Scootaloo's School Diary Assignment

by RogueShadowAngel

Rating: everyone
Tags: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Cutie Mark Crusaders, Other, Tragedy, Scootaloo, Random, Slice of Life, Babs Seed, Sad, Main 6
Length: 13828

Cheerilee has given each pony in her class a journal assignment. What does Scootaloo have to say? What is Scoot's home life really like and how will it effect ponies how they see her when they find out if they ever do? What are her parents like?

Each pony in Miss. Cheerilee's class was given an assignment to write in a journal every day of the week. Every pony has to do it or you don't get a grade. What does Scootaloo have to say about this? What does she really think about such things going on in Ponyville? Why doesn't anyone know about her home? Find out more and go inside of Scootaloo's mind as she starts writing about her life. What will unfold as she writes in it's pages?

(note; this is to be written as i see fit and updated when i feel up to it.)

Feel free to comment and give constructive criticism about it.

Published 2012-11-26 15:20:01 UTC
Last updated 2014-01-05 05:39:35 UTC

Entry 1

Dear Journal,

This is a school project for every pony in class. I don’t like stuff like this. We’re supposed to write down our deepest secrets in this. Cheerilee won’t look at them she promises, she only wants her class to fill them out and that’s what we are graded on. The idea is just dumb to me! I think it’s silly, mean we could be doing other things but this is homework on top of the math we have to do each night? It’s like we don’t have enough to do. No I don’t like this idea; I have better things to worry about like how to get my cutie mark. Oh well, I guess I have to do this to get a grade… so here it goes. I’ll start with introductions.

I’m Scootaloo, a part of the Cutie Mark Crusaders! You know that orange Pegasus? Yeah that’s me! I’m awesome on a scooter; I can blow past any pony that dares challenges me to a race. I have two other friends who are also in the same club I am the CMC! There is Applebloom who is an earth pony. She’s a part of the Apple family with her big sister Applejack and her big brother Big Mac. Oh I can’t forget her crazy grandmother, Granny Smith. I’m sure she’s as old as Princess Celestia or Princess Luna because she talks about how things were in the old days. I mean how old can you be to talk about how Ponyville was settled? It’s got to be pretty old! The next friend I have is Sweetie Belle, a unicorn. She’s the younger sister of the one and only and Ponyville’s own Rarity. I can see Sweetie loves her sister and wants to be just like her, but sometimes I think Rarity sees her as a bother because she’s just “so busy with other things” as Sweetie Belle says on several occasions.

I guess I should talk about myself now huh? I don’t know what to say really. I mean I’m a Pegasus that hasn’t ever been on a cloud, I can’t really fly (yet). I’m a blank flank; as much as I hate that word it’s true. I’m awesome at sports, like racing and other things. Oh I have an idle! Rainbow Dash, the fastest pony in Equestria! I’m surprised the Wonderbolts haven’t recruited her yet, because they really should! She’s a real inspiration to me and I hope someday (hopefully soon) to fly alongside of her and do tricks. You know, all of that cool stuff she does when she’s not saving the world or sleeping on the job… I mean taking a nap. I don’t really spend much time at home, my parents aren’t really there. I’m usually over at Sweetie Belle’s house sleeping over or something. I just don’t like my house.

My parents… I don’t really know what to say about them. My mom’s hardly around and my dad loves the bottle too much really. Mom has to work extra hard to make ends meet so that leaves me alone with my dead beat dad. He hardly has anything to say about me, at least that’s nice. Calling me chicken, dodo, useless, and whatever else you can think of. Yeah I know I can’t fly but Pegasus feathers I’m not a dodo…. I’m a pony! I’m an awesome pony… if only other ponies could see that I’m worth something. I mean I have my friends and my idle and her friends saying I’m awesome at what I do and encouraging me (along with my two other friends) to do our best. It would just be nice to have my parents say it. I mean my mom says stuff… when she’s around but she doesn’t know what really goes on. No one does.

My dad’s really bad. He likes to smack me around. He’s a Pegasus like me, but he had his wings cut off because they got hurt really bad in a freak thunder storm when I was still really little. My mom says that he’s really nice when he’s not drinking and he goes to therapy for his issues. I don’t see him ever leave the house though, or if he does go to therapy for his issues, I don’t see them helping out. if anything they are making it worse. All he does is drinking away my mom’s money and it makes me mad. He’s a loser, and I hate him. Sometimes I wonder why my mom doesn’t just leave him, he’s no good for her. I mean yeah he’s my dad but he’s nothing but mean to her. My dad beats her up in a drunken rage, usually over the fact I can’t fly. I guess he beats himself up over it because he sees it as a failure on his part that his ‘disability’ was passed on to his only daughter. Still though, I don’t know what to think of him sometimes. I hate him most of the time but I love him too because he’s my dad. This I haven’t even told my best friends.

I keep this to myself because I don’t want people feeling sorry for me. I get enough abuse from Silver Spoon and Diamond Tiara about being a blank flank. I don’t want or need them making fun of me because I come from a broken home too until them who has everything. Sometimes I wish that some pony would just buck those to fillies in the head and knock some niceness into them if that’s even possible. Better yet, let them live with my dad for a week and I’ll take their house that would show them how lucky they have it. Hopefully it would stop them from bullying other ponies too, especially me and my friends. Stupid rich snoot tails need to be taught a lesson!

I don’t have a totally horrible life, I do enjoy my time at school with my friends or when I’m talking to them. I love spending time with them and their families! I’m lucky enough to have them or at least Rainbow Dash do things with me when there is an event in Ponyville. In that sense I’m luckier than any pony to have supportive friends no matter what. Sweetie Belle I love to death because she always shares her lunch with me since I don’t really have anything usually. Applebloom does too when she has enough to share depending on how things are going on for the farm and such.

I think that ends it for this journal entry. I hope this pleases Cheerilee since my mouth is numb from writing so much today. I think I’ve written more than I have in this silly journal thing than I have in a day in class. Anyways I will update you tomorrow with what happens I guess.

~ Scootaloo
Future Wonderbolt member!

Entry 2

Dear Journal,

Today in class we went on a field trip! We went to the mayor’s office to see how she runs Ponyville. It was rather boring since all Mare Mayor did was talk about random things other than her job. I mean I guess that’s why she was elected mayor because she can talk a lot, but I don’t know if she actually says anything useful sometimes. I remember when she started talking at Nightmare Night the time that Princess Luna came down and it was kind of long winded. I think even Princess Luna was dozing off; I know Twilight looked like she was having an issue staying awake. Mare Mayor is cool though I guess I mean she keeps the town organized and safe for all ponies. It’s a job that isn’t to be taken lightly I would guess since she’s some important government official. It’s not the highlight of the day though.

Applebloom’s cousin from Manehatten came to town! I don’t think Applebloom, Sweetie Belle, or me expected to experience what happened when Babs Seed first stepped of the train. I thought Babs was going to be cool at first. She went to the dark side though. She made fun of us along with Diamond Twit and Silver Sponge, and the worst part of it was that Babs was really mean. I mean meaner than both Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon put together on a GOOD day. Those things she said really hurt a lot. She didn’t hurt just me though; she hurt Applebloom the most probably because she was sharing a room with her. Buck, the pony even made Sweetie Belle cry! NO pony does that to Sweetie Belle, she’s so sweet and kind. In the end the end of the week though it was great Babs Seed didn’t turn out to be such a bad pony after all. I didn’t mention it until today because it was doing that “Hi my name is…” thing you do when you meet some pony. I also was a bit ashamed of some of the things she said.

