The Light's Love

by Scremises117

Rating: teen
Tags: Gore, Princess Celestia, Slice of Life, Human, Sad, Main 6, Princess Luna, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Spike, Comedy, Tragedy
Length: 12124

I was dead but now I am alive.

My name is Paul, and I have had terminal brain cancer for some time. The light in my life has died. I will soon meet my end at the age of just 20. My friends and family have both mourned in my suffering. I only wish they never knew me; I would rather die alone than have others sadness living on. Being battered and beaten by my father as a child never helped my outlooks on life. All things set aside, I start to feel something and see things and remember bible passages that I learned in Grade and Middle school. Then the light envelopes my room, and I feel no more sadness; only the warmth of a warm sheet on a cold day with a cup of coco. I was there looking down on me. I died. Then I woke up...

(A/N My new editor is: DaemoN67)

Published 2012-10-08 11:00:01 UTC
Last updated 2013-02-08 00:44:13 UTC

Rebirth

"Hey hun how you feeling today?" Asked the always upbeat Nurse Jackson.

"Fine."

"You don't look fine."

"How can you when this disease is going to be the end of you and you can't do anything about it."

"Well you have us all here to care for you and we all do."

"That's one thing I don't want people to do is care the more they care the more they miss me when I'm gone.I would almost rather people not caring about me and I just die alone than leaving someone behind."

"You know Paul you're too nice,and also make some pretty deep speeches."

"Thanks." I said as I popped in my headphones turning on Obsidia-Android.

The one person that never failed to show up for her daily visits was my mother.She would always come in with the same greeting the same way of brushing back the hair I no longer had and kissing my forehead.She was one person I especially didn't want to care I didn't want her to be the emotional wreck I know she'll be.But she is a mother you cant just tell them to not care and expect them to listen.

"Hey dolly how you feeling." My mother asked startling me.

"Jeez mom someone should get you a bell,I'm doing good to thanks for asking". I said in a low monotone voice.

"Well you sound grim as always so I see nothing much has changed,so are you excited?"

"For what?"

"You really don't know what today is do you?"

"Saturday?"

"No your birthday."

"My 20th birthday...yeah we're not gonna celebrate."

"WHAT?!"

"Well think about it what is there to celebrate me dieing."

"B-but your not dead yet,I was gonna get John and Eddie in here for you".

At this I could see the look on her face,the look of a child wanting to go to their favorite ice cream parlor or pizza shop.I couldn't say no...it was like her dying wish from me from her.

"Okay Ice cream cake, Eddie, John,and no presents".

"Nothing? I mean you don't want anything?"

"No I already have enough I only want the cake and you guys".

"Okay I already called Eddie and John they're coming down now".

"Smooth operator".

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"Paul, Happy birthday"! Eddie exclaimed as he jump on me to give me a hug.Good thing my bed was here so this can look worse than it does already (kind of looked like he was humping me).But I honestly didn't care it was him showing me his gratitude and how happy he was to see me.

"Hey Eddie thanks for coming my ribs wouldn't be the same without you?"

"Your welcome."

"So when is john coming?"

"He was right outside he should be in any second."

So just then the latter of the the two layer cake showed up with his laptop bag in hand slung over his shoulder.He put down his bag in the corner.

"Hey Paul happy Birthday." He said as he handed me a card.

"Thanks John."

"No problem,how you feeling?"

"I'm dying from an incurable disease I'm doing pretty terrible."

"You gotta look pas--

"Looks past it?That's like trying to look past a speeding car while your feet are nailed to the ground,you can't".

At this point a awkward silence was born between John and I eyeing each other and Eddie letting out a deep sigh.

"So I guess another gay baby was born".

This was a joke between us 5 seconds of a awkward silence means a gay baby was born.We all shared a giggle between the three of us.We all talked about the times we had together through my life.We had been friends since our earlier years.We talked about how we first met,our stupid mistakes,and all the good times in general.

"You remember the time I first met Eddie John? He was so mad at me for camping in Black Ops he was going to strangle me".

Later on my mom arrived with the cake that read "Happy 20th Birthday Paul". A Birthday to be remembered, a milestone in my life.I'm spending it dying with my two best friends that I consider my brothers.I might as well make the most of it before my time runs out.

"Okay everybody gather around". My mother said with a happy tune.

They started the tune with a happy and joyous tune but around halfway through the song I realize a sudden warmth to the room. Then the sound of family and friends singing ceased to continue.Only their mouths moved but nothing came out.At this point I realized what was going on remembering bible passages that I memorized when I was in grade school.Then the room around me was enveloped in light and I felt like everything was right with the world.Then I woke up..

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When I woke up I was in a lush field filled with roses and amongst the forest the animals froliced around.I stood up inspecting my surrounding.I brushed the leaves off of my AND1 grey Basketball shorts.I got up and walked for a little while it was a wonderful day wherever I was I reached in my pocket and to my astonishment my iPod was still in there. I flipped it open to check the time 12:07 PM. I walked around for a little while longer and was happy to realize I had my hair back.

After a few minutes I got the feeling someone was behind me and was looking at me.I stopped dead in my tracks to see if my senses proved correct.I heard some rustling in the bushes I looked directly in that direction standing straight up at foot 6'4 inches hoping to be intimidating.Not moving an inch and keeping an emotion less expression on my face.My unmoving gaze caused what ever it was to emit a small EEP noise.

"H-he-hello."Said a soft voice coming from the bushes.

"Hi, are you by any chance spying on me?"

"O-oh no I was out getting food for my pets and tending to the forest creatures when I noticed you.What are you if you don't mind me asking?"

"Oh I'm sorry how rude of me to not introduce myself my name is Paul,and I'm a human why, aren't you."

"N-no I'm a pegasus I've never heard of a human, my name is Fluttershy."

"That's a beautiful name,maybe it would be better if you came out from behind that bush so I could see you."

"You won't hurt me will you"?

"No I would never hurt or hit a lady I promise." as I said this I got down on a knee so she could see I am of no threat and putting on my best smile."

"Oh okay."

As she stepped out I was amazed by what I was seeing. A small pony with wings and she just talked.She stepped out very slowly and cautiously hiding her face behind her mane.She walked up to me and we looked at each other and examining each other until my stomach cut in emitting a low growl.

"EEP!" She screamed as she jumped back and hid her head under her hooves.

" Ah! What's wrong?"

"I-I heard a g-growl come from you."

"Heh, sorry that was my stomach,don't worry about any growling beast I'll keep you safe".

Her face suddenly flushed red she had never had a male speak to her in such a way before I assumed.

"Do you want to come over to my house I have some food you can have."

"Oh okay but I don't want to impose you don't have to do this if you don't want to."

"No don't worry about it at all I have plenty of salads and fruits back in my cottage."

