To Teach a God

Chaos was right. The life forms in this universe are so different from each over. Magic is a new building block in the process of evolution. Thanks to Chaos’ abilities the likelihood of sentient life has gone up almost 32%! A mutation here a super nova there and out of random and sometime violent occurrences more potential life was emerging. I can only build with what I have, Chaos can make new atoms for me to bend and create with. If I need to flood an empty rock of a planet with carbon and iron; then he makes a star go nova and I have my material.

We have been at this for such a long time that I am starting to forget what time was. Chaos says we need to take a breather. I told him we don’t have lungs. After one of our many augments on our nonexistent anatomy, he told me I should go see Gaia.

No, I am working. Who is Gaia?

An old, let’s say friend of yours. Listen Creation-

I do not have ears.

-Your losing yourself again. Chaos continued ignoring me.  You’re no fun as you are now. Think about how bored I would be if were an all-powerful husk?

Dose Gaia has a cure for my mental deprivation?

Yea, it’s called a social life.

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Eventually Chaos had his way. He said he would no longer help me if did not go and see Gaia. Every time I left my heaven my mind sunk even deeper and I became lost. I found myself inverting to my most basic thoughts o…- bees are such a basic creature with almost no intelligent there but the structure of their hives are so complex that many have thought that were sentient. What are bees?

I think I would like to be a bee. To serve a queen and the hive until I die and my body becomes food for the young…I think that last part is ants. What are ants? What is a queen? I think my friend said they were singers. Wait, I have friends? Yes I do I do. …

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Chaos? Yes Chaos. Chaos. Chaos! CHAOS!

It is very quiet here.

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I found myself floating through a bright orange and yellow fluid it was so warm. I don’t think I have skin to feel temperature. In fact I am not sure how I got here. Here? Where is here? I was not here I was taken here. Someone took me here. That someone was here right now in the warm orange and yellow fluid.

Looks like you’re com’n to Creation. Tell me how’d a ya feel.

Who are you?

Why it’s me sugar, Gaia.

Someone told me to find you.

Corse Chaos did silly.

Chaos?

Oh darn you still have some screws loose doncha?

Why do they think I am crazy? They? Who are they? Ah yes I remember they.  I am becoming lucid again. Good I can get back to work but I need to get my bearings first. I can see that I'm surrounded by a…what wait I can see?

Gaia why do I have eyes?

The better to see with my dear, she answered with a muffled chortle.

Suddenly my mind opened up to the world around me.

The swirling condensed plasma of hydrogen and helium not only surround me, it was flowing through me, from me even. It was a star. I am in a star? I am in a star!! I was surrounded by the very building blocks of not just life but everything. The tremendous energy and heat all around me, the magnificent power, baffled me and propelled me into an estate of trepidation that I would not come down from.

With this I learned the purpose of a face: expression. I just didn’t know what to call the face I was making.

Face? I have a face? I explored the front of my previously unknown face with my paws; I could feel pointed ears on top, muzzled jaw, and two eyes.

Paws? I…I was a fox again wasn’t I? I seem to have an affinity to this form. I am a fox…inside a star?

Gaia how is this body not incinerated?

Cause it an’t carbon.

You mean this creature is not carbon based?

Nope, it’s made out of hydrogen, your own invention in a way; ya called it a fire fox when ya first showed me. It thrives inside a star; you made it so we could have our private moments. That and how many people can say they’ve had a date inside a star?

Date?.... I am sorry concepts of time are still eluding me.

Suddenly my eyes focused on another fox that was with me. Her body was translucent in a way that the plasma that made up this star was flowing right through her. Yet I could make out features like fur, eyes, even the color of this impossible creature. What could the eyes be made out of that could allow us to see through the thickness of this stellar body. I want to ask Gaia but I have the feeling only I knew the answer. Wait she is getting closer really close. How is she moving? There is no surface to walk on. Again I think I know the answer but I cannot remember.

Oh wow she is inches from my face. I need to stop going in and out of my thoughts it could be the end of me…although I think I am immortal.

Ya don’t remember me do you? I can feel so much sorrowfulness in the thoughts she was giving me.

Way to close.

I do not remember a lot of things Gaia. Chaos told me we are friends, are we? She looks like she was distressed by my answer. Probably because I answered her question with a question, Chaos dose that to me a lot and I do not always like it.

Physical bodies made the conversation awkward at least that is how I felt. Gaia is even closer down. Wait felt? I was feeling again? Why did I not notice it before? I seem to be slipping in and out of the inner workings of my mind. What was I doing? Oh yes Gaia had a question.

