Stuck as a Filly

by -Twilight

Rating: everyone
Tags: Random, Slice of Life, Human, Sad
Length: 9117

I don't remember much, being trapped in my subconscious trying to contain the memories of who I am

Well, I don't remember much, being trapped in my subconscious trying to contain the memories of who i once was behind the coat of this four foot tall filly is the mind of a 5'7" hoof- er i mean foot tall teenager named cade. at least, not for long.
I'm slipping, into forgetting who I am and submitting to the little filly I am now I send this to you as a last ray of hope before I get completely consumed by myself…
Hiatus because of this

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2013-02-08 03:23:29 UTC

Slipping into nothingness [Fixed]

Slipping

Well I don't remember much, I keep forgetting more and more each day, no.... that's not right.

My Name is Cade, well It used to be. I also used to be older, much older. Around eight years older. I used to live near a lake called Ontario in a cheap looking apartment on the third floor, or was it the 8th floor it’s hard to remember after the events that portrayed after twilight’s “little accident.” Or at least... I think that’s how it went

What? You never heard it, well Everypony has heard of it, and saw it. If you don’t know I guess I should tell you. This would make a great story for the English project I need for Cheerlee.

I just need one thing from you and you’ll understand why I need it. If I start rambling on about “Stupid silly filly” things I need you to snap me out of it. I don’t want to lose myself in myself.

If I remember exactly; which I probably wont, I used to have brown hair, not pink and did not have a tail. Yea, that right. In fact I was very much not a pony at all. I had these weird “thingies” at the end of my hoof that I could move and stuff.

Whenever I try to think of it I get headaches and they hurt very much. UGH I’m doing it again, aren’t I? Anyways. I didn’t have hooves and I would walk around on my hind legs which is kinda weird if you ask me...

I didn’t have I cutie mark, which was somewhat weird considering my age.... wait, NO it wasn’t weird at all. What I was.... Cutie marks were not normal at all! You are supposed to be helping me; not sitting here listening to me ramble on about these stupid filly garbage.

Anyways... what was I again.... Oh yes a human!, a Teenager at that. And most of all, A boy in his glory.

I was working on something back on my... planet, yea that’s right. A cake.... a Vanilla Cake.

Which is totally EWW because I hate vanilla. One time, in school my friend Star Shimmer told me ... wait... Ugh i need to snap out of it. I don’t know how long I can fight this but it’s closing in fast on my thoughts  .

Wait... I have an idea!

here goes I will just rush it. *Gasps*

Twilight Sparkle, a unicorn living in a tree-brary was working on a spell as she claims. A spell to view other worlds and stuff, neat huh? NO it's not neat it’s sad.... very sad...

The spell Failed and in a mistake I was brought to Equestria covered in Vanilla cake mix and frosting. Twilight didn't seem to care much about the cake for she just discovered a new type of living sentient creature. We spent a couple hours, way passed my bedtime now. But we spent a couple hours having a “Little Q and A about humans and their cultures. It’s funny really, I used to be a giant library of knowledge I knew everything a 16 year old should ever Understand about humanity and others stuff.

Now it seems every waking moment, every time I blink I forget a little bit more about my past self as Cade Trecrest and gain a little more about the little unicorn filly I am now.... Rain Spark... What an extremely Childish name.

This is all I really remember but I will try to push a little harder.

After Twilight was stuffed with her fair share of knowledge and was now resting her front hooves a pile of q-cards that stood vigilantly up to a hoof in height. She decided it was time for some rest She allowed me to sleep on here comfy Blue suede couch.OK for the record, suede is NOT comfy to sleep on an entire night. I woke up feeling really weird...

Hooves, matching pink mane and tail a strange hunger for hay and a loss of hunger for meat. Even the thought of eating meat made me shiver. Who knew I once enjoyed it with such passion. I seemed to also already instantly, and by instinct knew how to walk on fours and write with my mouth, it was as if I have been doing it for years.

What’s even more weird was that Twilight seems to have no memory of the night before. She picks me and nuzzles me, we joke around and play.  And so other things you would do to your little sister or something and not something you would do to some alien species who just “appeared” into your House/ library.

Like the other day was the Sisterhoof Social and guess who she wanted to go with? It’s not that I didn't like the idea. We DID go but.... well Twilight is not much of an athlete and I am not her sister, at least, I don’t think I am, this is getting confusing.

We Managed to get a decent place in the race. it wasn't a complete fail like i assumed. we both got some nice shiny silver metal.

I tried to tell her but she would not believe me, no matter how much I try to convince her.EVERYPONY in Ponyville, even Celestia thinks I am related to her. She does, however, seem to be a little "phased" with the idea like.... she knows the truth of something. Maybe I will talk to her one day, get some answers.

The notes that were taken the night before were fading and if I ever managed to show her one before it faded she would say its nothing but gibberish and to stop making jokes. I mean, how could it be a joke? She wrote it herself!

Maybe they were Jokes? Maybe this is all a joke! Or just a crazy dream.... Humans are just some silly mare’s tale and only little fillies and Lyra believe in. But no, I am big filly, I will prove to twilight I can do things with her and go on adventures with her friends I will prove to her- wait... what was I talking about again?