"Okay well thank you Miss Fluttershy."

"You can just call me F-Fluttershy."

"Okay Fluttershy, if I might add I think that is a wonderful name."

"T-thank you Paul."

"No problem."

After a short walk we ended up at her cottage, it was a small dainty cottage enough to fit two people at max.As I walked in I noticed an abundance of animals from chipmunks to birds she had them all.Surprisingly the place didn't smell like a sewage treatment plant like most people with this many animals back home. I was happy to see that she was a responsible caretaker.

"Your home is lovely Fluttershy,oh and who might this cute little one be."I said as I reached my hand down toward the small rabbit on the floor.

"Thank you, and this is Angle bunny."

"I found a wild bunny once when I was younger I raised her and her brother back to health it was quite a hard task seeing they needed to be fed every few hours."

"You did? To me you didn't look like much of one to take care of animals."

"There is a lot you don't know about me."

Life after Death

So here I sit in a small cottage, discussing things with a yellow pegasus that has a pink mane. She was kind enough to offer me fruit and a salad. I ate this, savoring every piece.

"S-so do you know how you got here, by any chance?" She asked in a shy manner.

"I died," I said simply, but in a direct manor.

"What? How did you die?"

"Well, I had a disease that was incurable and died on today which is my birthday".

"Wow you died on your---".

"Fluttershy, it's me Twilight. Spike is over at the park with Snips and Snails. I was wondering if you would like to come with me to Sugarcube corner to get some tea and a cupcake," a voice from the other side of the door asked.
At the sound of someone else she immediately panicked, not knowing what to do. She started to pant and run around the room to move things.

"Fluttershy, is this one of your friends or something?" I asked calmly but loud enough for the one outside to here.

"Ohh Fluttershy, sorry. I didn't know you had a stallion over. Who is he, can I meet him?" The mysterious one behind the door asked.

"N-no, he is just a friend, nothing more."

"Okay… well, can I meet him?"

"Wai-AHH"! She exclaimed as a bag of animal feed fell on her from the closet she was trying to make space for me in.
"Fluttershy! What’s wrong, are you hurt?!" the one with a lot of patience asked.

I quickly rushed over to her side, lifting the bags off of her. They were heavier than I suspected, but still some pretty easy lifting. When I finally got the last bag off of her, I saw a shaking ball of yellow and pink fur.

"Fluttershy, are you alright?" I asked grabbing an ice pack from her freezer.

"I…" was all she could get out before the door seemed to explode before us.

"Whoa, what's going on"? I asked standing over Fluttershy holding an ice pack to her head.

"Who are you, what are you?!" The purple one asked me in a frantic manner.

"My name is Paul, I am a human. You are scary and purple... hi."

"What? I'm not scary! And what did you do to Fluttershy?!" She asked, still irate.

"I'm gonna stop you right there ma'am. I don't hit women; a bag of feed fell on her so calm down."

"Is she okay?"

"She should be fine, just some small swelling on her forehead," I said as I picked her up and moved her to the couch.

"Thank you Paul," Fluttershy said holding the ice pack to her head.

"No problem."

Then the purple one poked me on the back and made hoof movements for me to follow her. Seeing that I was taking so long, she decided to use some telekinesis spell on me. I now realize she had a horn, because it glowed up like a Christmas tree. She motioned for me to come outside, and I told Fluttershy I'm right outside and if she needs anything, just come and ask.

"Ooh, yay! Now I can ask you all the questions I have for you!" she exclaimed, jumping up and down.

"Well, can I know what your name is since you now know mine?"

"Oh, okay, my name is Twilight Sparkle."

"A pleasure to meet you, Miss Sparkle."

"You can just call me Twilight."

"Alright. Now, back to your questions."

"Okay. I'm so excited! The first human in Equestria, and I'll know all about him!"

This is going to take a long time, I thought to myself.

After a good hour and thirty minutes, we were almost done, but I made a grave mistake. I pulled out my iPod to check the time. All I wanted to do was check the time. The second she laid eyes on this new alien device she HAD to know what it was.

"What's that?!" She asked sitting next to me biting her lips.

"This is an iPod. It has music on it, and apps like Angry birds which entertains the mind. I have pictures and other things on here too."

"Oh my goodness, I meet an alien and see alien technology, all in one day!" she said beaming with exuberance.
She started to move her hoof across it and hit the music app. I unplugged my headphones. Do it please just do it was all I could think. Showing ponies dubstep, this is gonna be so sweet! She moved her hoof over Tristam & Steven Walking-Too simple. The second she clicked it and the music started to play, her eyes widened and she backed away as if a bomb went off.

"AH! Why was it making those strange noises?" She asked as she inched closer.

"That is a genre of music called dubstep,” I said, pressing pause. “Don't worry, it's not for everybody.”

"It sounded like a blender or something,” Twilight said. “I just have one more question for you. How did you get here?"

"I died."

"Wait, what? How did you die?"

"An incurable disease claimed me, and I died on my birthday. Not really a bad present if I might say so myself."

"Oh, well, I'm sorry. I didn't know."

"That's why you asked, and don't be sorry. It was just a question, I don't mind. Maybe we should go see if Fluttershy is alright."

"Yeah we have been out here a while."

So we both got up and made our way into Fluttershy's home. To my surprise, she was out and about, walking around.

"Sorry Fluttershy,” I said. “Twilight had a lot of questions. How are you doing?"

"My head is feeling much better thanks to you."

"Don't mention it."

"Paul, would you like to meet my other friends?” Twilight asked. “I'm sure they would love to meet you."

"Well as long as Fluttershy is feeling up to going. I'm not going to leave her here alone."

"I feel better now I think I can go."

"Alright, well, you wanna go now, Twilight?"

"Sure let's go," Twilight said and hurried out the door. We saw she was about 20 feet from the house, motioning for us to come with her.

I looked over to Fluttershy who was stuck to my side with a smile on her face. I knew I had made a friend in this strange world. I know she was a friend that would be there for me and I would be there for her. A best friend.

Making friends (Revised)

After a good five minutes of walking and Twilight running through the list of her friends over and over again, we neared the place she called Ponyville.

"Oh, did I tell you about Rainbow Dash yet, and the sonic rainboom and the element of loyalty?" She asked beaming with excitement.

"Yes, but you did miss one," I said, seeing if she would catch on.

"Who?"

The only thing I did was point to Fluttershy.

"Oh, sorry Fluttershy! I was just so caught up in this whole exciting day."

"I-it's okay. I'm easy to forget," Fluttershy squeaked up behind her mane.

"Where I come from Fluttershy, we save the best for last," I said, trying to make her feel better.

"Well Fluttershy is a--." Was all Twilight got out before she was soon interrupted a screaming citizen.

