A New Dawn
By: Collared Pet

My eyes slowly blinked open, my vision was blurred as I looked around the dark room. Letting out a loud yawn, I turned my head to the left to see my clock and phone but when I saw the small, white and smooth digital clock that read six in the morning other than my own clock, I blinked quickly. My eyes were unfortunately still seeing the unfamiliar white clock which caused me to sit up in the bed and examine the room. The room was vastly empty save for a few items to completely save it as a bedroom, so when I slid out the bed I could feel the cold stone on my feet which caused me to shiver from the feeling. I looked down to see what was going on when I noticed the two small lumps in my shirt, which made me raise an eyebrow in confusion, I slowly reached up with my hands to grasp the unexplainable protrusion from my chest, with a loud gulp I firmly grasped the protrusion before my eyes widened in sudden bliss. I raised my head and let out a girlish moan before gasping, pulling my hands away from the lumps on my chest in complete disbelief. I looked around the room for a possible mirror when I saw the large mirror to the right of the makeshift closet. Walking over to the mirror slowly, I couldn’t help but feel nervous and anxious about what I might find out, the sudden bliss of grabbing the large lumps on my chest was very shocking to me, my fears on what might’ve happened was making my approach to the mirror slower. I was just out of the mirror, taking in deep breaths to calm my nerves before stepping in front of the mirror. What I saw in the mirror made my heart stop, I couldn’t help but scream.

I don’t know how long I sat in the corner of the barely furnished bed room, rocking my self side-to-side in an attempt to calm myself down which didn’t help at all. I would mutter out unintelligible pleas under my breath, my sudden gender change was very uncomfortable to me since I had just woken up as a beautiful woman, no even worse, as Sunset Shimmer. I was in the actual Sunset Shimmer now, in her body, in her world and in my favorite character in equestria girls. My mind immediately went into pure pervert mode, wanting to see what I looked naked and how I would-

I quickly shook my head to rid myself of those thoughts, i couldn’t believe of what I was thinking. It didn’t help that squeezing my small breasts from earlier made my lower region burn somewhat fiercely for release, which I ignored. I took a deep breath in and out before standing up, taking the time to talk to myself.
“Okay Chris… This must be a really good dream.. If it was I’d really like to wake up from..!” Looking at the door, it looked really worn out and on the verge of breaking down as I could recall all the trouble of opening up anytime I was-

I stopped looking at the door, completely flabbergasted at how I know that, more than that, how I experienced that despite only seeing it. If I could recall that from what she knows then what else would I know from her, it was like I had a chance to see a side many don’t have a chance to notice or even experience. I couldn’t help but jump a bit from the excitement, letting out an unladylike giggle from my mouth before going completely serious.

“Okay Chris! This isn’t the time to be a fan boy at the moment, this is a serious moment in our lives! It’s a chance to get out there and make some discoveries of my new world and.. what the hell..?”

I was fairly confused as I was bent over and pulling up a orange skirt with a yellow and lavender skirt up my legs, my brain going blank on what was going on as I then stood back up and removed my sleep shirt and tossed it aside. I was in shock with how my unconscious actions were being handled and yet I couldn’t believe my eyes, I was extremely lucky to see my favorite character with her shirt off and yet I couldn’t help but feel dirty for staring. Once I had gotten my purple shirt with Sunsets cutie mark on, I felt myself in control. I took the jacket on the coat rack and briefly examined it. The back of the jacket was torn up from the transformation into that demon form, which made me wince in pain as the scars on my back from the incident began to throb in pain. Before going to get the bottle of pain pills that I somehow know is behind my clock, I quickly raised my shirts back and turn away from the mirror. I stared in horror at the blistering scars that littered my back before releasing my shirt and making my way to the end table and grabbed an orange bottle that was hidden behind the small clock, removing the lid with ease before downing a pill or two. I placed the lid back on the bottle and resealed it before examining the bottle, my eyes growing wide as I read the bottle and its dosage.

“Anti-Depressants: 80 Mg”

I don’t know how long I took or even what I did after reading the bottle. The only thing that came to mind was how miserable was sunset in and was this before.. or after her redemption. It wade my skin crawl uncomfortably as the feeling of taking such pills brought up bad memories of my own.

Flashback starts:

It was a snowy Thursday evening, the weather had been perfect for tomorrow’s morning. I was driving into the driveway, a small box of leftovers from helping out at the local senior center rested on the passenger seat. After pulling in and turning off the car, I got out the car with a bright smile on my face, after walking up the small steps leading into the porch area I would let out a sigh of happiness before opening the front door and letting out a greeting. “I’m home-“

That’s when I saw it.. I.. I saw..-

Flashback Ends:

My flashback ended abruptly when I felt someone tossing trash at me. I recoiled a bit from the attack, clearly unaware of why that happened.

“Haha that looks good on you Sunshit.”

“Why don’t you go home demon bitch”

“You’re not wanted here! Go back to pony land!”

The three assailants said, one of them clearly a young female while the other two were slightly older men but it made me reach up and grip my arms tightly before moving past them quickly as they continued to toss trash at me and hurl insults at me. It was hell, even though I wasn’t her, it was utter hell to feel so despised and hated that such hurtful words were more than enough to make me shed a few tears. I eventually made to the high school where it all happened, where Sunset ruthlessly took control over the school and made life hell. It’s also where Sunset was redeemed by twilight sparkle and set on a path of redemption.

I couldn’t help but walk to the right of the entrance and head behind a small and narrow bush underneath the window of Miss Harshwhinny, my math teacher, curl up into the buildings corner with my bag close to my chest and quietly sob. I knew that Sunset wasn’t liked but this was unexceptionable to say the very least. Those insult felt personal and even warranted but it’s not what I wanted… I stopped sobbing for a bit when I realized that I had said it was I and not her in my mind. I couldn’t help but think that I’m being punished in some way that my previous life had not been the full extent of it.

I would’ve gone back to crying, that is until I heard two voices approaching. I couldn’t hear them so I waited still until I could hear them.

“I still don’t think I can trust her Aj, she has done so much shit to us and for what..”

That was Rainbow Dash’s voice and.. she was talking about me. Talking about me and even worse, behind my back to Applejack of all people.

“Ah understand that, but we gave our word to princess Twilight that we’d show Sunset the way… even though I think she’s not worth it.”

I felt my heart tighten to hear such brutal honesty from Applejack, to hear that she doesn’t think I’m worth it was very demoralizing to me. I couldn’t even think or even bother to continue listening as I reached into my bag and pulled out a small switchblade, which soon caused the blade to extend shortly after. My mind was filling with such dark thoughts that barrel down my depressed mind, I looked at the handle, seeing small initial at the bottom of handle guard that were the letters of S.S.

I felt a small smile form on my face as I carved the initials onto the switchblade as a first step towards proving that I could handle anything. It made retracting the blade and putting it away very simple. I know that I’m stuck in a position where I shouldn’t be in but It could be worse, I couldn’t just give up and let myself fall into such despair.

This was A New Dawn for me!

Author's Note

So whatcha think? I think it goes well into a realm of being realistic with a sense of dread but light enough to keep the growing darkness away