She called me a dodo because she heard from the two twits she was hanging out with that I couldn’t fly. I think Diamond Tiara even showed her picture she had of me not being able save myself from crashing into that mud puddle when Gabby Gums was still around when we were doing that for the school newspaper. I hate being reminded I can’t fly. If I’m really ashamed of one thing, it would be that I’m… a chicken or a dodo. I hate that more than being called a blank flank. It really hurts when ponies call me that, even behind my back and they think I’m not listening. Things turned out okay though like I said before.

Babs Seed apologized to us and we even made her a member of the Cutie Mark Crusaders! Ponyville or in Manehatten blank flanks are ponies too, just because we don’t have our cutie marks yet doesn’t mean we’re below those who do. It just means we have yet to find our potential and the possibilities are limitless! I hope that Babs comes back in the future since she’s a cool filly to hang out with when we learned the truth about why she came to Ponyville in the first place. I’m glad to call her a friend now even if we did get off on the wrong hoof at first.

Speaking of getting off on the wrong hoof, my mom got fired from one of her jobs. My dad is such a stupid bucking pony! He called down there apparently and threw a foal sized fit because she was working overtime to pay for HIS booze this week. A filly really shouldn’t worry about going home. My mom caught me crying when she came home though, that’s why this has wet stains and is smeared. I’m crying a lot right now because my dad actually hit me to the point that I’m bleeding from my head. My mom’s going to take me to the hospital or was until they got into a fight about it. I think my mom’s going to leave him. I hope she does, because I don’t know how much more I can take of this. I’m really tired of being around someone that does nothing but hate me. I get enough of that from Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon.

Speaking of which, I feel like I should how I see them. Diamond Tiara is the ring leader of the two. She is called Diamond Twit by me and my friends. Her friend Silver Spoon is called Silver Sponge because she pretty much repeats anything and almost everything that Diamond Tiara says to anyone especially if it’s an insult. I’m starting to wonder if she doesn’t really have any brains of her own, I mean she obviously can’t form her own opinion without Diamond using her as puppet. I think that Diamond has an invisible 5th hoof somewhere attached to her and its right up Silver Spoon’s butt making her talk, walk, think, and whatever they do. Yeah if only I could prove this. I could even get my cutie mark in uh…. Whatever you do when you try to prove something that’s real, I can’t really think because my head is killing me.

My mom says I have to go, I’m going to be spending the night at Sweetie Belle’s tonight and she’s already called them to say that I’m coming over. I think she’s going to drop me off at the hospital first to check out my head since I had a bottle cracked over my head. I like Sweetie Belle’s place though it’s a lot of fun.

I get the feeling though that Sweetie Belle is kind of ignored a bit, since she can do pretty much whatever she wants. I mean she spends most of her time at Rarity’s but she spends a lot of time at home too. Her room is pretty, but really girly. Mine’s not so much. It looks like a boy’s room kind of, but I like it that way. I don’t really care for frilly things other than my stuffed pony my grandmother gave me as a baby before she died.

Anyways I have to go; I’m going to have a CMC sleepover at Sweetie’s! I just heard that Applebloom is going to be there too! So we get to go planning for our cutie marks after school tomorrow!

~ Scootaloo
Confused CMC member.

Entry 3

Dear Journal,

Today’s been so terrible. Everything has gotten worse! I don’t know if anything could get any worse than they are. I mean my dad is being a real pain in the flank; my mom’s working more hours to avoid my dad. Silver Spoon and friends are picking on me even more since Babs is out of town now. On top of all that Trixie’s back in town!

She challenged Twilight to a magical duel but she lost! Twilight was kicked out of town and then Trixie and her nutty ways ruled. I wonder how in the name of Celestia that happened! I guess I’ll have to ask Rainbow Dash later or one of her friends. The time that Trixie Town was in existence, she did do one god thing. My mom served papers to my dad to basically tell him basically buck off and to go find his own life to screw up instead of screwing up hers and mine. So I’m happy about that, she kicked him out of the house and changed all the locks so he can’t get back in. the only bad thing is that he can now stalk me at school since he’s now homeless. I’m sure that’s going to make it worse for me at school since I’m sure that Silver Spoon is going to rub that in my face too. She already calls me a dodo or a chicken.

Cheerilee also found out about what’s going on since she noticed the tear stained pages. I mean it probably would have happened eventually. She did say that I should have told her and that I could come to her any time and talk. Cheerilee’s awesome and a really cool teacher; so much that she actually talked to my mom today and she offered to let me stay at her house until things were settled at home with my dad. My mom accepted so she could focus on things I guess. I know my dad’s going to start stuff and the local police have already been notified of what has been going on. They even used some of my journal entries as evidence… they promised me that they wouldn't be passed around they are strictly evidence and will be kept under wraps. Though I think they are going to use parts of it to help convict him. Celestia I’m sure isn’t happy with my dad, beating on small ponies isn't a light crime. Cheerilee is cool she let me have a new journal!

Oh my Celestia! You have to see Cheerilee’s house some time. It’s simply amazing and pretty. She lives by herself in a small quaint house, but it’s really well laid out. I even have my own bathroom while I stay here! I don’t have to share one with my dad or mom. This is awesome! I can see all the things that she has kept from her students from current and past. I even see some old pictures of Applejack, Rarity, and other ponies who knew her when they were growing up. It’s really funny seeing Rarity as a foal, she looks so innocent and a lot like Sweetie Belle just with a different mane and tail. The house smells like baked cookies and fresh cut hay. My scooter got her floor a little muddy though since it was raining on the way out after school. I think some of the students got jealous of me since I’m going home with her. She says there is going to be a lecture of violence and taunting other ponies tomorrow, since she did read about Silver Spoon and Diamond Tiara’s antics with me and the other Cutie Mark Crusaders. So that should be interesting to see tomorrow.

It’s getting colder now, and Hearth Warming’s Eve is soon. I’m looking forward to it! I’m going to have to get something for all of my friends and something totally awesome for Rainbow Dash. I don’t know what they would want though, I mean it’s not like my family has a lot of money right now. I hope we have more now that my dad’s out of the picture and we can stat fixing up the house and maybe even buy our own since we are renting a rundown shack of a house. The owner doesn’t really upkeep it well.

I really like how things are looking up for the moment. Mom’s going to be looking into getting a promotion from her job with the Weather Patrol. My dad is kicked out and he’s wandering the streets in the cold weather, I hope that he learns his lesson. Cheerilee’s being really awesome and giving me a break from the stress at home; my dad still technically lives there. My mom has to go through some sort of process that that gets him legally kicked out and divorce papers have to be served and he has to sign it. Also my dad swears he’ll get my mom back.

~ Scootaloo
Hopefully CMC member!

P.S. My dad is such a buck! He swears right and left that he will get full custody of me. My mom served the papers to him while I was still packing up to go out of there to Cheerilee’s and as I was walking out the door. I heard him yelling (probably loud enough for me to here because he knew I was within ear shot anyways) that he’ll get custody of me, the (rented) house, and everything she owns. Something about whipping her into shape and wiping her clean because she’s a horrible pony. HA! She’s a horrible pony!? Yeah right! You’re the one that beat both of us up, did terrible things to me against my will because my mom wouldn’t do them, and on top of that took all of our money for your drinking problem all because you don’t want to deal with the fact you are a wingless Pegasus loser. I still have my wings, I can still buzz around on my scooter, and I don’t have to hide behind a bottle to face my problems. Celestia, I wish he would just buck off and go bother some pony else!

