Chapter One: Love and Peace

It was a winter morning, and I was in bed with Silver talking about how my job had been the last few months. It was cold in the cabin we were living in at the time, so we had the covers pulled over the top of us. We lay there and held onto each other tight, loving the feeling of being close.

Winter had come to town just a few days ago, so the weather has been quite chilly. Silver was in a very loving mood. She kept kissing me on my neck and nibbling on my ear.

I giggled at her as she was humming a toon I knew well. Silver never liked the cold. So, I guessed she wanted winter to wrap up because that was just the song she decided to hum. She rubbed me right between my wings with a hoof. It felt heavenly with the two of us cuddling, But I knew she wanted more. But the question was, could I even provide the love she wanted?

I haven’t been able to have sex since the fire. Although I knew Silver had been wanting some attention down below. I knew I had aroused her enough in the past few months. But Just haven’t been able to, due to the burns and the incision on my plot.

Sure it’s been months but I was still a little sensitive back there. We had plenty of time to do so. Lightning wasn’t home, and Oakhearts fillies were at their friends. So we had all the privacy we could ever want. But I just didn’t want to hurt myself again. I mean yes I can pleasure her, but I also need some.

But I knew I had to face my fears sooner or later, “Silvie, you think it would be a good time, to well have some fun?” I asked her.

“Scoots, I am down for anything, but I don’t want to hurt you in the process.

I thought for a moment, I had completely healed so I had no reason to say no. Other than my fear.

“I want to give you the time you’ve been waiting for. I know you’ve been pent up. So have I. You have quit masturbating for me because I was unable to. You shared the pain I was in. I’m sure I want this.”

She started to cry for some reason. “Scootaloo, I’d love to, but I want to be sure, you can do so. I don’t want you hurt. I can organize an appointment to ask your Dr.”

I thought about what she said and came up with a quicker option. “Why don’t we just go see Pixel? He’s become a Dr. I'm sure he'd be able to check me out to see if I’m ok to do so.”

“Scoots He isn’t your Dr. You need a professional who knows more about this. Pixel has just begun training so he’s out of your options, and so is Oakheart.”

“But I don’t want to go another night,” I whined.

Silver gave me a glare which stopped my whining. “Scoots, If you want this you need to act your age,” She then giggled and continued. But I am sure that I don’t want to rush this. We need to be sure you won’t hurt yourself,”

I wanted to argue, but knew it would only make things worse… So, instead, I lay there quietly as I listened to Silver's breaths. It was nice, I loved being with her. But my mind drifted elsewhere, which made me more aroused.

It took a moment before Silver noticed this but when she did this only made her mad.

“Scoot’s really, you had to get wet, didn’t you? Out of everything you could have thought about, you chose to think of that.”

“Sorry,” I whimpered.

I knew she was enjoying this. She was playing with me. Making me wait on something I knew she also wanted. Or at least that's what I thought.

“Scootaloo, can you please be more patient? Yes, you've been waiting on this for quite some time, but could you try to control your urges?”

“Please, Silvie,” I whined as I still didn't understand why she was doing this.

“Mare up Scoots, if you were a stallion I’d expect this. The darn males can’t keep their dick in their sheath. I know you know best what I mean by that.” She said looking at me with her caring eyes.

I looked at the bed, I was starting to understand, she was worried like I was, and she also didn’t want to face the fear. Like she had been for so long, she was scared if she did, she’d hurt me.

She then continued and ended our little disagreement. “But, If I can keep my urges under control, I expect you to do the same. Because If I couldn’t control my urges I’d have left you. But I stayed with you even when I thought I lost you. You know you were on life support for a long period. I was so worried, worried that I’d lose you.

I looked at her feeling the pain she had gone through. I wasn’t the only pony suffering she was two. I don’t know why it took me this long to figure that out.

“I’m sorry Silver I shouldn't have brought it up…” I said sadly. I was giving her the sympathy she needed.

She rolled over and grabbed her glasses off the nightstand. She then rolled out of bed and then said. “Scoots I’m happy you want to do this again. I had to go through two heats without you. Three if you count the one I went threw with you, but we couldn’t do anything, because you were too weak. But I feel as though I can go another one just to keep you from getting hurt.

I look at her, getting out of bed wishing I could still be cuddling her. But I knew she wanted to avoid this so it’s probably best, that we get away from each other just for a bit. But as she walked to the bathroom she said,” Scoots I know how sensitive you are down there. More sensitive than you were even before. And Scoots, your arousal is more than any mare I know. You are also more sensitive than any mare I know. And wetter too. Now that this happened to you, you seemed to have become more so. Yes, I can understand why. For one your scar tissue. And for two your lack of touch down there. Even I’ve become a little more sensitive back there.”

I looked at her rear as she walked into the bathroom and caught her clit winking. I felt bad that she was doing this to herself for my sake. But it made me feel more loved. I just hope I don’t keep her waiting longer even after my trip to the DR.s.

I lay in bed for a little while deep in thought, I wished I could help my lover more than I have been able to. She’s practically done everything for me for the past couple of months. She brought me lunch in bed, sometimes even feeding me the lunch she had brought me, bathed me, took care of my foal, took me to all my doctor's appointments, and even some other things I didn’t want to talk about. I owe her at least this. Sure I know, our relationship isn’t based on our output of sex, but it's a big part of it.

I continued thinking but decided I should stay in bed instead of following Silvie to the bathroom. She needed some space. She hasn’t had much time to herself maybe I should let her go out on the town and be alone for a little while.

“Hey Silvie, would you like to have some time to yourself, I heard there is a good bar you can go to. After all, you should at least have some time alone.”

She yelled back from the bathroom, “Scoots, I don’t think going to a bar alone is a good idea, especially when I’m aroused. I kinda don’t trust myself which is another reason I don’t want to have sex. I don’t want to hurt you,”

“Silver I don’t want you to feel like that, I love you too much to keep you from doing something you need. I know how much you miss my touch I miss yours too.

“Scoots can you please change the subject?” Silver said annoyed.

I continued, on any way, “I wish you would because I don’t mind if you need to get yourself off. I can just go and Pick up Lightning Blitz and take him to Sugar Cube Corner. You haven't had time to yourself for months, I think it may be time you should have that time.”

“I guess you're right, we both need some time to ourselves, and I bet Lightning would love that. He hasn’t had much time with his mother.” She said from the bathroom.

“Thanks, Silvie, please think about getting off you, really you need this, I have seen that your clit winked. I also know heat season is coming up. You may be starting early. Just know I love you and, really don’t want to see you mentally hurt over me,” I yelled to her as I got out of bed myself, and headed to the cabin door that led outside.

But before I left Silver yelled, “Thanks Scoots, you don’t know how much that means to me, I’m glad you want to start this part of the relationship again. Please have fun with our son. I know he isn’t, really my son, but love you two both so much. See you tonight.

I thought for a moment, I was glad she was being thoughtful about this, I don’t know where I’d be without her. I just hope we don’t have to wait much longer…

With that, I opened the door and proceeded outside.

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Author's Note

This story, has been sitting around for a year. I'm finally back, and with an epic new story, I hope you enjoy it.

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