Nightmares of the Heart

(A/N thanks to all of those who waited, though indefinitely, for updates on Hearts and Nightmares. I hope this revision will compensate well enough. Boy am I glad i looked at this and skimmed for any red squiggly lines because I caught a bunch of SHe's and WHat's... Enjoy!)

“Twilight Sparkle.” Celestia started. Twilight was in Celestia’s room. All the doors and windows were closed and locked. Celestia was holding a letter in her magical grasp, not even wanting to lay her hands upon it.

“I thought I was your teacher, your mentor...” She continued. Twilight sighed. It was this nightmare again. Dream-Twilight sends dream-Celestia a letter explaining how in love she is with the princess, princess is disgusted and then she gets banished to some corner of the universe.

“But this letter? It honestly makes me smile.” And she’d be lonely and the feelings would never be retu-wait what?

“When I first read it, I didn’t know what to think. It was the first time I’ve thought about myself in a long, long time.” Celestia continued. She was looking at Twilight with the biggest smile she had ever seen on the princess. This was strange, normally these nightmares would have her banished by now and she’d be weeping as she was surrounded by nothing. But here she was, dumbfounded as the Princess reread a part of the letter with a sweet giggle.

“I must say, you have a way with words. You are old enough to do what you want and love who you choose. We’re both adults, but you make me feel like a filly.” Celestia giggled as she levitated the letter onto a desk and stepped right in front of Twilight.

“And going by the letter, you can’t possibly have any objections to this.” She whispered sweetly and kissed the girl.

“You ok Twi?” Spike asked, worry in his eyes, when Twilight bolted upright with a loud gasp. She was sweating and out of breath. Spike had become somewhat used to this, though. Twilight was having another nightmare.

“I’m... I’m fine.” Twilight said, plopping back down into her pillows.

“Another nightmare?” The boy asked.

“Um... yeah...” Twilight replied.

“You really need to talk about this to someone. Seriously, you’ve already got like near insomnia with how much you study and all that. You don’t need it to go full blown because of nightmares.” Spike sighed.

“Don’t worry, it’s not like it’s some big deal that’s ripping me apart from the inside emotionally.” Twilight said with a light smile.

“It’s been happening alot lately, Twi, I think you should tell somebody you really trust. This is the fifth time this week you’ve woken up like this. I’ve already taken matters into my own hands.” Spike said.

“What did you do?” Twilight asked, not sure whether to be grateful or scared of what he did. Her question was answered when he coughed up a letter in a bout of green flame.

“You told the princess?” Twilight asked. Spike nodded and quickly vacated the room under the pretense of making breakfast. She sighed in annoyance and looked at the letter in her hand. Great, she was going to have to deal with the nightmares -and this new dream- by talking to their source. She steeled herself and opened the parchment.

‘My most faithful student.
It has come to my attention that you are being troubled by nightmares. Spike informs me you refuse to talk to him about it and he asked me to do so. Of course I accepted, I can’t have my best student be emotionally distraught now can I? I’ve secured a day or two of vacation time with the help of my assistants and my sister so I shall arrive soon by the time you finish reading this.
-Celestia’

The letter read. Her eyes widened as she realized what was going to happen. Celestia was going to get here and ask her about the nightmares. She wouldn’t be able to lie and avoid telling her for long, she just couldn’t refuse the princess, and when she did the nightmare would come true. She couldn’t even bullshit her way through it and say it’s just a dream, she was startled to find she actually harbored these feelings.

She thought back on the nightmare, and then it’s recent change. She couldn’t help but revel in the memory of the dream-kiss and what may or may not have transpired afterwards. With a moment’s thought she decided a cold shower would be nice right about now.

“So what was the letter about?” Spike asked over breakfast.

“Well for starters you’re an ass for telling her without at least warning me beforehand.” Twilight said.

“Whoa, is there really something going on with those nightmares? Normally you don’t get this flustered at anything.” Spike said.

“It’s just...Not something I want being broadcasted or anything.” Twilight sighed.

“You still need to tell someone you trust.” Spike retorted.

“Well we’re about to find that out.” Twilight said as there was a knock on the door. When Twilight didn’t move to get up, Spike walked over to the door and opened it.

“Hello Spike.” Celestia said happily.

“Princess?! I never thought you’d actually come here in person so soon.” Spike said.

“Well you did make it seem rather urgent.” Celestia said.

“It’s not urgent it’s just annoying.” Twilight grumbled from her place at the table.