Entry 4 (revised)

Dear Journal,

I got permission from Cheerilee to actually do this over a course of a few days. So I don’t have to worry about grades on my journal assignment until I go back, so here is my trip with the CMC and our ‘sisters’. I can’t believe that Sweetie Belle got Rarity to come along, because she’s such a girly girl. She can be as evil as her sister though sometimes, but she’s been taught by the best, her own sister. Applebloom and I just looked at each other in disbelief. Remind me not to cross her path in a bad way. Still we all got to go, and I got to hang out with Rainbow Dash!

The time with the greatest flyer alive was awesome. I mean she showed me all kinds of cool things that I never knew! It did get off to a rocky start though; she told two scary camp stories that actually gave me nightmares! I was so afraid to tell her that Princess Luna said in a dream that I had to face my fears. I didn’t want to until I thought I heard the headless horse when I first woke up and I ran! Later it turned out to be Rainbow Dash’s version of a snore, but I was so gripped with fear that I didn’t know it at the time.

I ended up in a river because I was so scared and my idol saved me! I’m still puzzled how she knew though from ear plugs, a deafening snore, and in dead sleep. I think it’s probably something to do with Luna, and if it is thank you so much! I actually owed up to it, and turns out that Rainbow Dash said she was once scared of the same things as me. Once I actually settled down and thought about it, I did see how silly I was. I mean a headless horse can’t neigh, it would be dead! I’m such a silly filly sometimes. Rainbow Dash did say she would take me under her wing and it was the happiest moment of my life! I was so happy when she said yes.

It was even more amazing when she actually showed me and held me up when she was flying when we got to our destination. Feeling the wind in my hair, feeling my wings flap in the air, and above all having my favorite Pegasus there besides me is just so indescribable. It’s something you can only experience in the moment. It’s truly something that takes your breath away and only Pegasi can understand.

The best thing about that day though is that Rainbow Dash and I sat on a cloud overlooking the sky as Sweetiebelle, Rarity, Applebloom, and Applejack were playing around. Just sitting there with her was so awesome she gave me all sorts of pointers for ponies that wanted to tease me for not being able to fly (yet). I eventually told her about my home life, and she got sad. She gave me a hug though, which was really cool. Rainbow Dash isn’t just cool, she is what her element is loyalty.

“Scootaloo, if I had known about that sooner I would’ve actually done this sooner. You should tell ponies about this because you shouldn’t have to be dealing with this alone. Now you don’t have to! You have many ponies behind you know? Myself in that being first though, then the others of course I can’t have my number one fan being hurt by some bully right?” Rainbow Dash said to me, and I will never forget it.

She’s right though, I’m not alone anymore. I don’t blame my mom for what happened to me. I just wish she had acted sooner than she did… I have my fellow CMC, their friends and family and also I have Rainbow Dash. She’s the best sister I could have, I don’t care if she’s not blood related. She’s exactly what I wanted in a sister and more.

Cheerilee actually agreed to let me spend some time with Rainbow Dash! The only down side is that I have school and she has a job with the weather patrol in the morning. So it’s not as much time as I would like. I did ask Rainbow if she could tell my mom what happened and that she knows everything now because of me. I hope my mom won’t be mad at me for letting Dash know, because it hurts me more not talking about what my dad did to me. I actually started telling my fellow CMC and they just hugged me as we cried together. I filled in Cheerilee what she didn’t already know as I did say she could read my journal as long as she kept it between us and her from now on. She agreed, and smiled at me. I’m so lucky to have many friends that understand and are in my corner this time.

It’s Hearth Warming Eve soon, so that means awesome presents! I also get to see my mom hopefully. I got word that my dad got ahold of her and beat her up pretty bad since he’s still around the town somewhere. The police haven’t caught him yet. He’s a sneaky pony unfortunately that is working out in his favor. He can’t last forever though; some pony will find him and make him pay for what he’s done and still doing to my mom and me. I do miss my mom… I miss hearing her voice, her hugs, and her smell.

I never thought I’d miss her so much since she’s always gone when I’m at home. I guess it’s because I was surrounded by things that were hers in the house I lived in. I do know that I’ll be moving into a new house when my mom gets things settled once in for all. She doesn’t want me coming back to a home that was full of hate. I don’t blame her though; I actually look forward to that day. I just hope that it’s soon. Until then I have my friends and adopted sister to keep me company. I have to go now; Rainbow Dash wants to show me Daring Do books before she goes for the day. This is going to be so cool! I didn’t now she read books!

~ Scootaloo
Rainbow Dash’s Adopted Sister!
Rainbow Dash’s Adopted Sister!

Entry 5

Dear Journal,

Today was awesome! Rainbow Dash got accepted into Wonderbolts Academy and she’s going to spend a week there. Oh my gosh, I’m happy for her. I hope to visit her up there soon as soon someone gets around to taking me up there. I’d love to meet Spitfire and Soarin’ I have heard so much about them from Rainbow and other Pegasus ponies. I juts would love to have my chance to meet them. I’ll get my chance one day. In the meantime my big sister is going to be a Wonderbolt! I mean she has to be taken into the team; she’s the best flyer in Equestria. The ONLY pony to do a Sonic Rainboom MORE THAN ONCE! I mean come on, if they don’t accept her they are just stupid and blind to true talent! I’d like to see one of their current team do a Sonic Rainboom and be asked by Princess Celestia PERSONALLY to preform it at a royal wedding. Oh and be the element of loyalty while doing all of this. Okay enough about Rainbow Dash, I’m just glad she’s having a great time at the weeklong academy they are having her do. It’s great that she’s doing that, other ponies are getting ready for the up and coming holidays.

Hearth’s Warming is coming soon… I really don’t know what I should do. I want to spend it with so many ponies. I mean I really want to spend it with my mom but I don’t think that is going to happen this year since my mom has let my dad back in. Cheerile’s got her own plans for the holiday but she doesn’t want to send me back to my mom’s house with my dad back in the picture. I heard talk that I could spend it with Sweetie Belle or Applebloom but I couldn’t really impose on them since this is a holiday for family. I mean yeah friends are important too, but I don’t really want to spend it with my family. It’s not like I’d get anything anyways. I know my mom wants me around and she does love me. She also loves my dad too but last time she got me something, he ruined it. The one and only gift I still have is my scooter, it was given to me by my grandmother (my dad’s mom) before she died when I was still really little. The only pony I could probably spend it with that I wouldn’t mind would be Rainbow Dash! It would be so awesome of her to do that. I know she’s probably got plans though.

I walked into town today on my own since Cheerilee was busy packing to go wherever her family is from. She said she’d make other arrangements for some pony to take me in while she’s away. There was no Cutie Mark Crusader stuff going on since both of them were busy taking care of things that were family related. I sighed, and then stopped in the library. I saw Shining Armor in Twilight’s library.

“Twiliy, hurry up we’ll be missing the train if you take every book here. I mean it’s not like you don’t have access to the castle library as it is.” I heard the unicorn stallion playfully tease his younger sister.

“Just a moment, oh hey Scootaloo you need a book?” Twilight greeted me and I just nodded putting on my best happy face.

I looked around and asked Twilight, “Hey Twilight, you wouldn’t happen to have A Hearth’s Warming Carol would you?”

Twilight smiled at me and nodded, “I was saving it for some pony, and I figured one of you CMC would ask for it.”

I saw the lavender unicorn levitate the book as she handed it to me. I still have to say that I think it’s rather cool for unicorns to have magic. I thanked her as I trotted off with the book in my already packed saddle bags. I suppose I should be heading back to Cheerilee’s since she might be looking for me. I heard a squeaky “SQUIRT” behind me. I only know one pony that calls me that, RAINBOW DASH! I turn around and light up to see my ‘big sister’ behind me smiling.