Everything is going away so quick I don’t know how long these memories will hold on. I won’t lie, being a filly is fun, much more fun than being some icky colt or a Hu-men or a hu-men colt. No real responsibilities, innocence, and most of all a wonderful smart unicorn for a sister and an ever older big brother who cares for me very much. Plus there is a dragon, his name is spike and there is a little birdie, Big sis says he is a phoenix and that phoenixes are known for abandoning their old life in death and restarting life again as youth. I am not fully sure about that but she said “you’ll see someday”

Heeelp meee

You know, Being a unicorn is fun too, twilight always say “it means that you're going to become a very smart and powerful young mare”  I don’t believe I could ever be as strong as my big sis though.

Pleeease

Hearths warming eve is coming real soon and princes Celestia, our sun princess, the one in charge of raising the sun each day cor-ju-ally invites twilight to be in the play in Canterlot, a big pony city! I’m so happy that, I get back stages passes with the other crusaders! Since were related to the stars. Twilight was working tirelessly on her lines before I asked her if I can write a letter. She asked me who i was writing too.... who am I writing too anyways? I don’t even remember. But if your still here then you must really want know my life! Twilight is always telling me not to talk to strangers but, you guys seem alright.

No.. ... .. .. .

The cutie mark crusaders, CMC for short are a group of us fillies consisting of me, applebloom, sweetie belle, scootaloo and somepony by the name of bab seed from manehattan. I always wanted to go there with twilight, maybe next year.

Anyways the Cutie mark crusaders are a group devoted to finding special talents for ourselves and gaining out “cutie marks” so far no luck at all. But It’s still fun to tag along.

Anyways, wow look at the time! I must be getting to bed. I have school tomorrow you only have so much time in your life I really wish I was older.

I...

I... am.... sorry. ...

Wake Up, Sunshine

The sun's light rays broke through the "Start swirl the bearded" themed curtains and into the tree-brary hitting the eyelids of a ever so sleepy filly. The sounds of ponies bustling around outside gave a nice feeling, a feeling that can only mean one thing.

It was Saturday. Yes, Saturday. Ponies were bustling in the streets below, wandering around and minding their own business; But this story isn't about them. No, its about me. You know, that filly who is-er... was sleeping but is now groggily rolling out of his bed. Yea, HIS. I managed to snap out of that little trance we had to face last time we met and i'll be sure to make sure it won't happen again. Anyways..

This filly; lets just call him Rain spark is not only male but is also a "legendary myth creature" known as a human. You know, 2 legs, biped and hairless. No its not a gorilla if that's what your thinking they- well, I am a very inte-llige-nt and sen-ti-a-ent creature. Dam my filly mind can't say big words. Anyways, if you wan't to know more about humans then you should talk to Lyra. Seriously, she's crazy for them. Ok if you still want to keep reading i should go back to first person.

I slowly progressed down the hallway. The smell of slightly burn pancakes encouraged me to move on. passing twilight's room and meeting the stairs. Finally waking up officially I descended the stairs into the main library section or the

"Living Room"

"Hello, sweetheart." Twilight sung

I sat down at the dining table without saying anything and waited for my serving. If there is one thing I hate it is when twilight calls me that... sweetheartgarbage.

"You know, the crusaders came by a while ago looking for you." Twilight continued.

I stared up at her and down at my food then back at her.

"Can't you just tell them I'm out or something "sis". I cringed at that word as well. I'm not her sister but she is so convinced I am I just go with it.

I didn't look but i could tell she was looking at me with concern. She's always concerned for me no matter how much trouble i intentionally get myself in.

"You know i can't do that, rain."

"Why not!" I snap

"Because, Your still so young. you should be out their with your friends having fun and trying to find you cutie mark like any other filly is trying to do, right now. Honestly, i have never seen anypony so unenthusiastic about finding their special talent. Haven't i ever told you how i got mi-"

"Yes, yes you did" I cut off.

I get off from the bench, thanked twilight for the food and head for the door.

"Hey, don't leave just yet! do you have homework?"

I turn to her and laugh.

"Do i ever."

"Well, if you don't then i have homework for you: Hang out with the crusaders and tell me about all that happened and don't come back until your done."

"Will do" i say, locking the door behind me.

"wait!"- she cried after me.

After being pulled back, magically into the tree-brary. twilight wouldn't let me leave without getting "presentable" Combing my mane and such. She even made me wear the cape that the crusaders gave me. It was a red linen cape with a patch insignia of a pony. The  fabric itself was expensive and the cape was soft against my back but i still felt humiliated wearing it. yeah, I look "adorable" in twilight's words but. "I prefer wearing nothing at all over this stupid thing.

Finding a perfect moment I manage to make a dastardly escape from the tree-prison. Darting down the streets taking lefts and rights and lefts some more until i was certain she couldn't find me, not that i actually think she was chasing after me. but... having a imagination is cool its kinda fun being a kid again.

Finding my way back onto the main path in the market district. i cam across familiar stands: Asparagus stalls to the left, tomato's to the right. Applejack was manning an apple stand ahead of me. I also caught some familiar faces. Rainbow dash soared through the air not giving me a second look. "Hey squirt" she said while zooming past me.  Reckless flyer if you ask me.

