Spark to me (Sunlight fanfic)

by XingGG

Rating: teen
Tags: Human, Romance, Equestria Girls, Sex, Suicide / Self Harm, Sunset Shimmer, Twilight Sparkle (EqG), Slice of Life
Length: 7104

A story of falling in love

One beautiful night something unexpected happens to Sunset Shimmer as she talks to her best friend. How will she deal with it and how should she reacted?

Pfp not mine, its from pinterest, sadly there is not an author.

Published 2025-02-08 20:20:01 UTC
Last updated 2025-02-16 07:26:36 UTC

Awkwaaaard

*at the apartment*

„Sorry for mess, I was in a bit of a rush“

„Its okay“

„Wait for me on couch, do you want something to drink? I haave apple juice or mineral water“

„Water is good. Thanks to Applejacks special drink, I wont be able to drink apple tasting beverage without feeling sick“

„Feel you, when I first got drunk with Apples homemade alcohol, I felt the same“

I got myself juice and Twilight water and sat across from her on a couch

„Soo... I‘m sorry, I don’t really know how to start this conversation. But are you sure it would be okay if we started dating? Its just month since you and Timber broke up.“

„Well, to be totally honest, we broke up even sooner but I was little scared to tell you all. We broke up two months ago and should have like three of four. So yeah.“

„Good to know“

„Yeah. Sorry for that.“

This is really awkward. I don’t know what to say. Never really had this type of talk and talking about emotions is hard for me even without this communication wall, that I cant overcome. But I should say something.

„Twi, lets talk openly. I like you, you like me, am I right?“

„Yeah“ she blushed and looked away, but I could still see her little smile

„But there is this thing that I've been thinking about a lot. I know I like you, but I don’t really know if I could love you properly. And to be honest, I’m slightly afraid that I cant. Most of my relationship, well, all of them were just a way to earn some social credit. So this deep emotion love is pretty new to me and I did not get really time to think about it. And I understand that relationship is not just about the I love you’s. With that I can say I love you. But I don’t know how to love someone and at the same time be sure I don’t hurt you. I- I never really learned how to love someone without hurting them and I don't want to hurt you.“

I’ve said it. This was most of the things I’ve had on my mind all the ride back to mine.

And it was true. All the people I’ve dated I dated for something, and it was not love.

But now I really care about Twilight. I don’t want to hurt her the same way how I’ve hurt others.

As I was looking away, because I couldn’t look her into eyes, I felt her hand on mine. I’ve felt this beautiful emotion, so pure as the one when we kiss. I looked up.

„Sunset, than let me teach you how. And you teach me how to properly love you. I think we can do this together without hurting each other. It may be hard, and I'm really not a profesional as well, but if we try and want, what can't we do?“

„We can do this together, yeah.“

We can until I actually tell her everything about me.

Yes, I’m scared because I know she says this without knowing my full story. I know I love her with her backstory, because I know her story how she lived before meeting me. The worst thing she done was because of me bringing magic here and because someone pushed her to do it.

Me on the other hand, I’ve done so many bad things and not because someone made me do it, but because I wanted. She don’t know that about my past.

I felt her mood shift to a little anxious, because I was still looking down with a sad face.

„Hey Sunset, want to tell me more why you still look sad“

„I don’t think its fair towards you. I don’t know how you can love me. I’m not a good person, yeah, I can try, but you don’t know much about my past, or at least anything before I brang the magic crown back, and even with that not much. And yes, some part of me believes that good person like you just couldn’t like me. I’m not a good person or pony or whatever Twilight. I can try but when I get angry I say what’s on my mind and I still hurt people.“

„All of us have some dark sides. But only some can do something to change for better. And I know I can trust you with my heart. I believe you and even if something happens, we will work it out, trust me.“

„But-“

As I tried to muffle something she hugged me.

I stayed silent as I hugged her back. It felt awesome, even without feeling the emotion with my power. But that don’t mean I still don’t want to feel it.

Still hugging I tried to take off my jacked.

„It was not my intension to undress you with a hug.“ Said Twilight little sarcastically.

„well, happens. I’m hot in that hug and I would like that double kick of love with my powers.“

She giggled but than looked at me with curious frown.

„Hey, what’s that on your hand?“

Shit, I completely forgot. „Opps, I must had scratched my hand somewhere. I can be a little clumsy sometimes.“ I nervously smiled.

