Bad Memories

by TheKing2001

Rating: mature
Tags: Equestria Girls, Suicide / Self Harm, Profanity, Derpy Hooves, Slice of Life, Wallflower Blush, Daisy, Drama, Marble Pie, Sad, Roseluck
Length: 3581

Wallflower tells Roseluck and Derpy about her past.

After school, Wallflower opens up to Rose and Derpy about her past and what she did. They surprise her with their response and actions.

Takes place, like four months after Forgotten Friendship or some shit. Part of the timeline of Berry's Sunset, just in the future.

Published 2023-04-05 22:20:01 UTC
Last updated 2023-04-05 22:20:01 UTC

Chapter I

"You erased our memories?" Roseluck repeated in disbelief.

Wallflower stared down at the steps she was sitting on with Roseluck and Derpy. She slowly nodded as she still stared down at the ground.

"But why?" Roseluck asked. "What did we ever do to you?"

Wallflower finally looked up and stared at their faces.

"You two did nothing. I had that stone for about a year. Awkward hellos? Erase it. Any public speaking? Erase it. Fall down in front of everyone at lunch? Erase it. Give the wrong answer in class and look like a fool? Erase it!" She shifted her focus to her shoes and idly moved them. Roseluck faintly frowned as she processed this information.

"But that still doesn't tell me what we did." She finally spoke.

"Sophomore year." Wallflower stated. Roseluck tilted her head and gave her a confused look.

"I'm sorry, I don't follow." She said after a minute of silence.

"Sophomore year, I tripped on my boots laces and spilled my lunch all over you. You were covered in chocolate milk and spaghetti. The entire cafeteria laughed at us, mainly you because no one ever notices me. You looked like you hated me, so I wanted you to forget that ever happened." Wallflower mumbled.

Roseluck stared at her, processing while Wallflower shifted her attention to Derpy who waited patiently. Wallflower inhaled and let out a sigh.

"Freshman year. I accidentally knocked you into the pond at the park while you were feeding ducks. I fell off the swing and rolled down the hill and couldn't stop in time. I tried to warn you, but like I told Roseluck, no one notices me. By the time I had got to you, it was too late and I had too much momentum. You fell all the way in and by the time you got to shore, you looked like you wanted to murder someone. Specifically me, but you didn't notice me sitting in the grass in front of you out of breath. Not only did I ruin your day, but I ruined your favorite shirt. I didn't want you to remember that really bad experience so I erased it." Wallflower said softly. Derpy gave a thoughtful frown and Wallflower looked away.

She stared off in the distance at the setting sun and closed her eyes.

"I'm an awful person. I stole stuff from you I never should have taken. I'm so ashamed." She sighed, leaning back. Roseluck and Derpy looked to each other before sighing and nodding. They hugged her from both sides as her eyes shot open at the sudden contact.

"Um, what are you two doing?" She nervously asked.

Roseluck rolled her eyes.

"Hugging you, duh." she said. Wallflower glared at her and shoved them off her.

"But why?" She demanded. "You should be mad and angry at me. Hitting me, screaming that you never want to see me again and end our friendship. Not hug me!"

"Why on earth would we do that?" Derpy questioned. "A shirt is just a item. A friend is way more important than a shirt. Plus I have another one just like that one back home." She sheepishly rubbed the back of her head.

Roseluck nodded.

"I wasn't mad at you. Sure, a bit frustrated at first because being covered in chocolate milk and spaghetti is annoying but it wasn't on purpose. I definitely didn't hate you for it. It was an accident, not intentional." She said, leaning back against the step behind her. "And we definitely won't end our friendship with you over it."

Derpy nodded her agreement.

"That'd be stupid of us to do." She agreed. "You're a nice person."

Wallflower kicked a small pebble and watched it go flying.

"I wasn't a nice person then. Nobody will forgive me like they did with Sunset." Wallflower mumbled. Roseluck frowned at that.

"Nobody else knows. Only us, and the Rainbooms obviously but that's because they were there. Think about what Sunset had to build herself up from. Think about how she had to make a better name for herself after ruling the school with an iron fist. Compared to that, this will be easy. Especially since you have us." Roseluck pointed out.

"I don't know Roseluck. I don't deserve it." Wallflower sighed.

"First off, don't call me Roseluck. Call me Rose, all my friends do. Secondly, you do deserve it because you seem sorry. You wouldn't be sorry if you didn't actually want forgiveness." Rose stated.

"I guess you're right." Wallflower grumbled.

Rose laid a hand on her shoulder and Wallflower flinched slightly. Rose raised an eyebrow at the reaction but didn't question it.

"I know I'm right. What are you doing later. Derpy?" Rose glanced at the other girl who shrugged.

"Nothing planned for today or tomorrow." The grey girl answered. Rose focused back on Wallflower.