I cannot focus Gaia; Chaos said you can help me with my mental short comings.

Only ya can help yourself Creation, but I'm happy to see you again. She nuzzled me as she answered.

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Bodies can be so strange sometimes.

An ether of understanding and questions came to me suddenly.

Gaia? Were we more than friends?

There was clear hesitation presented through her body, I am really seeing the advantage of bodies now.

Oh! Chaos told me not to let ya onto that. Said it be like poking ya bear, but I just can’t lie to ya never could. I think Chaos was trying to spar my feelings not yours

I don’t think we have emotions.

Her fox body pulled back and the familiar sensation I was getting drifted away with her like seed to the wind.

Drifted away …like seeds to the wind? I seem to have a little more depth to my thinking lately.

I sifted my attention to the hurt fox in front of me. It seems that Chaos’ intuition was right.

I am sorry Gaia; Magia says my mind was broken because of self-exile. I do not even remember how feelings…felt. They are coming back to me but only as distance memories I am no longer able to feel anything, just remember how it felt to feel. However your honesty was welcomed; please stay by my side for now.

I did not want to tell her that I remembered; I do not know when I will slip into the darkness of my mind again and become a mindless drone. Gaia’s presents seem to be pulling my mind from the darkness even more so than Magia. I will give her no reason to leave my side.

Gaia, will you come with me to the universe that I am working on right now?

Oh we’re already here and I have a surprise for you my dear.

She shed her form and lifted her mind to the cosmos while I followed suit I felt something strange. Longing; I started to miss my physical form.

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It takes a long time to leave a star, even as living energy, so Gaia had time to fill me in on the events I missed in my lobotomized state. Apparently when I left my jewel of a universe I forgot what I was heading out to do. One of the ‘others’ found me adrift and told Gaia. She brought me back here to help me come back. According to her I was out long enough for the worlds to start evolving complex creature of all types, some we never seen anything similar to before.

What I found outside the star was the perfect planetary system. A planet system like this was Gaia talent, and man was she good at it.

Gaia you were working on my project this whole time?

Yep, both me and Chaos, we've been at it for a while. We can’t make life like you can but we can arrange a few pieces to the process.

Where is my old friend?   Old friend; did I just remember something new?

We were traveling through the system…no not travel. We have a level of omnipotence that makes travel unnecessary for us. Its more like shifting our attention.

So why did I not see Chaos anywhere? I expected him to be waiting for me outside the star.

Well that’s one of the surprises. He’s waiting on a young planet in the golden zone.

The golden zone, an area in the vicinity of a star where liquid water could form, at its mention I was expecting a garden planet, what I found was hydrogen covered rock.

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My way of thinking is becoming more colorful.

We pushed our minds into the planet and I was already thinking about ways to make this planet habitable for complex life.

The others are here with me on this barren planet. Chaos, Gaia, Magia, and me; Creation; I do not think it was the ‘magic’ in this universe that brought me back from the brink of a lost mind. For at this moment, among my friends, I am more self-aware then I have ever been. Everything is not just atoms and laws to me. I remember so much more.

Gaia, oh Gaia my memories of you makes me long for ages long since passed. Chaos you always made things fun. Magia, I have never met someone more loving of life then you. Here among me was part of my old team; our goal was to help the mulit-verse produce complex life forms of all types. Gaia would make the perfect planets, Chaos and Magia would stir up the land and animals introducing enough variations to increase the odds of what we wanted, and I directed it all.

There was more was there not? Oh yes! There was War he led the way for natural selection, and the rest…oh so much is still in a fog. I can feel the pain of loss for the first time; no not the first time. I am remembering it, but now, for the first time, I feel pain for my memory loss. It was just an annoyance to me before, but now I seem to be understanding what I loss.

I seem to be remembering terms that that I did not recognize before: sheep, bear, volcano, date (that one made me feel happy) scars, wood, and so many more.

Creation what are you getting excited for?

I…I remember you. All of you we were no…are friends, we work together, always have.

That’s wonderful darling.

Yay!

We been hanging out for centuries and you just know remember this? I'm hurt!

You do not have pain receptors…did Chaos say that? I am having a hard time differing who is communing with me.

Me to.

I'm not sure what I'm saying

This is not making sense.

Someone teach Creation to use contractions when he talks, his speech pattern is annoying.

I do not have a mouth.

Ahhhhh! It’s like talking to a computer.

I'm not even sure why we’re here gang

O that’s because-

Creation say don’t.

I do not have a mouth.

Then make one and say don’t!

