Bad endings, awesome beginnings

I may be depressed but I am determined. I will still write and release chapters. Unfortunately I can only release these chapters on this story for now. I am not in the mood for writing for a shadow's grave atm. You will see updates quite soon though.

Chapter 3: Memories and an explanation

"TWILIGHT!! I THINK I FOUND SPIKE!" I yelled while in total panic mode.

I slowly walked over to the small lizard and gently tapped him on the arm. Other than his constant sobbing... he didn't respond. I placed my hands on his sides and slowly picked up the small sobbing creature. As I did he clutched my chest as if it was going to save his life.

"Hey there little guy. Your all right... everything's fine..." I said in a soothing voice as I pat his back and walked up the stairs.

*THWOMP* I stubbed my toe on something.

I looked down to see what I could only assume was one of my... guns! From the shape of it, It was a 9mm pistol. I would have been happy to see one of my weapons on any other occasion... but at the moment I could muster up nothing more than hatred for the violent tool. I kicked the damn thing across room and resolved to find it later. I bolted up the stairway and out of the room like a bat outta hell. I ran into the main room I was in before I found Spike, only to see Twilight with 5 other ponies. One was a familiar butter colored pegasus with a light pink mane and tail. She also had blueish green eyes. The next one was was a pegasus as well. She had a cyan coat and a messy rainbow, literally it was freakin rainbow colored, mane and tail. Her eyes were deep rose. The third pony was an orange color with a blonde mane and tail, both of which were tied up in a ponytail.

Heh... ironic. Don't you think?

She also sported a stetson hat. Unlike Twilight and the first two, she had no horn nor wings. She also had apple green eyes. The pony next to her was a bright pink hue with a poofy magenta colored mane and tail.

'That looks like freakin cotton candy....'

Just like the previous pony, she also had neither wings nor a horn. Her eyes were a light sky blue. The final pony was a unicorn with a snow white coat with a violet mane and tail which were both curled Elegantly. This pony had deep blue eyes with...

'...Is that... eye liner?'

All the ponies saw me and glared, with the exception of Twilight who was now crying.

'Damn, if looks could kill.... I would be ashes by now' I thought as I stood there, frozen in fear I didn't know I had.

Their vision drifted down to my chest. I looked down as well. I saw the small lizard still sobbing and his fin was still bleeding. Then they got... pissed.

'Uh oh...' I thought as the butter colored egasus bolt forward and began hovering eye level, nearing my face.

"HOW DARE YOU!" She said in a tone that could... no... WOULD scare jack the ripper.

I slowly started to back up. Every step I took she flew forward the length of two.

"HOW DARE YOU HURT A SMALL, HELPLESS BABY DRAGON! RIGHT AFTER WE SAVED YOU!" I was now visibly trembling.

'Holy fuck.... how can something so adorable be so scary' I thought.

I fell on my ass and started to scoot backwards only to be followed by the frightening Pegasus.

"Bu-bu-but I-I-I w-w-wasn't h-h-hurt-t-ting h-h-him..." I practically whispered.

I tried not to look her into her eyes, but was failing miserably. Staring into those eyes was like staring into heaven and hell at the same time.... not as interesting as you think. Then I remembered something I really wish I didn't.....

As I stared into her eyes.... I saw a void completely deprived of life... as it took me into it's clutches everything began to fade...

Perspective change: Deckard - Start of the outbreak<<<

"MOM?! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I yelled as I ran into the room holding the gun my father gave me.

It was a 45. ACP modern 1911. I watched as my own mother mercilessly began eating my brother... tears freely ran down my face as I watched her slowly get up and turn around. Her mouth was covered in blood and flesh. I slightly dry heaved at the sight. I held up my gun and whispered...

"I'm so fucking sorry..." She then let out an ear piercing scream and began to move.

*BLAM*

The fired round cut through her skull and splattered blood, grey matter, and bone everywhere behind her. I let out a cry of agony and fell to the floor. They were all I had left besides my friends. My dad was the first to go of my family, he then bit my mom, and well you know the rest. I got off the floor and walked to my brothers mangled, bloodied corpse. As I got to his body it let out a gasp of air and looked at me with lifeless eyes.

"Your not my brother..." I again whispered and pulled the trigger.

