Celestia's Loneliness

by RayFriedh

Rating: everyone
Tags: Sad, Original Character, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Princess Celestia, Slice of Life
Length: 3102

Celestia meditates on the responsibilities of being a ruler.

One thousand years can change everything.

Being one thousand years old is not the blessing mortal ponies make it out to be. In which Celestia preemptively stops a coup and meditates on her responsibilities as an immortal leader.

Published 2012-11-08 05:40:01 UTC
Last updated 2012-11-08 05:40:01 UTC

Celestia´s Loneliness

One thousand years can change everything.
To Celestia, the panoramic view from her vantage point in the tower that served as her quarters was like a great history book spread before her as she stood above her capital, her white coat shining in the gaze of her warm summer sun. The volcano, just peeking over the horizon, had become dormant over 900 years ago, it was now the home of various breeds of dragons, none of which had caused any trouble to her kingdom as of yet, but she kept a close eye on them, should one decide to move to the mountains near Ponyville. 700 years ago, Starswirl the Bearded proposed the use of an irrigation system to bring life to the barren desert that was to the west of her capital, and thanks to this idea, Appleoosa was established, and was now the major producer of cherry-based products. 300 years ago, a great river went across the entire country, but it made catastrophic damages on nearby towns when a great flood occurred, and it now curved back towards the sea thanks to many a helping hoof from the nearby earth ponies that proved their worth as strong laborers and gained respect among their community when their worth as ponies was doubted during a particularly dark time of her society when it seems like the founding of Equestria´s events were completely forgotten, which was when she decided it was to be reminded to them annually, every Hearth´s Warming Eve.

The mountain that was the center of ponies´ religious faith was enveloped in sky-scorching flames 100 years ago. Formerly swathed in a thick green covering and seen as the home of the gods, the towering peak was transformed into a bare rock pile by a forest fire that burned for three days and three nights. Almost everything that lived in the forest- birds, beasts, of course, but many ponies too- died in the flames. The people in the village below mourned the horrible transformation of their gods´ abode, but now, a hundred years later, the mountain is as green as ever.

The ponies of the village and the ponies of the mountain still tell the story of the fire, but today´s fillies can hardly imagine that the rich, green slopes were once charred and blackened. Restored though it is to its original green lushness, of course, the mountain could well be enveloped in flames again- a hundred years from now, two hundred years from now, or even tomorrow. Even if it should be charred bare again, however, trees would sprout anew, the birds and beasts and insects chased away by the fire would return to their homes, and, given enough time, the mountain would be covered in green as before. Such are the workings of nature.

Given enough time, dizzying stretches of time... But no. To become dizzy at the thought of vast stretches of time is a privilege of the ordinary folk- those who have no choice but to devote all their energies to living in the present. How fortunate that they are able to look back to the past of 1000 years ago like an old grandmare telling a child a fairy tale, "Once upon a time, a long, long time ago" And how truly fortunate one would be to be able to tell the story of their country´s future as a rosy dream the way children relate their own dreams of the future with flashing eyes, and to entrust that dream to the next reign! Celestia stands next to the window like this every morning. It is a special time of day for her, when she thinks about the livelihood of her subjects, watches for signs of enemy intrusions, and ponders measures she might wish to adopt. She has done this every day without fail for the past thousand years. The country has flourished. The people no longer starve as they did when she first took the throne.

Future historians will no doubt sing praises of Celestia´s thousand-year reign. She will be extolled as "The Thousand Year Old Ruler," and her noble figure will be vividly engraved in people´s memories. Cherishing these memories of her, however, many will die before she does. The historians who praise her, too, instead of witnessing her reign to its end, will themselves become a part of history. Celestia has been their ruler for the past thousand years. And probably will be for the next thousand years as well.

"Her Majesty is in excellent high spirits again this morning, I trust." She hears the voice behind her. Her gaze still fixed on the streets of the city below, Celestia answers. "You are early today."
"Not so early if her majesty is already observing the smoke rising from the cauldrons of her people." She need not turn to ascertain the identity of the smiling face behind her. It belongs to Petal Hues, her senior minister. The smile is courtly, genial. But deep within the narrowed eyes, she knows, there resides a dark gleam. "Today, I will accompany Her Majesty in the inspection of the troops."

"You?"

"Yes, owing to a slight change in assignments today."

"Is that so?"

"I am hardly up to the task, but I will do my best if Her Majesty will allow me to serve her in this capacity. I beg her
permission."

With her back to Petal, Celestia gives a silent nod. "Ah yes," she thinks to herself with a bitter smile. Their plan goes into action today. Celestia has sensed for a very long time that Hues was up to no good. She apparently has seized command of certain units of the royal guard. Scattered throughout the city, too, her people are lying low, waiting ready to set fires as soon as her orders come down. No doubt about it: today; when the regular ceremonial inspection of the troops is scheduled to take place, is the perfect day for a coup. When Petal leaves, Celestia enters her office and summons Flyntt, the most senior of her ministers, a true elder statescolt and her most trusted confidant. Flynnt, who sports a luxurious beard, has served Celestia for over forty years.