"AHH, A MONSTER AND IT'S GOT TWILIGHT AND FLUTTERSHY!" A small but very loud voice screamed from the distance.

The next thing I heard was some unintelligible voices coming from the distance, and a cyan pegasus flying towards me.
Partially mesmerized by her speed, I stopped dead in my tracks. Seeing she was going to try and tackle me, I took my time and waited for her to get to a close distance. Seeing she had nearly reached me, I sidestepped to the right and avoided her sudden attack. Since she didn't think this part through very well, she more or less kissed the dirt.

"You alright?" I asked as I bent down to help her up.

"Don't touch me, you alien freak!" She said as she slapped my hand out of the way.

"I'll take that as a yes."

"I said, get away from me." She restated angrily backing me up against a tree.

"Someone’s a little bit cranky now, aren't they?" I cooed seeing it made her even more angry. She soon wiped the grin and mocking look off my face as she slapped me across the mouth.

"Alright, well, is there something that you want?" I asked indignantly, as I rubbed my swollen cheek and mouth.

"What did you do to my friends?"

"Nothing. Your friend Fluttershy found me in the forest, and invited me into her home in this strange world of colorful ponies."

"Likely story kid. Now, tell me the truth."

"He is. I found him in the f-forest. Please stop hurting him, Rainbow," said Fluttershy from bush she was hiding behind.

"Fluttershy it's okay, you can come out now. We're not fighting, I promise." I said calmly.

She slowly stepped out from behind the bush and looked at my face. I guess this Rainbow Dash was pretty strong, because, at that moment, I realized my lip was bleeding. At the sight of this she pushed Rainbow Dash to the side and took on the role of nurse Fluttershy, taking a piece of my shirt and dabbing the blood away.

"Rainbow, why did you have to hit him so bad? He didn't even do anything wrong," said Fluttershy, still assessing my wounds.

"I think it was a good thing that she did," I said.

"What?!" Both of them said in unison.

"It lets you know that she will always be there for you, no matter what she has to do. Also, you need to work more on how you attack; you’re too fast and don't think it through."

"Whatever. You’re lucky I missed on purpose, or you would've been done for. And, uh, thanks to for sticking up for me," Rainbow Dash said while still trying to make it sound like I got lucky but thankful at the same time.

"No problem," I said.

"Hey, where did Twilight go?" Rainbow Dash asked after a long silence.

"She went into the town to calm the ponies down and explain what's going on," Fluttershy said, still dabbing my wound with the shirt. After a few minutes, we saw her coming around the corner.

"I explained to the town what was going on, and who you were. I got them to all calm down... what happened?" Twilight asked confused at the scene before her.

"That's good. Oh, and Rainbow Dash happened," I said jokingly. "Can we go now?"

I tried to stand up but Fluttershy gave me a concerned look and held me down
.

"Are you sure you're okay, Paul?" Fluttershy asked with concern for my wellbeing.

"Yeah, I'll be fine. I've been through worse."

We walked for a few silent minutes until we reached a small bridge. When we crossed it, I was greeted by a large number of ponies staring at me. Not knowing what to do, I just stood there and stared. I was always horrible in front of a large number of people... or in their case, ponies. At least Twilight spoke up to stop the quiet chatter amongst the crowd.

"Okay everypony, this is Paul. He is new to this planet and to Ponyville. He will be staying here for the time being," Twilight said. They all raised their hooves to ask questions but Twilight quickly dismissed them
.

"He will be around here for some time, so just ask him while he's around. Now, please just be on your way," said Twilight. They all did as they were told...except one. A pink cotton candy maned pony was all I saw. The next thing was a pink flash and a something jumping on my legs and stomach.

"I was so excited to meet you! An alien, and I get to throw him a party! This is going to be sooo much fun!" Said the pink one.

"Please *OOF get off *OOF of me!" I said between her jumps.

"Okay!" She said, in that happy manner. She was still bouncing with her excitement, and accidentally stepped on my crotch, nearly neutering me. As I rolled on the ground in the fetal position holding my swollen coin purse, everyone around me was confused about what just happened, except for Rainbow Dash.

"HA-HA! Pinkie, you totally just crushed his crotch!" She cried, falling down in laughter.
"Are you alright?" Twilight said, reaching over to touch the quivering ball of flesh on the ground. At the slightest touch from her, my body recoiled and I whimpered like a small child.

"Well, I gotta go and get your party ready," Pinkie said as she bounced away, and she turned around to say "sorry about your crotch by the way."

"I-it's okay," I stammered, holding my decimated
.

"That was just Pinkie being Pinkie," Twilight said as she helped me up from the ground.

"I have a feeling the party will involve a lot of her being ‘Pinky’, as well," I said, trying to piece together what just happened.

The life of the party

After Pinkie Pie nearly neutered me I followed the girls to Rarity's house. Apparently she was the fashionista around these parts. As we walked I was being stared at from all directions their eyes were glued on me. I was getting extremely uncomfortable; being the center of attention is definitely something I never want to be. I just played cool and looked ahead not paying any attention to them. It was a short walk to the Carousel Boutique the building had many bright colors on it and was fairly large.
"Paul why don't you stay out here with Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash go get Applejack, I'll go get Rarity." Twilight said and at that they disbanded leaving us here alone.
"Alright sounds good." I said as I sat on the ground. I already knew very well where this was going. Awkward silence.
"So..nice weather out huh?" I said immediately face palming myself in my mind.
"Oh yes it is a very nice day outside." Fluttershy said sitting next to me.
"So are Pinkie Pie's parties good?" I asked.
"Yes they are really fun it is her talent after all," said Fluttershy.
"So do you like the night too?" I asked even though I had no idea what I was doing.
"Yes but sometimes the dark can be scary." She said.
"The only thing to fear is what lies behind the dark. Normally I enjoyed the dark it was a place where I could just be alone and not have to be seen." I said looking down at the ground between my legs.
"Oh come on Rarity your work can wait you have to meet him." Twilight said though the opened door of the Boutique.
"Alright I will is he your special somepony I have never seen you so excited for me too me another stallion before,” asked Rarity.
"No he’s actually not even from this planet, and you know I don't have time for a special somepony I need to focus on my studies," Said Twilight.

“Well then why don't you show me this alien,” was all she said as she looked at me and froze in her tracks.

“Hi my I’m Paul and I suppose you must be Rarity?” I said trying to put on a good face so she wouldn’t be terrified of me.

“Oh, yes hello Paul and yes I am Rarity.” She said partially out of her state of shock.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you.” I said putting on my best smile.

“Looks like Rainbow Dash is here, perfect timing too,” Said Twilight.

“Alright what’s this I hear about some alien?” Said the one I assume to be Applejack.

“Yeah that would be me nice to meet you.” I said waving my hand.

“I can’t say I've ever seen anyone like you around these parts,” said Applejack.

