MAY 12 Tuesday.

It's been a little over a week since my meeting Celestia and I've spent that time practicing like normal but keeping my magical use light, I felt fine after the first two days but I've kept things light just to be safe and not temp fate again, once was more then enough for me.

I still haven't used my space magic, and to be honest a small part of myself is scared about using it, but fear will get me nowhere fast. And that leads me to what I'm doing right now, I'm once again sitting on my floor attempting something new.

I feel the magic in by body and start willing it to convert into space magic while taking everything very slow just to be safe, and not long into this process I feel something that helps explain how my magic was drained so badly so fast. To put it simply the magical conversion ratio between my magic and space magic is complete shit.

When I first unlocked my life affinity the conversion ratio wasn't too bad but was still draining on me, but with time and all my practice it's vastly improved. But it contrast the conversion ratio for space magic is a lot worse and will probably take much more of my magic to do anything.

This is why I went from ok, to unconscious in such a short amount of time, and it means that I have to be more careful with how I go about this especially because I have no idea what I'm doing. And that brings me to another question, how should I train my space magic?

Fucking with the fabric of reality isn't something to take lightly and could go wrong in so many ways I don't understand, so I need to be careful. So as a first step I'm going to just test what space magic does when I try to accomplish simple things with it and go from there.

I place a single blook of Steel wood on the floor in front of me and have to come to my first decision. Do I want to keep the piece of Steel wood close to me and save on magical costs while having better control. Or do I want to keep it away from me incase anything happens to it while I'm testing things.

I think about it more while making some tea that I'll need for this. On one hoof keeping control of the space magic might be best as I'm not sure if it will react in anyway to the world around it when uncontrolled. Any magical affinity can only start affecting the environment around it if there is a high enough density of that magical affinity in a small enough area.

But this can change depending on the affinity. Some simply need a lot of that magical affinity to cause a reaction, others need some other type of magic or magical object to do anything. As an example lets take fire affinity magic, it can cause things to catch on fire or heat up an area if there is enough fire magic, but that amount is several dozen times higher then the normal amount in the environment.

This could be a problem, space magic does exist in the environment around me but it's in such small concentrations that even my natural magic has dozens of times more then the entire room around me. So if I try to do something with my new space magic and lose control I have no way of knowing if I'll pass the density threshold for it to start affecting the world around me if I lose control.

So after some more thought I decided that the best way to know is to carefully test it. I head to my workroom and grab a medium sapphire before enchanting it with the same shielding spell I used when experimenting with my cutie mark. I enchant the gem to hold and gather magic like normal but complete my work much quicker then I normally do.

Over the past week I've been deliberately not draining too much of my magic and stopping before I get even close to low, so over that time I've been relearning less magically intensive spells. And that includes the three most common spells I use in enchanting, the enchanting spell that lets me bind other spells to an object, and the magic gathering and storing spells.

I can now cast all three instantly and no longer have to draw them out every time, it should help speed up my work slightly. Once I'm done with the sapphire I grab a small ruby and start enchanting it to hold the sapphire in the air with the float spell I've made.

Once both are done I take them over to what I've come to call the Gem Charger, and place the medium sapphire next to the Iron gem to help it fill much faster. While I wait for the gem to fill, I spend my time practicing the flows of the Companion Vine and copying them.

I've been practicing this for a while now and I'm nearing the point where this process would give me just as much magic back as I expend into it. But getting this far has meant I have had to copy the finer details of the magical flows, and that takes a lot of time and focus so my progress has slowed down a lot.

The good news is that doing this has helped me improve my magical control by a lot and keeps doing so. I spend two hours in my room meditating and waiting until the sapphire is fully filled, once it is I place the small ruby on the floor and let it suspend the medium sapphire several feet in the air where it's two foot shield isn't touching anything while the medium sapphire floats in the center.

I make sure everything is ready and working properly before attempting anything, I start converting my magic into space magic and moving it into the shielded area. I was used to controlling small amounts of space magic but controlling this much at once is harder, but manageable.

When I first taped into all this space magic while unlocking my space affinity it was easer to control because is was a gradual increases in amount, that, and I was very determined at the time. Back to the test I keep slowly pushing more and more magic into the shielded area while trying my best to keep it inside.

I don't get that far before I get through roughly half of my magic, and then I let all of that collected space magic go while bracing for anything to happen. I don't hear anything but not even a fraction of a second after I let the magic go wild a part of the medium sapphire is just, fucking, gone.

No visual effects or portals of any kind, about a third of the gem is just gone without a trace. The only reason I don't panic is because most of the collected space magic also vanishes at the same time. Ok lessoned learned, NEVER EVER let space magic lose control. I rather not lose a piece of me thank you very much, fuck that.

