My Pain And sorrow.

by pegasisterinblack

Rating: everyone
Tags: Slice of Life, Sad, Romance, Tragedy
Length: 1978

A filly who has been bullied for years, And she has cancer.

Shadow mane has never lived an easy life. Growing up parentless have left her shy, Quiet, And scared. However she will soon learn that even ponies like her can find friendship in strange places.But when Life takes Their toll, She has to leave to all that loves her..

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2012-10-14 14:13:46 UTC

Dear diary.

Dear diary.

Today I was bullied at school. Like always. Diamond tiara Is such a snob With her stupid cutie mark.. I would tell her to leave the CMC alone but.... Im afraid..... I don't always have someone to back me up if something goes wrong... Like you know I don't have parents and They would of helped me.... If they wouldn't of messed with Molestia.... Believe me.. Im suprized they actually said her name in a sentence before that. Well  Lets get this straight with Diamond tiara . What is tiara's cutie mark mean? I just don't get it... Today when I went to the playground quietly with my journal (the one I am writing in) She said ''HEY LOSER WHAT ARE YOU WRITING IN? SOME THINGS ABOUT HOW NERDY YOU ARE ''Laughs histericly'' MAYBE YOUR WRITING ABOUT WHEN YOU WENT TO THE SUPERMARE CONVENTION! HAHAHAHA YOU LOSER!'' She knocks the book out of my hands and throws it into a pile of dirt making the furr on it turn into a slight grey mush. ''GOOD LUCK WRITING IN THAT NOW LOSER~!'' Well after school today I went over to Carosel boutique and asked if I could  get it repaired. Sweetie belle wasn't there because she had the cutie mark crusader meetings everyday after school. After that I was going to see what  the cutie mark crusaders were doing and decided to go the the clubhouse and knock on the door. They were there and were surprised to see me. ''Hey Girl what are you doing over there! You seem sad!'' Applebloom trotted over to me with a warm smile sitting me down and the chair of the clubhouse. ''Guess what we are going to try today for our cutie marks!'' Scootaloo said as she glanced over to the map on the wall. ''What Are you doing scootaloo?''

''We are going to try tightrope walking!'' ''Good for you..... =0'' She looked sarcastically at the three girls making their happy smiles turn into sad frowns.

''Okay Girl But I'm warning you.''

Sweetie belle shoved Her

towards the exit and slammed the door on her hooves making an unbearable wound on her hooves.

Shadow had a round of Agonizing pain and the girls laughed as she cried and screamed for help for her wound

She picked herself up having the pain swell up in her entire body but she still got up and got out of the treehouse running in pain as she limped out of the forest into sweet apple acres.

Big mac was bucking apples when he saw the wounded filly run past him making him more and more concerned.

''Hello? Any pony there?''

The Handsome stallion looking through the barn the filly ran into.

The girl was In laying on the floor Laying there weeping quietly as she stood there with a trail of blood on the floor.

''Please some pony Help me..'' She looked at him as her tears ran down her face. He had nothing more to do then get her sister Applejack and her friends.

The pink maned pegasus flew over to the girl and wrapped Her wound and twilight used her magic to heal it.

The cutie mark crusaders where making way to the barn when they saw the commotion with the filly.

The girls ran so no pony would suspect that it was them. But they knew that the girl would tell them anyway if they asked.

Days went passed and the girl were walking down the streets of ponyville alone with her wounded hoof and saw that no pony were paying any attention to the lone filly.

She saw that they were only paying attention to there Happy lives and not vitalizing the sad filly, Alone, Hurting, Sad, Scared, And without love and care. She had no pony to love and nopony saw any of it.

What a sad life for a sad young filly. Who could someone that every pony hates be loved. Find out in chapter two.

New freinds.

''So what Is your name?'' Shadow and the filly walked down the road.

'' My name Is Melika..... And I dont really have a last name.....''

''Well my name Is shadow.. And I dont have parents either.''

''Wow... We just met and we still have so many things in common!''

'' Oh lookie here...... Shadow Has an actual freind!''

I just realized what me and melika had just walked into.......

The school playground...

Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon was in my face and snickering.

''Yes she is my freind.. What is your problem!''

Melika Glared into the snickering duo.

''Oh so am I going to listen To a girl who Wears Dirty rags You little Unloved Peice Of ----!''

Silver Shoved Melika Making her temper go up.

'' SHUT THE ---- UP YOU -----!''

Everyone on the playground looked at melika making the teacher running to the situation.

'' Woah. Woah whats going on here?''

Melika punched Diamond In the face and yelled

'' FUS- RO- PUNCH!!!!!''

Diamond Tiara fell back unconcious

Everypony started at melika as I pulled her back trying to tame her fury.

'' GO NOW BURN IN HELL WHERE YOU BELONG!''

Melika grabbed my hand and dragged me away fro the scene.

'' Where do you know how to speak like that?''

'' My parents would call me those names as a Young young filly.''

''oh..... Yeah. your abusive parents.''

''Its okay. They are gone now so you dont have to worry about me.''

He actually Loved me.

The sad filly walked into the Decorated classroom of fillies handing out Hearts and hooves day cards.