"Your Majesty, I understand Petal was here earlier."

"Yes, apparently she is to accompany me to the inspection of the troops."

Stroking his busy beard, Flynnt says, "That means they´ve run out of patience."

"I know," replies Celestia. "I´m sure they can´t wait to get started."

"What a fool Petal is! She has absolutely no idea that Your Majesty has been letting her set her own trap. If she were smart enough to realize that, she would be taking at least two more years to make her preparations."

"Then she would have much more power at his disposal. She could link up not just with the royal guard but also the main body of the army and the police force. She could conspire with the external enemies and arrange for them to invade just when the ceremonies were getting underway. Then her coup would probably succeed. If she had the long-range vision to include the wealthy merchant and the intelligentsia among her allies, she might even be able to mount a revolution that would overthrow the monarchy itself. This is what I would do if I were Petal Hues. As long as I was undertaking a coup, I would think about that much at least."

Flynnt´s smile could not hide the fact that all this talk of successful revolution was making him uncomfortable. "Her Majesty is unmatched by any enemy except her majesty herself, and mayhaps even her sister."
He may be right, Celestia thinks. If she was an enemy with her sister Luna, with an eternal life like hers who was willing to devote all the time needed to planning a revolution- be it a whole century or even two- the result would surely go beyond revolution and develop into a full-scale civil war. Mortal lives, however, are limited in duration. And because of this limitation, ponies rush to achieve results before they are ready. Petal is one of them. If she could live two hundred years (to say nothing of a thousand), she would not be trying to take up arms at such an in-between point in time.

"Still," says Flynnt,"I have to admit that Petal has extended her forces far more successfully than I ever imagined. What have I been doing all this time, I am utterly ashamed of myself."

"Don´t let it bother you, Flynnt. Thanks to your ´inattention,´ we will probably be able to smoke out many more rats." Celestia gives a satisfied chuckle. Nor is this mere bravado on her part. They chose not to arrest Petal at an earlier stage but allowed her to swim free for a while in order to take this opportunity to net the entire force of rebels both inside and outside the palace.

"Yes, I know," Flynnt replies and goes on to explain the plan for crushing the coup. His plans are impeccable. The coup has virtually no chance of succeeding. All they need to do is carry out a wholesale arrest of the rebel guard units that rise up in the palace and the partisans lurking in the city, and it will be some time before any more individuals with outsized ambitions show up again. "This will be our first purge in fifteen years," Flynnt remarks.

"Has it been that long?"

"It certainly has, Your Majesty. This fine beard of mine was jet black last time."

Flynnt commanded the troops that put down the coup fifteen years ago. Loyal, courageous, and cool-headed, he is the ideal staff officer. Without a doubt, he is one of the very best military advisors Celestia has ever had in a thousand years on the throne.

"How selfish of me, Flynnt. I should have let you retire years ago."

"That is out of the question, Your Majesty. Serving you is my life. I am deeply honored to have this final opportunity to be of service."

True, not even this superb retainer could be with her through all eternity. In another five years- ten at most- Flynnt, like other loyal retainers of the past, would be laid to rest to the sound of military cannons. It is always like this. Just as the ambitious ones rush to make their mark because they cannot live forever, the loyal ones in whom she can place her complete confidence stake their very lives on serving her because they cannot live forever. They carve their names in a single line of history and then they depart from Celestia for the rest of eternity. Celestia herself though, goes on living. Eternal youth. immortality. So this is the dream of mortals, is it? None of them knows the loneliness of eternal life.

When Flynnt next addresses Celstia, there is a new urgency in his voice. "About the troops that will quell the uprising...I will command the ones outside the palace. Do I have Her Majesty´s permission to put command of the interior palace guards in the hands of my young protege, Dewdrop?"

"Ah yes, Dew..."

"He may be young, but he is extremely capable. I have nurtured him carefully. I know he will serve Her Majesty splendidly after this old soldier is gone. I would like to give him the opportunity to distinguish himself in the current situation."Celestia herself is fully aware of Dewdrop´s outstanding qualities. Young as he most certainly is, he far excels the other chamberlains in both the civil and military arts. He is undoubtedly the prime candidate to succeed Flyynt N. Stiel as Celestia´s top general.

"What are Her Majesty´s thoughts on the matter?"

"All right, then, Let him take charge."

"Her Majesty has my unbounded thanks! I am sure Dew himself will be deeply moved to learn that he has earned Her Majesty´s confidence."

Flynnt all but throws on the floor himself before her,an expression of relief at having obtained Celestia´s permission. "But still," he continues,"Her Majesty has been wary of Petal for a very long time."

"True," she says.