„How did you scratch at inner part of the forearm by mistake?“ good question

„I’m special?“ I shrugged. I think she don’t believe me but don’t want to question it as well.

„Soo... The hug?“

„Come here my special lover“

„yeah yeah, just hug me and don’t make fun of me“

Two hours and one cuddle session later.

„And that’s why I think the lore of this game is the best!“

„Its funny you think that the best lore is in game about killing aliens“

„Why?“

„Well, if you think hard enough, you are basically an alien at this universe.“

„I never really thought of that, but that means you are like Aracelia, you are dating an alien and I’m Xandro“

„Without the point of being rulers of each other universes“

„with the fact of being a magical special flying girls with unusual superpowers for this universe“

„good point“

With that we started to giggle. I liked this. A lot happened today, but I feel like this is the best ending we could hope for. Well... It could be better, but you know, good enough. Now there is still a lot of things to talk about, but I don’t want to ruin this beautiful moment. One of, how and when should we tell the girls.

I’m not scared that they will take it bad, no, just little nervous about it.

Author's Note

Editors note: Im going for week on vacation, so next post will be probably like week or more from now, sorry for that and I hope you are enjoying this story. Byee

Freedom time!

Tuesday 24.6.
Finally! ALL THE FINALS DONE!

Now I'll have Finally time for rotting in bed all day and playing videogames till i pass out. What more to ask from life?

Ofcourse I'll be spending time with girls as well, but after this school year full of fighting sirens and all that, doing nothing sounds more appealing.

As I was sitting down on my sweet motorcycle, I heard someone call my name from behind.

"Sunset!" as I turned I saw Twilight running my way with Spike by her side.

"Hey Twilight, whats up?"

"Just wanted to ask about the finals, was that your last test for today?" She asked as she tried to catch her breath like she run a mile.

"YEP, and not just last today, but last for this school year!" I said proudly, with a big smile. Saying that felt really good, because it ment my summer holidays just started. I got lucky that my test were right one after another in just 2 days. Yeah, I did not get a lot time to rehearse between them, but who cares.

"Great! I have a small favor to ask. Could you please drive me to my bus stop? It's your direction and I rather be home in hour than be waiting for connecting bus that just left." As she said that, spike started looking at me with these big puppy eyes, and he knew that I could't say no to them.

" Yeah, sure, just put this little puppy in your backpack and take this helmet." I said as I was opening back of my motorcycle to pull out my spare helmet when I drive my friends around, mostly Pinkie to her part time job in ice cream diner. "You remember what I told you when travelling in back of my motorcycle?" I said with a little smirk.

"Always hold you tight around a waist and NOT letting go until you'll tell me!" Said twilight in her smart tone. "And not sticking my head out of backpack, because you go fast and some physics thing could make me fall!" Said Spike trying to sound smart as Twilight.

"Bingo! You are free to get on board!" I said and Twilight giggled as she sat behind me.

If I knew her hands would be so cold and I would take her to bus stop today, I would put on full shirt, not just crop top, because as she tuched my belly, my body shivered at the cold touch. "You ok Sunset?" Twi said as I shivered.

"Yeah, just your hands are somehowd cold even when its 30 degrees Celsius outside."

"OH, Sorry, i should have warned you, heh... you know, the stress made my hands a liiittle colder than usual"

"It's ok, just surprised!" I said as Twilight wraped her hands aruond me again, this time a little higher, so her icy palms would be on my shirt.

"Ready?" "Ready!"

We had to catch like every red light there was, because from 10 minutes ride it usually is, it took us like 25, which ment Twilight bus left right before our eyes, when we stood on red light.

"NO! The next bus goes in half an hour, THANKS TRAFFIC LIGHTS!" Twilight said angerly as the bus was leaving.

"Hey, do you wanna go eat somewhere? I was planning on it anyway and well, company never hurts!" I said right before my stomach made sound that I bet even Spike could hear. "As I said, food."

Twilight's anger tuned down as she giggled about my stomach. "Yeah, sure, got nothing better to do anyways"

"What do you feel like having on this beautiful day?" I said cheerfully.

"Beautiful for one, full of rehearsing for another."

"Welp, I view it as beautiful, soooo... What are you thinking about having this beautiful afternoon for lunch?" I said teasingly with a smile on my face she couldn't see.

"sigh..." Twilight exhaled in annoyed way "well i think Pinkie would be happy to see us. Somehow whe still manages shift even with finals and don't stress at all!"

