Nervous

I have a crush on a stallion, and his name is Big 'Mac' McIntosh.

Applejack's big brother is quite a mystery. He is quiet, calm and doesn't talk much. Everymare in Ponyville really have fallen in love with Big Mac but he doesn't seem to like or date any mare. He is a very strong stallion and he is very caring of other ponies. I really want to tell him how I feel about him, but I just fly or gallop away at every chance I see him. I'm really that nervous around him.

The things I can describe about Big Mac is, he is very kind, caring, calm, cute in my eyes, quiet, listens to others, doesn't talk during or interrupts other ponies conversations, and he is very honest. I wonder what is going on in his head right now.

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In Big Mac's head

Ah wonder if she would like to go out with me. Ah can't stop thinking about her for the life of me. Would she date a farmer like me though? Big Mac sighed, as he pulled a cart full of apples to the farmhouse.

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I wonder if I should visit him. He's so quiet all the time, so maybe I can start up a conversation with him. I hope that will be okay with him. "Okay, Fluttershy you can do this." I said to myself as I looked at my reflection in a mirror. "This is your chance to be assertive for once and go for it."  I walked out of my bedroom, closing the door gently, trotted downstairs, walked up to the front door, I opened it, and walked outside. The door closed behind me with a loud slam, which made me jump a little, and I let out a tiny squeal. Maybe I should have closed that door gently as well. I walked down the path way going over a little bridge, and I kept walking all the way towards my destination.

Would Big Mac return my feelings that I have for him? I don't know but I have to try and find out, even if it means I can't see him ever again and be alone for the rest of my life. I have arrived at Ponyville market street, vendors had there stalls all set up and they all were selling their products. I couldn't help but smile a bit looking at the other ponies working hard to earn there bits.

Just as I was walking by the stalls, I saw my best friends Pinkie Pie and Applejack having a conversation. I walked up to them as they didn't seem to notice me approaching. Pinkie turned her head around and saw me. She somehow was near me and said, "Hiya Fluttershy whatcha doing today?"

"Hello Pinkie um... I was just on my way to Sweet Apple Acres to ummm... see Big Mac." I told her, a tint pink blush forming on my face. Pinkie just smiled at me, her eyes sparkling in the sunlight as she said, "I know that silly filly just why are you going to see him?"

The blush on my face grew a dark shade of red, as I said, "I going to.... mumble."

"What was that now?" Pinkie asked, her eyes focusing on me.

"I said I'm going to... mumble." I tried to say out loud but I was so embarrassed to say to one of my friends.

"Are you going to Sweet Apple Acres to get some apples from Big Mac? Pinkie asked me, as she began to hop around me.

I let out a breath, and quietly yelled out my answer, "Yes! Yes I am."

"Well go get your apples silly. What are you waiting around and talking to me for?" Pinkie said, as she somehow appeared next to Applejack.

But didn't she talk to me first, I shouldn't questioned Pinkie or what just happened. My course is clear as the bright sun and blue sky as I began to walk towards Sweet Apple Acres. I found the path that led to Sweet Apple Acres. As I began to walk down the dirt path, I saw the white fences planted to the side of the path, and behind them were the trees, full with red delicious apples hanging on the branches. I continued walking down the dirt path, looking for the big red farm house.

That is when I saw the farm house and all of the apple orchard. I wonder if Big Mac is working today in this hot sun. The sweat would run down from his mane, down to his neck and run down muscular hot stallion body. He would then wipe the sweat with a hoof, relax his strong muscles, and he would pull the full cart of baskets filled with apples all the way to the barn. He then would take the reins off of him, and walk all the way to his house to take a nice, hot steamy shower. Oh... my.... um I think I just mentally pictured Big Mac in a totally sexual way. Not that I didn't mean too, it's just so hot out today.

Umm maybe I should try and stop thinking about Big Mac in a sexy way and get on with I want to say to him. I hope he doesn't find me creepy or anything. I just want to tell him how I feel about him, and I want to know, if maybe he has feelings for me in return. I hope he has feelings for me, other wise I might not be able to.... well I don't know what I will do. I slowly approached the front door of the house, brushing my hooves off on the door mat. I raised a hoof to knock on the door, but then I froze in place.

What if he is working and doesn't want to be bothered right this minute. Or maybe he is in the orchards, bucking the trees for the apples. Why did I freeze in place? I don't know why I froze in front of the door. I'm mentally prepared for this moment. Maybe I'm not physically prepared for what could happen between me and Big Macintosh.  I slowly dropped my hoof to the ground as I slowly began to think of all the possible scenarios in my head. I shudder at all the possible thoughts and scenarios, as the door opened and I looked to see who opened it. I looked at the door opening up thinking Big Mac or Applejack opened the door, but to my surprise I looked down saw Applejack's little sister, Applebloom holding the door open and looking up at me in curiosity.

Whew at least it wasn't Big Mac answering the door otherwise I might have fainted in front of him. I looked down at the little filly and I asked her, "Where's your big brother?"

