Maybe is all I need

Chapters

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

Chapter 1

Your eyes are still closed and you can only hear the sound of yourself breathing in your silent house. You continue to let your exhausted eyelids close yourself from the outside world. You listen to your breathes there short and heavy, you're too tired to open your eyes and you don’t want to see the outside world anyways, but something feels off...you move your head but instead of the sound of hair rubbing a wall you hear nothing. You feel strange almost like there's a lot of weight pushing down on you. Trying to push these feelings out of your mind does not work your temptation to see why you feel so strange gets the better of you and you shoot your eyes open... you're standing up straight thats the first thing that sends your mind spinning... you bring your arm up to your face and see no blood, your side no longer hurts as you slowly lift your shirt up to check your wound. Your head pounds in pain as you look over your body...there are no signs of injury or any signs of there ever being any sort of injury. The next thing that is keeping your mind spinning is the looks of the room you currently stand in....”The library?” You bring your thoughts out to amazed to hold your confusion in.

You look around the room you stand in, it’s the bottom of the library or what looks like the library, the walls look a little dull and the room is dark. You study the library a little longer and then look to the window, it’s dark outside so that explains the dark room but your still baffled at where you stand, you finally snap out of your awestruck stance and you call out Twilights name to the house, but you get no reply.

You look up the stairs and start to walk up them but stop as You hear a faint sound coming from another part of the house, you try to listen in but you're unable to make out any audible sounds; you swallow hard and move towards the sound.

The noise seems to be coming from the main library, you slowly walk towards the sound but as you turn the corner you're met with a long dark hallway. You stare down the hallway, “There has never been a hallway here before..right?” You look back to the room you just left and see no one standing there. You try to make sense as to what might have happened but your head hurts too much to think. The only thing you can guess is that some how you healed yourself and teleported to Equestria while you were pasted out, even though you don’t believe this you would rather think this then believe youre dead and that this is your after life...a stuffy old tree with tons of books, you look at all the books and laugh to yourself well if i’m dead it’s hell cause I hate books.

You look back down the hallway and decide to follow the sound, you keep pushing every you know about horror movies out of your mind you continue down the dark hallway. As you reach the end you see a door which seems to hold whatever is making the noise within. You breath deep as you grab the knob and began to twist, as the door opens you see a single lateran which only lights a small part of the room. Your eyes and ears locate the source of the noise...it’s Twilight, she is sitting on the ground near the light with her eyes closed just crying.

You watch her for a few moments waiting to see if she notices you, she doesn't notice you; so you walk over to where she sits as you get closer you reach your hand out and start petting her head.

She opens her eyes and jerks her head from your hand looks at you, seeing her big purple eyes brings a sense of happiness to your heart. “I’m home Twilight...”

She stares at you trying to hold back more tears, as she talks “Who...who are you?”

Her comment ricochets in your brain as you look at her, you bring your hand from her head and start talking in a soft voice “Twilight what do you mean who am I?”

She starts to stand up and backs away, you stare at her and it finally hits you, her coat looks dull and her mane has lost some of it’s purple shades and she just overall looks different, oh god how long have I been gone! your mind screams this at you as your brain finally has adjusted to the dim room to fully see Twilight.

You stand in silence as you watch her back away, you continue to talk in a soft voice “Twilight I don’t know how long I have been gone...but do really not remember me?”

Twilight starts to act like she is scared and begins to call out Spikes name.

You're now in a full rage at the action “Twilight how do you not remember me I just saw you like an hour ago at the most!”

Twilight lowers her head as she talks “I don’t know who you are or how you got into my house but stay away from me!”

You stare at Twilight the feeling of being forgotten is eating at you as you walk closer to Twilight “No you listen I...”

Twilight lets out a bolt of purple magic at you and you're struck immobile.

You feel yourself falling over towards the ground.

End of chapter 1

Chapter 2

As you hit the ground Your eyes shoot open and you sit up. The room you were just standing in is no more and your eyes are overflowed with color as you frantically rub them trying to bring them back into focus. You dart your eyes around the room trying to place yourself, your heart beats fast as you realize where you are and you're mind races as you stare at the scene in front of you. You're in your bed back in the library, “But how did I...” You whisper this as you stare around the room.

You feel a hoof push on your shoulder “You can’t jump up like that, you need to rest.”

