Supposed Insanity

It's gotten rather hard to sustain myself on almost no food. My thinking has been clearer but I experience hunger pangs every so often. They will occasionally cut my concentration. Once the nurses have given me my meal, I hide it under my mattress. (I realize, not the best place but where else could I put it?) Once it's out of sight, walk back to the door and say that i'm still hungry. They will occasionally give me an apple or two. Though they are misshapen and bruised, it's better than nothing. I decide that "Nap time" is as good a time as any to 'Travel' again.

I concentrate long and hard about where I want to go. Equestria, Ponyville, Twilight's library. My destination is set and I am ready to leave. I close my eyes and relax, thinking only of my expected surroundings once I arrive. I feel myself being whisked out of my chair, as if a group of people lifted me up all at once. I then feel speed. I am moving rapidly through whatever dimension I 'Travel' through to get to Equestria. Like being on a roller coaster, but one that is peaceful. Then, as quickly as it started, it stops. I open my eyes and i'm back in Equestria. Twilight's library, best source of knowledge anywhere! I notice my orange hooves and my yellow mane again, my cutie mark, which I missed! I missed everything! I feel pretty happy right now. That is, until i'm sent head first into one of the many book shelves. When I get back up, I'm not hurt or bleeding but a little dizzy. Apparently Twilight had been levitating some books over to this shelf and I happened to be in her blind spot.

"Oh! I'm sorry Ryan, I didn't see you!" She's very polite when she apologizes.

"No, no. It's my fault. I should have chosen a more open area to appear in. I'm okay anyway." I subtly brought a hoof up to caress the back of my head, hoping she wouldn't notice.

"So, what are you doing around here?" I ask her. She picks up few books with her magic and stacks on top of a much larger pile on the opposite side of the room. I've always been fascinated with how they could do that. I, myself, was a Pegasus. No point in asking for magic lessons.

"I was just going to re-alphabetize the library with a little help from Spike." Spike was unconscious on one of the stair cases. I hadn't noticed him until she mentioned him. With the sleeping dragon and the colossal amount of books left to sort, I offer my assistance.

"How would you like these arranged?" I ask. Twilight looks around the room at the many hundreds of book shelves. After a few moments of quiet thinking, she spins around and directs me.

"I want these books-" She points her hoof at a large pile across the room. "Organized in A-Z order, and I need them ordered by color on those three book shelves!" She finishes pointing towards some shelves upstairs. This must be exciting for her. She's smiling and skipping around like she just one the lottery. Even though she wouldn't know what that is.

"Alright. I'll take care of it!" I am enthusiastic about helping her. She has been very kind and hospitable these past few months. I had explained the predicament I have to face back in my world, and she was so understanding. I love these ponies!

About three hours later, I have finished my book shelf organization.

"Hey, Twilight! I'm done!" Twilight teleports herself up to me and I jump back. It always scares me!

"Good job Ryan! If you're still able to help me I have to organize my scrolls." I am about to answer when I get the tingling sensation again.

"Sorry, Twilight. I have to leave for a while. Is that okay?" She nods.

"Yes, I can finish here by myself. I was just giving you something to do to keep you from getting bored." Well I certainly wasn't bored! I can't believe how difficult that was! This make Trigonometry look like a game!

"Alright then. See you later." I say farewell and trot out of the library. The tingling has become more of a burning now, so I need to leave quickly.

I go through the 'Traveling' process again and land on my bed in the mental institute. Hurray! Back to misery! I sit there for a few moments. The tingling is gone, so I try to 'Travel' again. But before I can...

"Ryan? You have visitors." The door swings open and my family is let in. Like I really want to see them! They stand there for a few seconds until the nurses come in with a few folding chairs. My family sits down and the nurses close the door. Silence fills the room as the tension from our stares at each other does most of the talking.

"Ryan?" My mother speaks.

"We miss you honey... We didn't want to have to do this, but you didn't seem like you knew the difference between reality and fiction. We want you to come home. We forgive you." I am instantly enraged. Pure seething hate erupts from my mouth as I speak.

"YOU FORGIVE ME!!! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG!!! YOU ARE SUCH HORRIBLE PEOPLE! LOCK YOUR OLDEST SON IN A MENTAL INSTITUTE BECAUSE HE SAYS HE CONSIDERS THE CHARACTERS FROM A SHOW TO BE HIS FRIENDS!!"

My father tries to say something and I stop him before he can.

"DON'T YOU EVEN DARE TRY SAYING ANYTHING TO ME! YOU ARE THE VERY WORST PEOPLE I HAVE EVER HAD THE MISFORTUNE OF DEALING WITH!!" My mother has tears in her eyes while my father wears an angry expression. My brother just sits in his chair twiddling his thumbs.

"I WANT YOU OUT OF THIS ROOM, I WANT YOU AWAY FROM THIS HOSPITAL, AND I WANT YOU OUT OF MY LIFE!!!" My family can see the rage in my eyes and my message finally gets across. They immediately get up and leave. Really that's what I was waiting for. My father gives me a hateful glare, my brother looks at me blankly, and my mother can't even face me.

Once they are gone, I sit back down on my bed, and sob bitterly. I'm just glad that none of my friends in Equestria can see me like this.