Pony Musings

When I was young, I was just myself

Sunrise, sunset, I didn’t need much else

Then day and night began to feel so long

It wasn’t the clock, but me who was wrong

Our bodies grow fast, our minds grow slow

I thought of only today and then tomorrow

But in between, a wicked seed was sown

I’d give anything to go back, I wish I’d known

When I was young, I was only your sister

If you were laughter, then I was a whisper

So I offered all of myself to the night

Plunged into the abyss, sacrificed my light

But I gave up my joy, my dreams, my soul

How does one do that and still feel whole?

Now darkness is my night as well as my day

I thought then, time to let it lead the way

A brain can dull but the mind will still shine

Though that day, did it happen for mine?

I thought with my head, put away my heart

To kingdom come, I’ll take on your part

Redesign me, recreate me, redefine me

Just promise, Equestria, you’ll be kind to me

I am a tireless engine, forever moving on

But to the moon with you, my soul has gone

Dear sister, have you ever felt as lonely as I?

Here on the endless plain, alone in the sky

I speak to the comets, speak to the stars

Speak to myself and the madness starts

Unfolded, unbent, unwound and undone

You think I’m weak, you think you’ve won?

Time pushes us forward with latent intent

And in this nothingness, I feel no lament

You never dream life to be so complicated

Being the faithful servant, ever-dedicated

I am a golden statue, something to admire

But deep inside, it’s help that I desire

The love of many doesn’t equate to much

Sad, but my story needs an honest touch

And my role as the hero who sent you away

How come I don’t feel like I saved the day?

I take in the warmth of the sun, feel you in it

And there is comfort in that, I will admit

From time to time, I think I could apologize

Fond memories lessen monotony in size

But what is a second, a minute, an hour?

In the void of space, time loses it’s power

The true prison is eternity, my mind the cage

So I reject serenity and embrace my rage

Did I really ask you to sacrifice so much?

I grasp at your memory, the answer in clutch

Within a fortress of my mind, moments stay

Sacred, joyful times, miles and miles away

Now my nation is my life, refuge and burden

No time for such thoughts, close the curtain

But surrounded by faces, I am entirely alone

How do you feel up there, all on your own?

There is a restless nagging, deep inside

Where honest feelings churn and reside

As I tend to my plans budding like a garden

I try to push them away, let my heart harden

But like the light, emotions shine through

Cracks in my logic, sending my mind askew

I didn’t live in the dark, our roles equivalent

So you said, but your shadow was imminent

Here are the things I will never say

I don’t know the answer, don’t know the way

Day and night are only two pieces of a set

We’re more than that, how’d we forget?

In my pride, I lost myself as much as you

So what of pride if you can’t start anew?

What hurts me the most is that we’re apart

This is our eye to eye, our heart to heart