Twilight's Purgatory

by Derpsanddinks404

Rating: everyone
Tags: Twilight Sparkle, Main 6, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Spike, Adventure, Tragedy
Length: 2278

Twilight Sparkle dies and goes to purgatory, trying to find her way out.

My name is Twilight Sparkle. I am the faithful student of Princess Celestia, a good friend to a wide arrange of ponies, the Ponyville librarian, and also recently deceased. Although I do not believe in any Hell or Heaven, I've been sent somewhere between my past life and the afterlife; a purgatory, if you will. Despite my life's research, I know little of this place, for some reason located parallel to my past life. I can see others, but they cannot see me. If you receive this message, please help me.

Published 2012-11-14 03:40:02 UTC
Last updated 2012-11-16 19:58:16 UTC

Chapter 1

Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome.

-Isaac Asimov

I remember my death day like it was yesterday. Actually, that's normal, considering I've only been dead a day. Although, that's a day in life. In death, that's about a week. You see, time feels to move slower when you've got nothing better to do than watch the living pass you without knowing you're there.

I left my living body in an overall peaceful way: I was sleeping when I stroked out after years upon years of built-up stress. I woke up the next morning to Spike attempting to wake me. I kept trying to assure him I was clearly awake, when I noticed that he was reaching through me and shaking my now-deceased body. I was shocked at the sight before me, going through all five stages of death very slowly.

First, denial. I kept telling myself I was asleep, that this was all just a nightmare, and that I would wake up sometime soon, hopefully soon.

Second, anger. I cursed the names of whoever would allow the caretaker and loyal friend of a baby dragon to die and leave him alone to weep and mourn in front of their body. Although I didn't believe in any higher power, I still cursed out the universe and its cruel choices.

Third, bargaining. Again, I believe in no higher power, so I made unheard promises to Celestia and Luna that I'd do absolutely anything they desired if I could just live for another day to tie up loose ends. I got out of this stage quicker than the rest because I realized that I do, in fact, do all that the Princesses desire.

Fourth, depression. I moved myself over to where Spike sat sobbing for an hour and joined him. I did my best attempts to old my baby boy one last time to assure him I was here, only to come up empty-hoofed because of my neglect to be real in his reality. This only caused me to weep harder.

Fifth, acceptance. I almost thought this would never come. Stage four had lasted almost the rest of the day. I wept when Spike went for help, which was proven inevitable by the time he returned. I wept when Spike hugged me one last time, before I was carried out on a gurney to a group of gathered ponies outside my treehouse. I wept when my friends confirmed my identity to the EMT's with tears of disbelief forming in their eyes. It wasn't until all the horrid commotion was over only an hour later that I decided to look at the bright side of things.

I remember not too long ago coming across a book about Ancient Equestrian Mythology which had said something about life after death. Unfortunately, the book was too old, and I could only make out certain excerpts of it. What I was able to gather from it mentioned a situation exactly like mine. It said this place was called Purgatory, or Limbo, and it was believed by ancient Equestrians to be where ponies who died with unfinished business went. The only way out was forward, to the other side, with no turning back to life. And the only way to cross over, well, that was vague and faded, but if I remember correct you had to solve your past conflicts. How I do that and what my conflicts are, I haven't the slightest clue.

The shear fact that I couldn't go back was a double-edged sword. It hurt me to know that I could no longer communicate with my friends, but it also put my mind in a state of embracement towards the absolution that was death. I had learned those facts in that order, thus transferring from depression to acceptance.

And so here I was, twenty-two hours after my passing, sitting forever alone in the shade of the tree library I used to call home. My friend Fluttershy, who was amazing with animals, gladly took Spike into her abode, where both tried their best to comfort themselves with little avail. My home space was stripped of everything: my bed, Spike's bed, my own personal bookshelf, etcetera; all of which was to be distributed between my friends as keepsakes. The library downstairs was now being run by a white pegasis with a bookmark as her cutie mark (Paperback, I think her name was). I sit in front of the door in disbelief at the thought of everypony moving on so quickly. And yet, it also made me happy, knowing that my death wasn't too much of a disturbance to everypony's lives, which they lived to the fullest extent.

The next day I overheard a conversation between my five friends at Sugarcube Corner. There was an air of sadness and sudden loss throughout the room. I oh so wished I could show myself to my friends, show them I'm fine, but I didn't even bother to attempt, knowing it would be futile.

The conversation was about the recent event. Nopony smiled when they talked, not even Pinkie Pie, who'd find a way to turn a hurricane into a circus event. They talked about what would go to who, who was in charge of my funeral and when it was, how my family has been informed of the terrible news, and how Spike was taking his new life in Fluttershy's cottage. Again, this information both saddened me and cheered me up.

Once the last topic was discussed, there was a silence that filled the room, each friend looking to the next with a look of sad understanding as to what was going on. It wasn't until Rarity put her hoof to her lips that the silence was broken.

"She was too young..." she whispered, barely loud enough to hear, choking back the oncoming tears. She eventually succumbed to the sadness and closed her eyes, allowing small rivulets of tears flow down her snow white cheeks.

Applejack embraced our friend in a warm hug. "Shhh..." she cooed to the unicorn in her arms, attempting to calm down not only Rarity, but from what I could tell herself as well.