"You know how Pinkie is. I sometimes think she's not just like, super human because of our abilities, but ACTUALL super human. And we all say, that's just Pinkie. Or she's actually insane in some twisted fun way. But who know's. It's Pinkie." I said as we approched the diner.

The bell rang as we came in and Pinkie set us down faster than it could stop. I feel like this superpower in her character is reason, she don't have horn or wings in pony world. She would be way too powerfull.

"Whatch thinking of having?" said Pinkie with enthusiasm as always. One reason i loved spending time with is because of her strong emotion of happiness I could feel, my mood always slightly went up even by just standing next to her.

"mmm, probably the vegan burger aaand one special Pinkie desert! I scord pretty good at my finals and deserve a treat" I said and Pinkies eyes lighed up as i said Pinkie desert.

"I'll have the eggs salad please"

As fast as Pinkie appered infront doors, she now disappered to counter. The roller skates really helpes with speeding between tables here.

I looked at Twilight that is playing with a strain of hair. I don't need my powers to know she's stressed. I noticed that when she's stressed like this, she usually playes with one strand of hair with left hair and tap fingers on neares surface with right.

I reached for her hand and felt the anxiety from exams. As I did this, she looked at me as if i just snapped my fingers in front of her face "Hey, you ok?" I asked.

"Yeah, just you know how I stress over exames" She said and gently smiled at me.

"I know, but you're like the smartes girl i know, or probably there even is, so I don't think you have anything to worry about. Like, If YOU, queen of books and smart don't score clean A's, than who?"

"Yeah... just what if-" "What have we talked about what if's?"

"They are probably not gonna happen BUT-" "NO BUTTS!"

"OOOHH? ARE WE TALKING ABOUT BUTS? Because I have one sweet here!" Pinkie says as she puts down our food and spins to point to her butt.

We all start to giggle.

Author's Note

Hey, this is my first time posting, just trying out how to write in english and not native language, hope to continue this project of mine and hope you enyojed!!

Napping is good

„Thank you so much once again Sunset for taking me all the way home. You didn‘t need to, I would be okay taking the bus“ Twilight said for third time in ten minutes.

„Twilight, it‘s really nothing. I was thinking about going on ride anyways. And the people there were really...well” I said remembering people who looked like could pull out a knife from their pocket and stab you even for looking at them. And not that I don‘t believe Twilight couldn‘t protect herself, just... She may not get the chance. And it was not really a lie, it‘s nice outside and perfect weather for riding. So why not connect the useful and fun? Spending time with Pinkie shows.

„Well.. Still thanks“

„You should probably go back to studying... Or rehearsing for thousandth time. Not everyone’s lucky like me, and I know only solution for your anxiety will be just that, reading the textbooks and preparing even more.“

„You know me. And with that, I‘m saying my goodbyes. Be careful and I‘ll text you later. And don‘t stay up all night plying videogames!“

„I would never. And same goes to you. Don‘t stay up all night reading and stressing, please. Byee“

With that I put my helmet on and started my bike. A lot has been on my mind lately. Well, for last week mostly school, but even through that a spiky feeling has been bothering me. And I don‘t know what it is. Just really bad hunch. A hunch I just can‘t shake off. I‘ve been trying to list out all the things it could be.

SO, new villain. This is a possibility. But who? Where? When? Not a lot to go from. But still could be? It's something possible. Maybe after all of these fights I gained new extension on my power, so I can see future. Or just bad people coming to our's life. Maybe the extension is caused by Rainbows overusing her power again. But I haven't been hearing others mindproceses, so, yeah, possible, but not really.

Friendship problem? Jeez, I sound like princess. Maybe clue to go for visit? Like she magically inviting me through some pain in my amulet. But once again, not really realistic. Even tho, I should write her later, it's been some time since last. A lots been happening. Noting down.

Maybe the feeling... After what Wallflower did, I‘ve been seeing things from my past every time I close my eyes. All the memories of being the worst... No, I‘m not spiralling again. Been there, done that, have not helped.

As my monologue ended, so did my ride. I was finally home. Not that I don’t enjoy Twilights company or riding, but it was really long year. A little rest won't hurt.

I opened my door and collapsed on couch. Maybe I haven‘t realized it before, but the couch is sooo comfortable. And the cushions. And I couldn‘t sleep for last...few..nights.

*ringing*

„What time is it?“ I asked myself as I looked at the ringing phone. Twi was calling me. I picked up and put my phone back on table.