“OH MY GOSH RAINBOW DASH!” I squealed and hugged the flying pony.

I heard a laugh and response hug. I nuzzled Rainbow Dash all excitedly, though slightly surprised to see her back so soon. I then realized that the week was over and that she was coming back. I looked at her and then smiled a bit unsure though, “Hey uh… Rainbow Dash, you know how my dad’s a total loser right?”

I saw the look on her face change, with a flat, annoyed response, “Uh…huh... I do why?”

I looked around and sat down looking up at my favorite pony in all o Equestria, and sighed, “My mom felt bad since it’s soon Hearth’s Warming… and she let dad back in the house. I don’t feel like going back there, no matter how much I want to spend the holiday with my mom. I was wondering if….”

“Sure Squirt, as long as it’s okay with Cheerilee.” I hear the response and I swear if I could’ve flown in that moment I would’ve!

I could explode I’m so happy! I get to spend my Hearth’s Warming with Rainbow Dash; it’s like a dream almost. Some pony pinch me I’m dreaming! I bet that I’m the luckiest little filly right now. I can just hardly believe what I’m hearing. The only hang up is if my mom and Cheerilee agree with it. I ended up going back to Cheerilee’s house and asking her if it was alright and she looked at me and said that she’s okay with it but she’d have to ask my mom. They had something to tell me anyways apparently. I’m no adult but this can’t be good. I don’t really know what to think after hearing that to be honest. I’ll find out later on tonight, my mom’s coming to visit Miss. Cheerilee’s house!

When my mom opens up the door I see her baring gifts, I run up to hug her! I can see my dad’s been beating up on her a lot. It makes me sad to be honest, and I see that he actually broke one of her wings. She looks at my face when I look her over and she tells me that she’s fine. No she’s not! I wish some pony would help her, maybe if I wrote to Princess Celestia or something she could help my mother with my Pegasus feather brained dad. I hope she would at least.

On the flip side, my mom did say that I could stay with Rainbow Dash as long as I’m welcome there. I’m so excited. It turns out that Cheerilee can’t keep me much longer since she is my teacher after all. I mean she’s great I do love my teacher but I would rather spend my time with my idol! I hope that Rainbow Dash is okay with this. I mean I haven’t wet the cloud/bed since I was a small foal but I still don’t really want to accidently do that again. (Okay I lied when my dad used to beat me up really bad I’d have nightmares and I’d wet the bed…. But don’t tell any pony that.) I get to spend Hearth’s Warming with Dash, my CMC friends, and well adopted family. I hope my mother can make it, I just don’t know what my dad is doing to her. Rainbow Dash came by to see how things are and my mom and my adopted sister got to meet for the first time. I could tell that Rainbow wanted to actually let my mom have it but she held it in for now out of respect for me and Cheerilee. I hugged my mom good bye and walked out with Rainbow Dash. Now that I think about it, I really wish I was walking out with my mom. I just really miss her you know?

~ Scootaloo
One sad filly that’s missing her mom.

Entry 6

Dear Journal,

Hearth Warming was amazing! I got to spend it with Rainbow Dash; she got me some cool things like some spare parts for my scooter, a new helmet, and a book. She says that reading is cool, even she does it. I guess she’s been talking to Miss. Cheerilee and got my view on reading, I don’t really much like it. I got to see my mom too! She came over to visit me at Dash’s house up in the clouds. Something about she wanted to talk to Rainbow Dash about something. I don’t think she was too happy about it though, but what choice does she have? Sorry to sound a bit bitter, but she’s got a kid that she should be taking care of not shoving off on other people. Oh well, she assures me that things are going to be worked out and I can come home soon. Implying I even want to go back to the same house that thing lives in right now. I’d rather take my chances living with Rarity, thanks but no thanks Mom.

Speaking of family, Applebloom’s family reunion happened recently, from what I heard it was pretty fun and cool. Applejack actually let ponies have fun once she loosened things up herself (right after she KOed the barn). I would've paid to see that honestly. It sounds like it would've been fun, and we could’ve gotten our cutie marks! Babs Seed came back into town; she got to hang out with us for a while as well after every pony went and left after the reunion. Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon quivered with fear when they both saw Babs. It was rather funny to see honestly, since both of the ponies still give us hay for being blank flanks. It’s great to see that the Manehatten branch of the CMC growing. Us blank flanks need to stick together and beyond us getting our cutie marks.

I was just thinking about this the other day, what happens to the CMC member that has their cutie mark. I mean they don’t really have any purpose in the club anymore once they found what their special talent is. I mean they could be some sort of ‘Cutie Mark Crusader Helper’ or something. I mean they technically graduate from our mission and move on. I don’t know what would happen to Sweetie Belle, Applebloom and me one of us got our cutie marks and the others didn’t. I’m just wondering since we’re such great friends. I mean I shouldn't let this get me down, but you don’t really want to be the last one in a group or your class to get your cutie mark. It’s kind of you know… embarrassing. It’s not like your true friends will abandon you or anything, but you will be teased by every pony. I don’t buy that ‘every pony grows at their own pace, some are just faster than others.’ Yeah, whatever I bet whoever said that was probably the first one in the class and had a foal that was last. They just didn’t want to make their foal feel bad, but they just make them feel worse. I know how parents work; they try but don’t understand anything. They are too old and forget what their childhood was like. Typical parents…

Oh, that reminds me. I saw my dad for the first time in over a month. It was ‘requested’ by him since he still has legal bind on m or something. I don’t really understand how that works, I just know that the buck has all the say so over what happens to me and what goes on in my life for now as my mother does. I wish my mom would stand on her hooves and actually do something about this. She probably won’t though she’s too scared of what he’ll do since he’s pretty strong for a wingless Pegasus. I should know he’s struck me a few times. My mom did tell me that she threw him out of the house again and she’s serving him papers of their divorce. Probably why he wanted to see me in some half way house for drunks. He’s trying to get clean and realizes his mistakes, but the damage has been done. I don’t trust him as are as I can fly, which you know for a fact I can’t fly. It should say enough right there.

Apparently its court ordered that he get clean before there would be a ‘formal’ court hearing over the future of who I stay with on a permanent basis. This is stupid because we all know he’s going to go back to his old ways as soon as this is over, and if I get to live with him my mom won’t be around to protect me at all. I’m sure he’ll make sure that she doesn’t ever get to see me ever again. I don’t want that, I hope that doesn't happen. I do know they are trying to keep me away from the situation as much as they can, at least my mom is. I know that I have others that can testify that have seen the bruises, wounds, and much more to put my father in jail. I hope he rots there… Celestia I know that sounds mean but he really isn’t a good pony. I’d rather have Discord in charge of Ponyville again rather than deal with my dad.

I just know that the courts haven’t allowed him to see me, speak to me, or even walk on the same streets as me. They are making my mom get a new house and probably going to have me stay with her again. It’s what I want, but I don’t really expect to spend much time there honestly. I’ll probably be over at Sweetie’s a lot since she’ll be an only parent and she has to work a lot to keep food on the table and bills paid. I can’t hate my mom though she does try, and she is trying to keep me away from my father. The best Hearth Warming gift I could have ever gotten is my mom telling me face to face that she’s done with my father. I saw the wounds he put on her while she let him back in the house. I hope that he rots in a cell or gets exiled, no pony, griffin, or whatever should treat their spouse like that.