The other three joined in with the two mares until there was one big pile of mourning friends, crying over the death of their latest and youngest friend; the same friend who, they weren't able to realize, was also embracing them in the group hug, saddened I couldn't return to them.

I eventually left Sugarcube Corner a minute later, my heart unable to handle any more. I left my friends with thoughts of trying to stay positive; how would I escape this literal Hell-on-Earth if I always moped over how I got here? As I exited over the threshold, I looked around to see where I should go to find out how to cross over. Soon, all of my negative thoughts returned as I realized I was stuck here, considering there was no one here to help me. I began to weep again when I noticed a black figure out of the corner of my eye not too far from where I sat.

I looked over to the little ball of darkness to inspect it from afar. I couldn't quite make out what it was, but something in the back of my mind told me that it was my oneway ticket out of here...

To be continued...

Chapter 2

It's no accident that the church and the graveyard stand side by side. The city of the dead sleeps encircled by the city of the living. -Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider

I stood in shock and wonder for a few more moments as I stared at the unnatural being. Once I snapped out of my trance, however, I grew the courage to approach it, figuring that it can't kill me. Or rather, it could, sending me to the other side. And that's what I wanted, right?

Upon further investigation, the dark figure was... different, than anything I've seen. It had no real shape or form, mostly just black and gaseous, almost as though it were darkness incarnate. In fact, the only part of the creature that gave away its consciousness was its eyes: red, bright, a warm yet sinister-looking light emitting from a cold, soulless place. The eyes, although solid with no pupil, showed a hint of knowledge; knowledge of something only an immortal would understand. The creature had been eyeing me (at least, I think it was) for minutes now, seeming patient for my arrival. Why it wanted me, I had my suspicions but no real guess.

"Hello?" I called out to the darkness from six feet away. No response. I edged my way closer to better myself with the supernatural, hoping it would reveal its purpose. When nary a response came, I questioned the beast again. "Hello? Who are you? What are you? What do you want?"

Suddenly, I was answered not by the being before me, but from the vastness around me. The voice- or perhaps voices- echoed in the dim air. Hello Twilight Sparkle, they said, as though I were merely a recurring friend.

I frantically searched around me from the spot where I stood in attempt to connect voice to body. When I gave up my search and returned to looking at the beast, I found its eyes had somehow matched up with what had been said. Before I could begin to interrogate the darkness, it spoke again in its omniscient voice.

We have been expecting you, Twilight, the voice spoke both booming and, somehow, softly. We understand you have questions, but for now the following information must suffice. My name is Tenebris. I am one of many guiders. We are a race living in this world your kind calls Purgatory, the land for the dead but not-yet-crossed-over. It is my sole purpose to help you move on. For your first step, you must follow me to your first trial.

The "guider" never gave me the chance to question him, obviously meaning to leave me with this small amount of intel. My high intelligence came with one curse: a ravenous curiosity that ate at me when I only knew few things about a topic. This wasn't a big problem during my life, living in a library and such, but now the inner demon was full-on out-of-control. And unfortunately, like I mentioned earlier, Tenebris never gave any more information, nor any time to press him for answers before he started... er, walking? Gliding? Either way, he was moving away from me and towards the direction of what I hypothesized was my living home.

Like always, my hypothesis proved correct, for as I followed him my library-treehouse came into view moments later. It looked just as I remembered; how could it not? It's only been two days. Yet, it felt like an eternity since my last time in it, with Spike by my side, jotting down each one of my words to be sent to the princess, blood flowing through my veins as I spoke with such valor and knowledge... I quickly shut off the memories so as not to diverge from the task at hoof.

Once we arrived at the library, we looked through the windows to look on the inside. I began to ponder why we had come here; this was no longer my home, so it now had nothing to do with me. I brought up my confusion to Tenebris, and he only replied with a simple, Wait.

I looked back inside and again saw nothing of interest. Suddenly, when hope for an answer seemed all but lost, a purple being appeared near the center of the building. Spike slowly walked to the horse-head sculpture that centerpieced his former abode and sat. Tears were in the hatchling's eyes, trying to cleanse his sight from seeing the horrible truth that his only mother was gone. Moments passed before anything was said or thought.

"She's gone. She's really gone," began the child. "She left me alone. I'll never get her back. Why? WHY?!" Spike began a fit of pure sadness and sorrow. My heart shattered at the sight of the boy, my boy, in deep emotional pain. I would have joined him had I not been furious with Tenebris for bringing me here to witness it.

"Why did you bring me here?! Is my first 'trial' to kill me emotionally?" I angrily questioned the guider.

Tenebris only looked at me for a few seconds before responding, No. Your first trial has nothing to do with your emotions. In fact, you have no emotions; only memories. However, your trial is about his emotions. He turned back to look at Spike through the window.

I looked at the guider for a minute, dumbfounded and confused as to how I would even begin my trial. I then turned to look back at Spike also, who was now beside a tear-struck Fluttershy who was somehow in better condition than him. I listed in my head the ways I could comfort Spike as well, seeing as how we were in two completely different dimensions. At the moment, nothing seemed impossible; I mean, I was in Purgatory, for Celestia's sake! When no possible answer (or rather, too many possible answers) appeared, I turned back to Tenebris.

"What am I to do, if you don't mind me asking?" I inquired the dark beast.

Tenebris looked at me again with the omniscient look he always had in his eye. Dreams, Twilight he told me in his echoing voice. You enter his dreams.

To be continued