„SUNSET! FINALLY! All of us were trying to contact you but you haven‘t responded so we got worried!“

How long did I sleep?

„You ok? Are you there?“ Twilight asked and I finally looked to camera.

„Yeah, I‘m okay. I just had a small nap. What time is it please?“ I said as I tried to focused my eyes on screen. So bright. In contrast with the dark around me, it was even worse.

„Like 20:30? But you haven‘t been responding since yesterday.“

„What do you mean? I slept for like, three hours and before that I brought you home?“ With that I realized I need water. My mouth is really dry and so I stood up and went for it. It felt like ages since I last drank something.

„Uhm...Sunset? That was yesterday?“ With that, all the precious water I was drinking got spit to sink. „Don‘t tell me you slept for nearly 30 hours! Have you been even sleeping before yesterday?“ Twilight said stropily.

„Well, not much but I tried, and that counts?“ I was still processing the fact that I slept for so long. But I can‘t complain. That sleep was pretty sweet. I feel like I haven‘t slept that good for a very some time. And it explains why my mouth was so dry.

„SUNSET! You know staying up is not good for your brain! It makes you brain age like crazy.“

„It‘s not like it was a choice really. I just..couldn‘t sleep. And I tried. Just, a lot‘s been going on and you know, finals, yearbook, all of that. And the fact that my "aging" brain was trying to kill me with memories, well, it was not helping for sleeping“

For a while, there was silence. "But the stress of finals is gone and yearbook as well, so everything is great again. And I had a good sleep, so even better!" I said enthusiastically and smiled to camera.

„Sunset, if you ever need someone to talk you, you know I‘m here, right?“ Said Twilight with a concern in her voice.

„Yeah. I know. And I'm okay!“

„So please talk to me if somethings bothering you. We, Me and girls, are always there for you.“

„I will, I promise. But believe me, nothings wrong, don‘t worry.“

„I believe you. I need to go, father is calling from kitchen, but if anything, you know. Bye Sunset.“

„Bye Twi“

I never liked to talk about my feeling, from a little foal, to now human me. I know I can talk to them, but I know how it feels to know and would rather not and I don‘t want them to worry. The thing was probably caused by not sleeping and stress. And well, I told her the true, so yeah. And maybe I still see every face of everyone I ever hurt, or Celestia’s disappointed face, or... Yeah. That stone really messed up my brain. But it‘s something I can bear with myself and don‘t need to burden anyone else. Not like it would help, I would just feel more as burden to them and I don‘t need that right now.

*groul*

All I need now is something to eat and finally catching up with my favourite games. And that water would still be good with the fact that most of it ended up in sink.

PARTY TIME!

Thursday 26.6., 21:30

*groupchat*

P🧁: FINALS WEEK IS DONE, AND THAT MEANS...?
P🧁: PARTYYYYYYYYYY! 🎉🎉🪅🪅🎊🎊
P🧁:TOMOROW AT 8PM AT MINEEEE, DON‘T FORGET YOUR PIJAMAS!!
R🌈:WOOOO, CAN‘T WAIT!
A🍎:I‘ll bring our new special drink! Alcoholic and non-alcoholic for non drinkers!
T✨: Thank you for thinking about us who don't drink and CAN'T WAIT!!
R💎: Sadly I have to be late. And not fashionably. I promised Sweetiebell that girls can stay at ours till 9, but then they go to Applejack's for night, so I'll be there around 10pm.
P🧁: IT'S OKAY!! THE NIGHT IS LONG!!!🌃
R💎: Thank you Pinkie.
F🦋: yeey, party!
S🌅: Can't wait!!

Big Friday plan! I really can't wait. Pinkie's party's are the best. It's always so much fun! A LOT‘S of food, drinks, games, and over all laugh. You can be deep in sadness, but if come to Pinkies party, your going to laugh. I can guarantee that.

What am I going to wear?

*ring*

T✨: How have you slept last night?
S🌅: Pretty good, like normal 8 hours of sleep.
S🌅:Are you really going to track my sleep schedule?🤨
T✨: Maybe?🤔
S🌅: TWILIGHT!
T✨: I JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE YOU SLEPT, SORRY FOR CARING?
S🌅: 😑
S🌅: I‘m not a child who needs to be under supervision.
T✨: I just asked because I care😔
S🌅: Well, thank you for caring
T✨:😌
S🌅: But that does not mean you need to look out for my sleep schedule😑
T✨: Ok, ok🙄
S🌅: NOW IM GOING TO SLEEP TO BE SURE I CAN STAY UP ALL NIGHT AT PINKIES
T✨: Good decision😌
S🌅: Gn😑🌃
T✨: Good night Sunnyyy😌🌃
S🌅: Are you drunk?
T✨: Just on books...And smell of soldering wire... Not really a good thing to breath in but what can I do?😔
S🌅: Drunk bad, understand.
S🌅:Still, good night🌃
T✨:Good night🌃💫

If she was drinker, I would not believe her, but with the fact she does not drink, meh.
Still, I should go sleep, it‘s ten and I want to stay up tomorrow all night, soo...