I’m just glad I’m with Rainbow Dash right now and she seems to enjoy having me around. It’s really cool to have her around; she’s the best adopted big sister I could ask for. Also my mom seems to like the idea; I’m guessing things are going to be different in the next coming year since this one is coming to a close soon.

I’m actually looking forward to a bright future and a bright tomorrow for a change. This might just be start of a good thing, at least I hope so. Putting my past behind me and letting wounds heal so I can have a better tomorrow. Also to find my cutie mark!

~ Scootaloo
Hopeful filly

Entry 7

Dear Journal,

Today is a start of a new year, and it’s supposed to be great right? Yeah… about that I hear some rumors about Discord being released and given a second chance. I mean I can see what the power of friendship did for ponies like Trixie can do. I’m not sure if they are true or not, I hope not. I just remember last time that Discord got out it was because of Sweetie Belle, Applebloom and I were having petty arguments that set him free last time without meaning to. The cracking at the crotch was a bit weird too. It’s like he got some sort of pleasure of causing chaos and disharmony, well yeah I know he does but I mean some sort of pleasure from it. Okay that’s going a bit far, but he still makes me nervous.

Dad officially got picked up by local authorities not for abuse, but for setting the house on fire. Yeah, he burnt it down, and it’s on his head since he now has to pay the land lord off (from jail). I’d love to see that court hearing. Mom to told me that it’s just added to the list of what he’s going to be charged with since they got my testimony and other ponies as well. When the word finally got out, apparently it wasn’t just us that he had assaulted in some fashion. All of Ponyville hated him and feel sorry that I’m even his daughter, okay that’s going a bit too far but it seems like it at least. I hope that Ponyville hates him but doesn’t hate me. It would be unfair if they did, I mean it’s neither my fault nor my mom’s. He’s a changed stallion since his wings had to be amputated since he was an idiot to fly into a hurricane cloud. Stupid is lucky to be alive. He’s not the father I remember as a foal, and not the pony my mother married. He’s getting his punishment now; I just hope he doesn’t drop the soap… I heard that she showers are a bad place to be, especially if you beat up mares and foals. I’m not sure what they mean by that exactly, but I have a very good idea… and it goes beyond just beating up.

Rainbow Dash said she had to go out of town again due to Wonderbolt business, so I’m left with Fluttershy for now. I don’t mind her at all; in fact I look forward to it. The last time I stayed over at her place, I did cause a bit of trouble. I don’t think I will though. I will listen to her since she’s got ‘the stare’. I’d hate to be the animal, pony, or whatever to cross her path when she gives you that look. It’s right down scary coming from such a shy pony. They say the quiet ones you have to watch the most since they are the most common ones to crack. I don’t think Fluttershy will crack, but she’s surely no pony to mess with. Plus side I get to prank Angel when Fluttershy’s not looking. The little bunny runs over Fluttershy, and he’s not really clever enough sometimes if you catch him off guard. My fellow CMC and I prank him all the time when Fluttershy’s not looking. I think it makes him not take Fluttershy totally for granted. I mean I hope so, that’s why we do it. He’s such a spoiled bunny, and ungrateful too.

Speaking of ungrateful, Silver Sponge and Diamond Twit are at it again. They are pestering every pony to vote for them for the dumb Little Filly Pageant, Rarity wants to enter in Sweetie Belle. Probably just to parade her sister around as a walking advertisement for her store. I mean Sweetie is doing because she wants to please her sister, but I can see she really doesn’t like that sort of stuff. One of the categories is showing off your special talent which is hard for a blank flank. I’ve heard they secretly mock the blank flanks, and it’s horrible. I really do worry about Sweetie’s confidence with something like that. Lucky her she’s picked singing which she’s great at! I’m happy for her, and she’s always humming something. I hope she doesn’t get stage fright, which would be horrible.

I’ve picked up reading. It’s not so bad; I mean there are some pretty cool stories in Twilight’s Library. It’s a place I’ve actually have been coming a lot since I’ve been living with Rainbow Dash. It’s really quiet so I end up falling asleep there. I’ve also been sleeping a lot better since I’ve been sleeping on clouds. I mean you can’t get any softer than a cloud! Oh I never did wet the cloud either! Okay maybe once the first night when I had a really bad nightmare of my dad beating and killing my mom like he threatened one time when he was seriously drunk past his normal limit. Dash was cool about it, and said that even the toughest fillies sometimes wet the cloud when they are growing up. After what I’ve been through she said that it was understandable, so she’s not mad. I think that was Rainbow Dash for she used to do the same thing so she understands or Fluttershy did. I never can tell; I do know those two are really close… like more than best friends. It’s cool though, I kind of see myself like that with my CMC crew as we get older. Particularly with Sweetie Belle, she and I just click like she understands more than she lets on. Applebloom I love my earth pony friend but sometimes she’s a few apple short of a full barrel on some things but a great friend none the less.

I better get some sleep soon, since I have to help Fluttershy with the animals early in the morning before school. I don’t mind much I think she could really use more help around here and I’m happy to help. Hey it might even earn me my cutie mark! I don’t think I’m cut out for stuff like that but you never know! You just might be surprised. I’m starting to learn that there are more to things that what they appear. You have to look between the lines. I still hope I get to come back home (new home) with my mother soon. I really do miss her

~ Scootaloo
A tired filly.

Entry 8

Dear Journal,

So I didn’t want to mention this before since it’s something that a mother usually talks to about with her daughter. Since I’m ‘coming to that age’ they said that Rainbow Dash had to give me ‘the talk’ because of the current situation. I’m not really allowed to see my mom that much due to the problems with my dad that are being solved as we speak now but back when this was happening he was still the picture. Why am I writing about it now? It’s been driving me crazy as in the back of my mind. Also we watched a film that every foal has to watch in class. It was the general “so your body is already going through changes or might soon” crap. I didn’t really want to pay attention or you had some sort of punishment like staying after school and watching it with the teacher. Who wants that? I sure didn’t so I had to watch.

You should have seen Dash’s face when she was told by Cheerilee that it was ‘required’ that the acting guardian or parent of the student to talk about the movie we saw in class today. I felt really bad for her but the look on her face was rather funny. It’s the “oh man, do I really have to?” face. I got the movie though, I mean yeah my body will go through changes and stuff as I get older. But honestly, why does it matter? It usually doesn’t happen until you get your cutie mark. Though there are the early bloomers that get it early and get their cutie mark. Yeah I have questions, but I don’t really feel comfortable asking them to anyone just yet. I mean… it’s my bod you know? It’s really embarrassing to ask such things to other ponies, like your parents or siblings. I don’t think adults get that sometimes, but at least they try I guess.

The conversation went like this with Rainbow Dash and me:
RD: Hey Squirt, you know about the…. Uh…
Me: Uh…. What Rainbow Dash? I don’t know what you’re getting at.
RD: You know that movie you saw in school today, you have any questions? I mean you know you can talk to me about such things right?
Me: Yeah I know I just don’t know how to ask them.
RD: oh… well you know when a stallion and mare love each other… they…

Yeah it pretty much went like that. She did go through the whole story (in detail) causing both of us to look at each other really awkwardly. It was pretty strange, but I guess it was home work for the ‘parent’ instead of the kid. I can’t imagine why it’s suddenly important that we know about such things now. I mean it’s kind of silly.

