Cello and Wubs

Melody had walked in the door when she was greeted with the sight of a broke vase and food that’d been left out overnight. That wasn’t a good sign. It wasn’t like Octavia to leave a mess. She hurried up stairs and walked into Octavia’s room to see how she was doing. There was Octavia with a little smile on her face fast asleep with her back pressed against Vinyl who had her fore hooves wrapped around her and her face buried in her mane. It was really cute and Melody quietly snuck out of the room. She had no idea what’d happened last night but it seemed to have been a good thing.

She headed down stairs and was cleaning up the mess when she noticed the box and had to take a peak. ‘Whoa that’s nice, no wonder dinner ended fast. Wait crystal rose, not finished dinner, broken vase. They didn’t do it on the table did they?’ Melody took a step back from the table and looked around for any suspicious stains. Not finding any she continued cleaning.

Upstairs Octavia had started to wake up when she heard the sound of hooves downstairs. ‘Melody must be home. Shoot I left that mess down there. That was irresponsible one of the cats could have cut themselves on the glass or knocked around the pieces. I should get up but I’m so comfortable.’ The rumbling in her tummy changed her mind. They hadn’t really had dinner last night and had worked up quite the appetite. Slowly snaking out of Vinyl’s hooves so as not to wake her, Octavia decided Vinyl had definitely earned breakfast in bed. Vinyl mumbled a little when Octavia had escaped her and slid a pillow into her hooves which seemed to satisfy her lover.

Downstairs she saw Melody sweeping up the remaining pieces of the vase. “I’m so sorry about the mess Melody. Let me take care of it” said Octavia as she took the broom from her roommate.

“It’s okay. I’m guessing last night went well. I kind of peaked in on you two thinking something horrible had happened and was delighted to see that everything seemed good.” Melody had let Octavia take the broom and had started some coffee in the kitchen.

“Well it was great but nothing I’d planned happened really. I guess if I’m dating Vinyl I’ll have to learn to grow accustom to that. Oh look what she gave me.” Octavia had taken the box containing the crystal rose and flaunted it in front of Melody.

“I kind of peaked in there to.” Melody said grinning sheepishly, “But it’s amazing. Where’d she get it from?”

“You’ll never believe this but the Crystal Empire. I think one of her sister’s friends got it for her.” Octavia confided in her friend.

“How, I thought most ponies weren’t really allowed there yet and since there’s no railway it would have taken weeks to have gotten that. And that’s not even considering the cost of the whole ordeal.”

“Well…her sister is one of the Elements of Harmony but don’t make a big deal about it. Besides they really don’t seem to get along. Each time I saw them together they just bickered and fought the whole time.”

“Shut up. Her sister is one of the Elements of Harmony. Who is it?”

“I told you not to make a big deal about it and since you are I’m not telling you.”

“What was it? Spramp.”

Octavia turned as white as Vinyl the blurted out, “Rainbow Dash but I swear Melody if you tell anyone I will be furious with you. Same with spramp no one hears of it.”

“That is the one time I will ever use it and DK didn’t hear that so it’s just the three of us that know.”

“And it will remain the three of us if you want to continue to be friends.” Threatened Octavia, “Any ways I’m going to run out and grab some donuts from Joe’s for Vinyl.”

“No, let me to make up for prying that out of you.”

“You know you would have found out eventually right?”

“You know me I’m not a patience girl.” Melody said as she stepped out the door.

Sighing Octavia had finished cleaning up when she noticed Vinyl’s saddlebag still next to the door. She walked over and picked it up when a small silver lock box fell out and a bottle half full of pills fell out. Picking them up she heard Vinyl coming down the stairs and stopping when she saw her.

“What are you doing?” Vinyl asked obviously troubled by what she saw.

“I was just picking up your saddlebag-“

“And go through it?” Vinyl interrupted Octavia letting her anger get the best of her. “Just because were dating doesn’t give you the right to go through my stuff, Octavia.” She said as she walked down the stairs and grabbed her saddlebag and stash from Octavia with her magic.

“Calm down Vinyl they fell out and if the roles were reversed I’d be angry too. It was an accident.” Octavia pleaded to her marefriend.

“I’m sorry; I shouldn’t have jumped to conclusions.” Hearing Octavia sounding hurt instantly pulled the plug on Vinyl’s anger. “I’m kind of private on some things. Can you forgive me?”

“Of course I can Vinyl. Like I said if I found you going through my things I’d be upset.” Octavia nuzzled Vinyl and the two kissed good morning. “Umm, but can I ask something?”

“If I can ask you some thing also.”

“You can go first, love.”

“Love, I don’t think I’ve ever been called that before. I can totally get use to that but I was hoping that you’d come with me to dinner tonight…”

“I’d like nothing better.”

“Well it’s also going to be with someone else, my sister and probably her coltfriend.”

“Oh, well the answer is still yes but that seems a little odd. I didn’t think you two really got along.”