(01:00)

Sunny? Really? DID SHE REALLY CALED ME SUNNY???
Maybe she was drunk🤔

27.6. 7:00pm (Next day)

Keys, wallet, bag, phone... That should be it.
One think that is interesting about Pinkie is that she lives like hour from here at rock farm. ROCK FARM. People would say, you mean mines? No, it‘s literally called rock farm.
And like, her whole family is... Interesting to say at least. They are really monotone, love rocks. And than there is Pinkie. I believe she took all of there’s... Yeah.
ANYWAY, I should go.

As I came to Pinkie‘s she welcomed me and took to her room, to put down my stuff.
„Hey Sunset! Drinks with white label are non alcoholic and with red are special juice. Just so you know.“ Applejack said with a wink, after I said hi‘s to everyone.
„LET THE MUSIC START GUMMY!“ Pinkie shouted with big rainbow glasses on her eyes.

It was a great party, we danced, sang and all of that. A lot of people actually came. Pinkie had to invite a whole school.
As I danced, I bumped into someone.
„Hey Sunset!“
„oh, sorry Twilight!“
„It‘s okay, do you want to talk? I need a drink, my mouth is dry“
„Sure!“
We turned to table with drinks and I took the one with red label.
„Hey, pass me one as well!“ As I passed the drink to Twilight, surprised really. She don‘t drink, so passing this one was weird, but before I could ask, she just shot it in one breath.
“Twilight, did you know- WOOOH“ Twilight took me by hand and just took through the crowd to the back. Her hand was warm, she probably danced for past few hours. I could feel the warm emotions from her hand as well. Rainbow has been probably overusing her powers again, so all of ours powers are now more sensitive. If I'll be hearing everyones thoughs again, She will earn a punch from me.

„Sorry for the dragging, I just couldn‘t hear you and I figured, it would be easier this way.“ said Twilight as we stopped outside, at Pinkies background. For change, here it was nicely quiet. The summer just started, so it was pretty warm, with a bit 1 am cold wind. Refreshing really.
„It‘s okay, I was just surprised you downed that bottle. I didn‘t know you started drinking“
„What do you mean? It was the non-alcoholic one?“
„It was not? Or I‘ve been not drinking all night, and I can say with total honesty, that my body says otherwise. Because I feel the alcohol in my system.“
„You want to tell me... I‘VE BEEN DRINKING ALL NIGHT???“
„Jeez, don‘t yell, but it looks like that. But don‘t worry, you‘ll be okay. Just may feel a little lightheaded at morning. But you can get used to it.“
„I do not need getting use to it. Not drinking regularly and not planning on it again.“
„Understood. Should we sit down on the bench next to the big, weird rock?“ Twilight giggled as I said it.
„Sure, my feet’s hurt. IS IT BECAUSE THE ALCOHOL???“
I laughed at that sentence, because she looked really serious. Then we started walking towards the bench.

It‘s really nice outside. We started talking about stuff. I can‘t really remember even what. We laughed at things, we theorised about the big rock we were sitting next to and so on. I just now noticed how pretty Twilight is. Like, I know she‘s beautiful. But I never looked to it more. Her laugh and smile as she talks about something she finds interesting. The look of fascination when looking at something and thinking about as she talks. And just the way she makes every topic sound interesting.