No one said a single word when I walked in With my wound. No body asked me what was wrong.

They all just worried about what their parents would spoil them or not today.

But there he was. Jackson. The one I would always desire. Handing me out A nice heart shaped card and a rose.

''Woah Shadow.... What happened to your hoof?''

''Oh nothing special. Just A wound I got yesterday from...... Somebody....'' She sighed in desperation.

'' Well I hope you feel better!''

''Thanks jackson.'' I had to sit next to him and I looked at the card by my self.

Dear Shadow,

I have a confession to make. I love you. I think you are the strongest girl alive by going to school everyday Even though you don't have too. But you still keep coming and you still are bullied by the same people. But you always look happy to me. I love you. And don't ever forget that. I've never told a Lie before- Before she could read the last sentence Diamond tiara Picked up the note and started to read. '' Ha- Ha -HA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!'' She burst out laughing when she read the first sentence. '' SHADOW HAS A BOY FREIND HHAHHAHA!'' Everyone exept for me and jackson started chanting.

I hid behind him as the people started to cheer louder. When they were chanting then more than a minute The words would echo In my head And I was done with all of this.

'' STOP!''

Shadow ran out of the door as tears dripped down her face.

''I guess the baby Couldn't take it HAHA!''

Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon were now falling on the floor laughing at me.

Shadow sat there. On the corner of the street as ponies walked by her and not even noticing the lone filly crying.

But then a hoof tapped on her back as a filly sat next to her playing with her hair.

''Hello there!'' The filly had a huge smile on her face and she was wearing torn up clothes that reaked of age.

''H- H- Hi?'' Shadow looked at her while the tears had made her face completely red.

'' I saw you crying on the street and I just had to find out what was wrong!''

'' Well..... I- I- You wouldn't understand....''

''Oh no....  Its okay you can tell me.....''

'' Well... I have been bullied at school a lot an-'' Shadow was cut off when the filly put her hoof on her mouth...

''believe me.... I was actidentally born from my abusive parents, And then they sold me to slavery, And then they threw me out on the streets.... Seriously.. Do you not think that I know what bullying is like..''

'' Oh my Celestia... I am so sorry for you....''

Shadow hugged the filly and the filly hugged shadow back.

'' Lets be freinds... Because I really dont have any. Deal?''

''Deal.''

The ''O'' In ''Ouch''

The two fillies happily trotted towards sweet apple acres going to talk to applejack. Applejack has been nice to the both of the fillies and the wanted to talk to the mare together.

Shadow knocked on the barn door and a nice barotone voice in the backround yelled

''Come in!''

The two filed pushed open the door and to their suprise it was unlocked completely.

Applejack was bucking the sports equiptment and was getting ready for cider season.

'' Hello girls!'' Applejack stopped what she was doing and was walking towards the two fillies.

''Hi applejack!''

''Seems the two of ya finally met!''

''Yeah!''

''HEY APPLEBLOOM! SOME FILLES FROM YOUR SCHOOL ARE HERE!''

Shadow gulped louder than a chipmunk three feet away then falling into a giant blender.

'' OH YAY! THE CMC ARE HER-'' Applebloom stopped in her tracks when she saw the two lone filles standing there.

''Oh..... Hi girls.'' She ran upstairs to her room avoiding the fillies.

''Eh....Maybe she is just in a bad mood today.. But maybe by tomorrow she will want to hang out with you guys.''

''Hey girls. Do you want to help out bucking the apple's with me?''

''SURE!'' The two fillies chanted.

''Alrighty then. Lets go.''

The girls pushed open the barn door and both went to one of the apple tree's

''Here you get this tree and I will find another.'' shadow insisted.

Shadow went to a tree that looked bigger than most of them so she decided to buck that one.

Shadow bucked it as hard as she could and she heard a large craking sound.

''Uh Oh.''

Waking The Heck up.

Shadow opened her eyes as her entire body changed to sleep and not in pain to waking up in pain.

The pain made her intire body jolt making her broke arm move making her in agonizing pain.

Melika was looking at her from above when she opened her eyes watching her wake up.

'' HEY GUYS! SHE IS AWAKE!''

Pinkie pie, Twilight, Rarity, Fluttershy,And the applefamily where all on each side of the hospital bed hoping she was alright.

''Wow filly. You took a great tumble out there.''

''Yes I must say. You were In agony A while ago.'' Rarity said as she flipped her beautiful purple mane.

''Wha-What happend.'' Shadow had no idea what happend. She remember blacking  out right after the tree cracked but that was all.

'' Okay. The tree fell on you making you break you hoof, One of your spine bones are getting repaired,And you got a concussion So you might not remember anything.'' Pinkie pie said that as she smiled trying to make the filly feel better.

'' And I carried you as I flew carrying you to the hospital.'' Fluttershy twirled her mane in a nice freindly pattern.

'' and I payed for the sergery with a little help from celestia! Twilight said.

'' Thank you guys. This really helps.''

''Your welcome. We just need to get you home.''

''Well. I really dont have a home.''

Everyone there to hear that sentance gasped.

'' You dont!''

''Yeah.''

'' There there. Its okay. You can stay at my cottage for as long as you like.'' Fluttershy put a warm smile on her face.