'The hallway to my bedroom was silent as only faint little creaking noises could be heard coming from the old oak wood and non-maintained hinges of doors. Everything was dirty and filthy to a grand extent and the only part of the whole abode I was living in that was even close to remotely clean was my room. In all honesty the only things I had within this home that I could call my own were the things I wore and the things I used for my inevitable means of surviving.'

'I slowly stepped into the hallway of my old rundown home or what I called a "home" to begin with. This place I called sanctuary wasn't even in my name or ownership as I had simply just stumbled across it in my travels. I knew the place was abandoned and yet every day I lived here I always felt some sort of uneasy feeling of dread as if something was watching me...then again it could just be the paranoia getting to me like usual.'

'The old cabin within the woods I had been calling my "little hideaway" was pretty run down and ragged. For example, the cabin has many windows or well "had" many windows. Most of the windows were either gone or just barely holding together even with most of the bits needed to hold them together completely missing.'

'Multiple holes lined the wooden walls and thatch roofing that covered the place I called safe for my own wellbeing. This was just two of the many if not dozens of troublesome implications of poor structural safety for my own personal health. I had hoped to fix the place up but no matter what I did I never seemed to be able to do enough within the few weeks I lived within it.'

'I knew the place was a lost cause the moment I laid eyes upon it but I had some hopes in maybe that it could be fixable, but the chances were slim. I tried in vain to fix it but without the proper help I knew it would be damn well impossible. I'm no master craftsman or carpenter or blacksmith or mage in magic in which case I'm not even a unicorn to begin with!'

'I know some skills here and there, but it doesn't mean I can rebuild a whole god damn cabin by myself...or is it more like a hut? All I'm saying is that the place is a guaranteed lost cause and it's best to leave it behind...and yet I felt attached to it. Even if it's provided me with comfort for only a meager few weeks, I still feel like it's a part of me...or something that's close to being a part of me in general.'

'I made my way down the hallway with a much longer stride as I kept my head high and my senses sharp. Even if I holed up in this place it didn't mean there weren't any dangers that broke in while I was asleep. I usually did a routine check of the place but seeing I was leaving I was sure that wasn't even close to necessary. All I needed to do was reach the front door and leave and that would be it, plain and simple. Of course, I would have to deal with the Everfree forest and all the misfits that laid lurking within its grasp or "reins" of darkness and mystery.'

'Each step I took felt heavy or was that just me? Each breath I took was sharp, or was that just me? I couldn't tell if I was having some sort of mental freak out or if my body was debating on how it should work right now. Each motion of movement I made felt like a brick being put onto my head as pressure slowly built up...slowly, ever so slowly.'

'My nerves were running cold with fear and anxiety, but my heart was burning with pride and a strong urge of animosity towards those who dared oppose me or dared to threaten my life in any way. It took a while, but I reached the door and for a moment I hesitated. What if I wasn't truly ready? What if the ponies in pony ville didn't like me? Surely, they would run away in fear, right? Would they see me as some sort of freak? Could they tell I'm a freak due to what I wore or because of how tall and big I was? I didn't know the answers to these questions, but I did have doubts.'

'I raised a hoof to the old doorknob as I steeled myself and my nerves for the moment of truth that soon awaited me. I knew this was going to be tough, either for me or the ponies who met me. I for one knew that I would try my best to be sociable even if it were to be a few words to slip through my muzzle in any attempts to make some means of conversation towards the citizens of pony ville. Self-doubt was hitting me head on as more and more troublesome thoughts came to fruition and each one was more worrisome then the last.'

'I'm not some stereotypical coward who easily gets scared...I've seen enough death and bloodshed to prevent that from ever happening. I do have concerns and worrisome thoughts however, I mean for instances such as the doubts Im having right now. Just because I'm sweating bullets in some sort of tense moment doesn't mean I'm afraid but just me mainly worrying about the outcome as to what is to happen or what is to be said.'

'The door slowly opened as I twisted the doorknob ever so slowly just so I could savor the last few moments I have or well "had" within this old and rickety home. I was ready or so I told myself in all honesty, honesty is a bitch sometimes and that's the plain and simple truth but if you wanna get into detail then by all means we can fucking do so. Each passing second felt like a year off my lifespan and it troubled me to the furthest thoughts of worry I could even muster.'

'Within one swift motion I flung the door open and braced myself for anything waiting for me...downside however was the fact I ripped the door open so quickly it sent myself stumbling outside and down the stairs of the porch as I hit the hard and cold surface of the dirt with a loud thud as the door fell on top me seeing I took it off its hinges as it came tumbling out with me, now ain't that a bit of bullshit in terms of luck?'

Author's Note

New chapter, WOOOOOO! Im glad it's done and I actually quite like it. It's similar in contrast in some ways of the old one but it's missing some parts I added to the older version of itself. Please do enjoy the few words of profanity and the new refined and well made usage of different words that don't come as similarly close to one another unlike....last time :/