“Well I am quite different from anyone here I can see,” I said.

“Hey maybe we should head over to the party it’s getting kind of late and I’m sure the party is set up by now,” said Twilight.

So we did a short but awkward walk. None of us really talked at all. I could still feel the eyes of passing by strangers slicing through me like a hot knife through butter. If they had a question they could just ask but I felt if I told them that it would be endless questioning. I’ll just let ask me on their own time. Before long we arrived at Sugarcube Corner. The excessive use of bright colors is very strange here and especially the designs of the houses. The inside didn't look much different. As soon as I walked in I was greeted by Pinkie Pie screaming in my face.

“ SURPRISE!” She screamed as streamers and confetti went everywhere.

“Oh thanks Pinkie this looks really nice I can’t thank you enough.” I said pulling a goofy smile as she got dangerously close to my face.

“ Don't you worry about thanking me just have fun!” She exclaimed obviously overly excited to be throwing a party for an ‘alien’.

“Alright will do,” I said as I looked around the place did look great even though I wasn't a fan of parties I had to admit it was nice.

I grabbed a cupcake and some water and walked around for a bit. I found a nice empty table and sat there. Being 6’4 was making me feel like a giant even while sitting down. But still I tried my best to just piece together the events of this day together. I sat there staring at my hands and fiddling with my thumbs until I felt a light poke on my back it was Fluttershy.

“Hi I saw you were sitting alone and I was wondering if you wanted someone to talk to. If you don’t that’s okay I will just go,” said Fluttershy.

“No I would love to have you sit here with me here take a seat.” I said as I pulled out a chair for her.

“Oh thank you,” said Fluttershy as she sat down next to me at the table.

“So what did you want to talk about?” I asked growing curious as to why she wasn’t having fun with all of her friends.

“I wanted to ask you why you were sitting here by yourself,” she said looking towards me.

“I was never good around new people I always just stayed back and watched them do whatever it was like that for most of my life,” I said.

“Well I was like that to and still am shy.” She said trying to relate to me in a way.

“Yeah I know what you mean I never really had that many friends either I just picked them wisely and watch them come and go,” I said.

“I only have the other five girls and they’re all I really need,” she said.

“I agree you six all have an amazing relationship that not even death can split apart, you know Fluttershy the more I get to know you the more I can see how we are alike.” I said realizing this was very true in more than one way.
“Oh well I never really realized that until now,” she said.
“Fluttershy I'm having a really great time talking to you but do you think that I could go walk around for a bit?” I asked already knowing the answer but just wanting to go.
So I got up and walked around and found exactly what I was hoping for the back exit door. I slowly opened it and walked outside the back. It was really dark outside I liked this. I found a nice spot on the grass and pulled out my IPod. The fact that full battery power left amazed me. I opened it and flipped to music and turned on The Album Leaf-Windows. This song has no words not a single one but yet it speaks to me like some don't and simply can’t. I sat looked up at the moon and its beauty. As I listened to the song I remembered all of the good and bad times I had and as the song progressed the more these memories flooded my mind. I realized I was crying. I forced myself to stop. I always viewed the ones who could cry as strong and not afraid to show how they feel. I was not strong at all and did not deserve such a title. There are far more deserving people then me. In fact I deserve none of this.(A/N Start playing this )
None of this new chance at life I had been given. None of these friends I have made. I deserve nothing. I don’t deserve Fluttershy giving me a home a party the only thing I deserve is this swollen lip. As I sat there I started to tear up but this time I made no effort to stop them. As I started to remember the time of my childhood my father beating me and my mother and when it was my mother’s turn make me watch. As the vivid memory of a boy sitting there tears welling up in his face begging him to stop but he just kept going, and even the time on my own birthday yelling at me for his problems. I started to sob and run my fingers through the dirt remembering how I had to grow up fast how I had no childhood. The times when I was still in my mother’s womb and he yelled at her so much she walked around the streets for hours sobbing. By this time I was shaking violently and sobbing but not so loud enough for anyone to hear. But still she heard me and she was right there beside me.I just kept thinking to myself why does she care.I tried to speak but the mirth forming in my mouth did not allow me.I just sat there with her.The only thing I felt was her warm embrace.I muttered the words thank you and she continued her warm tender embrace.The longer her embrace went on the more the song played I could feel these memories and the pain leaving me.I returned the hug and let my heart speak.

"T-thank you for this i-it means more than you could ever know Thank you!" I exclaimed through small gasp and stuttering.She just slowly caressed my hair by this I knew she was saying it's alright you're going to be fine.No other words were spoken that night.

Introductions

Introductions

We still sit here in each other’s embrace. After a few minutes I let go and looked up to her. When I looked up to her I saw her smile and the look on her face; the look of compassion, caring, and love. When my tears dried she let go and sat beside me I looked at her and couldn't look away. The way she showed compassion for me and how she cared for me was astounding. I was an alien in her world and she treated me like her own. She knew that something was wrong I know she knew. I looked away eventually breaking the perpetual gaze and looked up at the stars. I heard her inch her way closer to me and we sat there staring at the stars together. After a while I checked the time on my IPod it was 12:45 P.M, we were out here for longer than I thought. I then realized that I haven’t cried in years I thought I lost the ability to and I didn’t really mind it. She was my first friend to ever see me cry and I was happy five years of tears were spent on her. I heard the party in there dying down and noticed people leaving after a while.

“Thank you,” I muttered as I looked down at the ground between my legs, “for everything.”

“You’re welcome,” she said.

“I’m going to be completely honest with you I haven’t cried in years,” I said.

“Really, not even a single tear?” She asked a little surprise.

“No but with you I felt safe and when I felt your warm embrace I could feel everything I ever feared and all the pain I ever felt leave me. The song I was listening to also was a reason why I was crying but it made me remember all of the bad times. I see it fit to remember those times though they let you not lose touch in who you are. But when you hugged me you took it all away with your tender warm embrace I felt good for once in my life and I can say that without lying this time.” I said as I closed the gap between us.

“You’re welcome. I have a question for you though. Do you want to stay with me?” She asked but immediately blushed a little afterwards.

“You are the only one I really want to stay with to be honest with you,” I said
.

“Maybe we should go before it gets too late.”

“Yeah I agree with you let’s head back.” I said we started towards her house
.

The walk to her house didn't take long it was a few minutes at the most. I asked her what element she was and was not surprised kindness was it at all. She is of some of the nicest people I have met in my life. When we arrived most of her animals were still awake frolicking around and enjoying themselves.

“Alright little ones it’s time to head off too bed.” Fluttershy said waving her hoof and they all went to their appropriate places to rest. I stood in the corner waiting for her instructions.

“Well I guess I’ll show you where you’ll be sleeping here follow me.” She said yawning and walking up stairs. We after going upstairs we made it to a room with a single bed in it.