After walking a little further I spotted Fluttershy escorting a family of ducks and ducklings across the busy dirt streets. Streets... you can hardly call it that. I remember when i was one of those "humans" I was telling you about earlier. They.... we... had these vehicles called cars that would serve as a common method of transportation. Here, all they have is horse drawn carts. If you can't afford one or don't want one you can always "hoof it" as they say in ponyville.

Feeling kinda tired I look back and see the Tree-brary in the horizon, "home" I say to myself.

Damn my stubby legs I turn to look ahead of me again. The lack of stalls ahead of me only meant one thing: I was starting to leave the market district and was headed to the Ponyville park.

Let me tell you, Ponyville is huge. Its been about twenty minutes since I was at the library and I am only down a couple blocks.  its gonna take me about another half hour to get to Sweet Apple Acres with these stubbly legs.

"Um... Hello... Rain. are you lost?" A quiet timid voice said from behind me.

I turn around to see my company only to see no one there.

"Um... look up" The timid voice says.

I look down at the shadow and then up at its owner.

"oh hi Fluttershy" I say cheerfully. I like her the most because she reminds me most of how i used to be back when i was a human still.

"Um... Hi, So.... Are you lost i can take you where ever you need to go." She gives me a warming smile of trust and assurance. Honestly, I would rather be her sister any day. actually, if i had a choice I would rather be a boy like usual instead of how I am now. but I have to be stuck with twilight instead. Wait, speaking of sisterly. Its time to use that "premium little filly card" here goes.

"Um yes I am very lost. and a little scared." I say in my best impression of a little kid.

"Oh dear, where were you planning on going anyways? there's nothing further this way. She points a hoof further down the way i was headed.

"There isn't?" i say, slightly shocked.

She looks at me and then further down the road.

"Well there is the Everfree forest just past my house. but I can't let you go there."

I look at her slightly confused.

"Why not?" i cock my head in a look of curiosity.

She was probably expecting that answer for she decided to land down in front of me though she was still taller than me we locked eyes perfectly.

"Now Rain, you have to  understand, the Everfree forest is no place for a filly of your age or of any age for that matter." She leans in closer to me "Its dangerous."

I didn't wan't to go into that any more, basically she just told me about the unnaturalness of the forest, how the weather manages its self and plants grown on their own. Sounds a lot like Earth if you ask me.

"Fluttershy, can I ask of you a favor?" I finally say.

Fluttershy looks at me in confusion. "Of course!, anything for you, just no everfree forest."

I walk up to her and whisper something in her ear as best i can due to the size difference.

Just like that I was soaring through the air on the back of a majestic yellow Pegasus the wind slowing through both of our manes and tails and after almost falling off five times we finally settled for a perfects speed: not to fast as to make me fall off and not to slow as to not get there in time.

After about ten minutes of flying we finally arrive at sweet apple acres.

The acres were just as you could imagine: A large field with rows along rows of trees, apple trees.

I directed Fluttershy to a particular, non-apple tree. This said tree was much larger than the others and was barren of apples but what was most appealing about it was the large tree house that complimented it.

Fluttershy set me down in front of it and flew off leaving me in front of a VERY frilly looking tree house.

What am i getting myself into

No, I would not like to buy some apples

*First personpony pov*

"Do I really want to do this?" I whispered to myself. I have been pacing left and right outside the door to the clubhouse for about six minutes, occasionally peeking in through the window at the fillies who seem to be discussing something around a red target mat. One of the fillies would eventually gasp at something, then stop, then sigh.

"I wonder what they are doing." I say.

Looking out into the acres there was nothing but naked trees and occasionally abandoned barrels beside trees. It was a incredibly boring sight to look at. It would probably be twice as boring to travel back to Ponyville. Would it even be worth it?

A chilly wind bristled the leaves of the trees and eventually hit my face.

"Ugh its freezing out here, what do I do?, should I just head back" I look around and remember that I am still alone outside the tree house. In the distance the body of another pony took its form, An orange earth pony with a blond, tied mane and a stetson hat, she also had three red apples marked on her flank.

"Oh no" I say to myself trying to find a place to hide. If she finds me out here she gonna make me go inside then I'm going to be stuck with them for the rest of the day.

Thinking fast I jump behind a pot that was conveniently placed on the porch part of the tree house.

I cover my face with my hooves as if that will make ANY difference. applejack finally makes it up to the door giving it a soft knock. the three fillies meet her at the door. Applejack looked disappointed and so did the crusaders.

"No sign of Rain spark today... the orange Pegasus announced quietly, the other crusaders nodded in unison.

"Ah'ma sorry girls, I really thought she would come today. twilight assured me that she would make her come maybe she's just late, it is quite a big town for Somepony to get lost in.

Applejack tried out her sheepish grin on the fillies who seemed unaffected.

"ah only hope its so, maybe she's trying to avoid us?" The yellow earth filly said, sharing the same accent as the larger pony.

"She's our newest recruit since Babs seed.

There was a short time space of silence. enough time for that "oh so hated" gilt to start biting at me.

As much as I wanted to just "jump out" of my hiding spot and say. I'm here! I'm here! I was just hiding behind here for no reasonI had a better plan in mind.

