Tears Of My Welfare

by xMoonlightVampire

Rating: everyone
Tags: Twilight Sparkle, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Sad
Length: 2270

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Growing up in the hooves of some-pony who you aren't even related to is hard. Especially when I'm not supposed to be with him. It's torture. You won't believe me if I tell you where I am. Starved, thirsty, I don't know how I'm still alive. It's impossible to escape, it's not like a handsome prince will just appear and take you away. Nothing's an fairytale in my world.
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Published 2012-11-09 19:20:01 UTC
Last updated 2012-11-09 19:20:01 UTC

Tears Of My Welfate

I was always loved by every-pony. Not now. There's no-pony here to love me. To tell me everything's going to be alright. You'd think they would come looking for you but oh dear! I guess Spike still hasn't noticed that I'm missing. This room is pitch-black. My horn is giving me a headache from using my light spell so much. The purple glow is really hurting my eyes. But I must keep my eyes open, just in case. I haven't slept in days. I've hardly eaten either. This is a cold and dark time. I wish I could still be in my library, or at least somewhere where I can feel safe. I absolutely hate the colt looking after me, he's a colt of darkness. His coat shines a dark grey, his mane is colorless.. his name.. it's so.. strange. I mean, what sort of pony would name their own son after Discord? Then again, he acted a lot like that monster. I wish the others were here with me. It would be a happy world if I were to be with them. But I'm not, and it's not a happy world. My heart feels as if it has been shattered into tiny pieces, and even the strongest glue can't mend it. The only thing that can, are my friends. I’ve finally just realized that anytime soon could be my last moments in this world. I found a piece of chalk underneath my so called bed. Carefully, I started to insert words into the wall.

Flutter-shy, yoursuch a beautiful mare. Your singing voice is always pleasant to listen to.You handled those filly's so well on her own. You truly deserves to take responsibility for the element of kindness. You are always helping every-pony, and every animal too. Your bunny, Angel is quite cute but.. if you've seen that bunny when it's with me alone, you'll know that it's a very mischief bunny. I can still remember all those times he would pounce on me. Flutter-shy... if I were here with you right now.. I would tell you how much I really love you.

Rainbow Dash, I can't understand how you can do the things you do. The sonic rainboom, the weather team, Your such a busy pony. I love spending time with you. I can see you wherever you go, your rainbow colored mane is really hard to miss! You just fly on by, and it's a beautiful site watching you enjoy your self. I'm never going to forget you Dashie, or any of the other ponies. You've been a big part of my life.

Rarity, how can I forget you? Your generosity makes every-pony smile. The way you gave your beautiful tail to that sea serpent was truly a sight to see, and a talent from heart. I still remember my gala dress, it was absolutely wonderful. You are a true artist and I know you will do great things in the future. I love you, Rarity. Never forget me.

Applejack, thank you for being honest all the time. You saved my life on that first day we met.. I knew we were friends from the start.. I just couldn't admit it to myself. Your such a strong pony, and your apples truly are the best. Sometimes you over work, but don't forget the rest of us are always here to help you.

Pinkie Pie, you crazy pony you... Your parties truly are the best. You make every-pony laugh. I mean, if you got that donkey to smile then you can get anypony to smile, right? Your also veyr smart, the way your party cannon is built to pack things up, and release them in a instant. I will make sure I keep your memory in my head, forever. And your Pinkie promises, I hope you know that I would never break them. Sure, I had trouble with Fluttershy and Rarity, but I manged it in the end didn't I?

As I write what could be the last words you see or hear from me, I want to let you know that I love you all, and that I don't want you to cry over me. Your the best friends a mare could wish for, I love you all.

I signed it and settled down for a rest, knowing it could be the longest.. and last rest of my life.

The nights finally arrived, and the moonlight is blinding me. I would shut the curtains, if there were any to shut. I'll just turn over to my other side. Why am I finding it harder to breath? Oh well.. better get some sleep.

June 19th, Midnight

I can't breath anymore.. I guess it's a good thing I wrote that note when I did. It feels as if there's no air in here. I have to keep trying, but it won't be worth it. Nothing's worth it. Suddenly she heard a commotion coming from outside the room. It's the monster. And.. some-pony else. Who in Equestria could this be?

" I told you, I DON'T WANT ANY DEALS! I could hear him bellow, the house is rattling now. It's as if I'm suffocating. I really thought that pony would be the pony to rescue me. Despite his protest, there still seems to be some gentle knocks at the door. But no more noises came. I guess he's refusing to open it. He always doees that. He's such a grump pony. As I lay here, thinking my final thoughts, I start to wonder what every-pony will think of me now I'm gone. I'm desperately worried about the princess. I still can't believe this pony did this to me. As if it's okay to go around houses and snatch ponies from their beds.

I close my eyes, maybe I should just let myself go.. theres no way I'll survive the night.. It's the only way to end this torture.. maybe.. just maybe I'll be happier some place out. I let myself drift off, and I slowly make my breathing fade away. Only a little bit of me remains. Only a little more way to go... and then I'll be out of here.. free... free.. free.