“This is where you will be staying for the night,” she said.

“Where are you sleeping Fluttershy?” I asked.

“The couch downstairs.”

“Fluttershy please sleep in your bed I’ll go sleep on the floor I’ve done it before I’ll be fine.”

“But you're a guest I can't do that to you.”

“Yes but you're my friend I’m not going to let you do that for me.”

“Alright but if you need anything I’m right up here.”

“Okay goodnight Fluttershy.” I said as I walked towards the door.

“Goodnight Paul.”

I closed the door and walked downstairs to the couch and grabbed one of the pillows to make a makeshift bed on the floor. I realized although it was a little cold outside I wasn’t really cold. I curled up in the fetal position with a small blanket that she left on the couch for herself. I was really tired after today and dosed off quickly. In my dream land I was having one of the greatest dreams I’ve ever had. It was like the light, but this time it was like it was telling me something.

“This is your only second chance,” the voice started saying, “as one chapter of your life closes this one opens.” The dream voice said.

“As you live this life, do not forget who you are or what has been done for you, and now our time is over it is time for you to wake up…”
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“Paul wake up it’s morning.” Fluttershy said as she poked my arm for me to wake up.

“Huh, what?” I stammered as I turned over to see her sanding over me and the drool rolled down my cheek.

“Good morning,” she said happily.

“Good morning, Fluttershy.” I said as I stood up and check my IPod which read 9:30 A.M.

“Would you like to join me for some breakfast?” She asked.

“I would love too,” I said as I stood up to join her for breakfast.

“I made pancakes,” She said as she put a plate in front of me, “I hope you enjoy them.” They reminded me of my grandmother’s pancakes, light and fluffy with the hint of butter for extra flavor. I ate them quickly but still savoring every bite and while trying to not look like a pig.

“Wow you were really hungry huh?” She asked as she giggled at my puffed up cheeks. I knew exactly what I used do with a full mouth that always made people laugh.

“Mmmhhhmm.” I said as I gave her a goofy smile with my puffed up cheeks. She immediately burst into laughter which was exactly what I wanted her to get from it. After a few minutes of me making silly faces and strange noises for her enjoyment I stopped and finished my breakfast.

“Oh, I almost forgot today we’re going to Twilight’s house she said she had more questions for you.”

“I already know it’s going to be a lot of questions.” I said as I got up from the table and put the plate in the sink.

“Maybe we should get going, oh and later I want to take you to Rarity’s to get you a new shirt seeing yours has blood on it,” she said.

“Alright, are you sure I don’t want to waste anyone’s time on making me a shirt,” I said as I opened the door for her to go out.

“She loves using her talent to help others trust me she won’t mind.”

“Alright, so did you have a good night’s sleep?” I asked her.

“Oh yes I did, but I was worried about you on the hard floor out there. Did you have a good night’s sleep?” She asked me with a look of concern on her face.

“Yeah I slept fine I dozed off quickly since it was late it wasn’t that bad either on the floor.”

“Oh, alright well at least it wasn't too bad.”

“Not bad at all.” I said as I remembered the dream I had last night.

After a few minutes of walking we made it to Twilight’s house which was actually a tree. I was surprised someone would build a house inside of a tree. As we walked in we were greeted by an empty room and nobody home.

“Twilight, Spike, we're here.” Fluttershy said as she called out to anyone that was home.

“Alright I'm coming,” said an almost teenage voice from up stairs, “here take a se-AH!” Spike exclaimed as he looked at me.

“Twilight wasn’t kidding when she said alien,” he said as he walked over to me to give me a handshake, “my name is Spike nice to meet you.”

“Nice to meet you too Spike, I’m Paul,” I said as I returned the handshake, “so where is Twilight anyways?”

“She’s upstairs fixing up her room she should be down any second now.”

“I’m here,” Twilight said as she walked down the stairs, “Hello everypony.”

“Hello Twilight,” both Fluttershy and I said in unison.

“Hello you two I was hoping to be able to ask you a few more questions Paul and observe you for a little bit.”

“Observe me?” I asked a little bit curious and worried as to what she meant.

“Like look at your body structure and I also have a few questions to ask you, but I first would like to tell you that I did notify Princess Celestia about you,” she said as she turned to Spike, “ here Spike please send this to the Princess for me.”

“Can do Twilight,” was all he said then he burnt the letter. I guess he just sent it because the flame seemed to fly out side of the window.

“Alright Paul now to my questions, you should get comfortable because I sure do have a lot.”
Oh boy.

After at least thirty minutes of question from Twilight we heard a knock at the door.

“Oh who can that be the library is closed today anyway.” Twilight muttered as she walked over to the door.

“P-Princess Celestia and Princess Luna,” Twilight said as she bowed before.

“Yes my faithful student I am here to talk about this Paul.”

“He’s sitting over there.” She said as she pointed over to me.

At first glance they looked like regular ponies but with the horn, wings, and ethereal hair they were anything but regular. When Celestia saw me her mouth went agape.

“It is true a human,” Celestia said as she put her hoof over her mouth, “please come with my sister and I we must talk in private.” She said as she beckoned me to follow them outside.

“Alright,” I said as I followed the two Princesses to the back of the house.
“How did you get on my planet,” Celestia asked getting right to business, “and what business have you here?

“I died from an incurable disease.” I said being blunt about things.

“That still doesn't explain what you are doing on my plant!” She said in an angry tone.

“I don't know really how I got here and I don’t really know what I’m doing here I’m basically alone on this strange planet.”

“You will tell me how you got here or I will turn you to stone and put you on display in my garden.” She hissed getting uncomfortably close to me.

“You want to know about me fine. My name is Paul I was abused as a child. I had very few friends and was always useless. I lived out my life alone and I died alone I had nobody to say I loved and they loved me back. I was living out my days in depression and dealing with the scars that nobody can see.I even had to kill someone just to protect my family then when that happened people misjudged me they looked at what I had to do and not me.Every day I had people looking at me like a monster when all I wanted was a friend.Then one day I figured out one day that I had only six months to live. The day I died I died knowing I couldn't do anything about it, nothing. You want to know the worst part of it I found it good that I didn't have many that missed me but the few that I know will I think about them constantly I always feel like a monster for putting them through what I did. I always wanted to be alone so nobody would miss me and now the ones that do are burnt into my mind. My own mother will have to watch her son be taken into a coffin and know she couldn't do anything to prevent his death. I think you know enough about me.” I said.

“Sister he means no harm please just stop,” Luna said.

“I’m sorry I didn't mean what I said like that,” she said in a much softer voice, “my name is Celestia Princess of the sun.” I could see she was trying to start over.

“No offense but I like the moon better anyways.” I said.