The really fun part is when I got to see my mom and she gave me the talk again. Ugh, she was so embarrassing. She was trying to have it during some sort of meeting of custody battles or something. Yeah, my dad’s trying to get custody of me through jail which is really stupid. I mean he’s currently being held in a place I can’t live in or want to live in. is he stupid or just crazy? I’m really starting to wonder about him. I’m glad my mom has pretty much abandoned him because he’ just really crazy! I mean my mom’s silly but I think she’s just got a lot on her mind right now. She has to find a new house, trying to deal with the death threats from my father, oh and other stuff I’m sure I don’t know about. I only know about the death threats because he was screaming at her the last time I was over before I was at Cheerilee’s.

Moving on to something less embarrassing! Rainbow Dash and I spent the day just walking around Ponyville while she hung out with her friends. Lucky for me Appleboom and Sweetie Belle tagged along with their sisters so I wasn’t bored. They went to the spa, a place I never thought I’d go. Sweetie Belle thought it would be a good idea for us to try something like the older ponies were doing. I really wasn’t up to get my hooves trimmed or whatever. The girly stuff really isn’t my thing. The massage was okay though; the mud mask (I was dared by Applebloom) was really weird to say the least. The cucumbers were a great snack though. I was happy when we finally got out of there it’s really not a place I could see myself. Applejack laughed and told me that you don’t know you might actually like it when I get older. Ponies taste change as they mature and grow. Yeah I’ve already noticed this though. When I was a baby I used to want to sleep with all of my stuffed animals to feel secure. Now I just want my Wonderbolt stuffed toys that don’t leave my room unless I’m going to a CMC sleep over!

There has to be something to this whole ‘growing up’ thing I’m not getting. I mean yeah I know I’m getting older, eventually I’ll get my cutie mark, get a job, and all of that stuff but why rush it? I mean I’m only a kid once. I really should enjoy myself before it’s too late and make memories with my friends and enjoy their company while I still can right? It’s not like we’re going to be living in the same town forever. Older ponies are really funny sometimes, they tell us not to grow up so fast but when we hit the age we are now they are in a rush to make us adults. I don’t know what to think right now. I mean I’ve had to mature faster than other ponies in my class and surely more mature than Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon. They still act like we are in preschool days with the name calling and stupid chants. Yeah they get under my skin sometimes, but they are more annoying than anything anymore.

I better get some sleep since it’s late and I have school tomorrow. I still hear rumors about Discord as I made my way back to Fluttershy’s house. Well that’s some of the stuff I’ve been holding to myself for a while, it feels good to get it out at least on paper for now.

~ Scootaloo
An awkward feeling filly

Entry 9

Dear Journal,

The rumors were true! Discord is back and by Princess Celestia’s Request too! I don’t understand why the princess would do such a thing and I don’t even know if Princess Luna was for it. We don’t hear much about her or even see much from her. I do see her sometimes in my dreams since she suddenly became aware of my dad’s intentions from my nightmares and she was protecting me I guess. Princess Luna is cool she isn’t mean like ponies said she once was. I don’t understand why they would still think she is. Misunderstood probably yeah but not mean.

Rainbow Dash, Rarity, Twilight, Fluttershy, Applejack and Pinkie Pie had released the element of chaos and it was scary. Everyone in Ponyville hid. Rainbow Dash came back in the nick of time when she got word of Discord coming back. It was partly because she’s the element of harmony and partly because I was staying with Fluttershy; I didn’t want to be anywhere close to him. It was my fault (along with Applebloom and Sweetie Belle) that he got loose in the first place because we had to argue that day. I had my taste of him the first time. I didn’t really want to even hear that name again. Oh well looks like things are okay now, I mean he’s back but he’s calmer… mostly.

What was really funny though and I found somewhat disappointing in my ‘big sister’ was her and her other friends wouldn’t trust him. Fluttershy would just let him do whatever and give him so much slack. If I did half of what he did I would be in huge trouble! Shows you how much trust Fluttershy had in him. It worked though, he found out what it was like to have friends and that friendship is magic! It really is I don’t know where I wouldn’t be without my friends. It’s totally awesome. I’m really lucky to have the ponies I have for friends even if my own parents are kind of lacking in the trust and reliance department. They do try, at least my mom does I mean she wouldn’t go through all the trouble she is now to try to make a better life for me right? I just wish she would’ve kicked out my dad before it got this bad. Oh well you can’t change the past.

It’s really funny though my dad hasn’t been seen since Discord left Ponyville after everything was said in done. I don’t know where he went off to. I found out that Princess Celestia was told by some pony that he was causing a huge stink in Ponyville and she probably took him with her to deal with him personally. At least that’s what Twilight told me when I had asked her. Princess Celestia doesn’t like any pony hurting the next generation and making them scared or feeling bad about themselves. It’s not what she stands for. Twilight also said that the princesses don’t like getting involved personally but since Rainbow Dash put in a special request since she’s the element of loyalty the Princess thought she look into it. Boy I’m happy for that! I don’t think I’ll have to worry about him now. I can hopefully go back to my mom now. I don’t think I will though since she’s pretty much left with debt and she recently lost the house due to back up rent. Thanks dad… the buck up.

In other news the CMC sleepover is a go! We’re sleeping over at Applebloom’s place. It’s going to be awesome too. We’re going to figure out ways to try to get our cutie marks! I hope mine’s an awesome cutie mark like a flying one or something! I already have a feeling that Sweetie Belle is already working up to hers since she loves to sing. She just has really bad stage fright. I don’t blame her I get that way sometimes when ponies want me to preform my tricks that I do on my way home (where ever I happen to live at the point and time).

I hope Applebloom doesn’t mind that I take an extra sleeping bag. I’m really looking forward to the sleep over. Rainbow Dash said I could go and to have fun. I just couldn’t get into trouble and I was to listen to Applejack, Granny Smith and Big Mac. It’s going to be so awesome I hope! I’ll write more when I get there and more things have happened. See ya soon!

~ Scootaloo

OH MY GOSH SO AWESEOME!

Dear Journal,

So every pony is a sleep right now. No one is up but me. I can’t sleep because I have a lot on my mind. I don’t want to wake any pony up with a nightmare or something. I’ve been having them a lot lately, and it’s not because of seeing Discord again. I’m actually happy he’s around and that he’s better off as he is now than stone. I just keep having these dreams of my dad and him in a dungeon never to be seen again by any pony. I don’t know why I have these dreams. I also don’t understand why I’m feeling sad about it either. I mean I hate my dad all he’s done is just cause trouble for me my whole life. Before CMC I never had friends and I would often spend the night in the streets because my parents were too busy arguing to even see me slip out of the front door.

Now that it’s over… I can live peacefully right? I mean I remember my dad before he became a drunken donkey’s butt and I miss that part of him. I know he’ll never be like that again. I mean he used to actually play ball with me, help me fix my scooter, and when he wasn’t busy he’d actually let me ride on his back when he could still fly. I want my old dad back… is that wrong of me? I guess some part of me loves him for who he was but that person has been dead long ago. I don’t even recognize him from my memories I guess you could say my dad died when he lost his wings. They used to be his pride and joy and he hoped that he could teach me how to fly one day. I’ll never fly they say, and I think they are right. I feel like the day he had to get his wings cut off because they were stuck under a tree and the only way to move him was to cut them off to save his life. My chances of flying died with him like that. I know that’s stupid and that it’s just silly. I’m just starting to wonder if I’ll ever be able to fly.