I waited for a while, hoping for the conversation to conclude because my hiding spot was starting to get cramped and I was starting to get anxious. when the conversation ended and the door closed I waited for the orange mare to leave the area.

once she was down the ramp leading to the clubhouse i followed her down the path into the orchard.  Sneaking around as a pony is quite difficult; their hooves aren't as soft as humans feet and always leave a heavy clopping sound for every step, even on the dirt. Once I got the hang of sneaking I followed her until the clubhouse was no longer in view. The key is to match your hoof steps with hers so it will sound like one ind-e-vigual (individual) instead of two.

Once I was far enough I quickly jumped into a bush, making sure to make a noticeable amount of noise. Applejack turned  to find nothing but a young filly appearing from the bush looking quite lost. I looked around pretending to be lost and to not notice the orange mare trotting up to me.

"ah there ya are, Rain." Applejack said.

I turn to her and give her a false face of relief. I have been working on false faces in my time in Equestria; they help a lot. when you need to get out of tight spots like making a mess or something- oh yea the story.

"Oh thank Celestia I found Somepony" I said, giving her a hug.

Applejack returned the hug and looked at me with a ever so stern look in her eyes.

"Now what'cha doing all the way out here shouldn't you be at the clubhouse with the other fillies." applejack said.

Alright, now time to put my plan in action. ~

Switching my expression from cute relief to cute sheepish was an easy trick and the one good thing about my current dilemma.

"I- I was lost and I've been looking for so long now" i said, forcing my ears to flop down and trying to wrinkle up my lower lip. Ok let me just say for the record: At that moment, I threw all my card on the table and put absolutely all my effort in that face, Its only a shame what happened next.

once the face was staring to wear thin, Applejack gave me a look that was a cross between "unfazed" and

"Your a terrible liar"

"Honestly Rain, your just like mah lil' sis: your both terrible liars and she pulls of a better "filly face" than you do, seriously, work on it." Applejack said.

"Twilight says that I'm a natural at it" I deadpan

"That's because, Twilight never had a little Sister" applejack says, laughing slightly hysterically.

Wait... what did she just say... did she just say "Twilight never had a little sister" ... just whats going on here.

After her one pony show of laughter subsided. she returned to her natural facial expression. "Now what is your real reason for not being there." Applejack said.

I look at her for a moment then look behind me.

"Its because...... its because I'm shy...." I said feeling kinda embarrassed to admit it. This was the truth: I was never good around kids even now as I sit here, 3 feet tall and with a mane and a crested cape for some filly club I'm still not good with kids. it wasn't until now did I actually realize.... how bad i have it.

Applejack looked at me sympathetically for a moment the gives me a reassuring smile. "Ya know, they're just as nervous to be your friend too, they have went through a lot to gain your trust they were even going to throw a party for you next week." applejack said, now whispering.

My heart stopped....

Here comes the guilt again.....

Just when I wasn't paying attention applejack scoops me up with her muzzle making me land on her back.

"Come on, I'll take you to the clubhouse even if i have to carry you every step of the way.

Yes 3/6 I mumble to myself. I decided to take the liberty of keeping note of how many times I have been carried around my some other pony.

So far I have Fluttershy carrying me here, Applejack now and Twilight who has managed to get me on her back many times in different situations, she thinks its cute but to me its very...... um... whats that word you say when somethings not needed... Un-nes-sas-ary (unnecessary) Its not like I can't walk on my own I'm just.... very slow, IT'S NOT MY FAULT I have stubby legs now and I'm kinda new to the "four-legged" garbage.

Returning to the clubhouse was quicker on Applejack's back then on my own hooves. Once we were at the front of the slope again I slid of Applejack and proceeded up the ramp each step making me feel more and more sick. there was a battle going on in my head, actually... there was two:

One of these said battles was between the human half of me, my natural self and the other was the invader: The F.i.l.l.y.

I haven't quite though of an acronym for "filly" yet though.

The other battle was between my human self again. as well as my familiar enemy, Guilt. I think guilt and f.i.l.l.y are teamed together because I used to hardly ever feel guilt up until now. Real guilt came when I became so young, dammit. Something also left when I regressed and disappeared. besides my "you know what" I find it hard to swear anymore. I still can but i mean.... I used to be a real "potty mouth" when I was hu-man. but now I flinch to even say stupid or i-idiot.

Once I was finally at the top of the stairs I turn back to see applejack giving me a weird cheeky grin, she's obviously making sure that I don't run off when she's not looking. I turn back to the door taking in a exhaling a deep sigh then I began to knock on the door.  There was a really odd sound of what you can assume was ponies fumbling to the door.

"Hey, watch it Applebloom" some pony said.

"Sorry" another pony I can assume is Applebloom replied.

The door finally flung open and inside the door frame stood three very... VERY excited fillies covered in paint. They all look at each other then back at me, grins engraved on their faces.

"HI RAIN SPARK!" all three of them said in unison.

"Uh, Hi how ar-" I was was cut of as they all pulled me into their lair clubhouse.

way to kick me into the lion's den twilight.

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It was some time around seven o'clock and I was covered in paint. Twilight was kinda mad at me for getting myself all dirty but at the same time, she cant be. She made me go out there in the first place.

