Road to recovery

by Bladen

Rating: teen
Tags: Suicide / Self Harm, Profanity, Twilight Sparkle, Slice of Life, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Sad, Princess Luna, Drama
Length: 2668

this is a continuation of A Hearths Warming Tale

how do you go on, after nearly killing yourself?

Published 2025-02-16 00:50:00 UTC
Last updated 2025-02-16 00:50:00 UTC

Chapter 1

''Who's interrupting our meal now?'' Luna stood up from the Crown's private dining table, annoyed, when there was a knock at the door. ''Be kind, Luna, the servants and guards would rather be at home with their families right now,'' Celestia took a quick sip from her teacup and glanced briefly at her sister, who grumbled as she walked to the large oak door of the dining hall.

She stopped in front of the door and took a deep breath before opening it. ''What's going on?'' Luna asked the batpony mare, who was standing guard outside the door, somewhat annoyed. ''One of the servants found a letter in the throne room, it's from Miss Sparkle but doesn't say who it's addressed to,'' the mare handed the letter with Twilight's seal to the alicorn mare. ''Thank you,'' Luna accepted the letter with her magic, ''and a nice Hearths Warming,'' she smiled at the mare. ''Thank you ma'am, you too,'' the Bat mare saluted Luna as she closed the door.

''And what is it?'' Celestia asked relaxed as she swallowed a bite of her food. ''A letter from Twilight,'' Luna picked it up briefly, opened it and began to read it.

As Celestia watched her little sister read through her pupil's letter, she could see the dark blue mare's eyes widen and her muscles tense. Before she could ask what was in the letter, Luna dropped it and ran towards a window, without thinking about it she jumped through the closed window and started flying through the snowstorm towards Ponyville.

Slowly the mare opened her eyes, whereupon she was immediately blinded by bright light ''ouch'' she closed her eyes again as the bright light gave her a headache. She tried to open her eyes again when she noticed movement next to her and heard a voice?

Her eyes were still blinded by the bright light so she closed them again but the voice next to her became clearer, 'Twi....ht?..... T....ight?'' the voice was dull at first and sounded far away, but it became clearer and sounded closer, but she still couldn't hear everything that was being said or was the voice calling?

That sounds like.... Luna? she recognized the voice of the alicorn mare but why would she m... Twilight's thoughts were interrupted when Luna started shouting again, ''Si...ster! Si...ster! She i...ah!...S...is awake!''. Before the violet mare could even question what the princess of the night could mean by that, Twilight fell back into a dark and dreamless sleep.

Chapter 2

“Here, Twilight, have a drink,” Luna magically handed the unicorn mare a glass of water when she fell back to sleep after waking up and woke up again two hours later. The violet mare gratefully accepted the glass when she realized how dry her throat was and drank from the glass with a contented sigh.

“Nice to see you back among the living, Miss Sparkle,” a unicorn stallion in a doctor's coat called out as he entered the private hospital room where Twilight and Luna were staying and walked over to the two mares, coming to a halt at the left side of the bed. “Good afternoon, I'm Doctor Kristall and I'm your attending physician,” he nodded kindly to the mare, who nodded back in confusion and greeted him, but before she could start to ask a question, she was interrupted by the stallion. “You can ask any questions you have, Miss Sparkle, but first I just want to check you a little... if that's all right, of course?” he looked up briefly from his notebook at the mare, who was still looking at him in confusion and nodded after a little hesitation.

“Excellent, please keep looking at me,” he used his magic to take a small flashlight from his breast pocket and shone it into Twilight's eyes in turn, ”Perfect, her pupils are reacting as they should and now please follow the flashlight with your eyes only. He drew an invisible line from right to left and back again and then up to down and back again, “Excellent, just a few more small questions and then I'm done,” he smiled encouragingly at the mare.

“Your name is Twilight Sparkle, right?” he looked briefly at his notes, to which Twilight replied in the affirmative. “You're a unicorn mare, right?” he asked, to which she answered yes again. ''Just one more question. What date do we have, or what is the last date you can remember?” he looked at the mare expectantly.

“That must have been December 22nd or is it now the 23rd?” the unicorn mare said after a little hesitation, whereupon she was looked at with great concern by the dark blue princess, who turned briefly to the doctor and looked at him with a worried and questioning look,''Doctor?''. Twilight looked confusedly from the alicorn mare to the stallion, “Is that not right?”.