“I promised Rarity I’d watch the Crusaders while she does errands around town so I’ll see you later. Don’t leave too soon, Princess.” Spike said, stepping around Celestia.

“Don’t worry, I wouldn’t even think to leave without at least a goodbye.” Celestia said with a smile. He nodded and closed the door.

“Well come on in...” Twilight sighed as Celestia awkwardly stood in front of the door for a minute.

“So, tell me about these nightmares.” Celestia said, sitting down.

“It’s really not that big of a deal...” Twilight said.

“You have bags under your eyes. I know your irregular sleeping schedule has made you used to little sleep, the fact that the signs of sleep deprivation are showing on you now tells me it is.” Celestia said.

“Do I really have to?” Twilight asked after a moment of silence.

“No, but I’d much rather you did. I just want to help. What could possibly be so bad that you couldn’t tell Spike or me?” Celestia asked. She was confused, she’d never seen Twilight like this. She was more irritable than Rainbow Dash after being grounded for a week or Rarity in the middle of a three-night streak of all nighters getting orders done.

“Something happens i’m banished and it freaks me out. There.” Twilight said.

“Twilight... Please, I just want to help. Luna is getting curious and she has been offering to step in on the nightmares and soothe them for you. That’s a bit invasive though so I told her not to, but I might have to take that back if it’s bothering you this much.” Celestia said. Twilight let out a hefty sigh and placed her forehead on the table, resting the crown of her head on her arms.

“It’s just... It involves you and I’m afraid if I talk to you about it I would lose you as a mentor and a friend.” Twilight said. “And if that happened, well... You can probably imagine.” She continued. Now Celestia was scared for her student. Apparently, her most faithful student and best of friends was having nightmares and they involved her. And apparently these nightmares were so bad that it threatened their relationship.

“I promise you, no matter what, no matter what this nightmare could possibly be, I will listen to the entire thing and it will not threaten our friendship in the least.” Celestia said. Twilight looked up and their eyes met for a full minute before the girl leaned back into her seat and let out another hefty sigh.

“I’m at the castle... In your chambers. Apparently I’ve sent a letter to you that fills you with hate and disgust and you banish me... The loneliness just engulfs me and scares me more than anything I’ve ever faced. But the only thing that scares me more than that? The letter, it was a... A love letter... And I can’t just pass it off as my imagination running wild in a dream.” Twilight slowly explained.

Needless to say, Celestia had most certainly not expected that. She was actually speechless, unable to even form much of a coherent thought. She snapped out of it when she saw Twilight’s face. Her speechlessness had apparently made Twilight think the worst, for she looked like someone about to lose the most important thing in their life.

“That’s Absolutely ridiculous. A letter like that would have brought a huge smile to my face.” Celestia finally responded.

“W-what?” Twilight asked.

“Love isn't something to be ashamed of, Twilight. You should be proud of it. What do you think Friendship is but love? Come to think of it, Romance is just the love of friendship with a bit of lust and intimacy added.” Celestia said. The more she spoke of it, the more she smiled.

“Really? I’ve never thought about it like that... But wait, what about...” Twilight started, but her voice died off at the end. Celestia knew what she was saying though. She got up from her seat opposite Twilight and walked up to the girl and pulled her to her feet and into a close embrace.

“You’re an adult now, you can love whoever you want. It just so happens that this particular princess loves her faithful student more than she should.” Celestia said softly into her ear. Twilight’s eyes met Celestia’s as the princess pulled her head back slightly. Slowly, their lips met between them and Twilight was in near Euphoria.

She didn’t even have the mental focus for anything besides the kiss to protest as they started moving as it deepened. She felt solid wall behind her, they had backed her into the doorway to the main hall and library. She had a feeling that she and her very being was completely in Celestia’s hands and there was nothing she could do about it. And she loved it.

They eventually ended it, panting slightly, so they could breathe properly.

“Don’t feel creeped out about this, but I’ve been wanting to do that to you for a few years now...” Celestia said lowly.

“I was about to say the same thing.” Twilight said. She had no idea where it came from, she wasn’t nearly that bold, but Celestia just brought that out of her.

“I’ve never had a real life partner, only fake suitors and power hungry nobles. I’ve always wanted to know what it was like to actually date someone that I loved.” Celestia said.

“Well, I’ve always wondered what it would be like to date someone taller than I am, let alone date someone, so I guessed we are on the same page.” Twilight giggled. Celestia let out a sweet laugh and started the kiss back up, though she kept it much more reeled in than the previous one.