"And what about you, Wallflower? Any plans?" She questioned.

"I don't know. I just stay in my room these days." Wallflower hesitantly lied. She really didn't want the two girls to know about her actual living situation. Rose slightly narrowed her eyes.

"Well, we can have a sleep over at my house tonight. We can watch movies, eat popcorn and drink all the pop in the world." Rose smiled. Derpy clapped her hands together.

"I'm down." She glanced to Wallflower. "Will you come? Please, it'll be fun I promise."

"I- I don't know. I wouldn't fit in I don't think." Wallflower mumbled. Rose rolled her eyes and hugged her again. She felt Wallflower tense up again and she quickly let go. Wallflower stared down at her shoes for a few moments and Rose was getting ready to accept that the silence was Wallflower rejecting their offer.

"I'll give it a shot. Sunset did say to branch out and remake myself." Wallflower said softly. Rose grinned at her and jumped up and extended her hand. Wallflower hesitantly reached up and took it, being pulled up by Rose.

Derpy placed the controller down grinning at a pouting Roseluck's face.

"Told you I'm the champ at Mario Kart." She teasingly gloated. Roseluck reached into a nearby bowl of popcorn and threw a kernel at Derpy and it got stuck in her hair. Wallflower watched shyly as she sat cross legged on the bed as Daisy brushed her hair. Lily sat against the wall reading a gardening magazine.

"Do you want me to do your makeup, too Wally?" Daisy asked as she set down the hair brush. Wallflower shrugged.

"I've never been into makeup nor confident enough. Never really saw a purpose for it." She mumbled. Daisy beamed at her and reached for her makeup bag.

"Shouldn't you do that tomorrow? It's two am, we're going to bed soon." Lily pointed out as she flipped a page of her magazine. "Why waste the makeup when she has to take it off before bed?"

Daisy sighed and rolled her eyes.

"Fine." She conceded. "We can do it tomorrow morning and we will make you feel spectacular." She clapped her hands together. "If you want of course." She hastily added.

Wallflower slowly nodded.

"We can try, I suppose. Nothing over the top though. I don't want you wasting money or time on me." She stated.stayed.

Rose stared at her sternly.

"Wallflower..." She said in a stern tone. "We've talked about this. No self deprecation, you're an amazing person."

Wallflower sighed and nodded.

"I'm sorry." She mumbled. Rose shot up and hugged her, knocking Daisy on her back.

"Don't apologize. You have nothing to apologize for. It's part of the process is accepting good things come to you." Rose reassured her.

Daisy and Lily looked at each other with raised eyebrows and confused expressions.

"What exactly are we talking about?" Lily asked confused. "Why is she always sorry?"

"No reason. Just part of her personality." Derpy quickly piped in, earning her a grateful look from Wallflower. Rose released her and rubbed the back of her head.

"Okay then." Lily muttered. "I'm gonna go sleep now. It's late." She stood up and stretched. Daisy nodded her agreement and yawned.

"Me too, I'm exhausted. I've been busy in my garden all day." She sighed dejectedly. "My sunflowers aren't doing well." She slid off the bed and into her sleeping bag on the floor with surprising ease.

"That was actually pretty impressive." Rose mumbled. She looked at Derpy and pointed a finger. "Tomorrow, me and you, Mario Kart rematch. Victory will be mine."

Derpy grinned.

"You're on. Hope you have tissues." She teased. Wallflower raised an eyebrow at the two.

"This is something I'd expect from Rainbow Dash and Applejack." She said softly.

Daisy gave a snort.

"They're always like this. They aren't really that competitive, they just enjoy acting like it. Rainbow Dash is the most arrogant person I think I've ever met." She explained. Wallflower nodded as she laid on the floor, using her backpack as a pillow. Daisy raised an eyebrow at her.

"Aren't you gonna use a sleeping bag? It gets cold in here." She said.

Wallflower looked around shyly.

"I uh don't have one." She muttered.

Rose rolled her eyes.

"Why didn't you ask for one? We have plenty." Rose demanded.

Wallflower pulled her legs up to her chest.

"I didn't want to be a burden. Don't give me one, I'll be fine with my backpack pillow." Wallflower sighed.

"Absolutely not. Like Daisy said, it gets cold in here. You are taking a sleeping bag and you are gonna love it." Rose said firmly. Wallflower gazed at her dejectedly.

"You're not gonna give this up, are you?" Wallflower questioned.

Rose shook her head sternly.

"No. No, I'm not." She agreed as she got up and walked to her closet. She finally found a sleeping and tossed it to Wallflower, who nervously accepted it and slid in. She got hit in the face by a pillow and heard nervous chuckling.

"Sorry, thought you saw it coming." Lily apologized from the doorway. Wallflower nodded.

"It's okay." Wallflower mumbled. Lily gestured for Rose to come closer and she leaned to her sister's ear.