You snap your body to her voice “Twilight! “

Twilight looks at you, her big purple eyes they have their normal glow and her hair is not the dull color you just saw and has its bright and dark streaks of purple, her coat also has its vibrant lavender color. You throw yourself around Twilights neck and head and began to laugh “You’re not old!”

Twilight lets out a little giggle and pushing on your shoulder trying to lie you down, “Are you ok? You seem a bit jumpy.”

You break your grip from her and try to explain what you just saw in your dream.

Twilight gives a sweet smile “You need to rest; Celestia said weird dreams may be a side effect of the magic.”

Magic? You look down at your body, your shirt is torn from where you were shot, you frantically pull the shirt up and rub the skin, there’s no blood and no wound but this time you feel a pain as you push your side, you let out a joy filled laugh as you continue to poke yourself in pain.

Twilight bats your hand with her hoof “Don’t do that! You could mess with the magic and cause yourself it to relapse.”

You look to Twilight and smile “how is this possible? How can I look as if nothing happened?”

Twilight giggles at you “Magic can be used for many things even stopping death, when the Princess brought you back you were in pretty bad condition but luckily she knew a spell that could heal you.”

You nod at her explanation; if a pony can stop death then i’m not going to question it.

It takes your mind a few seconds to fully understand what Twilight just said to you and when it finally sinks in you’re stuck on the word, death? Could I have really died? Am I dead now?! Your stomach feels queasy at the thought and your heart beat starts back out in a fast pace, you stare at Twilight for a few moments her soft big purple eyes start to calm your mind and your body. You start rubbing your head with your left hand trying to stop a headache from all the excitement.

Twilight notices your change in attitude and again pushes on your shoulder “You need to rest when your better I’ll explain more.”

You give into her attempt at pushing you down and you close your eyes as you feel yourself start to fall back to sleep.

(Later)

After a few hours of sleep you’re awoken by the sound of your name being called in the faint distance, you open your eyes and sit up to look around the room.

Twilight is asleep next you, she is curled up under the blankets in a small cocoon, you smile at the sight of her still being asleep. But your smile fades from your face as you again hear your name being called; the voice is very low and sounds like it is coming from elsewhere in the house. You scrape the inside of your ear trying to move the hair that blocks it for better hearing.

You stay sat up in the bed for a few moments as you listen for another sound… but you don’t hear anything. Twilight beings to stir next to you, she lets out a yawn and slowly opens her eyes as she looks at you, “Are you ok?”

You look towards her “Sorry I woke you I just thought I heard something.”

Twilight lets out another yawn and rolls over.

“Hey Twilight I’m going to walk around for a minute, I think sleeping all day is starting to get to me.”

She lets out a low sound and you take that as a yes, you slowly move your legs out from the covers and plant them on the wood floor. The floor is freezing for some reason, it takes you a moment to get use to the cool surface but you finally get to your feet. You stretch for a moment then head to the threshold of the door; you poke your head out of the room and look towards the stairs.

You look down the stairs to your right and then to your left down the hall towards Twilight’s room. You think to yourself, you know what Spike never said Hi to me today…I think I’ll go wake him up.

You walk towards Twilights room, as you peer inside you see that her bed is still neatly made; you look towards Spikes pet bed and see the outline of a body. You smile as you tiptoe over to the bed; you grab the covers and fling them off the bed “Surprise SPIKE!”

As the covers move you notice only pillows and a note, you stare at the bed a bit disappointed that a pissed off purple little dragon didn’t jump out of it. You bend down and grab the note, you think to yourself if this is a note saying that he ran off with Rarity then you know you have died but somehow ended up in Spikes heaven…or wherever dragons go.

You look over the little yellow piece of paper,

GET OUT!!!
There are only these two words on the paper, you stare at in and flip it over trying to see if anywhere else on it has more words, “That’s it?”

“What’s it?”

Twilight’s voice startles you and you drop the paper “Whoa Twilight you almost gave me a heart attack.”

Twilight laughs at your comment.

You give a little chuckle, but think to yourself no seriously don’t fucking sneak up behind someone who’s been shot.

“What are you looking at?”

You look back to the ground to pick the paper up but it seems to have floated off somewhere “Um nothing Twilight…hey where is Spike?”

Twilight levitates the tossed blankets and folds them on Spikes bed as she talks “He was summoned by Celestia for his annual dragon check up.”

You nod your head at her comment, seems legit.

