To Teach a God

My name?

Yes my name.

Name…

…Well this is embarrassing.

I have forgotten it.

Oh right, Scientist. No that is what I was.

Not what I am. I mean who. Wait what am I?

I seem unable to recall what I am ether. Am I alive? Am I a thing? I seem to only recall rules of the multi-universe; like gravity or chemistry. Does that mean I'm just a corral of information? I am not even sure what multi-universe is, but I understand it.

I am so sorry. I have had no use for thought in a long time; it is almost a new sensation to me. I think I went insane for a long time. Does this mean I am sane now? I am sorry, you want my name.

My friend, at least I think he is my friend, War, he calls me Omega. He says I was the first. He. He? War is male? Am I male to? I do not think we have genders. We. We? Who are we?

I do not like the name Omega. Do, not, like? I do not think I have emotions any more. I am sorry, you want my name. I do not know my name. Will you give me one? I like the word “Atom”. You can make so much with atoms.

Wait. That is it. I call myself Make. No, that is not right; but it is close. Creation. That is what I was called. Am. Am called. You may call me Creation.

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I have not made anything new in a long time. I think I ran away. From what? I cannot remember. I have been gone so long without any to talk to or anything to think about. I did not just lose track of time I lost the concept of time.

War tried to save me. He told me that primitive things are violent and … not things, beings. Beings? I am a being. I was primitive like War said. No. That is not a nice word. No life is more than another. That must be why I do not like War. Wait, I do not like War? No I do not. I do not think he is bad; we just did not get along well.

I had cared at one time. I learned and taught at one time. One time. I, we ascended; I discovered the inner workings of the multiverse and took my people here. Yet here is nowhere but everywhere. Just higher…higher what? Dimension? No, dimensions do not have measurements; universes do.

Why am I caring now? Why am I thinking? I had nothing new to make. Nothing new to learn. I loved to learn. I loved.

At.

One.

Time.

Why am I all of a sudden becoming lucid now?

I am not uncaring, just incapable of.

Like I am not able to understand time right now.

There! That is why. It is a new universe. Yet it is different from all the others around it. So small in comparison and yet stands out like a diamond in the rough. Oh listen to me. I talk as if I have eyes to see and a mouth to speak. I have no form no body to speak of. Enough of me, this universe is far more interesting. The laws of physics are the same as any other universe. Only they can bend so easily in this one.

I want to know more. Knowledge, new knowledge, I have not felt this aware in a long, long time. I hurled my mind into this new universe, and it is…pulling me?

Everywhere just puling and pulling and … gravity? I am feeling the effects of gravity? How? I have no form. I exist but I do not. I simply am. This universe is so strange. It gives me new feelings…no not new forgotten. Wonder, curiosity, excitement, and fear. I have to communicate with the others. There are others? Yes there is. My mind is still broken it seems. Who can I commune with? A name…Macia…Magic…oh Magia!  I will seek Magia out.

It has taken a long time but I have found Magia. Magia is a strange one. Magia wants to meet on a physical plane. Communication like that is pointless and too slow. I want to get back to this find, but she will not commune with me otherwise. Because of her I learned a new word; stubborn.

I have arrived. My mind has repaired itself significantly during my search for her. Which I will need a sharp mind to explore this new world. That is not right it is not a world it is a universe but my mind seems to be trying to simplify my own thoughts.

Magia is here already; I made a small world inside an empty universe for us.  It was just a rock in the middle of nowhere. I did not know I could do that, I think I felt surprised when I did it…or just remembered the feeling.

We pushed out minds onto the new planet and Magia took form out of nothingness. I found that Magia had a wonderful imagination, something I very much lacked in. Magia made herself a large deer; but where the head would be was an upper torso of what looked like a great ape, well I am not sure what an ape is but it looked like that to me, but there were no eyes or mouth on the face just a pair of slits for breathing and Feathered wings were at the shoulders instead of arms. I however chose a very simple form for this meeting. A four legged canine of sorts, I believe we called it a dog.