“Miss Sparkle, what is the last thing you can remember?” the stallion opened a blank page in his notebook and waited anxiously for the violet mare's answer. She scratched her head thoughtfully with one hoof for a moment, ''I said goodbye to my assistant because he wanted to spend Hearths Warming with his girlfriend, which was quite late in the evening. After that I made myself dinner and went to sleep and then I woke up here. Why am I in hospital?” she asked, looking anxiously back and forth between the two ponies.

“Doctor, what does that mean?” Luna turned to the stallion with a worried and somewhat threatening aura, which made Twilight flinch briefly, but the stallion remained neutral. “Princess, please calm down a little and follow me outside for a moment,” he pointed with one hoof to the door of the room and left with the alicorn mare behind him.

“First of all, there's no need to worry,” he turned to the dark blue mare as the door to the room closed behind her. “Then why can't she remember what happened?” she asked him, still in a slightly threatening voice, causing nearby personnel to move away from the alicorn mare in fear.

“The magical checks have not detected any damage to Miss Spakle's brain and my little check just now also showed that everything is working,” the stallion tapped his chin thoughtfully,''but why can she only remember back to December 22?'' the Princess of the Night asked again. ''My theory is temporary amnesia. Specifically to December 23 and 24. Miss Sparkle's brain is currently protecting itself by suppressing the memories of her near-suicide. Her brain is in a panic mode right now, but her memories should come back when her brain calms down or someone tells her, which can cause a lot of stress,'' he wrote down his theory.

After the two of them went back into the room, the doctor said goodbye to the two mares and left them alone again.

After a few minutes of silence, Twilight turned to the princess, “L..Luna?” she managed to get out a little hesitantly. “Yes Twilight?” she smiled at the smaller mare ''Can you tell me why I'm in the hospital and from the facility, the one in Canterlot?'' she asked anxiously. “Are you sure, it could be a bit stressful and possibly traumatizing?” the night blue mare asked more than worried, to which the unicorn mare only nodded in the affirmative, ‘please’.

''Today is December 28th'' Luna took a deep breath, at the mention of the date Twilight looked up at the alicorn mare in shock and confusion. ''Four days ago at Hearths Warming, h.... ha...you...'' the princess had to swallow the lump in her throat and a few tears escaped, ''you tried to take your own life...''.

Chapter 3

“Twilight?” asked the alicorn mare when the unicorn didn't answer her. When she looked up at the violet mare, she could see why. Twilight had lowered her head and was staring at her hospital bed, breathing deeply and quickly as there was a look of panic in her eyes.

After a few seconds, the princess could see the young mare's mouth moving as if she was trying to say something. “W...what?” she said hesitantly and looked up briefly at the dark blue princess. When she saw the look on Twilight's face, her heart broke when she saw the panic and fear in her eyes. ''On Hearths Warming, you sent a farewell letter to my sister and i and ....'' Luna interrupted herself when she saw that Twilight was no longer listening to her. The mare's eyes darted back and forth as if she was trying to sort out her thoughts and her breathing quickened.

Not knowing what to do, she placed a hoof on her shoulder and began stroking the mare's head and neck, hoping to calm her down a little. “I...I...” she heard softly underneath her, ”Twilight?” Luna leaned down to her so that their faces were directly in front of each other. ''I... I remember...'' Twilight said softly. ''I can remember everything. I dissolved a lot of sleeping pills in a glass of water and drank them and.... And then you came through my balcony door... and... and .... then nothing.....'' the mare exhaled deeply. “How... how am I still alive?” Twilight looked up at the alicorn mare questioningly.

Just as she was about to answer the violet mare, the door to the room burst open and a white unicorn stallion with a blue mane came running in, followed by a pink alicorn mare and a small dragon. “TWILIGHT!” the stallion stopped beside the bed and looked worriedly at the mare. “Hello Shining Armor,” she greeted her brother as she recovered from the sudden shock. ''Hello Twilight and hello Auntie,'' Cadance greeted the unicorn mare and the alicorn mare.

“Twilight!” a small dragon came running up behind the pink alicorn mare and jumped onto the bed next to Twilight. “Hello, Spike?” the unicorn mare looked up in surprise at the little dragon on her bed. “Spike, I thought you were in the dragon kingdom with Ember?” she asked, confused. The dragon's eyes widened at the question, “When the princess sent me a message saying that you were in the hospital, I went back to Equestria as soon as possible! Ember didn't mind “Family comes first” she said,” the little dragon hugged the mare.

