake off completely. One that was completely hers and hers alone...

'I can't do this. I really can't.'

With a sigh, she closed her eyes and thought. After, it came back again. A single shiver ran down her spine. And Cherry didn't like the idea, but she must do it... No, she had the urge to do it.

For Pearl. For Cosmo.

Soon Cherry Diamond Maraschino began her search around the place for a quill and paper.

CHERRY DIAMOND: A PITIFUL DEATH

On April 16th. Ponyville's most loyal officer, Sunburst, found body of lovable Cherry Diamond Maraschino in the home of Cosmo and Pearl Shimmers, --who've been missing for over two months since Hearts & Hooves day.

One resident, Ms. Buttons of the Button Boutique, reported the disappearance of Pearl Shimmers after Hearts & Hooves Day immediately. After realizing her protégé wasn't coming to work on time as usual. "I was worried about her, so I reported her missing and all!" She says. "I wasn't sure if my protégé was coming back or not!! I hope somepony finds her soon!"

Since missing, many residents claim to have heard shouting and screaming on the outskirts of town. "I just thought they where going through the motions! You know, couple stuff! Plus, that's a couple that DOESN'T want to be bothered 24/7." Says a resident. In the meanwhile, five to ten reports of the mysterious screaming and shouting came in -according to the officers. But nopony or officer went to check up on the couple that day.

However, last night many neighbors report strange cries from the small cottage house. Finally, after many complaints, officers searched the premises this morning and found the body of Cherry Diamond. Who, the officers have deemed that she'd uncomfortably offed herself for unknown reasons. Though, we believe that the officers responsible are withholding a bit more information on that. Officers state that Cherry Diamond must've had some mental or background issues that could've caused her last moments.

For Ms. Shimmers and Cosmo, officers and detectives have claimed on Pearl/Cosmo's death that this must've been an altercation that solely lead itself into magical murder-suicide. There's no indications of Pearl or Cosmo's bodies anywhere in the home. Just black dust or magical soot spots left behind. It's also been reported that a letter and a mirror was left behind to support the story. The letter mostly contained some heavy evidence on the real story/scene too as well. This allowed the officers to conclude Pearl was the culprit. And Officers had deemed Pearl as a flight risk. "We aren't sure what caused all of this. But, some residents claim to have felt energy like no other Unicorn. It's a very dangerous energy that could kill a single pony. So, we're very glad that she's gone." Officer says. "I've never encountered such brutality in all of my life. Making this murder-suicide case the most brutal that we've had this year!" Detective Brainiac states.

Yes, quite brutal indeed. Why, this is the third murder-suicide that Equestria had this year! For anypony knows that these types of cases have been reported all over Equestria's lands these past two years. Nopony knows who and why these cases are popping up. It's quite odd! In other cases, we hope to find the culprit on these strange and odd cases. Is it magic? Or is it a villain? We do not know, but we will find it out!

As for Pearl, Cosmo and Cherry... well, it's been a very pitiful death for all of them. May you all rest in peace in the beautiful Afterlife. We will have a burial for all three of you to pay our respects. Goodbye, friends.