Bad endings, awesome beginnings (Un-edited chapters)

Chapter 3: memories and explanation

Author's notice: hey guys sorry about the chapter being late but I kinda got caught up.... Anyway I am working on getting this edited and worked out......So for now please hold back the bad grammar comments. I am going to re-upload this chapter when I get it fixed up. Okay? Good.....so please enjoy! And please do your best to ignore my awful grammar. Thank you.

"TWILIGHT!! I THINK I FOUND SPIKE!!" I yelled starting to panic. I slowly walked over to the small lizard and gently tapped him on the arm. He didn't respond. I placed my hands on sides and picked up the small sobbing creature. As I did he clutched my chest as if it was going to save his life.

"hey there little guy. Your all right." I said as I patted his back and walked up stairs. *CLANGNK* I stubbed my toe. I looked down to see what I could only assume was one of my...guns! From the shape of it, It was the M9 bretta 9mm. I would have been happy, but at the moment I had nothing more than hatred for the violent tool. I kicked the damn thing across room and resolved to find it later. I bolted up the stair and out of the room like a bat outta hell. I ran into the main room I was in before only to see twilight with 5 other ponies.

One was a familier butter colored Pegasus with a light pink mane and tail. She also had blue/green eyes. The next one was also was a Pegasus. She had cyan coat and a messy rainbow, literally rainbow colored, mane and tail. Her eyes were rose colored. The third pony was orange colored with a blonde mane and tail, both of which were tied up in a ponytail,which was covered by a stetson hat,she had not wings nor a horn. She had green eyes. The pony next to her was a bright pink with a poofey magenta mane and tail. Like the last pony she had nothing either. Her eyes were light blue. The final pony was a unicorn with a snow white coat with a violet mane and tail which curled Elegantly. This pony had deep blue eyes with...'is that eye liner?'.

All the ponies saw me and glared with the exception of twilight who was crying now.'damn, if looks could kill....I would be ashes by now' I thought not moving any more. their vision drifted down to my chest. I looked down as well. I saw the small lizard still sobbing and his fin was still bleeding. Then they got...pissed. 'uh oh' I thought. The butter colored Pegasus popped up hovering over to me.

"HOW DARE YOU!!" she said in voice that could scare jack the ripper.I slowly started to back up.

"HOW DARE YOU HURT A SMALL, HELPLESS DRAGON BABY. RIGHT AFTER WE HELPED YOU TOO!!" I was now visibly trembling. 'holy fuck....how can something so adorable be so scary' I thought. I fell on my ass and started to scoot backwards only to be followed by the frightening Pegasus.

"bu-bu-but I-I-I w-w-wasn't h-h-hurt-t-ting h-h-him..." I practically whispered. Trying not to look her in the eyes, but failed miserably. Staring into those eyes was like staring into heaven and hell at the same time....not as interesting as you think.Then I remembered something I really wish I didn't.....

(ENGAGE FLASHBACK)

"MOM?! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I yelled as I ran into the room holding a gun my father gave me, it was a 45. ACP modern 1911. See was eatin...eating my brother. Tears freely ran down my face as I watched her slowly get up and turn around. Her mouth was covered in blood and flesh. I slightly dry heaved at the sight. I held up my gun and whispered...

"I'm so fucking sorry..." she let out a ear piercing scream and began to move. *BLAM* the round cut threw her skull and splattered blood, grey matter, and bone. I let out a cry of agony and fell to the floor. They were all I had left besides my friends.my dad was the first to go of my family, he then bit my mom, and well you know the rest. I got off the floor and walked to my brothers mangled,bloodied corpse. As I got to his body it let out a gasp of air and looked at me.

"your not my brother." I again whispered and pulled the trigger. *BLAM* the room echoed. Then all I heard was a casing hit the floor. I fell to the floor and screamed into the night.