A change of heart

Flashback:

My mother and I sat around a table talking about school and television programs we watched. After a while of talking she was cleaning up the plates from dinner and moving them into the sink. Halfway through her routine our front door seemed to explode open. I looked around and saw her screaming and I ran into my room and grabbed my Balisong (butterfly knife). I had it ready and when I walked out saw her on the floor screaming.

“WHERE’S THE FUCKING MONEY?!” the intruder’s voiced boomed and ran through my head like a bullet. He had his back turned to me, so I took advantage of this. I immediately ran behind and slit his throat and watched his AR-15 drop to the ground. As blood filled his lungs he emitted a gurgling sound as he tried to speak I took the knife and pushed it into his heart for extra measure.

I immediately sheathed my knife and looked at the world closing in around me. I looked down at my shaking hands and the dead body lying in front of me. The thoughts raced through my head. He could’ve changed, he could’ve been a better person, you could've restrained him. It’s all your fault. The blood that now lies on my hands can never be washed away; I will have to add this to my collection of scars that cover my body. The scars that nobody can see…

I was now back to reality with the two royal alicorns in from of me, my hands shaking as I looked down on them. They both look at me with concern and confusion on their face.

“What’s wrong?” Celestia asked with concern on her face.

“Nothing just...nothing,” I said.

“What you did, you did to protect your family,” Celestia said.

“I know and I don’t regret it I’m grateful they’re alright. I just don’t want my reputation to precede me here.”

“Your secret is safe with us, right dearest sister?” Luna said, not making it sound like a question, but more of a command.

“Of course, but before we leave I must apologize if I acted too harshly,” Celestia said.

“Well, I accept your apology and it’s alright. You were just doing what is best for the people, and I also must apologize. I was acting very immature.”

“I’m glad you understand,” Celestia said.

“Sister, if we might cut in for a moment,” Luna said and then turned her gazed to me, “We know what it is like to be alone for much of thy life, and have people look at thou like thou art a monster so just know that thou art not entirely alone in this world.”

“Thank you,” I said.

“Thou art welcome,” Luna said.

“We must be off now I have my court to tend to; it was nice meeting you Paul.”

“It was also nice to meet thou too Paul,” Luna said.

“It was nice to meet you both,” I said as I stood up to go inside.

“Tell Twilight I was running late and I must go,” Celestia said.

“Alright, I will,” I said as I walked to the door to the house.

I walked into the front door and all eyes were on me. I assumed they all heard what was going on out there.

“I see you met the princesses,” Twilight said she said in a less than enthusiastic voice.

“Yeah, do you have any more questions? Fluttershy wanted to take me somewhere.”

“No I don’t have any more for today but I would like you to come over tomorrow for the body observations.”

“Alright I will, Fluttershy do you want to go?”

“Sure,” she said then turned to Twilight. “It was nice see you again Twilight.”

“It was nice seeing you too Fluttershy.” Twilight said.

We stepped outside together and walked to Rarity’s house to get some new clothes for me. On the way there I knew she was looking at me with a look of concern and worry all over her face.

“Paul, was what you said true about having to k-kill someone?” she asked and I didn’t want to lie to her, and I wasn’t.

“Yes, I’m not a dangerous person though. It was just something I had to do.”

“I know you’re not dangerous, I was just wondering if it was true.”

“Yes it is, but can we change the topic, please?”

“Alright, well, um... I was actually going to suggest for your new clothes Rarity making you something warm since winter will be coming soon.”

“Wait what month is it here?” I asked seeing that there was a time difference between the two places.

“It’s November right now, why?”

“I was just curious.” I thought it strange they use the Gregorian calendar as well.

“Yes, well, for the clothes I was thinking a hooded jacket and some longer pants.”

Personally I liked a beaked hoodie and some black pants they matched my shoes which were black and white. The jacket covered my face and the pants kept me warm. After thinking about what I wanted we arrived at Rarity’s home. Fluttershy opened the door and we walked in to Rarity putting the finishing touches on a dress.

“Hello, how are both of you doing?” Rarity asked us.

“Good,” we said in unison.

“Rarity I was wondering if you could get Paul some warmer clothes, seeing it’s getting close to winter.” Fluttershy said as she sat down in a chair in the waiting room.

“Oh I would love to, it would be an honor to be the first one to make clothing for a human,” Rarity said.

“Thank you very much. I was thinking some longer pants and a beaked hood for my clothes,” I said.

“Beaked, what do you mean by that?” Rarity asked setting her drink aside as she levitated a measuring tape.

“Well, it’s a jacket that has a beak coming down between my forehead covering some of my face,” I said as I trailed the lines on my face to show where the hood comes down with my finger.

“Alright dear, I can do that. But first we much take your measurements.”

“Alright,” I said as I removed the clothes I was wearing for my measurements. This wasn’t the first time I had to get my measurements for a suit or clothes. I didn’t really think of how removing my clothes might be a little strange for them. I probably should’ve told them about this.

“What are you doing?” Rarity asked with a curious look on her face while Fluttershy hid her blushing face.

“Oh, sorry, where I come from you normally strip down to your underwear for the most precise measurements.”

“Okay darling, stand still while I take them for you.”

“Alright,” I said as I put my arm flat out on the wall and my legs still. When she started to take them I felt her magical aurora around the tape measure. It felt like a warm disembodied hand running across my legs, arms, back, chest, and head. It only took her a few moments to finish up the measurements, but I could tell the measurements were very precise.

“Okay, I’m finally done, you can move now dear.”

“Thank you very much ma’am. Is there anything I can do to repay you for this?”

“That will not be necessary I’m always happy to help.”

“As long as it’s alright with you,” I said as I put on my clothes; I already knew I was going to do something to repay her for this. I didn’t want to be a burden on the only people that could help me in this world.

“This should be done within two days and I promise you will love it.”

“Thank you again ma’am I appreciate this so much.”

“You are very welcome Paul. Now if you two would excuse me I must get to work. It was lovely seeing you both.”

“It was good to see you too,” Fluttershy said.

“It was nice to see you as well Rarity.”

With that, we walked out leaving Rarity to get to work.

“So what do you want to do now?” I asked her seeing we had done everything on our agenda.

“Well, um, I was going to go see if you could help me get some food for my animals today at the market,” Fluttershy said. “I need some help with carrying them back. Normally Rainbow Dash helps me but she has weather duty today.”

“Alright, let’s go,” I said as I pulled my iPod out of my pocket to check the time. It read 12:47. It seemed like not that long ago I was in Twilight’s home being interrogated. I started to walk after Fluttershy but I kept my eyes glued onto my iPod to preoccupy my idol hands. As I was looking through my pictures on my iPod I stumbled upon a certain picture that caught my eye. It was me on my 17th birthday but something was different about it. My cross; I immediately put my iPod back into my pocket and reached into my shirt.