“We don’t but I promised Twilight Sparkle I’d do it for getting me your rose.” Vinyl confessed to her girl but relieved that she was going to dinner with her. “Okay what’d you want to ask?”

“Well you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to but what were those pills?”

“Ahhh…” Vinyl began to fidget and pace a bit. ‘Okay Vinyl you can trust her. She really likes you and you really like her. This is what ponies in relationships do; they tell each other private things.’

“It’s okay you don’t need to tell me. Like you said you’re private with some things.”

“No, I-I want too.” Vinyl still wasn’t entirely sure until she made eye contact with Octavia and saw the warmth and love in her eyes. “I sometimes get panic attacks and they help me with them.”

“Oh, okay. Do you want any coffee? Melody should be back soon with some donuts from Donut Joe’s. Which I have to say Sugar Cube Corner has some great pastries, but they can't beat a donut from Joe’s.” Octavia moved to the kitchen and poured two cups of coffee.

“Umm is that okay?”

“It’s more than okay you definitely earned donuts from last night’s exercise.” Octavia said blushing deeply remembering the previous night.

“No I mean about me having to take medication to keep from freaking out all the time.”

“Why would I care? You’re still the same pony I know.”

“What if I told you I smoked pot?” Said Vinyl testing Octavia.

“That still doesn’t bother me but I don’t want you doing it at my place. What’s this about? Do you want me to be upset at you about something?”

“I think I do.” Vinyl said with a sad, worried look in her eyes.

“That’s silly Vinyl why would you want that?”

“This is sort of the freak out stuff I was talking about. I feel like something terrible is about to happen and my chest gets tight and I feel like I don’t have control over anything. So to feel like I have control of something I make a problem.”

Octavia listened intently nodding. “I think I understand what you’re saying.”

“I take a lot of ecstasy also.”

“Oh.” Octavia responded calmly but was starting to get upset inside but knew that’s what Vinyl was expecting. Or she should say the part of Vinyl that expected to be hurt. Right now reacting with what that part of her wanted would only make the problem worse. So if she couldn’t tell Vinyl how angry she’d try to turn the tables on it and try some positive reinforcement.

“And hallucinogens.”

“I get it Vinyl you do drugs. I kind of expected that when we started dating. I just don’t want you to do them around me. I want you, not drugged out you. Now maybe you take one of your pills because I don’t want to fight with you and I know you don’t want to also.” Octavia commanded Vinyl letting her anger starting to seep though.

“I’m sorry.” Vinyl took one and felt terrible. “I don’t know what comes over me Tavi. I can tell what I’m doing is wrong but it’s like I can’t control myself.”

“I know, love.” Octavia walked over and hugged Vinyl and kissed her cheek. “I’m happy that you told me all of this. I could tell how nervous you were about opening up to me about that and that takes strength.” Octavia kissed her neck, “And strength...is...a...big...turn on.” Octavia had started to kiss her way up Vinyl’s neck and at turn on she whispered it sultry into her ear then gave it a bite. Octavia pulled Vinyl on top of her and kissed her deeply. Just then of course the door opened.

“Dou-okay!” Melody started to walk in then quickly covered her eyes at the sight of the two entangled and turned around walking right out again.

The two just stared at the door for a moment then burst out laughing. “Melody, it's safe!” Octavia called getting up from under Vinyl. “It’s okay.”

The door opened a crack and a bright red Melody poked her head in cautiously. “Are you two decent?”

“Yes, come in.” Octavia replied. When Melody entered Octavia apologized. “Sorry, we just got a little caught up in something and I promise it won’t happen again.”

“That’s a relief to hear. Now I’m going to try and scrub that image from my head.” Melody hurried to her room after dropping off the donuts.

“I bet she’s going to clop to us.” Joked Vinyl, which got the response of a swift punch in the arm dealt from Octavia. “Ow Tavi, that hurt.”

“Come on lets head back to my room.” Octavia grabbed Vinyl’s saddlebag and the donuts while Vinyl levitated the cups of coffee and they returned to Octavia’s room.

After setting down Vinyl’s bag next do the door and the coffee and donuts on the night stand, Vinyl pushed Octavia onto her bed, getting a giggle from the gray mare, and returned to her previous position above her.

“Vinyl,” Octavia stared into her eyes and addressing her in a serious tone, “do I make you nervous?”

“No,” Vinyl said glancing away but Octavia’s hooves on her cheeks returned her to the purple eyes, “It’s not that simple. With you I want to be…I don’t know better I guess. I get into my own head and scare myself.” Octavia kissed her and wrapped her back hooves around Vinyl’s waist pulling her closer.

“Did you bring any drugs with you?”

Vinyl looked at her saddlebag but was drawn back by Octavia’s hooves again into her eyes pleading for the truth. “Yeah.”