The word is echoing inside my head like a stuck record, I finally take my last breath, and let my chest stop moving. I can still feel everything, just not myself. Is this what the ghost-life is like? I guess so.... at least I can get some rest now I know that I'm free.. I try to sleep on the bed but I just fall through it so I have to sleep on air for the night. It's a bit like having wings really...
I hope no-pony is mad at me.

I awake to the noises of a mad pony. She's so loud who in Equestria is- then I finally notice Pinkie Pie below me. She's laying on me like I'm a big fluffy pillow. I don't think she can see me. There are tears pouring down her face, I really regreat what I've done.. But.. maybe she can hear me?

" T-t-twilight?! " she stutters through her tears, giving me a gentle shake of encouragment. I move too, which I'm guessing it means that I can still feel everything that is happening to my body. Even if they can't see me... I still love them.

I float over to her and touch her gently with my hoof, she seems to feel something because she keeps shivering. I guess it's just me or its her Pinkie sense. I hope she didn't notice me before, but maybe now she will. I try floating lightly above her. She's staring at me like I'm running around Ponyville scared stiff and I look like a freak. Pinkie's still continuing to stare at me, but finally she takes a turn.

" STOP ACTING TO BE TWILIGHT! " Oh gosh, that hurt my ears. I've never heard her like that before.

I don't understand.. can't she see that I am Twilight? Now time for me to try something..

" Pinkie, it is me.. well not me.. just.. basically it's me but I'm.. different now " I say quietly, she seems to take more intrest in me as I continue.

" Haven't you and the others wondered where I was? I've been here for ages now. It's tortue, Pinkie. This pony has starved me. I was so uncomfy.. I couldn't control myself " This time Pinkie's really crying, I think she's getting the point now..

" Y-you mean your dead? " she sniffs, but I think she's calming down knowing I can still talk to her. I nod sadly, we're both crying now. The rooms soaking wet now, I think we might cause a flooding. I'm glad that monster went out today, otherwise he'd be sure to lock Pinkie up as well.

" Can you do magic? " she questioned. This is what worried me the most. I still had my horn but still, I read that only very few unicorns get to keep their magic when they're gone.

" I'm not sure, I can try something " I said determinedly, and a light emerged from the tip of my horn. The feeling got stronger, and so did the light. Eventually after a while I managed to perform a spell that ables me to return to my normal self for a few seconds. I have no idea how I did that, but Pinkie knew what I was doing. I still can't believe I did magic as a dead pony, only talented ponies got to do that. Then again, I am pretty talented, aren't I? I mean, beating the ursaminor was good, and I can give ponies wings too. Maybe I really am that special.. Princess Celestia told me I was a good student.

" I guess I can do magic " I admitted, and I returned to my normal ghost-like self. I don't know if I'm still coloured, or if I'm colorless. I looked at my hoof. For a ghost, I seem to be veyr flexible. Wow, I guess I really can do anything. I still have a touch of lavender in me, but it's quite transparent, still.. What matters to me the most is that I can still talk to ponies who mean the most to me.

So this death wasn't too bad, was it? Sure the others will be upset, but if Pinkie can see me, hopefully they all can. I kept a close eye on Pinkie that day, she brightened up for a while but I bet she's going to fall into a deep depression when she goes to tell the others. I don't know how to feel about this.

We're now walking to Applejacks barn, and I'm shivering like never before. Shivering as a ghost sure does feel weird, at least I can't bump into things, I just go through them. We approached the bright barn, and Pinkie causually bounced to the door, and I was right too. As soon as she realized what she was telling the others, her mane went flat and her eyes teared up.

" Applejack? " she called.

" Are you in there? " she asked again.

My heart broke as I saw the once cheerful hard-working pony step out of the barn door, only for her sadness to be broken by the look on Pinkies face.

" Howdy Pinkie... what's up? Why are ya looking so sad? " she asked.

" There's something I need to show you.. but first we need to get the others.

I watched the same routine for an hour, I'm trying to keep my tears in but it's so hard. I don't think the other have noticed me. Then again, I've been behind them all the time.

" Wait, where's Twilight? " Rainbow Dash said, looking rather confused.

" Thats who it's about.. " my friend said. The rest of the group immediately looked at Pinkie, shocked before carrying on walking.

I decided to go ahead, rather then it be a shock to them to find out I was following them the whole time. I rested myself on the air again, and waited for everypony to burst in the door.

I waited a good 30 to 40 minutes, before they turned up at my door. Their colored faces turned pale at the sight of me, going as cold as stone. I turned back to Pinkie, and I shrugged at her. She just gave me a wink back as to say " Don't worry, they've gotta believe me when I tell them I can see you! "

Fluttershy, Rainbow, Applejack and Rarity were now in tears, along with Pinkie who was starting to tear up as well. This didn't feel so good now. Not any pony said a word. Nopony. I decided to break the silence.

" Ah-em hello? Can you all hear me? If so, good. As you may be aware my body is laying on this bed, DEAD. But do not worry my friends, I am still with you. You should all be able to see my spirit. Look up to the ceiling, look totally gobsmacked if you see me. " I said.

Each and every single one of my friends looked up, and it was obvious they saw me. They still said nothing though. Typical.

I started to tear up too, and I broke into a massive group hug with them. Although it wasn't the best of group hugs when no-pony could technically touch me, but it would be one to remember.