Nervous

Dear Diary,

I am Sorry. Um should I call you Dear, Diary? I don't know what to call you, I will think of a name for you. I'm sorry I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Fluttershy, I am a yellow Pegasus with a pink mane, I represent the Element of Kindness, I live in a cottage near the Everfree forest. My job is to take care of animals that are injured, sick, hungry, or need a massage. I am afraid of almost anything. I am afraid of heights, I am afraid of big scary dragons, afraid of my own shadow, I am afraid of Nightmare Moon night, and I am afraid of some pony coming out of no where and surprising me. I am not afraid of my friends in Ponyville.

But that is not important Diary, you see I have a secret to tell you. Can you keep this a secret? I... I... I h... I ha... I hav... I have... a... a... a c... a cr... a cru... a crush on some pony.

I have known for a while that I have liked this pony as a friend but every time I get close to them, I back away. I am so nervous of what this pony might think of me. What if I tell them that I love them? I couldn't live without breaking our friendship and that would be the worst thing ever! Oh what do I do? What should I do? When should I tell this pony that I have a crush on them?

Sorry Diary, I am getting ahead of myself. This pony means a lot to me, but maybe, I should tell them about how I feel about them, and see if they like me the same way. That would make me feel a little happy! But what if the pony I like doesn't like me the same way?! I don`t know what to do! Will I still be friends with this pony, or will our friendship end forever? I am so scared what could happen!

Excuse me Diary, I need to go feed my animal friends. I will be right back. Sorry Diary, feeding all my animal friends took a lot of time. What was I talking about earlier? Oh yes now I remember what I was talking about. My crush, I am afraid that this pony might reject me as a mare friend but I wonder if we can still be friends?

Sorry Diary, I got ahead of my self again. You probably don't know who I am talking about. Well I am going to tell you who I really like. The pony that I have a crush on is...