As I approached she opened her wings with the tips straight up revealing a pair of large eyes embedded in the wings.

The molecules around me started vibrating in a pattern that caused me tense up my body. This creature has some very cautions instincts. I, however, was wondering what was making this happen. Molecules move all the time, but there was a pattern to it. It was almost like the universe itself was trying to communicate to me.

“Hello?”

This is so fascinating.

“Creation?”

It is like ripples in the pond of space.

“CREATION!”

The source seems to be getting violent.

Magia, do you sense those waves of oxygen and carbon around us?

“What?”

There it is again.

“Are you referring to my voice?”

There! Did you feel it?!

Somehow Magia had a look to her body that told me she was amused and irritated at the same time. It impressed me that she did this with no real face. Wait her upper torso was her face. Her “face” was bigger than the rest of the body, but was shaped in a ways that it was her body. Amazing! Is this why I thought of her first?

She? Her? Oh yes Magia was female, well we really do not have genders, but I think we can identify with a gender. Some of my memories tell me she was once my student and that I brought her with the rest of us. Student? I was a teacher? I thought I was once a scientist. My own mind frustrates me so.

However with this new understanding I do see a very feminim shape to her body, but no clear lines of gender was expressed.

Creation, will you please speak to me like you used to?

I am speaking to you.

No you’re not.

I am.

No you’re not speaking to me. You are placing your thoughts in my head.

How else would I commune with you?

“Like this.”

Confound these vibrations! They are a distraction!

Those “vibrations” are me talking. Please talk to me. We used to talk for years on a single subject.

We did? What are years?

You truly have lost your mind. You have left all understanding of the simplest things behind. You’re like a child again. No more like a baby just born.

I…what?

I can help; open your mind to me Creation.

Ok.

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“It is just an amazing place!” I said with such excitement. “There are things there I cannot explain. Do you know how long it has been since I have had a conundrum like this?!”

I changed my body again; I was a fox that had a complex larynx for speaking. So much flooded into my mind after Magia enter my thoughts and immersed herself there. I knew what I liked, I knew what I could do, I knew so much more basic concepts of life, and I knew who I was.

As I rode on Magia back I changed the world around us. With each step plants grew, basic life became, and the air became a lot less hostile. I would make this into a garden world before I left. I even made a star for the planet to circle. It was not hard, all of the compounds were there, and I would just have to combine them appropriately. I was setting an example for Magia

“This world and every world work on similar rules. Rules I know and can follow.” I said “Sure there are variations but none I could not adapt to easily. This new universe is different. Every rule can be bent, not just a little no, at a 90° angle! All it takes is a little will of power, or is it power of will? It is natural but unnatural.”

“So you have never come across this before?” asked Magia. It amazes me that she could speak with no mouth or anything. What she was doing was vibrating her feather tips like the vocal cords in my current body’s larynx. Her “voice” sounded like an instrument.

“No, I have not.” I said definitively.

“Well do you have a name for it? I know how you like your list and labels.”  I do?

“I do not, but that part makes me happy. So much could become of this new world. Only half of this world can be explained with science, it reminds me of the early days of dark matter.”

Magia giggled and then replied. “I haven’t seen you like this in such a long time. In fact I don’t think there is a measurement for how long it’s been since I’ve seen you close to happy. So there is no name for this … thing that makes up half of this world?”

“Yes I have said that” I told her a little irate about repeating myself to her.

“Well”, she continued, “dark matter had a name before we knew what it was. You know a long time ago we had a word for things that amazed us but we didn’t understand.”

“Oh, really?” My ears perked up, “What?”

“Magic.”

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Magic?

Yes that would describe my opinion of this place.