„Do you think we turn into stars when we die?“ I asked out of the blue. I don‘t even know what I was thinking.
„Well, yeah, scienti-“
„No, I don‘t want the science answer. I don‘t mean our body, but our consciousness. Will all our memories just...Don‘t exist? Or will we be stored as something somewhere?“
„Thats a difficult question of philosophy. I don‘t think I can answer you that.“
„In Equestria, many believed that we become stars. Like the ones you can see right above us. It mostly explained why we don‘t have stars princess, just sun, moon, well, not really, princess Luna was banned to the moon at my times, but you know. And explained the meaning of life. To become someone’s guiding star after death. Well,it explained the meaning of death is better said. The better life you lived, the brighter you shined at the sky. And it was believed everyone had their own guiding star, that led them if the got lost.“
„Wow, that’s... Beautifull.“
„But here nothing really matters. Whatever you do will just not exist. Kinda sad, but freeing at the same time.“ I smiled.
„Still, I find that something has to be guinding me in life. More like someone. I would call you my guiding star. Since I met you, you shine so bright everytime I see you and when I dont know what to do, you help me as a guide through my problems. And before I met you YOU or you from another universe, I was lost.“
For a moment no one said anything. I closed my eyes as I smiled into the sky.
„You really belive nothing matters here?“ Twilight asked.
As I looked her way way to aswer she took my face and got closer.
„Than I can do this.“

And than she kissed me.

Aftermath went well!

Author's Note

TW: Vomiting/Swearing

Aftermath went well!

TWILIGHT F**KING SPARKLE JUST KISSED ME.

For a moment I was stunned but than I kissed her back. It was a nice gentle kiss. Her lips were soft as the voice of an angel. I wanted to stay at that moment forever. Her emotions, I felt them through that kiss and they were so pure, full of a feelings I can‘t even describe.
After a moment she just pulled away.

„I- I‘m sorry. I shouldn‘t. I should go. Sorry!“ And than she ran back to the party.
„Hey, no, wait!“ I yelled after her.

But she disappeared before I could stop her.
Man, this is really happening. I may or may not had this dream of kissing Twilight few times, but now it was reality. And after that she run away. Great. I should really go after her.

But what would I say?

Do I even like her like that? Yes, she been on my mind for a long time and I LOVE spending time with her. And she is beautiful. And I guess I‘ve been thinking how it would felt to kiss her. And it was more than great. Even more than fantastic. But... Still. Am I ready for relationship with my best friend?
And is she? It‘s just around a month now since she broke up with the Timber guy.
Well, one thing is for sure. We should talk about it and I should go find her inside.

As I came inside, there were still a lot‘s of people. Some of them gone home, because the party end at 3 and it‘s 2 but still a lot.
I looked around the whole house and then I met Pinkie.

„Hey, Pinkie, hi, have you seen Twilight?“
„HEEEY SUNSET! COME DANCEEEE!
„No, no, please, tell me. Have you seen Twilight?“
„Lastly with Fluttershy at the corner of kitchen.“
„Thank you!“
„ITS OKAY!“
I literally run to the kitchen, to find no one. Well, not no one, but it was not Twilight nor Fluttershy.
„SHIT“

I think I looked everywhere. I‘m a f**king id*ot. Really. I feel like I‘ve messed up big time now. What am I supposed to do?
I don‘t want to dance or even be around this stupid music.
As I cursed myself out, Applejack approached me.

„Hey Sugarcube, are yall okay? You‘ve been running all around the party. Are you looking for something?“
„More like someone. Have you seen by any chance Twilight or Fluttershy?“
„Well, Last I saw them like 10 minutes ago at the door, but Fluttershy is standing there. As for Twilight, I don‘t have a clue.“
„Thank you!“ I‘ve gone to the Fluttershy.
„Yall welcome“ Yelled Applejack as I ran.
„FLUTTERSHY!“
„Hey Sunset.“ Flutershy said quietly
„Where‘s Twilight?“
„Well... She was not feeling good, so she called her brother that came to pick her up. She left like 12 minutes ago.“
„What...“
„You‘ll talk tomorrow. It‘ll be better if both of you were sober”
She left. She just run away and I don‘t know what to do.
„Hey Sunset, do you wanna talk about it? I know what happened and even if I can‘t help, I can listen?“
„No, it‘s.. Okay. I‘m going to sleep. Good night.“

As I gone to Pinkies room, where me and girls had things for sleep, my stomach started to feel heavy.
I whispered to myself „F*ck, I need bathroom. Now.“
I ran trying to find the bathroom half drunk running through a lot of people. As soon as I found it and closed the door, all the things I‘ve eaten that day went right into the toilet.

„F*ck!“

I‘m not the best at adrenaline rushes and this, all the finding Twilight and running around spiked my adrenaline pretty strong.
I don‘t even know how long I‘ve been there, vomiting my guts out. I went in and out of consciousness. I remember thinking about the fact, that I sweat through the shirt completely and the music stopping. Than Pinkies voice. I just heard it, don‘t know really what she said.