"Meanwhile, this old soldier of yours had no idea whatever that Petal might be planning a rebellion. I am deeply ashamed to confess it now, but to me she seemed the very model of loyalty. How was it that Her Majesty was able to see Hue´s actual disloyalty?" Celestia only smiles without answering his question. "The same thing happened at the time of the coup fifteen years ago," Flynnt continues. "The only reason we were able to suppress the revolt before it even got started was that Her Majesty saw it coming before anyone else. Then as now I was blind to the traitors´ plot."

"If you say so Flynnt."

"Has Her Majesty forgotten?"

"Well, it was long ago" Celestia tries to evade the issue. There is no way she could have forgotten. The ringleader of the coup fifteen years ago was her most trusted retainer. When she first broached the subject to Flynnt and the others, warning them to be on guard against the colt, all without exception insisted that he, above all, was beyond reproach. In the end, Celestia´s suspicions proved to be correct. She knew. However faithfully he carried out her orders, however warmly he swore his loyalty, she knew. These days however, she has begun to wonder on occasion if that is something to be grateful for.

The landscape is not the only thing that changes in a thousand years. People´s hearts also change. After numberless meetings and partings over the centuries, Celestia has come to realize the fragility- the evanescence of trust. She no longer trusts anything in words. Neither can she fully trust everything in action. She knows by looking at a pony´s eyes. That way she can tell everything- to a mysterious and disheartening degree. In the eyes of those that would bring harm to this country, without exception, there is a dark gleam. It is there in all of them: the colt plotting a coup, the mare secretly involved with foreign enemies, the pony fattening his purse with heavy taxes wrung from the people, the female spy who seduces high ministers to extract state secrets, the mare who accepts huge bribes from merchants eager for the glory of becoming an official purveyor to the royal household.

Neither their words nor their deeds give them away. Often, the pony himself has no idea of the misdeeds he will later commit. But she can tell. Only Celestia, who has lived for a thousand years. The silent voices tell her: “Be careful of this mare. Don´t take your eyes off that colt.This was not the case in her youth. But having repeatedly tasted the bitter experience of betrayal, having been assailed by her own regrets and self-reproach, she has learned to doubt. Celestia can see what no one else can- that dark gleam deep in the eyes. This has enabled her to ward off a variety of disasters before they could start. The kingdom has managed to flourish because Celestia has more often chosen to doubt than to believe. This is the best course for her to follow as their leader. It is however, an infinitely lonely way to live.

Petal´s coup collapses in an instant. The rebel units of the royal guard, who draw out their swords against Celestia during the inspection of troops in the plaza, become the prey of Dewdrop and his colts, who had been hiding around the perimeter. Meanwhile, the anti-rebel forces, under
Flynnt´s command, pounce on Petal´s followers, who have been gathering to set fire to the city and arrest them without resistance. Poor Petal Hues grovels on the earth, begging for her life. To her, Celestia says only, "I grant you the right to die with honor." A soldier lays a sword before Petal. Wordlessly, Celestia conveys to Hues that it is time for her to take her own life. She turns on her hooves and returns to the palace under armed escort.

This will keep anyone from having thoughts of fomenting a rebellion- for a while, at least. The peace of the kingdom has been preserved, but it will not last forever. When the memory of Petal´s coup begins to fade- ten years from now, or twenty, or even a hundred- another mare with ambition will emerge as has happened many times before. It is the role of the leader to accept this endlessly repeating cycle, Celestia tells herself, sighing. Celestia is standing at the palace window, surveying the city streets below, when Dewdrop enters the room.

"Your Majesty, I am here to report that Petal successfully took her own life a short while ago."

"Oh, did she dispatch herself with some dignity?"

"She did. Traitor though she was, she died in a way befitting a commanding general."

"Return her body to her family with all due ceremony."

She turns and stares straight at Dewdrop, whose spine stiffens under the onslaught of her gaze. And then she sees it- without a doubt. That dark gleam flashes deep within his eyes for one fleeting instant. So Dew is another one, is he? She thinks with a bitter smile. Unable to fathom the meaning of her smile, Dew is at a loss for words. "Thank you for all your efforts." Celestia says to him. Suppressing a sigh, she turns to the window again.

The sky stretches overhead in an expanse of blue. The only thing unchanged for the past thousand years is the blue of that sky. But still, I am the princess, Celestia tells herself, meditating on her role. I am the only one who rules this country and maintains the people´s happiness. She gazes long and hard at the sky, rising to her full, proud height.
"Oh look, it´s princess Celestia!" A little filly in an alleyway below the castle spots Celestia and begins waving at her wildly. "Princess Celestia! Princess Celestia!" A mare, the girl´s mother, no doubt- charges out of a doorway and, bowing humbly to Celestia, begins to scold the child for her rude behavior. Celestia herself, however, waves back at her, a placid smile on her face. Smiling joyfully at this unexpected response from Her Majesty the Princess, the filly starts jumping up and down, shouting, "Long live Princess Celestia! Long live Princess Celestia!"

Celestia stares again into the sky above. Unchanged though it has been for a thousand years, the blue of the sky penetrates more deeply into her eyes and her heart than it ever did in the days of her youth.