Alone.

Alone.

I am

I am

so alone.

so alone.

Twilight tells me

Twilight tells me

otherwise.

otherwise.

She says I

She says I

have friends.

have friends.

Rainbow Dash,

Rainbow Dash,

Applejack,

Applejack,

Fluttershy,

Fluttershy,

Pinkie Pie,

Pinkie Pie,

and Rarity.

and Rarity.

She tells me

She tells me

they're my friends

they're my friends

as well.

as well.

But

But

are they

are they

really?

really?

Are they

Are they

friends with me

friends with me

for me?

for me?

Or are we just

Or are we just

friends by proxy?

friends by proxy?

Maybe they just

Maybe they are just

feel bad for me

scared of me

for who I am.

for what I did.

I'm not a pony.

I stole their marks.

I'm a dragon,

I stole their lives,

yet they accept me.

yet they accept me.

But is that all

But is that all

it is?

it is?

Acceptance?

Acceptance?

Are we just friends

Are we just friends

because I'm Twilight's

because I'm Twilight's

sibling?

student?

Am I just

Am I just

a companion to them?

a liability to them?

Dragged along,

Kept in my place,

keeping Twilight

so I don't

company?

break again?

I had friends,

I had friends,

real friends,

real friends,

before we moved here.

before I moved here.

Moondancer.

Sunburst.

But over time,

But when he got his mark,

she leaned towards Twilight,

he left me for magic school,

and forgot about me.

and forgot about me.

Then there were

Then there were

Minuette,

Double Diamond,

Lemon Hearts,

Party Favor,

Twinkleshine,

Night Glider,

Lyra.

Sugar Belle.

They were my friends.

They were my friends.

And I was theirs.

And I was theirs.

I belonged.

I belonged.

But then we left them,

But then I hurt them,

moved to Ponyville,

betrayed their trust,

all for

all for

an assignment from

my petty hatred for

the Princess.

cutie marks.

And I can't go back,

And I can't go back,

not back to them, but

not back to them, but

back to then.

back to then.

Because I did go back,

Because I did go back,

to help Twilight reconnect,

after Twilight opened my eyes,

and I saw them all again.

and I saw them all again.

They knew me

They forgave me

and hugged me

and hugged me

and we laughed together.

and we laughed together.

But it is not

But it is not

the same.

the same.

How could it be?

How could it be?

I've been gone for

I've done too many

so long now,

terrible things,

I missed out on

I tried to break them

so many jokes,

with my magic,

so many parties

with my words,

so many tears.

with my beliefs.

How could they

How could they

ever really

ever really

remember

forget

what it was like,

what I did,

when they have

when they are

done so much

so much better

without me.

without me.

Every night,

These past few nights,

I think about

I dream about

going back

going back

and doing more,

and doing better,

had I known

had I known

how much I would

how much I would

miss them.

miss them.

But I can't.

But I can't.

Those times are gone.

What's done is done.

And now I'm here

And now I'm here

in Ponyville

in Ponyville

surrounded by ponies,

surrounded by ponies.

so many ponies,

so many ponies,

so many possible friends,

so many possible friends,

as Twilight has

as Twilight has

comforted me with.

lectured me with.

But how would that work?

But how would that work?

They see me

They'd see me

as a child,

as a stranger,

a filly,

an outcast,

someone

somepony

to be

who does not

careful with.

belong.

Are they really

Are they really

wrong?

wrong?

And Twilight's friends,

And Twilight's friends,

how they

how they

adored me

feared me

when we first met.

when we first met.

Twilight's assistant.

Cult leader.

We've done things,

We've done things,

many things together.

many things together.

And yet deep down,

And yet deep down,

I can't tell if

I feel as if

they see me

they see me

any different.

the same.

Each of her friends

Each of her friends

have something

have something

special

special

with each other

with each other

something unique

something unique

to define their

to define their

connection.

connection.

After over a year,

After several days,

I never found

I can't find

how I could connect

how I could connect

to them

to them

except through

except through

Twilight.

And it would've

And it might've

stayed that way

stayed like that

if it weren't for you,

if it weren't for you,

Starlight.

Spike.

The only other one

The only other one

to know this feeling

who was there

of disconnection,

to watch me

of detachment

rip away the future

from everyone.

from everyone.

You accepted me,

You accepted me,

not because

not because

I'm Twilight's friend,

Twilight told you to,

but for me.

but for you.

You know me,

You know me,

don't you?

don't you?

You just want

You just want

to connect,

to find a place,

to fit in again.

to belong again.

You don't want to be

You don't want to be

alone anymore.

You're just now

For so long, you've

getting to know

really only known

Twilight,

Twilight,

Your only light

Your only way

out of the dark

out of the crowd

you were lost in.

you were lost in.

And now you see

And now you see

me,

me,

under the same ceiling,

behind the same walls,

as I see you.

as I see you.

Someone who will listen,

Someone who can understand,

who I can stand beside

who I can stand beside

and not feel so

and not feel so

small.

intimidating.

Someone who doesn't

Someone who doesn't

look down at me.

fear me.

And maybe

And maybe

if we are alone

if we are alone

together,

together,

being alone

being alone

won't have to

won't have to

feel so

feel so

lonely
anymore.

Author's Note

it's a fic that serves as me wanting to showcase Starlight and Spike's bond and similarities, lets me try poetry, and also lets me sorta vent some lonely feelings, all in one :o

please would appreciate comments and feedback on this one a lot! This is my first time writing this sort of thing <3