"how did you get paint back there??" Twilight said, scrubbing the back of my left ear of green paint. normally I could

take a bath myself but I didn't since she's responsible for me being "painted" and besides, what child my age doesn't get showered be their big sister if they had the chance.

I told you about- HhAHAHA- I said kicking water in the air. "Don't scrub my feet I'm ticklish"

"What feet? all I see is hooves" she replies tickling me intentionally.

After washing off all the soap from my hooves and mane. me and her stayed in the "hot room*"  to dry off. We brought a chess board in as well for entertainment.

"So then I said: What are you going to do  with that screwdriver Applebloom?" I said to twilight moving my pawn up two spaces on its first move.(g-4)

"What did she do with it?" Twilight said moving her pawn to block mine.(g-5)

"Well they said they wanted to try car-pent-ring (carpentering) again " I responded, moving my knight out into the field (g-3)

Not again.... Fluttershy said they demolished her chair the last time they tried it, your going to go back there and the entire clubhouse will be disassembled. we both stopped for a minute the starting laughing uncontrollably. Once we were back to focusing I moved my bishop out one space (G-2)

"Hey, nice try sis. Its my turn." the levitates the bishop back to its previous spot (F-1) and moves moves her bishop exactly where i was gong to but on her side.

To add more fun to it, twilight used her "come to life spell" to make the chess game more "realistic"

the game played out a little longer though I knew I couldn't compete with her in-tel-lect (intellect )

"Knight C-5" I ordered. The knight did as it was ordered and galloped to C-5 from E-4.

"hey squirt I was wondering.... oh shoot Bishop C-5!" twilight ordered. the bishop slid into my knight making it disintegrate into the air. "Check" She said happily.

"What were you saying?" I pry.

"So yea, how would you like to go on a trip to Canterlot Tomorrow to see mom and dad its almost hearths warming eve anyways" She said.

I stop for a moment. I haven't even seen my "parents" yet.

"Yea sure" I reply. Its better than being babysat by some other pony. I turn back to the board and break into a wicked grin. "Oh by the way... check mate"  Twilight looked at me then down at the board her mouth Dropped in disbelief. "H-how... how did I not notice that , HOW??" she cries.

On the board, two rooks occupied both a-1 and a-2 as her queen stood helplessly under e-1 . I give her a nasty grin which only makes her cheeks red with embarrassment

"Let us never speak of this again."

*Hotroom .:A room resembling a sauna in which ponies go to after showers and baths to dry off due to fur taking to long to dry on its own ((made up))

Do you believe in magic, in a young Filly's heart (Christmas Special)

Do you believe in magic, in a young Filly's heart

"Come on Rain, its easy just try a little bit harder, focus!" Twilight said. The train's engine let of an annoying, repetitive sound that distracted me and made it awfully hard to levitate the book that was laying in front of me. My horn glowed with a dim green aura but my face was quickly losing color.

"This.... is... Impossible" I said, struggling to produce the words in my mouth as my magic was slowly failing me. Twilight has been prying at me for the past couple days for me to study my magic. "Its now or

never it only going to get harder as you age" she would always say. your a unicorn and you run in a family of ponies with very powerful magical abilities, this should be easy for you.

"come on this time it was hardly off the table" Twilight says while juggling several books over her head. She's been getting awfully cocky the past few days. I think its to give me some determination or something.

"Hey, give me a break! this stupid train is distracting me."Twilight and I turned to look out the window to a slowly approaching Canterlot

"Well I suppose we can practice more once we get to Canterlot. we are probably staying there for about two or three days so I suppose I can take you around Canterlot, get some apprentice magic books while we're at it" Twilight Said.

"Ugh, books." I mumble. honestly, When I was human I loved reading and writing and making short stories about creatures ending up in other planets they don't belong in. kinda ironic if you ask me. Now I find it difficult to read the simplest of words.

The train slowly began to pull up to the station giving me one last gut wrenching screech for good luck.

I slid off the bench and hit the floor kinda hard.

I forgot how short is was~

The Station was flooded with ponies of all sorts of classes from the highest of noses to the lowest.

I found that In Canterlot you can simply tell how "rich" a pony was by seeing how high they perked their noses.

I thought there were a lot of "high noses" in the station, boy was I wrong.Outside the station there were dozens of ponies scattered about the street. Most of them were wearing some article of clothing from fancy hats to winter coats,

"Welcome to Canterlot" I said, reading the billboard above the station. I poked twilight in the cutiemark and made raising motions indicating I wanted to be picked up. As degrading as it is to be on her back, I don't like snow, that's my excuse. Its cold and shiny and I always end up drowning in it.

Not to mention the streets are flooded with ponies, I'm gonna get lost.  Even as a human I never trusted myself in large places like this, or on buses or trains. I was always afraid I would get lost or fall asleep and wake up someplace I don't know.Twilight scooped me up with her magic and place me on her back.

"Ya know rain, there's gonna be a point in time when your gonna have to learn to walk on your own, right?"She couldn't see me but I was blushing.

"I thought you liked carrying me around, you said its cute. Besides, In a city like this i'm gonna get lost or suffocate in the mass of ponies" I said.

