Looking Back to Take a Step Forward

The light of the past is drawing thin,
Now its presence is becoming dim.
Looking back on those accomplishments,
Too much weighs down on my mind, I find.
More-than-enough songs fallen to time;
Further intertwined than they know are the lives of their kind.

I’ve heard pleas of guilt for unthought actions;
Throughout which I’ve chosen compassion.
The even scales are ours to fashion.
So never has justice waned in this fair land,
However, though I might persevere with conviction.
Blood always seems to soak the sand.

Natural remedies to disputes: ending in war;
Their life’s force too hastened to pour.
I question my right to challenge that,
It seems to satisfy.
Almost enamoured in fact.

Once I enter the fray,
Never am I the one to truly pay.
Always observant in futility,
I cannot forgo myself to console or comfort.
I’m bound to immortality in duty of consequence;
Moral dilemmas too difficult to consider recompense.

Unfortunate to be trapped,
Fortunate to realise futility;
What extent are we truly free.
I look down, and I see.
Glimmering back is the reason to be;
Perhaps it’s not so bad to be me.

I rise on high to be visible on low.
During my crest, I depart what I know.
Dip beyond the horizon to dim my glow;
Left behind, a time for anxious woe;
The undeniable truth is strife,
Cutting through ones hopes like a razor sharp knife.
We all reap what we sow in life.