‘Okay Vinyl here it goes. The do or die moment. She’s been understanding and kind and gentle so far. Just try to be strong and…she’ll let you down easy. No Vinyl she said that she was here for you. Just try to open up.’ Despite what she was telling herself Vinyl began to brace for rejection.

“Do you want to tell me why?” Octavia asked gently, trying to keep any judgment and anger out of her tone, just trying to listen.

“For tonight, so I can deal with my sister easier.” Vinyl felt like a terrible pony saying it out loud and to her marefriend. What type of a pony couldn’t make it though one meal with her own family without being high.

She rolled off of Octavia and hid her face in the blankets, but Octavia wasn’t finished yet and definitely wouldn’t let her love go into a dark place. Octavia spooned Vinyl pressing herself along her body so Vinyl would know she wasn’t alone. “I’m here for you, talk to me my love.” She gently nudged Vinyl.

After a moment of silence Octavia decided to probe Vinyl a little. “Can you tell me why you feel like you need to do drugs?” Vinyl didn’t say anything for a while and Octavia knew that pushing her to much right now wouldn’t help.

“I don’t like being like this.” Vinyl felt Octavia’s breath on her neck, calm and gentle. “Ugh, the fear gets really bad some times, to the point that I don’t feel like I can take it anymore. Drugs make it go away.” Vinyl felt a kiss on her neck, not in an erotic way but in a comforting manor and she started to feel tears sting her eyes. Being honest wasn’t easy when you were scared of rejection, especially if it was to the person who you wanted to be proud of you.

“What are you scared of?” Octavia said giving Vinyl another little probe, trying to figure out what had been troubling her marefriend so much.

“I-I’m scared…that you’ll see who I really an…and…and you won’t want me anymore. I’m scared that no one will ever love me. And…I’m scared that I’m some sort of a freak for feeling this way.” Vinyl choked out trying to suppress the feeling to sob.

“I will always want you Vinyl and there’s nothing wrong with you, baby.” Octavia ran her hooves over Vinyl’s sides in a nurturing manor before continuing. “Do you feel like you’re an addicted?”

Vinyl sighed, “I do and I don’t. I’m not addicted to any one thing per say but I do do a lot of drugs. It just changes what I take depending on my mood or what I’m doing.” Vinyl started to cry silently and felt Octavia hold her closer enveloping her in her warmth and love.

Vinyl turned around and looked at Octavia. Octavia knew this moment was critical and returned Vinyl’s look without judgment or pity, full of confidence and acceptance. She softly wiped the tears from Vinyl’s eyes and embraced her again. After a minute of silence Vinyl stood up and walked to her bag and shifted through the contents until she found her silver lock box and gave it to Octavia who took it into the bathroom and emptied out the white powder inside of it into her toilet and flushed it.

With the deed done she returned to Vinyl’s side and kissed her. “I think I’m falling in love with you, Tavi.” Vinyl said as she studied her hoofs not making eye contact with Octavia.

Octavia said with tears welling up in her eyes. This wasn’t part of the plan but she knew she wouldn’t have gone this far to help out someone she wasn’t in love with. She did love Vinyl with all of her heart. Was this to fast? For most ponies probably but she knew with Vinyl it wasn’t. It wouldn’t have mattered if they’d said it when they first meet or ten years from now, it still would have been true. “I know I’m in love with you.”

Vinyl looked at her still full of the fear of rejection from all of her revelations. When she saw the tears streaking Octavia’s cheeks she knew she didn’t need to be scared any more. “This has been the most difficult morning of my life.”

Octavia laughed, “Yes it’s been quite emotional.” She nuzzled Vinyl’s neck happy to see her marefriend returning to normal. “I’m really proud of you Vinyl.”

“It’s really not that big of a deal.” Said Vinyl, trying to down play the feeling of pride that had started swelling in her chest.

“It really is Vinyl, don’t sell yourself short.” Octavia grabbed the donuts off the night stand and offered one to Vinyl. “I’ll always be proud of you Vinyl but when you opened up to me like that and faced your demons like that. That takes a kind of strength that a lot of ponies don’t have and you should be as proud of yourself as I am of you.”

They ate in silence, the donuts still fresh but the coffee had gotten cold but neither of them minded. After breakfast they cuddled for a while during which Vinyl had fallen asleep again which suited Octavia just fine. Vinyl had exhausted herself by doing something that was against her nature and shown something that had been troubling her throughout her life. Octavia again slipped from under her and replaced herself with a pillow again then gave Vinyl a light kiss so as to not wake her.

Octavia walked into her bathroom and pulled out her diary from one of the drawers and began to write in it detailing what all had happened to sort her own feelings out about the matter. She wasn’t mad at Vinyl but she was just angry at the whole situation. For Vinyl not telling her sooner about her feelings and whatever had caused her to feel so bad about herself to have made her turn to drugs to coup. Honestly part of her wanted to be angry at Vinyl but she knew that wouldn’t have been fair to her. On the bright side of things it was a step in the right direction and knowing that she was helping her marefriend was the most important thing.