"Please, it only busy because of Hearths warming eve. I lived here for most of my foalhood and I would never get lost. I know my way around everywhere." Twilight protested

"Well, I was born here but I was raised in Ponyville. I know my way around there, just not here. Besides, I see other ponies with fillies and colts on their back" I replied, pointing to two ponies by a toy shop window. one was brown coated mare with a silver colored colt on her back.

"That colt is practically still in diapers! and that's probably his mom too" she protested. I turn to the colt that was now sucking on its hoof.

'Fine, you win" I say sliding off Twilight's back and into the snow.I squeak a little when a shock of cold runs down my spine as the snow beneath me lightly brisks by stomach. I jump and cling onto Twilight again.

"Ok, Rain. this is getting annoying I know what you need"Twilight picks me up again and heads to a nearby store.

"Here put these on" Twilight says, dropping several articles of clothing in front of me and shoving me into a changing room.

"Ok, I'm in here what about the-" Before I could even finish I was assaulted by a barrage of boots,

scarves and wooly saddles and hats. "Clothes.." I end off with.I begin with the boots, slipping them on with ease I immediately feel warmer. My back hooves showed a little more resistance when putting them on, however. Once all the boots were on I proceeded with the hat.

There was a rule for hats with unicorns. Apparently a horn becomes very hot very fast when using magic so you are not to use magic while wearing things on your head, you know, In case of fire. There are now pieces of clothing with holes in them for unicorns to wear so their horn can expel the heat its producing and not catch you on fire.

I slid the hat on to my head. It was difficult to firmly equipt because of the lack of grip in my hooves. I set it so its just above my horn, now that I can use magic anyways.Now here I am with the last article of clothing. Probably the most troublesome of all the pieces... The dreaded SADDLE

I stared at it for a moment, its stares back. I examine it up and down. it was a normal winter saddle. with wool on the inside and green leather on the outside to perfectly match my mane color. on the side its said "Canterlot Official" This is a child's pair. its not like the saddles in Rarity's back room.

I know what saddles are meant for back on earth but they seem to serve a totally different purpose in Equestria. Saddles here are like this are like a girls first training bra except these are worn only in the winter and special occasions as to all the time. As for the saddles on earth, well. They're meant to serve as riding seats for humans to make it more comfortable. God, this is degrading.

"Are you done yet?" Twilight whined.

"N-no, I may need help on this last one."  I sheepishly reply

Without warning she enters the stall which made me  jump and hide parts of my body, not that they were exposed anyways. "Hey, I'm changing!" I shouted.

"So what? were sisters, I'm sure I've seen you naked more times than you have yourself." twilight said.

"How is that even possi-"

"Besides, what's naked? we hardly wear clothes anyways." Twilight continued

I couldn't protest with that logic. She was right, I haven't worn any piece of clothing since I ended up here.

I miss home. I started to feel hopeless feel like I was going to be stuck like this forever.

Maybe that wouldn't be such a bad thing. I mean, how much people get to relive almost their ENTIRE lives back to childhood. This is a world of peace. no war, not killing, Hardly any profanity. Its scary at some points but that's only a passing phase.

I have a super smarty sister and a strong big brother. I'm almost best friends with spike, a dragon how many people can say they know a dragon? I have a three club members who would do just about anything to keep me in their silly adventures. Two parents I have yet to meet and apparently some alicorn princess who is my "sister in law."Maybe This Isn't as bad as I think it is.But then again, What Applejack said. “That's because twilight doesn't have a lil' sister.”

That wasn't a mistake, she didn't hesitate to correct herself or anything. That the straight out truth.

Something Fishy is going on here and I need to find out what.

Once I was fully set up for anything winter threw at me we were finally out into the city again.

The streets have settled down within the time we were gone making it much easier for me to get around.

It was difficult to keep up with twilight as we were both very late to our destination."Hurry up" Twilight snapped.

"Whats the rush?" I replied.

"We need to get to mom and dad before my our brother does."

"W-....why" I pant.

"Because I always get to places before he does. That's how it its. If he actually got to somewhere before mehe would never let me live it down." She said

"Really..." I mumble. I knew Twilight over exaggerated a lot but this is ridiculous.

"Do we really need to rush I'm tired' I complain.

"It doesn't matter we're already here" Twilight said.

I look up to see a white stallion with a blue mane standing in front of the door with the most cockiest grin i have ever seen in Equestria.

"You're late" he said

"I know, but I had to get the young one some proper attire for the winter because she was being a pain about the snow." Twilight said turning to me looking kind of disappointed. I blushed a little. I guess I was kinda acting like a child back there, Much younger than what I have been turned into.

"Anyways, lets get inside. Its awfully drafty out here." Armor said.And with that we started inside. As I walk past Shiny (Lets call him that for now) He scoops me up swirls me around and nuggie.

"Hey hey stop that!" I cry.

"I heard you've been giving Twily a hard time." He whispers in my ear.

"Yes, yes, I'm sorry I'm sorry. Uncle Uncle!" I cry out all sorts of mercy terms but none of them would stop the torture that was being inflicted on me.

"I'm not your uncle" Shiny says, finally stopping.

"Oh, ok. Then what are you?" I reply jokingly he looks at twilight who is on the floor laughing at my suffering at this point.

"What am I? I'm your brother that's what!" He sets me down beside twilight who has now stoped laughing and is giving him a look of curiosity as to what he's about to do.He then begins to tickle both of us relentlessly.