"BY ALL THE THAT IS HOLY, I SWEAR THAT I WILL KILL WHO EVER BROUGHT THIS PLAUGE UPON MY FAMILY! MAY GOD HAVE MERCY ON THEM, BECAUSE I SHALL GIVE THEM NONE!!!"I then bawled in to the night. I was traumatized by the event that just happened. At the same time I was happy. My family would not have to endure this would any longer and they would not walk this earth as soulless monsters....."what happend?...what has happend to this world?" I said  as gazed out a window to see the world.....it was literally 'hell on earth'.

(DISENGAGE FLASHBACK)

"WHAT DID YOU SAY?!?"

"I-I-I w-w-wasn't h-h-hurting h-him I-I-I w-was t-trying t-to h-h-help-p..." I whispered slightly louder. as my eyes were now beginning to fill with depressed fear stricken tears. But my fatherly instincts wouldn't allow me to let go of spike. He reminded me of my brother. Young, full of life, ready to be all he can be. I hated and loved him for right then.

Her expression softened. It turned from pure rage to a confused expression. "twilight, is this true?" she said looking to her the answer. Twilight simply nodded and came over to me took look at spike.

"oh...oh my, I am so sorry" she said in a quiet gentle voice. She started to walk over to help me but, I backed up in complete fear. 'my mom was right. The devil is real...' I thought. I looked down to see spike was still clutching me, but at this point it was more or less me clutch him hoping for the little guy to protect me. She stopped advancing when she saw me back up. her expression now became sad as she walked over to the group.

Twilight walked past the depressed pegasus up to me and sat down. Useing one arm I gently pulled her into a hug and cried(yea men cry..especially after getting the stare from fluttershy). After I sobbed a little bit more. I handed her spike.

"he *sniff* only has a small cut on his fin *sniffle* and I think he will be deaf for a good 10 minutes, but he'll be fine" I whispered.

" why are you talking like that?" she asked as she put spike on her back.

" I don't want that blue eyed demon to hear me.." I said with fear in my voice.

"what? You mean fluttershy?" I nodded " what did sh-" her eyes widened "oh no... Are you okay?" she franticly whispered

I shook my head and huddled up in the corner with tears still free falling.

' by all that is holy....what is she? And what did she do to me?!'' I questioned and covering my head with my hands hoping to block out the world.

(Twilight's P.O.V.)

'oh celestia...what did she do?' I thought as I walked back towards my friends. "Girls I am going to need you leave. Except for you fluttershy."

"why in tarnation would we do that? And why does shy stay 'ere while we trot on outta 'ere?!" applejack said clearly annoyed.

"YEA! Also if we leave what do we tell mayor mare? She will want a explanation of whatever the hay made that noise!" rainbow dash piped in.

Useing my magic I quickly and safely shoved the rest (except for flutters )of them all out and said " shy is staying because she can help spike, your leaving so I can comfort my guest, and tell mayor mare that it was a fail spell.."I said before slamming the door.

I could hear their complaints threw the door. I simply shrugged them off and went to fluttershy who was staring at deckard.

"fluttershy."I said slightly startling her. she turned to see me with a stern expression.

" can you help spike while I calm deckard down?" I asked as I put spike on her back and he grabbed her neck gently. After seeing spike in good hooves I walked over to deckard.

"oh okay, but twilight..."She started effectively stopping me and causing me to turn to face her."... Will it be okay?" she had a regretful expression on her face.

"First, it is a he and second, I don't know fluttershy... What ever you did surely did some damage to him." I said while turning back to deckard and continued walking.I knew exactly what she did. She used what the other call 'the stare' on him. I heard a sniffle come from behind me.

"okay..." I saw her fly upstairs to the bathroom to clean up and dress spike's wound. When I got to deckard he wasn't crying anymore.

"deckard?" I said nudging his knee with my hoof. He slowly looked up to see me.

"is she gone?" he asked quickly looking around.

"No, but she is upstairs helping spike." he really did look awful now. What ever shy did seriously hurt him, mentally anyway.I doubt that he'll ever even look at fluttershy again....