Twilight stares at you for a moment “You sure you’re ok?”

You reply fast “Ya I’m fine just need to stretch my legs.”

Twilight looks you over for a moment then turns and walks out the door “Ok well be quite when you come back to bed.”

You watch as she leaves the room, when she is gone from sight you snap back to the ground for the paper you once had “Ok paper where are you.”

You look under the beds and mess up Twilights neatly folded blankets looking for the paper, you decided to give up after a few minutes and just decide to shrug it off as a magical something you can’t explain.

Your return to your bed tired and ready to sleep, you move the covers slowly and carefully place yourself into the bed as not to disturb Twilight. As you close your eyes you hear her voice, “Your feet are cold.” You playfully move your feet onto her until she lets out a squeal of disapproval.

You rub her head and say good night.

End of chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 3 (Checkmate)

The burning sun that has been penetrating your eyes for the last few minutes has finally woken you up; you move your head so that you’re not in the direct light from the sun. You’re surprised to not find Twilights head on it’s normal resting place on your chest, you look to your left and notice she is still asleep, you close your eyes and start to mess with her mane. Her warm head feels good on your hand as you continue, you did this for a few moments until you hear her say good morning. You start to reply but your cut off by the sound of your name being called again.

You open your eyes and look to the doorway “Hey Twilight did you hear that?”

You don’t hear her reply so you nudged her with your hand to wake her up if she fell back to sleep “Twilight?” As you put your head on her you notice her mane no longer feels warm it feels cold and kind of wet, you turn your head to face her and quickly jump out of the bed at what you see.

“Chrysalis!” You shout as you fall out of the bed.

You hear a laugh as you struggle to untangle your body from the sheets, “And a good morning to you Human.”

You finally free yourself from the sheets and jump up to she if your mind was playing tricks on you…it wasn’t, the black pony lays in the bed smiling at you, her hair seems more of a darker shade of blue since the last time you saw her and her eyes look red and no longer green.

Chrysalis stares at you “Surprised are we?”

You stare at her not knowing what to say.

She gets up from the bed and walks towards you “It’s been awhile hasn’t it?” She stops in front of you waiting for a reply. But you just stare at her not knowing what to say.

Chrysalis serpent like tongue flickers as she talks “Tell me human do you remember when I told you your magic was something....unique.” Chrysalis pushes her face closer to you and embraces you with an unwanted kiss; her tongue licks the inside of your mouth until you push her off of you and back up from her. You feel like you're going to throw up, she tastes like old cheese and smells like fish.

Chrysalis mocks you “Oh I forgot you only like young mares is that right?”

Chrysalis is shrouded in a green mist for a few seconds, and then emerges looking like Twilight. “There human is this better?”

You look at her and think ok now I’m going to throw up…
Chrysalis lets out one of her annoying laughs as she continues to mock you “So human this is what you like?...Well you liked it so much before.”

She gives a devilish smile as she slowly walks towards you again, you quickly back up.

Chrysalis smile quickly fades as she yells “Wait human don’t….”

You listening ability is cut short as you feel your feet lose balance, it didn’t dawn on you until now that you have backed up to the stairs. Your footing is lost and you begin tumbling down the stairs, each hardwood stair shoots pain though your body as you twist and turn as you fall. Your pain doesn’t last long as you reach the last stair with a loud bone crushing thud.

As you hit the ground your eyes shoot open, you pant and jerk body forward, but the pain from your side is still too great to move. You look to your side and notices you're still a bloody mess. You cry out as you realize you have been having hallucinations and that the real nightmare is not over yet. You call out in a burst of adrenaline and fear “HELP! ANYONE!”

You don’t know how long you have been pasted out for, but just the thought of not knowing you were pasted out scares you terribly. The towels that Twilight had brought to you are now morphed to your body and your hand, the hand is too stiff and cold to move and it just trembles as it holds your side.

You again let out a pain filled squeal as you try to push yourself up from the ground, but you come crashing back down to the ground.

You let out another yell as you hit the ground, your breathing is now labored and you are starting to feel tired again. You shake your head and scream to yourself “NOOO I refuse to die in a dream about ponies!”

You slam your head back against the wall and begin to sob, “Twilight! I changed my mind I want you back! I don’t want to stay here! I don’t want to be left here!”