Those being who exist in this multi-verse think we are gods and can do anything. We are not and cannot; we play by rules and pull at strings to cause a reaction. Oh! I just used a metaphor. My time with Magia has already expanded mind a great deal. I think I feel…excitement? Or is it just a memory again? I am still questioning my own thought for my mind is still in pieces, but I am no infant trying to walk for the first time. Like now I know what time is, and it scares me how old I am. I am sure that if it was not for this new universe I would have lived in the dark recesses of my mind for a very long time.

After my meeting with Magia I started making my way back to this new universe. Magia told me that her mate would join me there. I wanted her to come with me, but she told me that she could not and that her mate used to be an assistant of sorts to me. I did not think to ask her why.

My first goal is to observe the life in this universe as their very will could reshape the world around them.

I am finding myself very disappointed. Every world that starts to develop sentient life quickly falls in disharmony due to every creature wanting their way. Causing their eco systems to crash; some going as far as to force their planets rotation to stop and causing a tidal lock where one side is always night and the other is always day. Effectively freezing and cooking the planet.

No matter how many times I pluck a few string of gravity or time to their favor they mess it all up. I almost gave up, as I pondered over latest failed planet, when Magia mate showed up.

Omega! Good to see you! So how long will you stay sane this time! I heard you found yourself a distraction of sorts. He said to me directly. I must admit this place is so different from everywhere else. Oh, how I love it!

After a pause I responded, Who are you? Please do not refer to me as Omega, and you do not have eyes.

My, are you that far gone? It me, Chaos! I’m just teasing you Creation, jeez, and it’s a figure of speech.

Are you male?

When I want to be.

Are we friends?

When we want to be.

Will you help me?

Maybe.

Am I going to get any simple answer from you?

We’ll see.

You would think I would be frustrated but I do not have emotions, I think this Chaos was trying to be funny. It seems to me that I knew and trusted this person…to a point. He seemed to be a very eccentric being but had much wisdom to him. I can see why Magia is enticed by this one.

Well she better be! I’m hotter than the sun bitch.

I seemed to have said that out loud…although I did not say anything.

Well, no you didn't’; but you thought it. You have to be careful; you’re more powerful than you apparently know. Speaking of Magia she’s having my son; did you know that?

Who is having your son?

Man, the way you talk now is a little drawn out. Magia, duh!

Oh… How?

Well we both decided to do it the old fashioned way and took our favorite forms.  A little wine, a little music, and you know.

No I do not. How can we reproduce? We have no genders.

You can’t see it but I’m rolling my eyes at you.

You have no eyes.

Bite me!

I have no mouth.

Man your dense now.

I am not made of matter.

I think I’m going to have a seizure from sheer stupidity.

You do not have muscles or blood.

There was a long silence.

Let’s move on. I can see why you like it here. The potential rate of diversity among sentient life is beyond anything we’ll every see again! I really am tired of seeing the same bipedal shapes with hands. Sure we get the occasional tentacle creature but nothing much more. I can see some of them becoming gods like us.

Suddenly a nerve was struck and I found myself angry. Angry for the first time in a very long time.

WE ARE NOT GODS, CHAOS! WE ARE LIFE FORMS LIKE EVERYTHING ELES! CROSS THIS LINE AND YOU WILL SEE HOW CREATION WILL UNMAKE YOU!!

Was that real anger? Or was I just remembering something painful?

And that was the response I was hoping for. Sorry Creation, but I wanted to test you. I wanted to see if you still hold on to your beliefs; ya’know the ones that made me and you so unpopular with the others? This world seems like a perfect place to even the playing fields with the other self-proclaimed gods.

What is he going on about? I think I’ll raise my little prince here.

Prince?

Yes! My little prince of Chaos. My son remember?

Oh? What will you call it?

Him.

We have no genders.

I would kick you in the face if you had one.

Now you are learning.

A lot of angry thoughts came flooding into my mind, but it soon became laughter.

I always say if there is a problem you can ether fix it or laugh about it, and there is no fixing you. Any who we want to call our offspring Discord.