"Hey, hey! stop it I'm ticklish hey!" Twilight and I cried out. Never in my life did I feel so much like a child. And you know what? I liked it. I liked being irresponsible, I like how everyone always makes daww noises when they see me, And how I can do just about anything I want and get away with it. I'm cute and little and I actually enjoy my new life. I'll be sure that once I find out why everyone's faking this I can ask to stay this way for a little longer.Or on the other hoof.

If they figure out that I know, who knows how this will turn out? will the truth be heavy or perhaps light or will it change my relationship with twilight and everyone else. Maybe its best if I don't know the truth.

Anyways me and twilight were being tickled. That's when the unexpected happened. As he was tickling me my horn began to glow. This time it was actually glowing just like any other unicorn mine was a shade of lime green.Twilight noticed this but shiny didn't. I felt my body become lighter and start to fade in lime. I felt like I passed out for half a second for when I opened my eyes I was across the room, on the floor.

"Wh-what happened" I said. I felt sick. I guess first time teleportation will do that to you.Twilight came to me, a wide, proud grin on her face.

"Well I don't know how you pulled off something so advanced as Teleportation before levitation but i'm still proud of you.I did feel really proud, honestly. Getting a "I'm proud of you" from twilight is close to impossible.

"It was probably a one time thing." I claim modestly.

"Oh but it wasn't" a voice from up the stairs said. Twilight, shiny and I look to the stairs to find two other unicorn The Mare Unicorn was a dull pinkish purple and the other Stallion was a blue unicorn. They will soon be known as mom and dad respectively.

"I'm proud of you, Sweetie" Mom said.

"So am I" Dad added

"I don't think it means much saying but i'm proud of you as well" Shiny admitted

"Wow, thanks guys this means a lot to me to hear that." I say

" I- i- I love you guys" I finally blurt out.I don't know why I said that or what will happen from here on but I know my life is not going to be the same after today

New Years Library adventure. A New years(totally not a filler) Special

The Snow on the windowsill glistened and glimmered reflecting a pretty rainbow-like pattern on the ceiling of the large, ornamented library.  This is not the library where I usually write my diary entries but a public library instead.

It was a rather calm winter day, The smell of a hot, fresh coffee beside me and the warmth of the clothes I was given two day before. This day couldn't possibly become hectic it was just to cal-

*THUMP*

The sound of books colliding with the table startled not only me but the entire silent sanctity of the library.

The Criminal behind this crime against silence was none other than my big sister, twilight sparkle.

For all of you keeping track, no, she's not my sister but it makes it easier for me and for her if i just go with it.

Twilight rested her for hooves over the set of books. she was grinning happily at her accomplishment.

I looked the books over, examining each title:

Star swirl the bearded's guide for young unicorns, Magic 101, Magic concept and study, and last but not least

beginners book of alchemy and potions.

"Who are these for?" I ask twilight.

Twilight's grin fades.

"You, obviously" She dead panned. "Remember, I said that after we visit our parents we would hit the library

and borrow some books for you. Are you sure your feeling alright?"

"Of course, on a beautiful day like this who cant be alright?"

"Then why did you ask such a stupid question?" Twilight snapped.

I break out into a cocky grin. "Come on twi, I was just trolling you" I stopped laughing once I realize that joke shot right over her head, horn and all.

"What?, you were.... Trolling me?" Twilight questions.

"Ye-Yea you know, when you say something that would purposely make a fool of someone."

Twilight didn't seemed amused or she just didn't get it. "That's really stupid, Rain." Twilight stated bluntly. Twilight isn't a big fan of my jokes from back home. I never tell her the origins of these jokes. I don't want to hear more of her

"Humans aren't real rants " If she knows, I know about whats going on things may get nasty.

"Twilight, I'm tired. Lets just go back to our library back in Ponyville and celebrate new years together." I mumbled. Twilight looked at me and I looked at her. What am i seeing? Concern? Pity? or perhaps shame and disappointment, yea, that's probably it. Great, here comes the guilt again...

Actually, you know what sis, Lets go to the back study room now. I wan't to try out some of these spells and stuff, Don't you?

I didn't continue looking at her but I knew from the quiet *squee* noise that she was holding in her excitement.

"Come on twi, let it out" I finally demand.

Twilight cheered at the top of her lungs only to be ushered by the old lady librarian manning the secretary office.

"Oops that was kinda unprofessional wasn't it? Come on lets go" Twilight pulled my for hoof over to the back study room. she had a sort of spring in her every step.

This is going to be a long day isn't it. Well its whatever makes twilight happy I guess.

Pencil flipping, ruler twirling

Pencil flipping, ruler twirling

"Its been a while since I last wrote anything in here" I said to nopony in particular. I flipped open my pink journal with the words DIARY scribbled out and began writing.

February seventh 2013 CR ("CR" being Celestia Reign)

It has been about two months since I opened this book and recalled the past in-cid-ents that have led me to where I am now. I have lived out this silly second life to lower suspicions until I can be certain that what happened to me was in-tenti-onal of a trip of magic. I am certain now that what has happened to me was pur-pos-eful and am now ready to step up to a more active solution to this "fillyfication" problem.

