“You're a spoiled brat and you always will be!!!” The voices screaming in my head. “Fluttershy does not love you because of your selfish ways!!!” I woke up in a head start. I was still in my bed, sweating like crazy. I’m not okay, I’m not alright, even if I tell Fluttershy that I’m not hurt a million times over. I can’t share my feelings to some one who spoils me constantly. How I got to this point was worse than I could imagine what would happen to me eventually.
I threw Fluttershys book in the fire by accident. She was more mad than I could ever see. I tried to tell her that it was just an accident and that i didn’t mean to do the thing I did. But she confronted me. Telling me that I was a spoiled brat and that's why others don’t really like me. I went to go look at myself in the mirror and I saw, what I have become. I was a spoiled brat, and always causing mischief around the cottage and other places. Fluttershy did say sorry for yelling at me. But that didn’t change the fact that I got depressed after what happened. I don’t eat or drink much anymore, I cry outside almost everyday now.
And always hearing that question Fluttershy asks me. “Angel, are you okay?” I say i’m fine, she should never know. I now lay down on my bed not really doing anything, wondering why I even exist? I don’t deserve to exist. Fluttershy does not deserve to have me as her pet bunny. I just make her life worse. She probably goes to her friends a lot because she doesn’t want me to be around her. And ruining her day. I do get out still. I go to Sugar Cube Corner to see Gummy. Since he is my best friend. He is the only friend I hang out with. The others are busy with other stuff I only get to see them when the ponies bring them over to my house.
Gummy knows that i’m sad and how it’s strange for me to be. I keep telling him that I’m spoiled and i’m a bad pet and a bad friend. Gummy does not think i’m those ways. He also does not think i’m a bad friend. I’m a great friend to him he tells me over and over. But sometimes, I don’t take it. He told me that if i’m this upset, I should go see a therapist. So that's what I did. I took my best friends advice and now go to therapy every single day. Of course Fluttershy does not know about it. She doesn’t need too. Because she should not have to deal with, what i’m going through.
I spent my whole week talking to my therapist at the hospital. I talk about my sadness and my spoiled ways and the bad stuff I do. Eventually, he gave me some pills to take every night before I went to sleep. And that is exactly what i did. When Fluttershy goes to bed, I take the pills out of my pillow and take some. But here's the thing, they don’t seem to work.
I take more and more all night and day, But they never work. I tell the therapist that. And he still says I should take more of these pills he gives me. But they don’t work.
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Gummy came over today and he asked how therapy was going. Fluttershy still doesn’t know about it, since I never told her. I told him I go there every day and told him about the pills and how there supposed to help me, but they don’t. Gummy saw them and told me if I took lots. And I said I do. But they just don’t work. After Pinkie picked him up and took him home I realized. I don’t deserve to live. I am spoiled and I always will be. I don’t have much friends and I only hang out with one, and some of my owners friends frown at my presence. So I now know that. It’s time what I need to do.
After I got done writing my suicide note, I got the rope ready for what I need to do. I hope Fluttershy sees this and knows why I did this. She will read the note and probably be happy that I killed myself because it’s what sad ponies and pets do when they can’t be happy again. So I stood on the chair, took my last breath, And said goodbye to the world and said hello to hell. Before I kill myself, here is what my suicide note says:
Dear Fluttershy,
What you are reading is my suicide note. I can’t keep living any longer. I’m spoiled and i’m mean, And no pony really likes me. I tried to stay strong and live happily, But I can’t anymore. this is what I have to do. I made your life a living hell and I should have not. I go to therapy and I never told you at all. I kept it a secret. I even took pills every night. So what i’m saying is, I’m not an Angel. I’m not your Angel, and I never will be. So goodbye. My owner.
-Devil Bunny
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So i’m lucky to be alive. So as you know, I tried to kill myself and end my life once and for all. But Fluttershy read the suicide note and cried. She did however call an ambulance and they came just in time to take me to the hospital. I woke up in a hospital bed and saw my owner hug me and cried. I even cried myself and said sorry about the things I did. But she said she doesn’t care about the bad stuff I do and my spoiled ways. She is lucky I am alive. I saw that all of her friends are here too. Even Twilight.
And Fluttershy told me that since I tried to hung myself, I ended up breaking my neck. So I have to wear a neck brace for about 2 weeks and I will be in better shape. And you know what? I’m happy now. I am no longer depressed. I no longer go to therapy and take pills I shouldn’t take, All of my friends come over more, And even Fluttershy said that i’m her Angel and I always will be.
And I promised her I would change my act and she was happy about it. And Gummy was even glad that i’m alive. Since he is my best friend. And my other friends come to visit me more often. they just told me they were very busy all the time. But now they can come and hang out. So it just does not have to be just Gummy and I all the time.
Thanks Fluttershy. I am happy to be your pet bunny:)