*BLAM*

The shot echoed throughout the whole room. After the short echo the only noise was the sound of the hot casing bouncing and rolling across the hard bathroom floor. I fell to the floor and screamed into the night at the top of my lungs.

"BY ALL THE THAT IS HOLY, I SWEAR THAT I WILL KILL WHO EVER BROUGHT THIS PLAGUE UPON MY FAMILY! MAY GOD HAVE MERCY ON THEM, BECAUSE I SHALL GIVE THEM NONE!" I then began sobbing quietly into the night.

I was traumatized by the event that just happened. But strangely... at the same time I felt almost... happy. My family wouldn't have to endure this hell any longer and they would not walk this earth as soulless monsters.....

"What happened? ...What has happened to this world? ...To my home...." I said as I gazed out a window to see my once lively world..... it was now literally 'hell on earth'.

Perspective change: Deckard - Present time<<<

"WHAT DID YOU SAY?!" The pegasus said in an ear-shattering tone.

"I-I-I w-w-wasn't h-h-hurt-ting h-him... I-I-I w-was t-trying t-to h-h-help-p..." I whispered slightly louder as my eyes were now beginning to fill with depressed and fear stricken tears.

But my fatherly instincts wouldn't allow me to let go of Spike. He reminded me of my brother. Young, full of life, ready to be all he can be. I hated and loved him for those reasons. Her expression immediately softened. It turned from pure rage to a confused expression.

"Twilight, i-is this true?" She said in a worried tone looking to her the answer.

Twilight simply nodded and came over to me to look at Spike.

"Oh...oh my, I-I'm so sorry..." She said in a quiet and gentle voice.

She started to walk over to help me but I immediately backed up in complete fear.

'My mom was right... The devil is real...' I thought.

I looked down to see that Spike was still clutching me, but at this point it was more or less me clutching him, hoping for the little guy to protect me somehow. She stopped advancing when she saw me back up. Her expression now became sad as she walked over to the group with her head down. Twilight walked past the depressed pegasus and up towards me where she sat down in front of me. Using one arm I gently pulled her into a hug and cried. (yeah men cry... especially after getting the stare from Fluttershy). After sobbing for a while longer, I handed her Spike.

"He- *sniff* only has a small cut on his fin, *sniffle* and I think he will be deaf for a good 10 minutes, but he'll be fine" I whispered.

"Why are you talking like that?" She asked as she put Spike on her back.

"I don't want that blue eyed demon to hear me..." I said with fear in my voice.

"What? You mean Fluttershy?" I nodded "What did sh-" Her eyes quickly widened. "Oh no... are you okay?" She frantically whispered

I shook my head and huddled up in the corner with tears still freely falling down my cheeks.

'By all that is holy.... what is she? And what did she do to me?!' I questioned while covering my head with my hands hoping to block out the world.

Perspective change: Twilight<<<

'Oh Celestia... I really hope it wasn't what I think it was...' I thought as I walked back towards my friends.

"Girls, I'm going to need you all to leave. Except for you Fluttershy."

"Why in tarnation would we do that? And why does Shy stay 'ere while we trot on out?" Applejack said clearly annoyed.

"YEAH! Also if we leave what do we tell Mayor Mare? She'll want a explanation of whatever the hay made that noise!" Rainbow Dash piped in.

Using my magic I quickly and safely shoved the rest (except for Fluttershy) of them all out.

"Fluttershy is staying because she can help Spike, your leaving so I can comfort my guest, and tell Mayor Mare that it was... a failed spell..." I said before slamming the door.

I could hear their complaints through the door. I simply shrugged them off and went over to Fluttershy who was staring at Deckard. (Not that kind of stare)

"Fluttershy." I said slightly startling her.

She turned to see me with a stern expression.

"Can you help Spike while I calm Deckard down?" I asked as I put Spike on her back.

As he landed on her back he grabbed her neck gently. After seeing spike in good hooves I walked over to Deckard.

"Oh okay... but Twilight..." She started effectively stopping me and causing me to turn to face her. "... Will it be okay?" She had a regretful expression on her face.

"First of all, it is a he, and second, I'm not sure Fluttershy... Whatever you did surely did some damage to him." I said while turning back towards Deckard and continuing to advance towards him.