An hour may have gone by as I was woken by knock at the door. I wanted to say something, but I was too tired. I probably made some unrecognizable sound.
The first thought after that was how thirsty I was. I need water. But I’m too weak to get it.
Another knock.
After that, Rarity came into the room.

„ OMG SUNSET DARLING ARE YOU OKAY, CAN YOU HEAR ME??“

All I could do was to give her thumbs up.
„whhaatrr“ I muttered as she run to me and called other girls.
„What darling?“
„wwaaaa....Teer“
„Do you want some water?“
I once again gave her thumbs up

I felt like a piece of crap as I was leaning back to the wall. That wall was nicely cold but at the same time my consisting body heat made a warm spot, so I was not cold. It's really nice spot. Soo..nice....
I shifted once again out of consciousness.

Applejack had to move me to a Livingroom and I hear how they talk in the kitchen. I don‘t know how long I was now out, but I at least got the strength to stand up and walk.
Of course with cramps all around my body, mostly stomach, but I could move.
The first thing that popped to my mind was to go for my beloved water. I was really dehydrated.
As I came closer, I heard what they talked about.

Rarity: We should call ambulance!
Pinkie: The problem is that ambulance don‘t come here.
Applejack: Why? Isn‘t it like they‘re duty or something?
Pinkie: Out of the city. Well, all cities. One tax less, but has its disadvantages.
Rainbow: Than I take her. It‘ll be faster and-
Fluttershy: NO, if she woke up during the way, the speed would... You know what. But I can take her on someone’s car, I’m not drinker and have driving licence.
Applejack: Great, you can use my car.

„Hey guys! Do you have a tiny glass of-“
All: SUNSET!
„You should be laying down“ Said Rarity as she and Fluttershy were about to take me back to couch.

„I need water first, or I‘ll die of dehydration, and that would not be optimal“
„Be right at ya“ said Rainbow as she got me some water in sonic speed
„Thank you“

R💎: „How are you feeling darling?“
„Well, I‘m not shifting out of consciousness anymore, so I would say good.“
A🍎:how long have you been there?
„What time is it?“
A🍎:4am, around.
„Well, I remember saying to Fluttershy that I‘m going to sleep and than I went to toi-
F🦋:You‘ve been there since for hour and half?
„Guess I was“
R💎: I‘m glad I‘ve found you!
„Me too.“
R🌈:What happened?
„I don‘t really know. I guess I drank a little too much“ Not telling them the whole true, but I guess this could be the reason as well.
"One thing, do you have something to eat that is not a whipped cream? cuz I'm hungry. I may or may not spilled my stomach's whole content to toilet and now it's grovling for food."
P🧁: I'll make you a sandwich with jam and butter. That's not too heavy on stomach and It' good tasting!
"Thank you Pinkie"
R💎: After that you should go back to sleep. We all should really.
A🍎: Good idea

As I've eaten, we talked for a bit. But the only thing stuck in my mind was that I should really text Twilight and have a talk with her.

Chatting part!

Author's Note

TW: SH

I’m sorry if it don‘t make sense and its chaos, most of it was written with fever, so my brain is a little wonky.

Chatting part!

*Chat with Twilight*

28.6. 15:32

S: Hey

S: Do you have time tomorrow?

16:25

S: Please, I want to talk to you in person

18:56

S: Twilight

20:30

S: Just please text me when you’re free.

She‘s not responding nor seeing the messages. GREAT.

I was thinking about what would I told her when we meet. And even though I‘m not sure about my feelings towards her, I‘m 100% sure about one thing. I Don‘t want to lose her.

I want to text her, but I don‘t want to spam her phone too much. I should rather crack a can of beer and start my favourite videogame, to clean my head a little and put my overthinking mind out of its misery. And I know, what happened tonight and another beer, not optimal, but I don‘t really care and I feel good now so beer it is.

23:30 and 2 cans later

S: Hey Twi, please answer me

S: I don‘t want to lose you

S: Please

S: I‘ll do anything, just talk to me

00:38

T: Today 15:30 at mall

Next day 13:04

I woke up with a little headache but when I noticed the text, I jumped out of bed with loud YES that scared Ray nearly out of his cage (I‘m sorry buddy)

Today it is!

Today...

TODAY! WHAT?

I don‘t have any prepared speech or anything. OU MY.

(-point for myself, spend less time with Rarity, because I‘m starting to sound like her)

But I should prepare and what am I going to wear?

