"If you're hearing this, I am long gone from the world I knew.

"I don't know what happened to me. All I know is that I went off course. WAY off course.

"In an instant, I had survived a wormhole.

"Everything mixed and pushed together; colors, sounds, sensations.. The universe around me warped like I could never hope to describe.

"The whole ship was roaring and shaking, throwing me from wall to wall. All I could do was try and block it out, closing my eyes and covering my ears. I didn’t realize until later I’d been screaming.

"Then …

"Then it just went silent…

"The alarms and shuddering stopped. Everything stopped. When I opened my eyes, I was ... back in orbit?

"I made it back to Equestria …

"But ... something isn't right... and I can't put my hoof on what.

"If you could live in the Equestria I'm living in…

"It's like I'm a spectator…

"A spectator who's consumed by this all knowing fear that if I take this space suit off, I'll die.

"...

"...

“You see… everything has been me. It feels like I’ve been in this space forever. I’ve spent countless hours, or years figuring out how to navigate here, and it’s unlocked something… otherworldly. I began to dip my being into the past, little by little. The plants dying, the font crystal falling, the disturbances on my logs, little things here and there. It was all me, me now, or then, or to come? I don’t know. I just want to go home, to turn back the clock… Maybe if I change enough, I can undo what’s been done.

“Maybe it sounds selfish. Trying to force the universe to take me home. Even if it's not me, it can be some other me, from some other time. If she can just go back, with the knowledge to save everyone… It might take millions of tries, but one of them has to work, right?

“But… the longer I try, the more of myself I continue to lose.

"I hope my attempts at intercepting my own logs worked …

“I hope they were able to escape like I told them to do…

"I hope my Equestria is safe…

"Whatever that means… I can’t recall anymore....

“...

“...

“Out.”

Author's Note

To be continued...

I hope you enjoyed and that I did a pretty decent job at trying my hand at a mind-fucky scifi space story.