The Slash Of Truth: The Whispers From Under The Bed

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16:26pm.

Coalstone Village.

Dear Dad.

Hi Dad. I hope you don’t mind if I write in your diary, I have been visiting your grave once a month but, when I talk, I feel like you’re not listening so, I have been lonely when I speak to you. I hope you are reading this where ever you are.

Me and Mom miss you, the village residence misses you too. It’s been dull and lonely without you here, I’ve forgotten what you sound like after all these years without you. I kinda miss all the fights we have as bad as that sounds.

Mom hasn’t been the same without you. She looks lost, and drained, not her childish self anymore. The day you died was the day she left a piece of herself to you. She’s trying to be strong, and more responsible as she has gone back to school but, she has been drinking and crying herself to sleep with all the stress piling up on her. It scares me how much she has changed. Mom is doing fine though. She is working a part-time job in the same bar in the village, the manager was happy to bring her back.

Clutch and Dime finally got their youngest son back — Feather Flit. Turns out, he was taken for ransom by a gang of Humans. Clutch and Dime gave them what they wanted, they didn’t want another Fenton on their hands so, they played it safe. Thankfully, the gang was subdued and the money was given back but, after Fenton’s death, the two had retired early and lived off the money they had, happy to just have Feather with them.

As for Sweetpea, I’ve seen her a few times walking out of therapy right after I walk in. We don’t speak, we barely look at each other. I feel sorry for her but, how can I comfort someone that kill you? I know it’s not her fault but, I can’t help but blame her. I want to blame her because, if I don’t, I’ll only just blame myself. In a way, I still do.

Anyway, enough of me being moody. Your 2-year-old son is doing okay. Arctic Jr. I’ve tried my best to help Mom out by looking after him, feeding him, and changing his diaper. It’s funny how fast I have grown attached to him, I think I was hooked the moment I look at his eyes. He has grey eyes, just like you. I wish you were here to see him, he’s so adorable but, he can be a cheeky boy. You should hear his laugh.

Another good thing I forgot to mention was the fact that all the ghosts had gone into the afterlife. Their finished business was done thanks to you. You ended their suffering and now they can lay to rest.

I listen to you when you told me to follow my dreams years ago. Well, I did and now I’m a graphic designer for a fashion company. I know I said I wanted to be an artist but, being a graphic designer is the next big thing for me. Besides, it’s good pay and I’m happy there, I’ve made good friends and I think I’m falling for one of them. His name is Render, a pegasus that got the job the same day I was hired so, we’ve practically done everything ever since. He might be the one, I don’t know yet but, only time will tell I guess.

I need to get some things off my chest. I never really did say sorry for making your life miserable, it’s been eating at me ever since you passed away. I don’t know where to start, I’m sorry for not giving you the proper chance of being a father, when I heard that you weren't my real dad, I didn’t know how to feel, I guess I just needed an outlet for my anger and you were the one that got it all. I’m sorry for giving you a hard time, even when I needed you the most, I kept pushing and pushing and pushing you away, it wasn’t fair of me when all you wanted was to help me. I’m sorry for all the cruel words I said to you. I wish I take it all back, I wish you could forgive me for everything.

But, you weren't perfect yourself. We were constantly on the move, you didn’t give me a chance to live properly. So many friends I had left behind and many I barely remember but, I forgive you. You were too protective of me, forcing me to take karate lessons while on the move when I didn’t want to, you never did let me drink liquor even when I was 19. But, after everything that happened, I’m happy you did. I’ve been drinking too much lately, maybe I could cut it down a bit. Anyways, I forgive you.

Lastly, I want to thank you for giving me and my mom a better life from the very start, I want to thank you for not giving up on me and my mom, I want to thank you for being a good dad and I want to thank you for saving me that day.

You're my hero, Dad.

Love you.

~Cherry.

I love you more.

~Arctic