Your head hurts from the headache or the lack of blood or maybe the hulk smash you just did on the wall but either reason is making your already bad head worst. You fight closing your eyes as you feel sleepy trying to crawl back into your life. Your sobs are now just loud gasp for air, your stomach has gone into severe cramps.

You're too exhausted to try yelling again so you just pant words.

The room’s deafening silences is finally broken by a voice.

“Human why are you sad your gracious Queen has let you live this long you should be happy.”

The voice rings in your head as you stare at the green magic starting to form on your hands....”Chrysalis?”

Her laugh rings through your head and makes it hurt worse, you grind your teeth and try to muscle through the sound that is scrambling your head.

As the laughter stops you look around the room trying to find the location of her voice.

“Poor human you think i’m in the room.”

Her distant tone hits your ears and you try to follow it while looking around the room.

You stop looking around and start to talk “You’re in my head...”

Chrysalis exclaims in a joyful tone “Bravo human you figured that out. Now the real question do you know how or why?”

You're too tired to fight against any more hallucination so you just listen as your mind starts to talk to you.

“I have been feeding off of your emotions for quite some time, rebuilding my self from your magic human…and you know what my plan is almost fully complete.”

You feel weak again but you keep moving yourself to stay awake, “What plan?”

Chrysalis tone sounds proud as she talks “I guess it does seem fit for you to know seeing as how it won’t matter. In a few minutes I will transform your body into my own, destroying you in the process of course, but I will be more powerful than ever! And I will go back to Equestria and take my rightful place as ruler of the land!”

You swallow hard as you try to deny what she has said, “Oh human you don’t believe me…let me just give to you a demonstration.”

You look at the green magic that has been forming on your heads you watch as it starts to creep it’s way up your arm, you breath deep as the magic starts to wrap itself around your arm, you watch as your fingers start to turn black.

You cry out “It’s just like the dream! You…You HAVE been planning this for a long time!”

Chrysalis gives a girlish laugh as the magic stops “Yes, yes I have, did you really think you would stay in a pony filled world when you’re clearly not a pony? Did you really think you could do magic! HA!”

You stare at your blackened hand you can’t move the fingers and it looks like it could fall off at any moment, you cry out “WHY why me?!”

“Because human I selected you, but don’t worry you won’t feel a thing I’ll make sure I give you a nice dream to die in.” Her wicked laugh ricochets off the insides of your head.

You feel yourself getting tired as you start to lose the fight on keeping your eyes open…

End of chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 4 (Never eat cheese)

You slump over onto your wounded side; you let out a slight whimper as the pain from sliding onto this side shoots up your body. “Oh don’t worry human you won’t feel a thing.” Chrysalis wicked laugh bounces around inside your head as you continue your fight for control of your eyes. “Why do I have to die for a parasite like you.” You angrily grind your teeth as you talk back to her. “A parasite! HOW dare you insult your generous and all powerful queen!” Your side glows bright green and a sharp pain throbs your side as you lay on the floor.

Your cries of pain are shot throughout the silent house. The yell slightly echoes off the walls and comes back to you; it sounds sort of like a different voice, the sad fact is you can not longer tell what’s real and not real anymore. You listen as you hear the voice in your head continue to try luring you to sleep “Shhhh just close your eyes, I promise you won’t regret it.”

You slowly start to give into her voice as she talks in a low tone “yes, sleep that’s right let your eyes close just for a moment.” You close your eyes for a moment. You feel a tingling sensation on your body and you’re snapped out of your rest, you look down you your darkened hand and notice that the arm is now colorless. The dark grey color creeps up your arm, as it moves you feel no pain just a cold tingling feeling. You would scream but you’re just too tired, you doze off again this time for a longer period. You again feel your heavy eyelids fall over your vision.

You feel a warm spot on your face as you open your eyes yet again, you stare at the glowing white mass in front of you, you hear your name being called out from the white mass but your ears are ringing and the voice is muffled too much. The white mass starts to focus and you realize its Celestia. You try to listen as you watch her mouth move, “You can’t go to sleep…you…ok? Can…you…..understand…any….”

You stare at the pony and just give a faint smile.

Celestia puts her hoof onto your face and gently rubs, you have no idea what she is saying but the warmth from her hoof feels nice as you start to relax Celestia smacks you with her hoof. Your face stings and you’re ringing stops, “OW!”

Celestia talks in a very rushed voice “How long have you been like this!”