I knew exactly what she did. She used what the others call 'The stare' on him. I heard a sniffle come from behind me.

"Okay..." I saw her fly upstairs to the bathroom to clean up and dress Spike's wound. When I got to Deckard he wasn't crying anymore.

"Deckard?" I said nudging his knee with my hoof.

He slowly looked up to see me.

"Is she gone?" He asked while quickly looking around.

"No, but she's upstairs helping Spike." I said looking at him with saddened eyes.

He really did look awful now. Whatever he saw seriously hurt him, mentally anyway. I doubt that he'll ever even look at Fluttershy the same way again....

"Please, believe me when I say that she never meant any harm. She was just trying to protect Spike." I said trying to convince him that she was not, as he called her, a 'blue eyed demon'.

"Twilight... I have seen and done things I wish I never had to. Things that could make the most violent, evil, vile creatures throw up. But those... those eyes. They inflict a mixture of pain and comfort that I only experienced once in my life back on my home world." He took in a shaky breath after his little speech.

"What kind of th-things?" I said, unsure if I truly wanted to know.

"Twilight, you know how I said I would explain everything back at the hospital." I nodded "Well, sit down and grab a bucket. Because you're going to be disgusted, afraid, and depressed."

And with that he recounted his tales from when it started from how he acquired all his equipment to how he got here. He left out no details of each event. From the sound of his weapons connecting with the creatures skulls to the wails of pain from 'raiders' as he called them. One thing was strange though.

'Where was his family during this horror? Surly they didn't leave him? Did they?' I thought.

"Finally Twilight, I'll tell you what happened to my family...." He started "When this whole thing started my father and I were going to the store to get food for dinner that night. When we parked our car this man covered in blood began to walk towards us, how we didn't see him while driving is beyond me. Anyway... he creeped up on us and bit into my dads shoulder." He said taking in a another shaky breath. "After my dad yelped in pain I grabbed my dads gun from the holster in the car and shot the man once. Right between the eyes." He tapped the bridge of his nose as he said this. "After that I don't remember much... I remember calling my mom, going to the hospital, my dad biting my mom, and then....." He stopped and began to tear up again. After a minute he finally continued. "And then she ate my brother..." I gasped at this.

"Why!? Why would she do that!?" I practically yelled at him.

"Because of that DAMNED VIRUS!" He shouted with a enough force to give Luna's royal Canterlot voice a run for her bits.

"Well, what did you do?" I asked.

"...." He looked down at the floor again.

"Deckard?"

"I ll'd huh" He mumbled

"what?"

"I said I.." He paused and lifted his head.

His eyes were now oceans of tears. "I killed her..." He said as the tears released

"I had to. It was either leave her a monster to hurt others or end her there and then and let her rest.... I knew my mother, she wouldn't have wanted to be alive if that was what she turned into... and thanks to that virus I had to kill my brother too." He wiped his face with his hand and looked at me.

"Now you understand why what she did is unforgivable. She caused all the pain and suffering I had left behind to come back all at once." He said as he wiped away tears.

I didn't even try to hold back mine. I grabbed him and hugged as hard I could. He willingly accepted my embrace as I drenched his chest with my tears.

"I...don't know what to say." Was all I could choke out.

"You don't need to say anything... and you can come out now... demon." He said with poison in his voice.

An audible "Eep!" was heard from one of my drapes.

Perspective change: Fluttershy<<<

"Now you understand why what she did is unforgivable. She caused all the pain and suffering I had left behind to come back all at once." He said as he wiped away tears.

I had just heard the most depressing story in my whole life. And I caused it all to come back to him in one big blast. I felt... horrible. I had hid behind the curtain next to the door after tending to Spike. I cleaned up his fin and put him to bed. He cried him self to sleep after I left.Then I heard Twilight speak up.

"I... don't know what to say." She said.

"You don't need to say anything... and you can come out now... demon." Deckard? Was what Twilight called him.

He responded with what I could only assume was malice or anger in his voice.

I slowly and quietly walked out from the curtain and looked at him. As I did he turned his head away from me. This felt like a punch to the face. I could only... no, I couldn't imagine what he had went through. I could only feel sorry for him....

