My Past Is Complicated

“So Dash,” Applejack began smugly. “Ya gonna make Lyra mad again?” I stared at my slackjawed rainbow haired friend and giggled.

“No I don’t think I will. Wanna know the weirdest thing?” Rainbow asked as she sipped her milkshake. I tried to ignore the loud people in the mall walking around us. I didn’t like loud crowds but Rainbow wanted to try this shop.

“What’s that darling?” Rarity asked as she read her book. I always found crime romance novels to be weird. Why would they go together?

“I don’t hate her. I don’t hate any of them in the song. I respected Lyra and Sunset’s friends way before Sunset even came into the picture. I still do,” Rainbow admitted. “I had hoped one day we could all be friends but it seems that ship has sailed. It’s filled up with gas, left the harbor and is going out to sea.”

“Ah think that’s an understatement.”

“I agree,” I whisper as they glanced over at me. “Sonata even called Pinkie fat.” Rainbow had shown us both videos and I wanted to hide when I heard the language used. Pinkie had just deflated even more when she had seen the video.

“Don’t remind me,” Rainbow shot Pinkie an apologetic look. She had burst into tears and ran off after Rainbow had shown us all it. Applejack and Rarity went in on Rainbow for that.

“It’s okay,” Pinkie mumbled as she scrolled on her phone. “According to anon a miss, Lyra doesn’t believe in narwhals.”

“What the fuck is a narwhal?” Rainbow asked. Rarity gave her a glare as she set her book down.

“It’s an under sea unicorn,” Rarity explained. Rainbow stared at her in confusion before snickering.

“Uh first off, under sea isn’t the proper way to call it,” Rainbow pointed out. “It’s underwater. And secondly, we have Fluttershy here. She’s the animal expert. We should let her tell us what it is.”

“It’s a medium-sized toothed whale that possesses a large tusk from a protruding canine tooth. It lives year-round in the Arctic waters around Greenland, Canada and Russia. It is one of two living species of whale in the family Monodontidae, along with the beluga whale, and the only species in the genus Monodon. The narwhal males are distinguished by a long, straight, helical tusk,” I clarified. “The narwhal tusk contains sensory capability and up to ten million nerve endings inside. Some narwhals have up to two tusks, while others have none. The spiraled tusk juts from the head and can grow as long at ten feet.”

“Wait hold on,” Rainbow stared at Pinkie. “Did you just say Lyra?”

“Uh yes?”

“Why would Sunset go after someone in her crew?” Rainbow asked pointedly. “Didn’t Bon Bon, Octavia and Vinyl get posted about too?”

“Yeah they did,” Applejack answered. “Ain’t they in Sunset’s little group too?”

“Yeah,” Rarity confirmed. “They hang out all the time. Sunset is dating Derpy after all.” I glanced at Pinkie and she shrunk down even more. I was the only one she told she had feelings for Sunset.

“That pissed me off when Cherry Crash shoved Derpy,” Rainbow scoffed. “That would have been the one time I would have helped Sunset attack someone.”

“You think they let her post about them?” Pinkie mumbled. We all paused and stared at her.

“I don’t know,” Rainbow admitted. “They are just like us with their own feelings after all. And no one likes to be made fun of or embarrassed.”

“It is pretty weird,” I agreed. “And if it is her, Derpy would have convinced her to stop. There’s no posts about Derpy after all.”

“Well Derpy is widely known as one of the kindest girls in school,” Applejack pointed out. “No one would go after her because the retaliation by the others would be crazy. Especially after Sunset attacked Cherry Crash.”

“I don’t know,” Rainbow muttered as she stared at her phone. “Something feels weird. Have you guys been having the same weird dreams where you talk to yourself and have trouble sleeping the next few days?”

“Yep,” Applejack said.

“Yeah.”

“Mhm.” All eyes focused on me and I shook my head as Rainbow chuckled humorlessly.

“You’re in for a trip.”

“What makes you think Fluttershy will get them?” Rarity asked.

“If we all got them, the likelihood of her getting one is pretty damn high,” Rainbow reasoned. That did make sense and made me slightly worried. That explained why the others looked exhausted these past few days. “Now enough depressing talk. Let’s go do something fun. The arcade or something. Maybe catch a few movies.”

“Maybe later,” Applejack said. “Ah got work to do on the farm.”

“I agreed to go sew with Sweetie Belle.”

“I guess I can go play soccer with Scootaloo,” Rainbow sighed. “Wanna come with Fluttershy?”

“Maybe another time. I have school work to do.”

I smiled warmly at the birds flying around me. This was probably my favorite dream of all time. Just hanging out with a bunch of birds and other animals.

“Hello.” I spun around and stared at a strangely colored me. Her yellow skin was mixed with grey and her pink hair had grey highlights in it.

“Uhm hi?” I mumbled as she smiled, sitting on a blanket.

“Sit down. Want some tea?” She offered warmly as I shrugged and sat down. “Excellent. Don’t worry, I’m not gonna hurt you like Loyalty and Honesty did with their bearers. I am a pacifist after all and you are one of my favorite bearer. But that doesn’t mean I’m not upset with you.”

“About Sunset,” I guessed and she nodded as she handed me a cup.

“Bingo. Why exactly do you think it’s her?”

“I thought it was Rainbow Dash playing a prank at first,” I admitted. She raised an eye brow and waved her hand.

“Go on.”

“I guess I wanted it to be Sunset you know? Rainbow is one of my oldest friends and having to end my friendship with her would hurt me. I guess I just took the easier option in front of me,” I admitted sadly. “Because if Rainbow had admitted to what she did, I probably would have ended our friendship.” A hand was placed on my shoulder as she turned completely grey with blonde hair and golden eyes. She gave me a sad smile.

“I understand.”