"SIS, SPIKE! TIME FOR BREAKFAST ITS BOTH YOUR FAVORITES!" a  warming voice from down the hall sang

I use my newly obtained magical powers to fold the book together and strap it in my saddlebag. I groggily roll out of bed and tumble to the floor with a heavy "thump" sound.

"Ugh stupid hooves" I mumble while trying to untangle myself from my covers.

"hehe yea, makes you wish you had feet like mine" another voice said. After untangling myself I was introduced to the nose-kill smell of spikes feet right in front of my face.

"Yea I bet you miss having these instead of tiny hoofs eh?" Spike continued.

I knocked his feet out of my face and shifted over to my other side. wait... did he just say miss having these?

I turn around to see spike rummaging through my saddlebag in the corner of my room, he was reading my journal.

"Hey! don't read that" I yelled, throwing my fluffy winter boot at him. he ducked and stated laughing.

"Watch where your throwing that Rain, or should I say Cade I may accidentally burp this book to the princess.

I don't think you want her knowing about this human nonsense do you? Spike said sounding a little more serious.

I tried to pull it off as a sort of lie and attempt to hide the suspicion.

"Don't be silly spike" I  said laughing "That's just a story I'm making, Talking apes? really? that's just a bunch of stories. The crusades and I thought that maybe we can get our talents in storytelling" I conclude my lie with a smile.

"Cade.... You, Me,  Twilight, the princesses and all of ponyville know what you are, what you really are"

My heart stopped and I could swear my eyes sunk in when I heard that. Were all my suspicions correct? Is this all one big conspiracy?

Spike slowly steps up to me, ripping pages out of the journal and tossing them into the trash.

"Cade, I'm on your side in all this. What going on, It's not right and we need to fix it. That is... If you wan't it too be fixed."

"Spike.." I say in a whisper, my girlie voice cracking. "How long did you know?" That was the only question I could think to ask at the moment.

"I knew the plan before you even turned into, well, this" Spike looked me up and down "I only wish I could do something about all of this but please keep in mind, This was NOT Twilight's plan, No, It was Celestia's.

"Why would celestia wan't to turn me into a filly" I thought to myself.

"Your probably wondering why she would do it" Spike said while ripping the final written page from the book and handing me back the empty journal.

I nodded limply having lost all my blood in my face after spike called me by my real name.

Spike noticed this and laughed, he grabbed my pillow and placed it on the floor and told me to sit. I slowly crept over to the pillow and sat on it.

"For one let me say this: you are not the first human to be here" Spike paused, probably expecting an objection. I sat and listened quietly.

"I bet your wondering where all the humans went  aren't you?" Spike said.

"Not really" I reply "I figured you would just explain it without trying to guess what I'm thinking all the time" I said.

"They're all still here, they're ponies now, just like you"

That took me off guard, how could that be, I haven't seen any sign of human's existence here and now spike telling me not only that I wasn't the first but that they're still here.

"Your also not the first to have "Q&A" with Twilight. She already knows about humans and everything you told her she has been told over a dozen times by the humans before you." Spike said.

"But why? why? why? why? You haven't told me why this is happening!" I shouted.

"Its because humans die of a mysterious sickness in equestria!" Spike shouted back.

"Well that escalated quickly" I thought to myself.

"What kind of sickness can "ban" a race from a area just like that" I asked spike. He then turns from me and faces the window. "I overheard twilight talking to her five other friends. She said something about a humans and their lack of magic

and magic tolerance abilities. those born in Equestria or raised at a very young age in Equestria  grow a sort of "tolerance" to the magical radiation that unicorns let off during spells. but creatures who are not familiar with magic can not handle the magic intake that Equestrian air posses."

"So all humans who end up in Equestria must become a pony for their own survival " A lavender mare at my door says.

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"I didn't wan't you to remember, I didn't want you to end up so.... young, and become a filly at all. That was my mistake.

most humans that undergo conversion tend to forget their original past and build up their own history subconsciously to fill in the gap of life."

"You however, lasted much longer and somehow, against all odds, remembered. You also hid your memory from me and pretended to be a happy go lucky little filly so I wouldn't get suspicious. maybe your special talent is acting"

Twilight laughed out loud at her joke.

"Ok twilight, you got me? now what? are you going to "dispose" of me, drain my memories? kill me?" I asked twilight, half expecting her to pull out rarity's cat, opal and begin stoking her like a evil mastermind would.

"Kill you? why in Equestria would I do that?" Twilight asked me.

"Because..... he discovered your conspiracy" Spike joined in.

"Conspiracy? what are you talking about? listen, I have a way to send you back to your planet, as a human. it will be simple, quick and painless." Twilight said, tears welling up in her eyes.

"Its just that... of all the humans that have been here, I actually felt a connection with you. that was why I made you my "sister". I love you like any sister would. even if it was fake, you cant tell me we didn't have fun together. reading,learning magic, games and exploring. Twilight said now with tears streaming down her face.

I was silent for a moment but my thoughts were running laps. she was  right, as much as I fought it. I actually kinda enjoyed it too.

"I just want you to know, If you do decide to go back, that I will never forget you and I will always consider you my little sister

without giving me a chance to respond she turned and left.

"breakfast is on the table, eat it before it gets cold." she said on her way out.