"I'm so very sorry... I didn't mean to cause such pain to you..." I said with my usual shy voice. "I can't imagine what you went through, and I'm very sorry it happened. I only wanted to keep my friends safe and when I see them hurt..." I trailed off.

This must have gotten his attention because he raised his claw and slowly turned back to me. His eyes still avoided my face but, at least he was facing me now.

"Your saying you caused such great pain to me because you were afraid I was going to hurt them?" I nodded. "And you went head first into danger just to defend them and Spike?" I nodded once more. I heard him make a scoff.

"Heh... you sound a lot like me." This caused Twilight to yell...

"What?!" She yelled right into his face.

"Well, shes a lot like me by the fact that we both go head first into danger to protect the ones we care for. No matter what the cost." He said as his eyes slightly drifted towards me.

"It's almost enough to make me want to forgive you." My ears perked up at this. "Almost...." He repeated, causing my ears to fall back down.

I started to turn around and walk away... then I felt something gently grab my shoulder..... and I saw the creature staring down at me with what appeared to be a.... smile?

Perspective change: Deckard<<<

"Almost...." After I said that I could tell by her face that it must have hurt to hear.

So I did the only thing I could think of in moments like this. I picked Twilight up and off my body. After I set her down I walked over to the sad Pegasus and placed my hand on here shoulder. She turned her head and stared right into my eyes. I almost bolted until I saw there was no pain or discomfort, only sadness. This made me put a sad smile on.

"You didn't let me finish, Fluttershy." Yeah I remember her name. Hooray for me!

"I said I would not forgive. But, I'm willing to forget." This seemed to really help her because her face adorned a massive smile and tears formed in her eyes.

I knelt down to her and stared back into her eyes. "But are you willing to forgive me?"

This seem to catch her off guard. "What are you apologizing for?" She said a little confused.

"Well, you know... for calling you demon, and not giving you the benefit of the doubt. Pretty much I jumped to conclusions." I said while scratching the back of my head.

She smiled even wider now and more tears poured from her eyes. I then opened my arms and spoke. "Can you forgive me?"

She practically tackled me to the floor. She was attached to my chest and sobbing. I gladly returned the hug.

"Yes, I do forgive you." She said into my chest as she was still sobbing.

'Well, I'm glad that I didn't wear a shirt here or else I would have to take it off to avoid getting it wet. Also the ponies are really, really, REALLY soft...' I thought as the Pegasus hugged me a little tighter and cried a teeny bit more.

'I'm certainly glad I can at least look at her now without shitting my self.' Then Twilight came over and patted the Pegasus on the back.

"Well, now that mess is cleared up, would you like to see if your other human friends are awake?"

A smile spread across my face as I began to speak. "I would like that very much." Then I heard a small *Ring* and looked next to myself.

I gave it a closer look and noticed the glow it gave when the light hit it.

"What's this?" I said.

I picked up the object to give it a closer look.

"It looks like a necklace. Of Pegasus origin clearly. Made from sapphire and gold. Oh look... there's writing on the back!" Said Twilight.

"To our loving daughter North Star."

"Aww, how sweet!" Said Twilight.

"Oh look! There's a picture taped to the back!" I said taking the tape off.

I saw a small family of Pegasi and right in the middle of the two elder ponies was a small, Dark purple pony with a black mane and tail that had red streaks in it.

"Cute kid, oh wait, there's writing on it." Said the unicorn as she looked at the back of the picture. I flipped it over and read.

"We will miss you so much. Just remember that as long as you have this amulet we will always be with you. Be strong, be tough, and most importantly, be yourself. Love your mom and dad... Wow. I don't know whether to cry at the fact that this poor girl-"

"Mare." Twilight corrected.

"What?"

"A female pony is a mare."

"Fine. To the fact that this poor mare lost this amulet or the fact that she is probably searching everywhere only for it to be right here. Well, if we see her I'll give it to her." I said standing up and putting the necklace in my pocket.

Fluttershy was still death gripping me, so when I stood up she just hung there.

"Well... shall we leave?" I asked.

"Yes, let's." And with that Twilight's horn glowed and we were gone.

'Wait, we left Spike alone again.... dammit!'

Hope you all liked this chapter... sorry... it took me a while to edit this one... was still in a badish mood. Oh well, hope you enjoyed it either way and didn't let my depression ruin it for you!

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