"please, believe me when I saw she never ment any harm. She was just protecting spike."I said trying to convince him that she was not, as he called her, a 'blue eyed demon'.

"twilight...I have seen and done things I wish I never had to. Things that could make the most violent, evil, vile, creature throw up. But those...those eyes. They inflict a mixture of pain and comfort that I only experienced once in my life back on my home world." he took in a shaky breath after his little speech.

"what kind of th-things?" I said unsure if I truly wanted to know.

"twilight, you know how I said I would explain everything back at the hospital." I nodded "well, sit down and grab a bucket. Because you are going to be disgusted, afraid, and depressed."

And with that he recounted his tales from when it started from how he acquired all his equipment to how he got here. he left out no details of each event. From the sound of his weapons connecting with the creatures skull to wails of pain from 'raiders' as he called them. One thing was strange though. 'where was his family during this horror? Surly they didn't leave him? Did they?' I thought.

"finally, twilight. I will tell you what happed to my family...." he started " when this whole thing started my father and I were going to the store to get food for dinner that night. when we parked our car this man covered in blood began to walk towards us, how we didn't see him while driving is beyond me. Anyway he snuck up on us and bit my dads shoulder." he said taking in a another shaky breath. " after my dad yelped in pain I grabbed my dads gun from the holester and shot the man once. Right between the eyes." he tapped the bridge of his nose as he said this" after that I don't remember much...I remember calling my mom, going to the hospital, my dad biting my mom, and then....." he stopped and began to tear up again. After a minute he finally said "and then she ate my brother.." I gasped at this.

"Why!? Why would she do that!?" I practally yelled at him.

"because of that DAMNED DISEASE!!" he shouted with a enough force to give Luna's royal canterlot voice a run for her bits.

"well, what did you do?"

"...." he looked down at the floor again.

"deckard?"

"I ll'd huh" he mumbled

"what?"

" I said I.." he lifted his head. His eyes were now oceans of tears." I killed her.." he said as the tears released" I had to. It was ethier leave her a monster to hurt others or end her then and let her rest.... I knew my mother, she wouldn't have want to be alive if that was what she turned into...and thanks to the disease I had to kill my brother too." he wiped his face with his hand and looked at me.

"now you understand why what she did is unforgivable. she caused all pain and suffering i had left behind,to come back all at once." he said as he wiped away tears. I didn't even try to hold back mine. I grabbed him and hugged as hard I could. He willingly accepted my embrace as I drenched his chest with my tears.

" I...don't know what to say." was all I could choke out.

" you don't need to say anything...and you can come out now...demon." he said with poison in his voice. An audible "EEP!" was heard from one of my drapes.

(Fluttershy's P.O.V.)

"now you understand why what she did is unforgivable. she caused all pain and suffering i had left behind,to come back all at once." he said as he wiped away tears. I had just heard the most depressing story in my whole life.I cause it all to come back to him in one big blast. I felt....horrible. I had hid behind the curtain next to the door after tending to spike. I cleaned up his fin and put him to bed. He cried him self to sleep after I left.Then I heard twilight say....

" I...don't know what to say." she said.

" you don't need to say anything...and you can come out now...demon." deckard? Was what twilight called him. he responed with what I could only assume was malice or anger in his voice.

I slowly and quietly walked out from the curtain and looked at him. As I did he turned his head away from me. This felt like a punch to the face. I could only..no, actuall I couldn't imagine what he went through. I could only feel sorry for him....

"I'm so very sorry..I didn't mean to cause such pain to you.." I said with my usual shy voice. " I can't imagine what you went through and I am very sorry it happened. I only wanted to keep my friends safe and when I see them hurt..."

This must have gotten his attention because he raised his claw and slowly turned back to me. His eyes still avoided my face but, at least he was facing me now.