"She's a quiet one." Lily whispered. "Reminds me of Fluttershy."

Rose nodded.

"Give her time, she'll come out of her shell." Rose whispered back. Lily gave her a unconvinced smile.

"If you say so." She said softly. "Sleep well, you four. It's very nice to meet you, Wallflower. Hope to see you around more often." She shut the door and headed to her own room. Rose turned to Derpy and smirked when she saw the girl was already asleep.

"Muffins. Blueberry, chocolate, banana nut." Derpy mumbled, drool coming out her mouth as she rolled over and brought a stuffed muffin plush closer to her. Rose, Daisy and Wallflower gave a soft snicker.

"That girl and her muffins." Wallflower smirked. Rose gave another quiet laugh.

"I know right? She loves those things." Rose said as she slid into her bed and closed her eyes. "Goodnight you guys."

A choruses of goodnights rang out and she identified Wallflowers soft voice, Daisy's and a sleeping Derpy saying it in her sleep. She smiled and rolled her eyes at that.

"You're nothing like me, I'm not lonely because I have...plants."

"How am I supposed to get back at you when nothing I do matters?"

"I hate you!"

Wallflower sat up with a start in her sleeping bag, panting softly and rubbed her eyes. She looked at the clock and read the number: 5:34 illuminated a small corner of the room in green lights and she gave a soft groan. She could barely make out the sleeping form of Rose and Daisy. She heard Derpy's soft snoring next to her.

She slowly slid out of her sleeping back Rose loaned her and quietly stepped over Derpy's sleeping form. She picked up her backpack she had in the corner and eased the door open. She froze when she heard Rose shifting in the bed. She gave a sigh of relief when she heard nothing else and slipped out into the bathroom. She felt around her bag till she found what she was looking for and pulled out a razor blade.

She sat down on the edge of the shower and pulled her pajamas shirt sleeve up. She gazed down at the old cut marks and pressed the razor on her wrist and pulled it back. She hissed softly as the blood started to bead on the cut. She pressed down again and pulled it back harder. She didn't realize how much time passed till both wrists were dripping blood. She groaned in pain and felt her head getting light and fell forward off the edge of the shower. Her head slammed on the edge of the toilet and she passed out.

A bleary eyed Rose opened the bathroom door, rubbing her eyes.

"Wallflower?" She mumbled. Her eyes widened at the sight in front of her. She quickly knelt down next to Wallflower and started to shake her. "Wallflower!" She glanced to the opened bathroom door.

"Lily! Daisy! Call an ambulance." She shouted. "Derpy, wake up!" Daisy stumbled into the bathroom, rubbing her eyes.

"Do you have any idea what fricking time it is?" She grumbled.

"No time for that now. Call nine one one." Rose demanded. Daisy quit rubbing her eyes and stared before hastily nodding.

"On it!" She rushed to her room and fumbled with her phone before dialing the number. Lily slammed her head into the door before stumbling in the room.

"What the fuck is going on? Why are we screaming at almost six in the morning?" She demanded.

"You should check the bathroom, Lily." Daisy snapped as she held the phone to her ear. Lily rolled her eyes and walked to the bathroom.

"It can't be that bad- holy shit." She stammered.

"The ambulance is on its way, five minutes out they said." Daisy announced nervously. "Is she breathing?" Rose nodded.

"She's still bleeding a fair amount. We should stop the bleeding, get me a towel or something." She ordered. "Hang on Wally, help is on the way." Daisy tossed her a towel and she started wrapping it around Wallflowers arms. "But yes, she is breathing. Faint but it's there."

"The paramedics are here." Derpy announced as she stared down at the scene in front of her. "Jesus Christ."

"Wow, five minutes really flies by when serious shit is happening." Lily muttered.

"Step aside, give us space." A women in a white uniform ordered as she stepped in the bathroom. "How long has she been like this?"

"Ten to fifteen minutes, at least. We tried to stop the bleeding." Rose mumbled as she stepped back. The medic shook Wallflower.

"Can you hear me, sweetie?" She asked. "She's unconscious, looks like she hit her head on the toilet on her way down. Has she attempted suicide before?"

"We don't know, we just met her recently. She doesn't like to talk about herself." Lily said.

The medic nodded. "We need to take her to the hospital now. How old is she?"

"Seventeen." Rose said helpfully.

"Someone needs to contact her parents and let them know what's happening. Doctors will need their permission before doing anything other than stabilizing her." Her partner entered the room.

"I got a stretcher out here waiting, can't fit it in the bathroom." He stated.

"Grab her legs, we will carry her to it." She ordered. She grabbed her arms as her partner picked up her legs.

"On your count." She nodded.

"One, two, three, lift." They both lifted and the male one grunted.

"Lighter than I thought." He grumbled as he stepped out of the room.