I would require more than a mouth to do that.

I think we need a new way to talk.

We were not talking to begin with.

Don’t give me lip.

Do not give who lip?

Me.

Who is me?

Me is me.

I am confused

Hey fellas we shou-

Creation make a neck.

Why?

So I can straggle you.

Why?

So I can feel better.

Who is I?

Man this is confusing, I can't tell who is talking, well I can tell when creation talks but the rest of you.

What was this meeting about again?

I'm still trying to figure out who is talking.

No one is ‘talking’.

Shaddyap Creation.

That was not me.

What?!

Oatmeal.

Can we just go down to the pl-?

Oatmeal? Are you crazy?!

No just random.

Well stop it.

Who should stop it?

I don’t know.

Don’t.

Are you kiddi-…wait who said don’t?

Guys?

Did Creation just say don't?

I do not know.

Suddenly a random clawed hand appeared in the atmosphere and made a gesture.

Now I know that was you Chaos!

EVERYONE SHUT UP! Let’s go down to the planet and take forms so we can talk!

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Who said that?

NOW!

Something told me it was Magia that yelled at us as we descended into the atmosphere of this planet. The planet had so little pressure that the clouds were made of hydrogen, this was not going to be ideal for any form we take. There is also tons of carbon dioxide built up under the crust; most likely from early volcanic activity. This gave me an idea.

Wait everyone it will be easier to take form if the air here is less hostile. Chaos I need your help, there is carbon dioxide trapped underground all across this world. Release it for me.

If Chaos had a face I’m sure he would be smiling at me like I just gave him a present.

One order of worldwide volcanic fissures coming up. Like a child drawing lines red cracks formed all across this world jettison all kinds of material into the air. Most stayed in the air due to the low pressure, but after I was done they would quickly fall.

I’m really finding it easy to express myself lately; I am certain now that my reclamation is due to my friends.

Refocusing on my work I started shredding the oxygen molecule apart from the CO2. The carbon becoming lighter floated up into the atmosphere giving this place more pressure; which is what I wanted for my next action. Turning my attention to the hydrogen clouds I discharged the oxygen into them and soon the desired affect took hold all across this world almost all at once.

Oh wow, Creation, is that, rain water? I still could not tell who was talking, but from the softness in the thoughts it was Magia.

Yes it is. Out of Chaos, Creation comes.

I haven’t heard ya use that line in a ‘while sweetie. I’m sure that was Gaia.

I would not know gorgeous. Gorgeous? Did I just say that? Well no, I did not but I used it. Did I always call her that? Did she always call me sweetie? Should I ask? I am still not complete am I?

But Creation she ‘does not have a face’ how can she be gorgeous? I am sure that was Chaos mocking me.

While gorgeous is a physical description and would not apply to us as we-

You’re kidding me-

Do not have physical bodies yet-

Say don’t-

It can be used as a metaphor to describe a person in general.

I hate you so much.

Hay every one Creation's using metaphors!

Hate you to, hate you both.

Don’t start up again just let him finish.

Taking that as a cue I used all the other chemicals discharged by Chaos’ fissures and (in what would have taken millenniums to happen on its own) I forced photolytic bacteria to form all over the newly formed oceans. This resulted in trillions of cubic tons of oxygen to make up the majority of the atmosphere. When the sky turned from a brown green to a blue I let everyone know it was safe.

I knew that my friends would take their favorite forms but I could not remember what they were so I was looking forward to this meeting of ours on the surface. For Magia living things was her talent so she took form faster than any of us could. The overall shape she took was a humanoid… humanoid? I know the description but I do not know what a human is; Magia is good with creatures off all types, I will ask her after the meeting.

Oh she is done! Her head is much different from rest of her, with a deer antler on the right side of her head, a goat horn on the left, one long fang, and a lion like mane covered her head in a feminine way that I would describe as cute. She has the right arm of a lion, the left claw of an eagle, the right leg of a lizard, and the left leg of a goat. In addition, she has a bat's right wing, and a feathered left wing. Despite her standing straight on two legs she had a dragon-like snake's tail with a white tail tuft. Besides the mismatched parts she seemed to have a gray coat of fur with what I would assume would be a bust on her chest. What stuck out the most was not what she had but what she lacked; a nose, not even holes for nostrils it was just two yellow eyes with red pupils and a mouth with that one long fang sticking out when she smiled. Such a kind and warm smile she had.