It was there right under my shirt I’m surprised I didn't realize this earlier. I’ll just leave it out where it belongs right here safe and sound. After a while of twiddling with my cross I looked to see ponies staring at me everywhere. The stares were coming from all directions even a few pegasi stopped to stare at me up in the clouds. I hated being stared at like I was a piece of art on display. I could tell it was affecting Fluttershy as well. She stopped walking and visibly shank in terror of theses eyes glued on her I could tell it was like her world was closing around her. I knelt down and put a hand on her back and whispered into her ear.

“It’s alright, I’ll handle this,” I whispered to the shaking Pegasus.

“What do you want,” I ask as I stood up straight out and a serious look on my face, “you were told to ask me questions as you please; not stare at me like I am on display. Move on with your day and stop your staring please.” With that they all broke their gazes as they went on with their daily routine. I looked down to see that Fluttershy has stopped her shaking and is back to her old self.

“T-thank you,” she said.

“You’re welcome, now where is the place to get your pet food?” I asked as I started to follow her in the same direction as before. When I saw that we were practically in the middle of town I knew that it had to be close because of the sheer number of vendors in the area.

“It’s right over there,” Fluttershy said as she pointed to a vendor with a pony behind it surrounded by mounds of animal feed. I assumed Fluttershy was a regular customer because when he saw her he waved to her and smiled tenderly. His face was much different when he saw me. He looked at me with a face mixed with fear and curiosity. I waved to him and tried to pull off a smile but stopped trying and just looked at him with an emotionless face. I could at least pull this one off fine. As we walked up to the stand I heard him say.

“Who’s your friend here Fluttershy?” he asked as he looked me over; he played with his short beard as studied me.

“This is Paul, he’s new here and is going to help me carry the bags of feed back to my cottage. Paul, this Mr. Feed,” Fluttershy explained, clearing up any confusion. We both just waved at each other and he turned his attention from me to her.

“Will it be the regular today Fluttershy?” Mr. Feed asked her.

“Yes, I need three bags today of the pellets,” Fluttershy said as she pulled out a small pack of coins. “How much will that be?”

“Fifteen bits please,” he said as he help out his hoof and after he put the money in the cash register he pulled the three bags out. They didn't look too heavy but not too light either anyway I was happy to help. “Here you go Fluttershy have a nice day.”

“You too Mr. Feed, here you go Paul do you think you could-”

“HELP! THIEF!” I heard a mare scream out of my left ear and I saw a blue stallion with a mask on running with an object in his mouth. I figured a good run would do me good anyway.

“Hold on Fluttershy,” I said as I took off after him at full speed. I noticed he was going into some forest. I know I can catch him, I was always fast. I was gaining on him and running as fast as my legs could carry me. The faster I went the smaller the gap between us got. The terrain was changing it was growing to be more and more wooded as the chase went on. I was gaining on him and now only a few feet behind. I kept on running now only a few inches behind him this is my best chance and I’m going to take it.

“Gotcha,” I said as I reached out grabbing his tail and yanking him back causing him to drop the bag of fruits he stole. I held him up to my face and he was terrified almost to the point of tears. I looked him straight in the eyes which caused his to fill with fear. I pulled off his mask to reveal a grey maned pony.

“Oh come on what’s wrong; a hardened criminal like you isn’t afraid of me? Or is what I will do to you?” I asked watching him shake his head.

“I-I’m sorry sir please don’t kill me,” he pleaded as he swung in the balance.

“I’m not going to kill you; I have much better plans for you.” I said making him grow more worried and terrified. This is going to be fun.

“Attention my fellow citizens of Ponyville,” he said as I held him up in the air for everyone to see.

“I am here to apologize for being an inconvenience to all of you, and a disgrace to my friends and family. I have made a great mistake and will face the consequences; I would also like to apologize to the mare whom I have stolen theses fruits from,” I pointed to them on the ground next to my feet.

“I acted out of sheer stupidity and you do not deserve to be treated in such a way. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.” He said everything I instructed for him to do. I saw two ponies outfitted in armor that were carrying cuffs for him to be put into. At this point his face was riddled in shame and red I almost felt bad for him, but hopefully he learned his lesson. I gave him to the guards and they took him off. I walked over and gave the mare he fruits back she told me thank you and gave me a warm smile.

All the people of the town were now looking at me differently not with fear and confusion but gratefulness and gratitude. They talked about how “maybe I wasn't so bad.” I actually felt good for once in a long time and also smiled, and not even a fake one a real smile. I don’t want to be praised for this but I will cherish this moment for the time being. I walked over to Fluttershy who was confused as to what just happened.

“Are you ready to go home?” I asked as I bent down to grab the bags of animal feed. I picked them all up and motioned with my head for her to follow me.

“Yes, when we get home I think we should talk a little bit more,” she said as walked the path to her home.

“I would right now honestly love to talk and mostly to you.” With the events that have transpired I was happy. I can now say that actually meaning it.

The Path

“Are you crazy?! You could’ve gotten hurt!” Fluttershy exclaimed, clearly frustrated that I put myself in harm’s way like that. We were still on the path to her cottage, and I was still carrying her animal feed for her.

“How? He was weak and slow to start with. I was trained to fight anyway; he wouldn’t have been much of a threat.”

“Don’t go doing that again; I don’t want you to get hurt.”

“Alright I won’t,” I sighed, defeated by the yellow Pegasus.

“What do you mean by ‘trained to fight’?” Fluttershy asked.

“Well, I took some classes for about 8 years and trained during that time as well. It was just a personal defense class that I took a while back,” I said, not wanting to tell her that I was a black belt in Karate and how I got my second Dan (ranking system for the black belts). I didn’t really feel like explaining that right now. As we neared her cottage, my stomach let out a growl to let me know it was time to eat.

“Oh, are you hungry by any chance?” she asked, obviously hearing my stomach’s clamorous plea for food. Luckily we were right outside her cottage so food was not far away.

“Yeah, I’m pretty hungry.”

“If you want I can make you a salad like last time,” Fluttershy said as she opened the door to reveal a horde of animals awaiting their meal. One stood out in particular. Angel, her rabbit who she told me about but I haven’t really seen until now. He was pointing at his wrist and giving Fluttershy the evil eye; he obviously wasn’t happy with our delayed arrival. Today was going to be interesting, I just knew it.

So after I ate my lunch and Angel stopped throwing a hissy fit over not getting his food on time, I decided maybe going for nice run would be beneficial to me. I am still taking in all of this change.

“Hey Fluttershy, I’m going for a run, so I’ll be back in a few,” I said as I got up from the table I was eating at and walked to the door.

“Oh, alright. Be careful,” she said, and turned her attention from her animals to me.

