My Past Is Complicated

I groaned softly to my self and brushed a strand of rainbow hair out of my eyes as I walked through the school. To my left and right were students screaming at each other and the occasional shoving. Better than them attacking Sunset at least. I know that sounds hypocritical now but it’s the truth.

“Hey Dash,” Applejack muttered as she stepped up next to me. “Ya feelin alright?”

“No God damn it I’m not!” I snapped and she flinched. “AJ I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have yelled at you. I’m just frustrated.”

“Ah know. Ah am too. Ya don’t gotta explain,” Applejack hugged me as we stepped into the band room. Fluttershy laid on her back crying along with Rarity. Pinkie laid on the top of the piano with a dead look in her eyes.

“Hey guys,” I sighed and half heartedly greeted the other members of my group.

“Hello darling,” Rarity sniffed and wiped her eyes.

“Can you believe she was homeless?” Pinkie asked with a flat tone of voice as we all stared at her. “Or a prostitute? We don’t even know what it’s like to be that desperate for money. And we wondered why she was so evil these past few years.”

“If I could, I would go back in time and slap myself for being so stupid,” Fluttershy wailed. “I hate this. We did this to her. Did you see her wrists?”

“Yes Fluttershy. We all saw them,” I laid in between her and Rarity, placing an arm over them each. Rarity had a faint smell of wine on her clothes and I scrunched my nose in disgust and sadness. I guess she went back to old habits.

“I know Flutters,” I sighed and kissed her forehead before kissing Raritys. “One way or another, we will make this right.”

“We have to,” Rarity agreed as I stood up and started to walk out the door.

“Where are ya goin sugarcube?” Applejack called out after me. I paused and looked back at her.

“Going to start making this right.”

I sighed and took a deep breath as I knocked on the door.

“Come in!” Principal Celestia called out and I hesitantly pushed the door open. She glanced up and her eyes narrowed a bit. “What can I do for you Rainbow?” I stepped forward and placed a piece of paper on her desk.

“I uhm wanted to give you this,” I mumbled. She picked up the paper and stared at me.

“And what is this?”

“It’s uhm a list of people who hurt Sunset during anon a miss. Mystery Mint shoved her to the ground, Golden Hazel vandalized her locker with Watermelody. I uh punched Sunset in the face in the beginning when this first started,” I admitted and wiped my eyes. Principal Celestia maintained eye contact before nodding.

“Thank you Rainbow. You do realize this gets you detention until you graduate right? I would notify the police but it’s too late for that unfortunately.” I made eye contact.

“I know.”

I kept walking down the hall after leaving the office. She had called my parents and everything but I don’t care. I did what I did, no one forced me. That was my own decision. A short orange girl with purple stepped in front of me and I groaned internally. I really didn’t want to see Scootaloo right now.

“H-hey Rainbow,” Scootaloo stammered. I stepped around her and kept walking. I was too mad to talk to her because I might say something I didn’t mean and I didn’t want to hurt her. No matter how mad I am at her, I didn’t want to hurt her feelings like she did to Sunset. “Please! Just talk to me! I know what I did was wrong. Please don’t leave me.” I sighed and pushed the doors to the field open and kept walking, letting them slam shut behind me. I kept walking to the bleachers and sat down. Cloudkicker was running around the track with Flitter half heartedly. Blossomforth sat on the ground with a blank expression and a timer.

“Hey Dash.” I glanced up and stared as Spitfire sat down with Soarin and Surprise. Misty Fly was playing soccer half heartedly with Fleetfoot and High Winds.

“Hey Spits. Hey Soarin. Hey Surprise,” I mumbled as I propped my head up.

“You doing okay?” Surprise asked hesitantly. I shook my head slowly and her face fell.

“You know I knew she was innocent,” Soarin announced suddenly. Spitfire subtly elbowed him. “Hey! After all, she was the first person on the team to stand up for me after Spitfire and Fleetfoot tried to replace me with you. She risked her spot on the team to stand up for me with you. You both did.” I dropped my head into my hands and started crying.

“We fucked up dude. We fucked up so bad!” I lifted my head to take in their stunned faces. I never cry around my team. “I shoved the person who was the most emphatic person in my life away to the wolves without a fucking care in the world.” Spitfire stared at me before slapping me.

“Spitfire!” Soarin snapped. “We know we all made a mistake but that doesn’t mean have to hit each other!” I rubbed my sore cheek. That was gonna hurt for a few days but I deserved it for everything.

“Are you gonna sit here complaining and moaning about fucking up or are you gonna get up off your ass and do something about it?” Spitfire shouted. “Where’s the famous Rainbow pride? The Rainbow I know wouldn’t be sitting here. She would get up off her ass, get out there and make this right. Might I add, I thought she was behind it too. I have to work and make things right with her. And she was my teammate. We all should have been there as a team. Hell, Fleetfoot hated her after the cmc went after her.” I wiped my tears away and hugged the three other soccer players. Spitfire groaned and pushed me off her after a few seconds.

“Get off me please. I don’t do hugs often.”