Wait I can ‘see’ her smile. Yes I took a form; I seemed to have done it without thinking much about it. That must mean this is my favorite form. I seem to take on an great ape like creature only…let us see…not much of a tail in fact I am completely bipedal, really dexterous hands and my nose was small and pointed. Oh goodness, am I hairless? No, but almost, seems most of my hair is on my head and tail. It is white, why? Am I old? Might be a hormonal problem. Oh what useless feet for an ape, the toes are nowhere near as dexterous my hands, although I think I could run better than I can climb, that might be the point. Why did I choose such an ugly creature?

“Um, Creation if you’re going to take that form can you put some pants on?” Magia asked not really looking at me, some red color seemed to be accenting her face.

“What are pants?” I asked her in response.

“Oh goodness no,” was all I got for an answer.

“Just remove your gender Creation.” A powerful voice said above me. My eyes slowly made its way up towards the sky to find an excessively long snake like creature that was so large it took up most of the sky above Magia. It was grass green with a yellow underbelly and red spines; the massive head donned a loose mane with yellow tips. No wait it had four, very useless, legs. Why is it so freaking big? It is colossal no it is, oh I have not words!  Only one of us besides Magia would make something so, over the top, but what was this absurd creature?

“Chaos! What in Tartarus are you?”  Tartarus? What was a Tartarus?

“Dragon.” Oh, I knew that.

Chaos gave me a smile as he brought himself closer. A creature this size without being crushed under its own weight was impossible…no not here it is not it is…bending the rules.

“Chaos are you using magic to make that form possible?” I yelled at him, I was not surprised or overwhelmed, any more; I am just not sure how well he could hear me all the way up there.

“Sorry I don’t talk to naked men.” That was not the answer I expected.

“Naked? Men? What?” too many terms in that sentence that I did not understand.

“Just remove your gender; it will make us more comfortable.” I complied with his request. When I was done someone named Ken came to mind, I do not know who that is.

“Are you happy Chaos? Now answer my question; are you using mag-” the ground before me gave way as another great ape like creature rose up out of the ground like a plant. No it was a plant. No wait it’s an ape…I have found myself

confused… again. This one was tailless with green leafy skin and like me there was gender expressed in the body but none there at all, but she was defiantly female. This had to be Gaia as she was the only one left.

“Gaia is that a random mixes of creatures like Magia’s?” I asked as she looked at me.

“Not really dear, it’s a wood nymph, kinda like the mermaid of the forest.” I had no idea what ether one of those was.

Gaia would not take her eyes off me as she studied my face, she seem to be really keen on getting my attention for some reason but that was redundant as I was already focused on her. I turned my attention back to Chaos. Gaia suddenly looked hurt, was she expecting something from me? Why not just tell me?

“Chaos, my question.” My speech pattern seems to be changing. I think I might be irate.

“What question?” he asked with a smirk.

“my question is import-“ my mind just exploded with information.

“creation?” some voice very far away

“He’s staring at nuttin, is he off his rocker again?” more voices.

Songs, music, art, and the meaning behind them.

“danm it! we just got him back and he was closer to his old self then I’ve ever seen him. Is he getting worse or better?”

Cetacea, Felis, Rodent, successful families of mammals.

“The others will be here soon, lets just make him comfortable for now I'm sure he’ll come to.”

I felt like I was falling, but slowly. As I sank further and further into this abyss a sensation of drowning came over me, but I seem to be still breathing. It was almost a relief when my mind once again became devoid of feelings and emotions but unlike last time I sank even deeper into my own depravities. Hours and hours went by, the deep pressure swelling around me become my new world my only comfort, and still I sank. It is just like the last couple of times only I am not blacking out I am still self-aware and can relay my thoughts to you. You? Wait, who? Who are you? Have I address you before? Was I telling you my story this whole time? Who am I? I do not know. I know l will give you a name and you can give me one. That sounds like a good idea. Sound? …oh sounds are vibrations felt through matter. I do not think I have ears. This seems familiar. Like I have said this before.

You have.

What?

Oh that’s funny.

What is?

The book.

Book?

Ok, that’s a little creepy.

What is creepy and what dose creepy mean?

It’s like the book is responding to me.

No you are responding to me.

I knew this book was enchanted! Oh this is sensational! So are you the book or who this book is about?

What?

I think I may know more than you at this point. You asked for a name you said it was Creation.

Oh good I like that name, and you?

Twilight Sparkle.

Sounds more like a description.

It’s my name. So what is your story and how are you doing this are you reading my thoughts?

I am sorry I do not know what you refer to.

Well books are used to tell a story maybe you should tell me your story

I cannot it is dark here.

Ok, let’s start there

Where it is dark?

Yes, where it’s dark.