IF I KNEW I WOULD HAVE WOKEN UP SOONER.

Breathe Sunset, you got this. Just wear what you usually wear.

But what should, and mainly how should I say anything???

I‘M NOT READY!

And I should text her back that I‘ll be there.

15:25

I got this. For sure. What worst could happen, right?

I said that to myself again and again till I saw Twilight at the mall as we talked we‘d meet. You know that confidence that I thought existed, yeah no.

SHE WAVED? THIS IS REAL, WAVE BACK AND GO UP TO HER!

„HEY Twilight!“ I said a little too loud as I approached her.

„hey“ Said Twilight without looking at me.

„SO-“

„THA-“

„You can go first“ I said awkwardly as we started to talk at the same time.

„Firstly, I‘m sorry. That should have not happened and I regret it dearly. It was a mistake. I was drunk and Haven’t considered your feelings about it and really just wanted to do something bold. For the sake of our friend group, let‘s just not smudge it around. It meant nothing really.“

I stayed flabbergasted. What?

„It...so it meant nothing for you?“

I felt my heart breaking. This is how it feels? I just now realized how deeply I really cared for this to workout. It surely hurts. I started to feel something sting in the eyes.

„You know, I was drunk, you were drunk, there was a beautiful setting and-“

„I understand“ I looked down as I felt a tear roll down my cheek

trying to force the smile through the tears I said:

„Than there is nothing to talk about, right?“ I looked at her face, than turned around and walked away.

I was stupid to think it meant something. I‘m stupid. This is stupid. EVERYTHING IS STUPID.

I’ve gone to the bathroom to calm down, because I can't drive if I can't see.

What I felt was pure sadness that I haven’t felt for a really long time. I started to scratch my hand.

In past, when I was stressed or sad or anything like that, I coped with it by scratching myself till the place, usually hand, started bleeding. It was easy to cover and if someone asked, I just scratched myself somewhere was valid answer.

I was stupid to think something or mainly think that there was a chance. But there was still this hope, you know?

When I calmed down enought to not cry, I went to my bike.

And there stand, guess who?

Yes, Twilight, you guessed it. Why? Who knows. (Little bitchy, but that was how I felt at that moment, sorry past Twi)

„Yes? I need to get to my bike.“ I said with a bit of anger. I was rightfully angry, she just broke my hearth and now she blocked my bike.

„I’m sorry“

„For what?“

„I- I don‘t know what to do. I don‘t know how I feel and I thought you‘ll be glad if I told you that it meant nothing, but when I saw you cry...“ she looked to the ground once again and her voice cracked „I don‘t know what to do. I just what you to be happy“

„What would make you happy?“ what? I just surprised myself with this question.

„What?“

„I‘m asking“

„...If we stayed at least friends and-“

„And?“

„And I don‘t want to lose you.“

„one advice. If you don‘t want to lose someone, don‘t give them hope and than break their heart“

Now this, I don‘t know where it came from. Ladies and gentleman, my most savage and bitchy part of existence just came to life again and It‘s not under my or anyone’s control.

„What?“

„Now please, I want to go home“ As I sat down and put up my helmet, she grabbed my hand. Sadly in a worst place possible.

„AU!“

„IM SORRY! But please don’t go.“

„Why shouldn‘t I?“

„I never wanted to break your hearth. I just never thought you would give me a chance.“

„Why wouldn’t I? you are one of the most beautiful girl I ever saw in my life, and probably smartest I’ve ever met, with a great sense of humour and beautiful soft lips? Now can I go? If you wanted me to talk about how great you are, than you should have said it before that kiss meant nothing and say-“

„It meant something.. But it really meant something and I’m sorry I said it did not.“

I looked at her. I could see in her eyes how she started to tear up. What is the right response to this? She said it meant nothing than that she was just afraid, she likes me, okay, but... Maan.

„What should we do than?“ I put my helmet back down as I said the only thing that came to my mind.

„I don‘t know. You know how I feel now. You mean for me more than a friend.“

„And I like you as well. I just slightly feel like we are rushing it? I don’t know. Or more like we should really, and not with "I think you" talk“

„I understand.“

„But...for me, lets try it. I would be glad to call you my girlfriend. And I think we should go to mine to talk more about this, because I feel like I heard Pinkies canon and I would rather have everything sorted out before telling them, you know?“

„ I agree. Can you please pass me the helmet?“ Twilight slightly but nervously chuckled.