“The same with us,” Cadance began to speak after a short pause. “Auntie Celestia and Aunt Luna sent us a message that you were in the hospital and that you were awake,” the alicorn mare smiled down at her worriedly. “Yes Twilight, we were only told that you were here and not why, I tried to get an answer but the princesses are very stubborn and didn't tell us anything. What happened sis?” Shining Armor moved closer and closer to his sister, causing her to push the stallion away with one hoof.

Unsure whether she should answer the question and thus cause the mare and stallion to even more worry, she looked up at Luna questioningly. The dark blue mare just looked back to Twilight's eyes, thinking, until she shook her head slightly, “It's your decision if you want to tell them. They'll find out eventually anyway,” she tilted her head slightly, causing puzzled and worried looks from the pink princess and the stallion, who then turned their attention to the young unicorn mare, who was thinking.

”Sorry Shiny and Cadance. I want to keep the reason to myself for now,” she looked from one pony to the next.

Chapter 4

Three days have passed since Twilight was released from the hospital and handed over into the care of the princesses.

”Good afternoon, Twilight,” Luna greeted the mare as she caught sight of the unicorn, who was looking emotionlessly out of a window over the countryside.

“Mhh?” Twilight turned her head to the voice. “Ohh, hello Luna,” she greeted back as she caught sight of the alicorn mare. “Do you need something from me?”.

“Not really, well only a few of the guards have brought their concerns to me,” Luna stood next to the smaller mare and also looked out of the window. “You seem to be walking aimlessly through the corridors, staring emotionlessly out of the windows, you don't seem to react when you're spoken to either,” the princess looked down at her worriedly. “What's wrong?”

“What's wrong?” Twilight looked up at Luna in confusion. “A week,” came quietly from her mouth. “A week!” her face twisted into an angry grimace. “A week!” her voice became louder and angrier. “It's been a week since I tried to take my life!” Twilight now turned her whole body towards the princess.

“Twilight?” Luna was surprised by the unicorn mare's sudden change of mood.

“I've been out of hospital for three days now!” Twilight became angrier, ”and where are they?! My so-called “best friends”?!” she spat out the words in disgust. “I know that you and Celestia sent them the news about me every time with a messenger who told them that he would deliver their news to me if they wanted.... And not one of them has accepted the offer!”. Twilight had to suppress her tears and took a deep breath.

“Ohh Twilight,” Luna's gaze turned from worried to sad and without giving it much thought, she hugged the smaller mare to her chest fur and embraced her with a hoof.

Twilight gratefully accepted the hug and cried into the princess's dark blue fur. “I... I never want to see those assholes again!” she pressed herself closer to the alicorn mare.

“You don't mean that,” Luna stroked her back, slightly surprised to hear the mare swear.

“Yes, I do mean it!” Twilight pushed away from her and immediately missed the mare's warmth and closeness. “I realize now that they don't care about me!” her face became angrier again. “For example, Rarity, she only sees me as a tool to get ponies from higher society, to sell her shitty clothes and to become famous!” she snorted, ”you know what, here's the rest! Rainbow Dash, the element of loyalty, yes very loyal... to herself!, how many times has she dumped us or had to be forced to do something for us but woe betide you if you're not there for her right away!

Pinkie Pie, she's nice but she never listens to you!, and her fucking parties!, every now and then a party is nice and so..... but NOT THREE TIMES A WEEK! And if you do cancel, she'll be offended and feel unappreciated! Applejack, I can understand that her family farm comes first and is important to her, but working herself half to death can't be worth it? I went through her finances once because she needed my help with something and she can easily afford employees without making a big loss but what does she do? She forces her seven year old sister to work on the farm, no wonder Applebloom keeps running away! And last but not least Fluttershy.... I can't say much about her, I forget she even exists half the time, I mean, how can you have such an non existing aura?” Twilight's breathing came out intermittently.

There was a brief, tense silence between the two mares as Luna digested the smaller mare's outburst. “Well, what about Ponyville? It's become your home, hasn't it?” she tilted her head a little and looked at you questioningly.

“Ponyville?” Twilight's breathing calmed down a little as she thought about the small town. “Who needs Ponyville? It was never my home. I mean, Celestia told me to stay there and study the magic of “friendship”, I'm better off here in Canterlot”.

Before Luna could say anything, she noticed one of her sister's guards running towards the two mares and stopping in front of them with a short salute. “Princess, Miss Sparkle, five ponies have just come into the castle who would like to talk to you, Miss Sparkle. They say they are friends of yours?”.