Pound Cake, Mr. and Mrs. Cake’s son is a Pegasus and he fan fly! I’m so jealous of him. I want to fly and I want to feel the wind through my feathers and stand on clouds. I’m not built for being on the ground I’m built for flying! I’m lucky to have my scooter so I can zip around the town but still I do feel like I’m a failure of a Pegasus. Sweetie Belle can’t really do magic either at least I’ve never seen her do magic. Applebloom’s an earth pony and she’s the clumsiest one I’ve ever seen. I guess we’re all three just failures of what we are. It’s what Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon want you to think too I bet. We aren't as good as them because we’re not the best of what type of ponies we are but we are also young and haven’t really reached our full potential probably. Each pony matures at different rates so that may be just us and it’s not our time yet.

I’m probably over thinking things I just have a lot on my mind. I’m going to get some sleep. Night

~ Scootaloo
Sleepy filly.

Entry 10

Dear Journal,

Discord is back! He’s also here to stay too! He turned Ponyville upside down and flooded the Apples’ farm! What’s really cool though is that Fluttershy, even though she had her friends’ doubt that could do it, gave Discord a reason to be good. She made him realize this whole time he wanted a friend! It was really touching to see and I’m glad that Princess Celestia gave the element of harmony holders that chance. Okay well Fluttershy the chance to show that she really knows what she’s doing! The pony really is sweet and kind, but don’t make her mad! She has a real bad temper when you push the right (or wrong) buttons!

I’m living with Rainbow Dash right now on a more permitted bases because my mother is… well I don’t know what she’s doing. My mother keeps flipping sides I guess. I don’t know what she’s doing. She’s lost the home I knew and she’s now living with I don’t want to know. Something tells me that my mother really doesn’t know what she is to do at this point. I mean she comes to see me but she doesn’t stay long. Rainbow Dash does her best to say she’ll come back soon but she knows that my mother isn’t herself anymore. I don’t think she ever will be.

Also I heard that Twilight had a mishap with her crown recently. I don’t know too much about it but I do know she was being silly after she got back from the Crystal Empire. She was talking about hands, walking on two legs or something like that. Lyra was all “I KNEW THEY EXISTED!” but no one pony takes her seriously because well it’s Lyra. Still though it was a fun story Twilight told every pony in SugarCube earlier today when we all went for some of Pinkie’s famous cupcakes. I actually enjoyed it there with my friends and their family. I even had my older sister RAINBOW DASH!

Oh it’s summer too! So you know what that means, MORE AWESOME THINGS! It means less school work (okay no school work) to find our cutie marks, the sister hooves social is coming up this year. I can’t wait to smoke Rarity, Applebloom, Applejack, and Sweetie Belle this year! It will be my first year doing this with Rainbow and I’m so nervous but excited about it.

Oh speaking of awesome things! Rainbow has been back and forth with Wonderbolt training and stuff like that. She even has started taking me with her on the occasion! I even got to meet Spitfire! OH MY CELESTIA! I GOT TO MEET SPITFIRE!

She’s super cool, though not as cool as Dash. She hung out with me the whole day and told me stories about her being a little filly. She was a late bloomer too! She didn’t learn how to fly until she was in her teenage years she said because she was scared of flying. It was really cool. Soarin’ is awesome too. He’s more laid back than his female counterpart and he loves pie.

Soarin is one of the leaders of the Wonderbolts as well. I mean he actually hung out with me while Dash and Spitfire did their drill sergeant training. He took me around the place and gave me tours. Oh and he told me about how much he loved apple pie and asked if he could get the name of the pony with the apple pie booth at the last few galloping galas. I told him that it was Applejack and he laughed and said he’d have to remember that. Apparently he remembered her from Twilight’s brother’s wedding and her whole family too. I couldn’t help but notice that he was making 'the eyes' eyes at Rainbow though. Guys are weird at any age I swear.

This reminds me! Feather weight started talking to me recently before school let out for summer. I don’t really know why but every time I say hi to him just to be nice. He blushes and flutters his wings. I just give him a weird look and go on with my crusading for my cutie mark with my friends. I’ve been meaning to ask some pony about that but it just slips my mind. I don’t know I mean he’s a cool pony but Feather weight is just… weird and socially awkward. I don’t really know what’s going in that brain of his.

Nothing else is really going on right now. I know Cheerile has said that the journal assignment is over since school is out but I kind of like keeping a journal. It lets me get my thoughts out on paper. Sometimes I just don’t really know what to say to other ponies and what to do about things going on in my life. It’s just really weird to talk to other ponies about me growing up you know? I mean I have my friends and obviously Dash and her friends for advice. I just don’t really know what to say nor do I really want to let every pony know what’s going through my head right at that moment.

Sweetie Belle is the same way I guess, but she cries about everything that upsets her. Applebloom and I just tend to think to ourselves and not always talking to our older sisters about everything. I guess you can say we are growing up faster than Sweetie Belle is, but we don’t leave her behind it’s not like she’s annoying or anything. The only pony that is annoying is Silver Spoon and Diamond Tiara though. Since Twilight’s become an alicorn they suddenly have started taking an interest in talking to her whereas before they just ignored her because she was nerdy.

Nothing has changed besides Twilight’s now a princess and has wings. No pony really understands and I love the face that Twilight pulls when they try to talk to her. It’s really funny for the bookworm pony and not in a good way. Just goes to show you that they’ll do anything for popularity within the small town we live in called Ponyville. I mean they already have rich parents, cutie marks, and everything they could ever want. What more could they gain by trying to be friends with a princess? Plus it’s rather obvious their intentions so I don’t think whatever plan they have will follow through successfully. Silly brainless snobs they don’t always get everything they want. Plus they were totally jealous of me when they found out I met the Wonderbolts. The huge tantrum rage fit that they both threw was almost as good as when Babs drenched them in mud like the stinky pigs they are.

~ Scootaloo!

Author's Note

i am really sorry for taking SO long to put this out. i've had a rough few months... anda lot of family problems going on. i've had some time to get things (hopefully) fixed for now. the family issues are still there but i'm doing my best to ignore the problem family member's stupidity.

hope you all enjoy/enjoyed the chapter!

Entry 11

Dear Journal,

The running of the leaves was pretty cool Fluttershy, Twilight Sparkle, Rarity, and the others did their part to help with bringing down the leaves so the winter season could come in. I’m looking forward to the snow! All the canceled school days, snowball fights, and not to mention awesome hot chocolate from SugarCube Corner! They make the best hot chocolate after you've been in the snow for so long!

Twilight Sparkle became an alicorn! I never thought you could do that. I think I heard one of her friends used the word “ascended” or something, I have no idea how you’d ‘ascend’ to be an alicorn but still it’s pretty cool. I don’t know of any other pony that could have done that. Twilight also promised me she’d personally see to the matter of my dad that was taken away a while ago and it would be dealt with quickly. I guess she dealt with it because I've not heard anything from him and my mother came back. The sad thing is she’s being summoned to Canterlot to appear before the Princesses after literally just coming back from wherever only a few days ago. Yeah I mean them, Celestia and Luna too.

I like Princess Luna a lot. She often comes in my dreams when I’m having a nightmare and soothes me and saying that she understands what I’m going through. I’m not sure what happened in her past and I don’t understand how she became Nightmare Moon but I’m guessing she went through something similar with her family. Princess Celestia I like too she keeps everything running and is really wise. Both princesses seem to want to be close with their subjects but because of something or other they are not. I don’t understand stuff like that and I have a feeling I don’t want to. Speaking of getting close…

Feather Weight keeps getting all blushy and shy around me and he used not to be. I told Sweetie Belle and AppleBloom about it and they just started giggling like mad.