"Why do you need to know?" Applebloom asked me, still curious. Maybe I should try a different approach. I looked at the filly again and I replied, "Well I need him to get some apples for me, so I can feed some of my animals." I smiled at the young filly hoping to get done what I needed to be done. She gesture with a hoof and pointed in the left direction of the orchard. "Thank you Applebloom." I said to her. I walked off the porch and I began to walk towards the orchard which she pointed at. I hoped I can see Big Mac and get in a conversation with him.

As I approached the orchard, I heard a big loud snapping sound. I knew it was either Applejack or Big Mac bucking the trees to get the apples off of the branches and into baskets, and they both haul them back to the bug red barn. I walked into the orchard and that is where I saw him. I saw Big Mac buck a tree, sweat was coming down his forehead as he raised one of his strong stallion hooves and wiped it across his forehead. Maybe I should help him with that but that would mean I would have to sneak up and I'll be rude if I do that. Maybe I should tell him that I'm here and I could ask him if I could wipe the sweat off of his brow. Well here goes nothing as I slowly walked up to the red farmer stallion.

I walked up slowly, hoping I don't get startled or startled him too much. As I got near Big Mac, he hasn't realized that I'm right behind him. So to get his attention I touched his well toned, muscular, red flank with my hoof. As I touched Big Mac's flank, I slowly and gently began to trace circles, putting myself in a trance. Just then I felt a pair of spring green eyes looking at me. I then put my hoof back down on the ground, and I hid behind my mane in embarrassment. I hope Big Mac doesn't find me a little perverted what I just did to him. All I wanted to do was get his attention, and I could tell him why I'm on his farm.

"Hello Big Mac." I said, smiling behind my mane.

"Hello Miss Fluttershy." He greeted back, smiling back at me.

"Umm I was wondering if you had my order of apples ready for me?" I had to ask him.

"Eeyup, just follow me back to the farm house and Ah'll go get them for you." The farm stallion said, walking past me and he began walking back to the house he, Applejack, Applebloom, and Granny Smith live in. I quickly trotted up to him trying to keep up with his pace. Just as I caught up with him, I looked at him as the sun was beaming down on his red coat. He then looked in my direction, I then looked away, a pink blush was escaping onto my face. I hope he doesn't notice it. I looked at him again and this time I could have swore he smiled at me.

I wonder what he is happy about. Maybe it's the nice warm day we're having. The sun was shining, no storm clouds were seen, Rainbow Dash was sleeping on a white cloud over Sweet Apple Acres. Oh Rainbow you should at least get some good sleep in your house instead of taking naps during the afternoon. Just then without realizing it, Big Mac and I arrived back at the farm house.

This is my one chance to tell him how I feel. Just go for it Fluttershy. I took a deep breath and I said, "Big Mac."

The red stallion looked at me and he responded, "Eeyup."

"Um I was wondering if you would.. like.. to.. I don't know... um hang out sometime." I finally finished what I had to say, so I hid behind my mane waiting for the farm stallion to reply.

He was thinking it over when he said, "Eeyup sounds good."

I let out a huge breath of relief that I didn't know I inhaled. A smile plastered onto my face, as I looked at the farm stallion again. This time however we both were eyeing each other, going into a stare. As we stared at each other, I looked deeply into the spring green eyes that were part of a certain red stallion in front of me. I sighed dreamily and said out loud, "I love you."

Big Mac looked at me in confusion as he asked, "What was that Fluttershy?"

Not noticing what I said to him I quickly hid behind my mane again in nervousness and shyness. Did I really just said, I love him in the open. Oh...my I think might have and didn't realized it. Please don't let this be the end of our friendship. I looked at Big Mac behind my mane and he seemed to be happy about something. Without much knowing I quickly tried to say something but a red hoof was placed at my mouth. I looked up at Big Mac and he gestured with his head towards the left. I looked to the left and there was the apples I ordered.

The hoof was then released from my mouth, as I flew up to Big Mac and hugged him around his strong stallion neck. I began to nuzzle his cheek and he returned the gesture. I couldn't hold back anymore, so I said into his ear, "I love you." I let go of the stallion's neck and I looked down at the ground. Big Mac's eyes were widen as two dinner plates what I just told him. I hope he has feelings for me. I looked up at Big Mac again and this time h had the biggest smile he ever held.

"Stay here Fluttershy Ah'll be right back in a few minutes." Big Mac told me as he ran back into his farmhouse. I just stood there on the front porch and I waited for him to come back. So I waited there for at least three minute for the farm stallion to come back but he didn't. I waited a little bit longer hoping Big Mac would return.

He didn't show up at all. I wonder if I scared him because I told him how I feel about him. "I'm so sorry Big Mac." I said out loud to no pony in particular, as tears were escaping my eyes, as I cried. I began to leave the front porch of the farmhouse.

As I saw the dirt path that led back to Ponyville, I turned my head around and looked at Sweet Apple Acres one last time. I said out loud one more time, "I'm sorry Big Mac. Good... bye."

To be concluded.....