"Yeah, I noticed she is severely underweight. Probably hasn't eaten much recently." The female agreed. They placed Wallflower on the stretcher and started strapping her down on it.

"Can I ride with you in the back, please?" Roseluck begged.

"Sure. Just stay out of the way. Your friends can follow us to the hospital." The female medic stated. She opened the back doors of the ambulance and the two lifted the stretcher.

"In you go." She told Rose, who climbed in. She shut the doors and the ambulance took off with the sirens on.

"Ever ride in an ambulance before?" She asked Rose who shook her head.

"What's your name?" She asked Rose as she took Wallflower's vitals.

"Uh, Roseluck. My friends and sisters call me Rose." She answered.

The medic smirked as she sat back down.

"Nice name. I'm Minerva." She said.

"Like the Roman version of Athena?" Rose asked.

Minerva chuckled.

"Yeah, pretty much. My dad loved Greek and Roman mythology. My brother is named Hermes." She laughed. "I got the better end of the stick I think in the name game."

Rose gazed at Wallflower nervously.

"Will she be okay?" She questioned.

Minerva shrugged.

"I honestly can't say for sure. Her head injury wasn't bad once we wiped the blood off. It was a small cut. The main thing we need to worry about is the cuts on her wrists and any other injuries she did to herself."

Rose nodded.

"Okay. Will we be able to see her?"

"Up to the doctors, not me. But I think they will let you see her after they get her all squared away. Don't worry, the medical center has some of the best doctors around. She'll be taken care of." She reassured Rose as the ambulance pulled into the emergency entrance of the hospital.

Rose paced back and forth in front of the room the doctors had taken Wallflower.

"Rosie, you've been pacing back and forth for an hour now. Sit down, please." Daisy pleaded.

Rose raised an eyebrow at her sister.

"I have ADHD remember, I can't sit still for that long. I have to keep busy doing something." Rose snapped. Daisy raised her hand.

"Okay, okay." She settled back into her seat. Lily snored quietly next to Daisy, a hat covering her eyes. Derpy tapped Rose on the shoulder and held out a coffee and a bag of muffins. Rose shook her head.

"I'm not hungry, thanks though, Derpy."

Derpy raised an eyebrow and stared at her sternly.

"Okay, I'll take a coffee and muffin. But only because you spent the money on it." She reaches into the bag and pulled out a blueberry muffin, taking a bit. "Okay, I may have been a bit more hungry than I was willing to admit." She sheepishly admitted as Derpy smiled in triumph. She passed a chocolate muffin to Daisy and set a banana nut one next to Lily for when she woke up.

"Dude, look at this Rose." Daisy said to her sister and patted the seat next to her. Rose reluctantly sat down as Daisy hit play. The video showed a Canterlot police officer wrestling an alligator on the street after using rope and duct tape to keep it's mouth shut.

"Holy shit." Rose mumbled in awe.

"I know,right. That thing was hissing like crazy." Daisy agreed. She gave a shudder. "Absolutely terrifying." A door opening in front of them got their attention and Rose instantly stood up. Daisy elbowed Lily and she shifted as the hat fell off.

"Well? Is she okay?" Rose questioned.

The doctor nodded.

"She's fine for right now. She's asleep. She had a minor head injury but we stitched it up. As for her wrists, we removed the towel and cleaned them up. She is gonna be put under suicide watch until we decide she is not going to attempt again." he told them.

"Can we see her at least?" Lily asked as she picked up her muffin and nibbled at it. The doctor again nodded.

"Be careful not to mess with anything. There will be another doctor in there too right now." he said. Rose stepped into the room followed by the others and stared at Wallflower. She was snoring softly in the bed with some stitches above her left eye.

"Hello there." A doctor in the corner greeted them. "You know the patient?"

"Yeah. She was having a sleep over with us when we found her in the bathroom." Rose mumbled. The doctor nodded.

"Must have been difficult. Things that like are stressful on the pysch." He said smiling.

Lily raised an eyebrow.

"It was surprising to say the least." She admitted.

"I'm Doctor Charles, head of psychology. You could always bring Wallflower here some things from home to make her feel comfortable when she wakes up." He suggested. "Her favorite book, some plants. Legos maybe."

"Legos?" Lily echoed.

He nodded.

"Legos are fun for all ages, I've had eighty year old patients playing with them. They can be helpful too, person sometimes builds what's bothering them or on their mind." He explained and stood up. "I have another patient to go check on, I'll be around if you three need to talk about what you saw. Seeing something like that isn't something that should be bottled up." He paused at Rose and placed a hand on her shoulder and slipped a card into her pocket. "Especially you. My card is in your pocket." He whispered. Rose nodded as she sat down in a chair in the room and the others settled down into random spots around the room.

He quietly shut the door as Rose gave a loud sigh and took balled her hoodie up as a pillow and laid down on it, falling asleep.