I make sure there is no other affects and that most of the magic was used up or stable enough to be left alone to dissipate. After that I looked around my apartment making sure everything is ok, and I find the other piece of the gem partly inside of bed stand.

You hear right, not on my bed stand, IN IT. Ok well that answers one question, I'm lucky it didn't land in another apartment. I reach out and am able to pull the gem piece out without much effort. It left a hole where it was lodged, guess I'll need to replace this.

I'm so damn lucky I used all the space magic I converted when I unlocked my space affinity, I don't think anything good would have happened if I didn't. I shutter a bit at the thought and decide to try not think about it and move on, I pick up the gem piece and bring it back to my workroom.

Thankfully the remaining gem was enough to keep the shield and magic stored inside stable despite the damage caused to it. I look over the piece and see that the part of the gem that was separated wasn't evenly or smoothly cut, but a mess of sharp points and jagged pieces sticking out at odd angles.

It's a total loss and the gem is beyond fucked, It's lost its ability to hold magic very well and could be potentially be unstable. I'm surprised it's still stable enough to have kept the shield up at all afterwards. I decide to disenchant it's ability to gather magic just to be safe and after a moment also decide to enchant it with the linking spell I made for the Gem Charger and drain the rest of it's magic into other gems.

Once it's completely drained and I remove it's enchantment to hold magic and the link along with the shield, it's now back to a normal gem that is now broken. I leave it be and spend my time recovering my magic before testing anything new, while also still trying to decide on how to train my space magic.

Losing control is not an option, so I need to keep what ever I'm training with close by, but if I do that and things do go wrong I'd be too close to move away in time. I'm also not sure how far over the density threshold I went, I could have just barely passed it or I could have gone far past it, and I'm sure as hell not testing that here again.

After recovering my magic I decide on an idea and grab a small stack of blank paper, I sit on the floor again with the paper and more tea. I take a single piece of paper off of the stack and cut it into smaller pieces before placing a piece in front of me and concentering on my magic.

My idea is simple, the heavier and bigger the object the more space magic and control I'd need to train safely, so I'll start with something very light and small. I reach out with my space magic and try by best to will it to move by manipulating the space around it carefully.

I can only think of two ways to move objects right now. First, I can flex and bend the space to move something through reactions. Second, I could move a chunk of the space around the object, witch in theory should also move the object. The first seems easier and safer to do so I start there, I also try my absolute best to keep full control over my magic at all times.

I try to move the piece of paper up off the floor for a while, I very slowly use more and more space magic until something finally happens. I successfully flex the space just enough at the correct angle and watch as the piece of paper rises into the air in an unsteady and chaotic way.

I try to stabilize it there and keep it steady but as you'd imagine controlling space isn't easy. I practice like this for a while keeping it in the air, and while practicing I pull too hard at a point in space and watch as the piece of paper crumples slightly at that point.

I realize why while staring at the formally pristine piece of paper, I tried to pull on the space too hard and caused a stronger then intended pull, that's why the piece of paper got crumpled up a little. I guess I have another thing I'll have to be careful about.

This entire ability is looking more and more like a death trap, but if I lean to control it well enough who knows what I'll be able to accomplish with it. With some renewed caution and determination I continue practicing trying my best to not damage the paper and keep it in the air.

In between my practice I take breaks to refill my magic and spend that time working on the B.L.P spell witch has seen significant progress. I've been working on it slowly for a little over six months now and it's nearing completion, I'll probably do a little extra work to smooth a few things out but if all goes to well it should be done in a few weeks, two months at the most.

I continue this back and forth for a few hours before deciding to call it a night, I walk over to Entropy who's resting on her perch and whistle up at her. I can't see her eyes so I don't know she's awake until she moves her head from under her wing to look down at me.

"Dinner time." That's all I need to say to get her full attention. She flies down to me and lands on my back while I walk into the kitchen, she jumps off and sits on the counter as I start cooking. It's nothing amazing, some grilled fish with the Red Root for some spice and flavor, along with a small loaf of bread.

It all works well together and both of us enjoy our meals. I'm not fully ready to head to bed yet and Entropy still needs to do her practice so I find the small sapphire I store all of my star maps in and have Entropy take both of us to the forest. I look up to see a sky full of stars and find a decent place to lie down.

Once I do, I activate the small gem to start drawing. I don't have a specific style of way of drawing them I just draw all the different points of light and form lines in between them to create different things. I spend a while like this, staring up at the sea of stars above me.

Author's Note

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