A Life of Shy

Sitting on Fluttershy’s couch, she and I were having a discussion about the bible, Christianity, and God. I referenced some scriptures to help her understand my religion.

“Wow,” Fluttershy said. “This ‘Jesus’ sounds very important to you Mikey.”

“Not just to me, but to anyone who believes in Him. The golden verse, John 3:16 says it all. ‘God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son. Anyone who believes in him will not die but will have eternal life.’ He died on a wooden cross so our sins may be forgiven.”

“And sins are bad, right?” Fluttershy asked.

“They’re very bad,” I confirmed. I flipped to First John “First John 3:4 says ‘everyone who sins breaks the law. In fact, breaking the law is sin.’ It’s like committing a crime, liken stealing or killing somepony, but instead you’re committing crimes against God. But look,” I pointed to verse five. “It says here, ‘but you know that Christ came to take our sins away. And there is no sin in him.’ Jesus is so righteous that because of him and because we believe in him, Christians like me are saved!”

“Can we ponies believe in Jesus?” Fluttershy asked.

I never thought of that. I had to process that question for a minute.

“I supposed,” I said with uncertainty. “The fact there’s a bible here in Equestria was surprising in itself. However, I don’t know if there are any other copies. It’s possible there is, but knowing Twilight, she likely got this from some secret library or something,” I said, jokingly. We both laughed at that last statement.

“I can see Twilight doing that,” said Fluttershy. As we finished our breakfast, I took the empty plates and cups, kissed Fluttershy on her for forehead and went to the kitchen sink. There was a knock at the door.

“I’ll get it,” Fluttershy said. I ran the hot water and put some soap in the sink to wash the dishes. Fluttershy opened the door to two tall ponies, one pearl white with magenta, purple and teal mane and tail, the other midnight blue with a sparkly dark blue mane and tail. Twilight stood amongst the two.

“Princess Celestia! Princess Luna!” Fluttershy said in surprise, bowing in front of the two.

“Hello Fluttershy,” Princess Celestia said with a smile. Fluttershy got back up.

“What can I do for you two?” asked Fluttershy.

“Actually, we’re not here for you,” Celestia clarified. “Twilight told me you have someone else living here.” Fluttershy turned her head to me.

“Mikey can you come here please?” Fluttershy requested. I turned my head, not realizing who was at the door. My eyes widened at the sight of the two sisters. I quickly turned the water off and quickly headed to Celestia and Luna, bowing at their feet.

“You can get up sir,” Celestia said with seriousness. I did as she ordered. “So your name is Mikey?”

“That’s just a nickname Fluttershy gives me. My legal name is Michael Thomas, your highness.”

“You and Fluttershy must have a close bond,” Celestia assumed.

“Yes we do. We have developed feelings for each other,” I said.

“I kind of figured, especially when Luna was watching Fluttershy’s—unusual dream last night,” Celestia said with slight disgust. Luna threw up in the nearby bushes trying not to remember the dream she had watched. I turned to Fluttershy.

“Flutters do you-”

“Let’s not talk about it,” Fluttershy interrupted, her face now beet red and hidden by her wing. I nuzzled her to let her know I’m not mad.

“Michael, you tend to have a lot of compassion for her,” Celestia stated. “However, I hate to break this to you. You can’t stay here.”

“Oh? Is there some royal tax that I have to pay to stay here? I can find employment if I-” Celestia raised her hoof signaling me to stop talking.

“No, what I mean is that you can’t stay here in Equestria.”

“What?!” I said, upset at the statement.

“You’re an alien to our land Michael, an immigrant sort of speak,” said Celestia.

“Can I not legally migrate here? Is there something I can fill out that can let me stay here?” Tears started to form in my eyes.

“Sadly, there’s not,” Celestia advised. “You’re not of this world, so no paperwork would ever apply. Normally I would banish you to the moon until your species can come get you, but Twilight told me everything about you.”

“Sorry Michael, I had no other choice,” Twilight chimed in.

“I understand Twilight,” I said, my face completely soaked in tears.

“I understand that you are no threat Michael. I understand that you had a terrible past and present. I feel empathy for you, but unfortunately the law is the law. It’s time for you to go back to your home planet,” Celestia said.

I didn’t want to go, I finally felt happiness. In the first time in years, I felt joy, and now that’s being taken away from me. I plead for mercy at Celestia’s hooves.

“Please your highness! There must be something that can be done that will let me stay here! I don’t want to go back home! I love it here!” I can hear Fluttershy behind me crying. She didn’t want me to leave either. This made me cry heavier than before. I can feel her heart breaking.

“There isn’t, and I’m truly sorry,” Celestia said with concern in her voice. “I really wish there was something that can be done, but in this circumstance, there’s nothing. Now come. I already sought out the portal that Discord made to bring you here. It’s time for you to go.”

“Can I at least say goodbye first?” I pleaded. Celestia nodded in approval. I turned to Fluttershy, grabbed a hold of one of her hooves and looked right in her eyes. I can see the pain she was feeling as I felt the same. We both fell in love, cared for each other, and both hoped to live together for eternity. Now that’s all coming to an end.

“Fluttershy,” I started, tears flowing down both our eyes and my voice rasp. “You have given me so much happiness over a short span of time. You were there to save me from a bad situation. You took me into your home where I had nowhere to go. You were tender to me, shown me so much love and compassion. It hurts that this is all coming to an end now.

“I know that I will be back living on the streets when I go home. I know I’ll be back to having nothing but a few essentials and a tent to sleep in. You have made me feel like I’m someone and not just a nobody living on the streets. I will never forget you. I just ask that you please, never forget me and the memories we cherished together.”

“I will never forget you Mikey,” Fluttershy said in a sobbing voice. “I will find a way to see you or talk to you so you know that I’ll still be here for you.” We both held each other in a hug that lasted for what felt like an eternity. I didn’t want to let her go, and I think she didn’t want to either. Neither of us wanted this to end, but like Celestia said, I’m an alien in Equestria. I don’t belong here, even though I felt more accepted here than I did on Earth.

We broke the hug, which led to a kiss. The kiss only lasted a few seconds, but felt like forever. We looked into each other’s eyes.

“I’ll miss you, Fluttershy.”
“I’ll miss you too, Mikey.”

I sighed in disappointment, turned to Celestia and Luna and nodded. “I’m ready.”

I followed behind Celestia, Luna stayed behind as a way to ensure I don’t run off anywhere. I looked past Luna and saw Fluttershy following behind her. We approached the same spot Fluttershy initially took me through. Celestia’s horn illuminated and a portal opened up. The two sisters stepped on each side of the portal, like royal guards standing by a doorway.

“Well, I guess this is it,” I said to myself. I walked into the portal. I looked down and I’m no longer my fursona. I turned back into a human being. The spell dissipated when I entered in. I turned around, seeing Fluttershy standing right in front of it, her face completely covered in tears. Before I could say anything else, the portal closed. All I see again is nothingness.

All I felt is nothingness…