“Scootaloo’s got a boyfriend!” they started chanting. It’s not even true! I don’t like him!!! At least not like THAT! Ugh! He’s too…. uhm…. HE’S GOT COOTIES! I don’t wanna get infected with… whatever he’s got! It looks and makes you act dumb when you’re like ‘oh I love you blah blah blah’! I've seen some of my classmates do that sort of thing and then kiss… ew! I want to find my cutie mark, not play house! I’ll leave the girly stuff to Sweetie Belle, it’s not me.

I’m still staying with Rainbow Dash and it’s been great! Weave really bonded! She’s the big sister I've never had and it’s so awesome! I also will admit she’s gotten me into Daring Do A LITTLE BIT! Rainbow’s currently been obsessing over the latest book that has yet to be out. She and her friends also said something about going to find her? I don’t know what that’s all about but the Cutie Mark Crusaders and I are having a sleepover at Sweetie’s parents’ house because of it. Not like we all mind because we can do whatever we want anyways; they are too busy staring into their eyes and making weird noises from their bedroom. It kinda scares me because it sounds like the fighting my parents did with all the screaming, but not at the same time. Sweetie says it’s normal and not to worry about it… but I don’t know.

Speaking of things I’m not happy about… school is one of them. Silver Spoon and Diamond Tiara got wind of the stuff that’s been going on with my family (probably due to their parents having a buck load of money and a huge mouth too boot). They have been picking on me A LOT because I can’t fly right now and they overheard my friends and it talking about hopefully representing Ponyville in the Equestria Games. They are saying that because I’m not able to fly, I’m not a true Pegasus and I fail. I’m not worthy of representing Ponyville. None of us are because we’re losers, blank flanks, and whatever else they said. I blocked them out after a while. I KNOW I can’t fly! It’s not my fault I mean I try learning but I keep eating mud. Rainbow Dash has given me a few pointers and also said that maybe I’m not growing into my wings yet. Whatever the case is… I have known I can’t fly my whole life and everyone’s pretty okay with it. No one really feels sorry for me or even treats me differently; it’s just those two dumb diamond dog brains. I know I shouldn't listen to them and that they are just trying to be mean and hurtful, but it’s hard to really tune them out most of the time.

I may act big and tough but sometimes… I just want someone to hug me and just hold me while I cry. I don’t really let anyone see me cry. No I take that back Rainbow Dash has started to pick up on when I’m feeling down about myself. She just smiles at me and just goes “Who do I need to go and ‘talk to them’?” I always smile and hug her. She’s great and everyone’s great. My life’s getting better and stuff.

Sometimes I just wish that my real family could have been better and the fact I could fly would be so awesome. I could take my friends on my back and show them the clouds! Speaking of clouds, it’s starting to get grey around here. Oh darn it! I forgot they said it was going to rain and I’m sitting out here under a tree writing this! I better get inside before I get soaking wet and muddy…. On second thought I think a mud fight would be pretty cool. I get to hear Sweetie complain about being dirty and her mane getting TOO dirty. She says she doesn't mind getting dirty but I swear sometimes Sweetie Belle is like her sister when it comes to being clean though not AS BAD.

~ Scootaloo

Author's Note

sorry it took so long for this! i've been busy the past few months working on other things and having other things to deal with.

Entry 12

Dear Journal,

Hearth Warming’s Eve was great! I got some awesome thing from friends and the family I’ve grown to know. I got new scooter parts since mine is kind of falling apart (hey I use it alot… and I may or may not have crashed it into a few things), Wonderbolt things, and a lot of other things. I got to spend it with Rainbow Dash! I pretty much stay her or Fluttershy if Sweetie Belle or Apple Bloom is busy when my mom’s in Canterlot or Manehatten with her new job. She does consulting for interior design, she says it’s something she’s always loved to do and it’s what she got her cutie mark in. Rarity helped her by hooking her up to a few places in some cities that she had people she knew that could help my mom out. I’m happy for my mom and she deserves it! I do miss her when she’s gone but it’s for a good reason this time not because she’s leaving because of my dad. OH! My dad got sent to Canterlot right? Well it turns out that he’s being charged with domestic abuse charges against my mom and me! It’s about time! I’m happy for that so he’ll be in deep for a long time.

Also Rainbow Dash and Ms. Harshwhinny came into our classroom and announced we could carry a flag for Ponyville! IT’S AWESOME RIGHT? Well the catch was we had to come up with a routine to showcase what we thought what the town was all about and what it means to us or something like that. The Cutie Mark Crusaders were totally going to enter because we are what the town is! Earth ponies, Pegasi, and Unicorns living together as friends and in harmony with one another and because we totally could beat Diamond Tiara and her friend in being awesome. We were so pumped for it. Finally we could show what we really could do! Only problem was Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon had to come in and try to ruin it. Sure call us blank flanks, thanks for pointing out the obvious but to go and attack something I can’t help? WHAT THE BUCK? How desperate are they for attention? Seriously I thought they were just spoiled but not stupid. No pony has an issue with it but them apparently and only when it convinces them… stupid spoiled brats. They got what they wanted though… they got under my feathers and broke up the team. I still want get them back for that though, no pony ever seems to be around when they do stuff like that to get properly punished.

Eventually Rainbow Dash, Sweetie Belle, and Apple Bloom came back to get me and we eventually got first place and now get to carry the flag in the Equestria Games in Crystal Empire. Eat that Demon Tyrant and Spoiled Sport! We all learned something that day though, we need to back each other even when we’re not 100% comfortable with our short comings, like me and my not able to fly. I mean like Rainbow said I may or may not being able to fly but I still have friends that care about me. It’s more important to focus on that rather than our flaws right? I mean that’s what I got out of it at least.

Also I heard from Sweetie Belle that Rarity is going to Manehatten! I hope that goes well for her sister. I can’t tell you how many times Rarity’s gotten us to be live models for her ‘filly couture’ lines and told us it may help us get our cutie marks. Rarity may be the element of generosity but she definitely isn't above scheming if it will benefit her in the long run or short term of things. I wonder how that went; I guess we’ll hear about it when she comes back from Manehatten in a few days.

Until then we’re all staying with the Apple Family since our families are busy with many things. Mostly cleaning up from the holidays and getting things ready for when Winter Wrap up comes in a few months. I’m going to miss the snow since it’s way too funny to hear Sweetie squeak and flail when I smack her with a snow ball when she’s least expecting it. It’s funny how Apple Bloom and I always getting into snow ball fights while Sweetie Belle hides in her igloo and makes snow ponies or snow pony angels while trying to hide from us and our pranks but she does get us back. One time she dug a hole a few feet into the ground of snow (it was really snowing the night before) and called us out for us to come take a look at something she did. We stepped out of the door and WOOSH, we were trapped! Apple Bloom and I had to dig our way out of it, though Sweetie Belle helped us because she felt bad I guess. Still the unicorn’s sneaky just like her sister. I think the word would be crafty as my mother would say.

My mom’s been trying to teach me bigger words or get me to use a bigger vocabulary because I’m growing up and soon I’ll have to be in with the big ponies. I swear my mom tries to hard sometimes; I’m still growing and have a lot of time before I have to think about adult things. I haven’t even gotten my cutie mark yet for crying out loud! You know how mothers are though, they are always thinking about the future. Sometimes I wonder if my mom has this whole planning book for me or something. If she does I can’t find it and doesn’t let any other pony know since I haven’t heard Rainbow Dash or Fluttershy mention anything of it. If they know about it, they don’t care. I’m grateful for that.

School is going to come back in a few days so I have to get to bed early so I don’t oversleep on the day of school. I’m not looking forward going back to school since I will have to deal with the two twits of class. I’m wondering every pony hates them and not just the CMC.

~ Scootaloo
A very tired filly!