“Okay,” I like that she cares about my wellbeing but she needs to stop worrying; I really can handle myself. Before I started I pulled out my iPod, I always like to run with some good music. The time read 1:30 P.M; not a bad time for a run. I started jogging down the path to her cottage into town and once I reached the end I went across the bridge and to the left. It was quiet over here and today was an all-round beautiful day. The sun shown bright and birds flew through the air and pegasi rested on clouds. Soon enough, I was away from the town and all of its occupants.

I kept jogging for a few minutes until I saw a long path. I saw that it went on for a while, so I just went into a full-blown sprint. The farther I went in the more the scenery changed. I felt the sun’s hot rays beating against my neck as the various smells of nature filled my nostrils. The dirt under my feet was soft and cool to the touch. Leaves and twigs crunched under my feet. The soft cool breeze flowing into my face was hungrily devoured by my burning lungs. I ran not knowing where I was going; only knowing that I was going somewhere. I needed a run to clear my thoughts and take in all of this. I soon stopped my run and come to a farm with an array of apple trees abaft to it. I stood up on a hill to the farm letting the soft breeze blow my stained white shirt. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a small number of ponies.

I only recognized one and that was Applejack. There was another red one with a yoke around his neck. The second thing I realized was the voluminous number of apple trees. They must’ve gone on for miles. I stood looking at the vast countryside in front of me. I stood there for a while until I heard hooves coming in my direction. It was Applejack, one of Fluttershy’s friends. I haven’t really talked to this one much, only a little on the way to the party.

“Hey there Sugarcube, what brings ya to our farm?” Applejack asked as she took off her Stetson and wiped sweat from her forehead.

“This is your farm? Wow, it’s huge. How many people work for you?” I asked in awe over the size and beauty of the landscape before me.

“This here is Sweet Apple Acres, and this is our family run business here. We Apples take pride in our work.”

“Do you ever need help with all of this?” I asked wondering if maybe I could do something other than stay home with Fluttershy all day. I don’t mind staying with her but I imagine it’d get quite monotonous after some time.

“Not really, mah kin and I do most of the work,” Applejack said proudly.

“Well I was wondering if you need any, I could lend a hand. I’m quite an able bodied person, I can even do a lot of heavy lifting,” I said trying to convince her to let me do something here. I didn’t want to do what I did at the hospital, and that was mediocre workouts and nothing. Toward the end it was hard to do anything so I just lay in bed, sulking.

“Well ah think that an extra helpin’ hoof… err, hand… never hurt anypony.”

“Great, I’d love to help any time I can. Do you think I could get started now?” I asked, visibly excited about finally doing something useful for a change.

“Well shoot, why the hay not?” Applejack said as she turned and waved her hoof for me to follow. “C’mon, I gotta show you to mah family.” This should be fun.

It was now 6 o’clock at night. I met their family and they were all very kind and welcoming. Granny Smith got used to me fast although she initially thought I was a monkey. After a while she had grown to like me and accepted me. Apple Bloom was frightened of me at first but when she worked up the courage to talk to me and saw I was nice she warmed up to me quickly. She kept asking questions like where I was from, what it was like there, and what we did for fun. She also insisted on telling me about her little friends club ‘The Cutie Mark Crusaders’. Then she kept asking me what my cutie mark was and if I was interested in participating in it. I had to explain to her that I don’t get them we just find our talents. Applejack eventually got her to stop her incessant questioning and told her to go help Granny Smith with dinner.

I got along good with Big Macintosh seeing that neither of us talks much. At first he was apprehensive of me and we kept our distance, but seeing that we would be working together we put it all aside and focused on the work at hand. My job was to carry buckets of apples in and help pick up any that fell. Applejack noticed my work and complimented me on it; surprisingly she even offered me a job with great pay she said this would make me an honorary Apple. I quickly accepted this and thanked her for her kindness.

By the end of the day we had hulled in over 250 buckets of apples. It felt good to get out and help others for a little while. I was just about to leave an hour ago but they insisted I stayed for dinner. I didn’t want to be a burden but Granny Smith insisted on me attending dinner. We ate vegetable soup and apple pie for desert. It was the best apple pie that I had ever tasted. They even gave me a piece to give to Fluttershy. It was getting dark outside so I left for Fluttershy’s cottage. I said my goodbyes before I left and thanked them all for being so kind to me. The walk home turned into a run, I didn’t want to be stuck in the dark since I don’t really know my way around here.

On my run there I realized something. There was a time difference between earth and here. My birth was on February 23rd, yesterday, and today is November 24th according to what Fluttershy told me this morning. I wonder if any of the ponies will hire me. After some time of running I reached Fluttershy’s home. I saw the light escape from the windows of her cottage making a beacon for me to guide my way. I opened the door and took off my shoes placing them next to the door. I walked in slowly clutching the plate that was holding Apple Pie. The first thing that graced my vision was her dusting the shelves of her cottage whilst humming a soft tune. She turned around abruptly as she heard me enter her home suddenly startled by me entering her home.

“H-hello Paul, how was your run?” Fluttershy asked with a weak smile on her face.

“Good, I went to Applejack’s farm though I was there for a while helping them with carrying buckets. I also brought you a slice of pie,” I said as I held it for her to grab.

“I knew you were there because I got worried when you didn’t come back so I asked Rainbow Dash if she saw you and she told me you were at Sweet Apple Acres,” Fluttershy said, making me slightly uneasy.

“Okay, thanks but I’m fine on my own, you don’t need to keep tabs on me.”

“O-okay sorry,” She said hanging her head low.

“No, no, it’s fine, I’m just not used to being looked after like this,” I said reassuring her that I wasn’t upset.

“Oh okay, I just wanted to make sure you were alright. After I heard how you felt here I just wanted to make you feel more at home,” she said in an innocent tone. “If you want to talk about anything I’ll be right here to listen.”

I walked over to her couch and sat down; when I collided with the soft cushions I let out a lengthy sigh. I ran my fingers through my shadowy hair and look at her with my coal eyes. I don’t want her to know the whole story I never want her to know its entirety.

“Fluttershy, when I was younger, my dad told me something that I would never forget. He told me that if you have something to talk about, tell it to someone who cares. At that very moment, I realized nobody cared about how I felt. I thought, ‘if my dad doesn’t care, then who will?’ Then I realized that I didn’t want anyone to care. I don’t want you to care because then I’m just another person for you to worry about. I just want to stay out of your way and not become more of a burden than I have already.”

“Sometimes, you just need to let it out and vent to someone,” she said trying to propose a new way to make me feel better.

“I’ve kept too much in to let it out now,” I said. “Thanks again.” She walked over next to me and sat down beside me. She looked me in the eye and rubbed my hand with her hoof.

“You’re welcome just r-remember I’ll be right here if you need me,” she said, feebly stroking my hand.

“I know… I know.”