" your saying you caused such great pain to me because you were afraid I going to hurt them?" I nodded. " and you went head first in to danger just to defend them and spike?" I nodded once more. I heard him make a scoff.

"heh..you sound a lot like me." this caused twilight to yell...

"what?!" right into his face.

"Well, shes a lot like me by the fact that we both go head first into danger to protect the ones we care for. Now matter what the cost." he said his eyes slightly drifting towards me.

"It is almost enough to make me want to forgive you." my ears perked up at this. "almost...."he finished and my ears went back down. I started to turn around to walk away...then I felt something gently grab my shoulder.....and I saw the creature staring down at me with what appeared to be a....smile?

(Deckard's P.O.V.)

"almost...." after I said that I could tell she was hurt by that. So I did the only thing I could think of in moments like this. I picked twilight up and off my body. After I set her down I walked over to the sad Pegasus and placed my hand on here shoulder. She turned her head and stared right into my eyes. I almost bolted till I saw there was no pain or discomfort, only sadness. This made me put a sad smile on.

"you didn't let me finish, fluttershy." yea I remember her name. Hooray for me!.

"I said I would not forgive. But, I am willing to forget." this seemed to really help her because her face adorned a massive smile and tears formed in her eyes. I knelt down and said" but are willing to forgive me?"

This seem to catch her off guard. "what are you apologizing for?" she said a little confused.

"well,you know for calling you demon, and not giving you the benefit of the doubt. Pretty much I jumped to conclusions." I said while scratching the back of my head. She smiled even wider now and more tears poured from her eyes. I then opened my arms and said again"can you forgive me?"

She practically glomped me to the floor. She was attached to my chest and sobbing.I gladly return the hug.

"yes, I do forgive you."she said into my chest as she was still sobbing.

'well, I'm glad that I didn't were a shirt here or else I would have to take it off to avoid getting it wet. Also the ponies are really,really,REALLY soft.' I thought as the Pegasus hugged me a little tighter and cried a teeny bit more.

' I am certainly glad I can at least look at her now with out shitting my self.' then twilight came over and patted the Pegasus on the back. "we'll, now that that is cleared up. Would you like to see if your other human friends are awake?"

A smile spread across my face and I said" I would like that very much." the I heard a small *snap* and looked up. My gaze was met by a strange necklace as it hit me right between the eyes. "ow." I said rubbing were it hit me. "what is this?" I said. I picked up the necklace.

" it looks like a necklace. Of Pegasus origin clearly. Made from sapphire and gold.  Oh look there is writing on the back!" said twilight.

"to our loving daughter North Star."

"aww, how sweet!" she said.

"oh, hey there is a picture taped to the back!" I said taking the tape off. I saw a small family of Pegasi and right in the middle of the two elder ponies was a small Dark purple pony with a black mane and tail that had red streaks in it.

"cute kid, oh wait there is writing on it." said the unicorn as she looked at the back of the picture. I flipped it over and read.

"we will miss you so much. Just remember that as long as you have this amulet we will always be with you. Be strong, be tough, and most importantly yourself. Love your mom and dad. wow. I don't know wether to cry to the fact that this poor girl-"

"mare." twilight corrected.

"what?"

" a female pony is a mare."

" fine. To the fact that this poor mare lost this amulet or the fact that she is probably searching everywhere only for it to be right here. Well, if we see her will give it to her." I said standing up and putting the necklace in my pocket. Flutter shy was still death gripping me, so when I stood up she just hung there.

"well shall we leave?"

"yes, let's." and with that Twilight's horn glowed and we were gone.

'wait, we left spike alone again....damnit'

Author's note: Hey all you happy people and ponies! Hope you enjoyed this chapter. This was my first attempt at letting you know how deckard is going to react to some of the ponies in the story. Props to chrony for sending me an OC. koodohs to you dude. the next chapter is going to be them getting out of the hospital and..(SPOILERS)....so yea. Please tell me how I am doing so far and if I should still continue. Cya!