You look down at your arms both are now blackish grey the only color is from the dried blood on your hands and your mid section glows green. You should be in a state of complete panic but you feel so comfortable, you give a low “I don’t know.”

Celestia stares you down with a disappointed look, her voice is loud and has a lot of pitched “You were a fool for not getting help sooner.”

You hear Chrysalis voice in the back of your mind mocking Celestia “Oh you’re a fool for not getting help sooner blah blah blah, I’m a princess I control the sun!”

You give a broken laugh as you look at Celestia. She stares at you for a moment “You are going to die if you don’t listen to me.” Her serious tone snaps you out of your lulled happiness. You shake your head and let out a few mashed words trying to explain what’s happening. You’re unsure if she understands what you just said but she gives a nod. “I need you to focus on something…something that makes you happy, there is not much time before Chrysalis spell is fully complete.”

You hear Chrysalis laughing in the back of your mind; you try to listen through her annoying laugh.

Celestia puts her hoof back on your face “I’m not even sure this will work but it’s the only thing I think of that maybe can stop this spell.”

You reply “Maybe is all I need.”

Celestia’s horn glows gold and she speaks “Close your eyes and fight whatever she tells you.”

Chrysalis laughs as she mocks Celestia, “Yes human close your eyes and dream. Dream of all the pain and all the hardship of this world you so desperately wanted to come back to.”

The thoughts of everything you have had happen to you flash through your mind as Chrysalis tries to throw you off your mind set. You grind your teeth as you try thinking about puppies and sunshine and the feelings you get when you eat any kind of sweets, but these thoughts are overwhelmed by Chrysalis barrage of pain. “Human why would you even try I OWN YOUR BODY NOW! Your futile attempts only make me laugh.” You bite your tongue trying to hold back what she is digging out from the recesses of your memory, she is bringing things from not just the last few months but from years before any pain you have ever felt before is being amplified through your head.

Celestia talks as her horn continues to glow “You have to find something to hold onto if this spell is to work. Think of all the reports on love and tolerance and friendship you have sent to me use those!”

Your mind is riddled with pain but you still think to yourself oh great my life depends on my writing, you try to fight through the pain for a small feeling of happiness…after a few moments of mind searching you finally decide on something.

You let out a pain filled ok to show you have something.

Celestia puts her hoof on you should “Good now state this feeling out loud; remember this spell will only work if you have a reason.”

Chrysalis annoying laugh hinders your thought but you scramble to say it out loud, “I like waking up in the morning and feeling Twilight still sleeping...” You hear Chrysalis talking but you ignore her. “… I like how the morning sun hits my face and warms it… I like how every day there is something new and different and not the same pointless stuff like I would do here!” You feel a tear as you open your eyes and stare at Celestia “I like being alive…I like laughing!” You're talking out loud starts to sound more like a plea as the pain in your side and head worsens “I…I want to stare into Twilights’ soft purple eyes one last time...Shit I even want to write you a letter!”

Celestia’s horn is now bright gold; she gives you a soft smile and lowers her head “Don’t lose these thoughts…”

The gold burst of her magic rushes towards you, the room is filled with the gold color you’re blinded by the light as you close your eye. You no longer feel a pain in your side and your mind has stopped it’s chattering, you kind of feel weightless, you can’t tell if you’re asleep or fainted you just know your breathing and alive.

End of chapter 4

Chapter 5

“Do you think he is ok?” You hear Twilight's voice to your right. “Be patient Twilight, the spell may have taken a lot out of him and he needs to rest.”

You hear Celestia and Twilight's voice to your right. Your eyes are closed as you listen to their conversation. You think to yourself, what spell? Oh god if I wake up and I am nothing but a head I’m going to explode.

“Princess do you think he will accept what happened?” As you hear Twilight say this you think to yourself great I’m just a head…

You open your eyes slowly as you turn to their voices. As you bring them into view you notice Twilight is not facing you only Celestia is. You focus on Celestia; she looks at you and smiles “Twilight why don’t you ask him yourself.” Twilight turns around and see that you're awake.

“Hi Twili…”

You voice is cut off as her hooves wrap around your neck in a tight hug. Your breathing is cut off for a few seconds until you tap her on the back trying to tell her you can’t breathe. Twilight loosens her grip “Sorry sorry, it’s just you fainted when Celestia brought you back and we didn’t know if you would be ok.”

Twilight lets out a little chuckle “How…how are you?”

You think about what she said for a moment, god what’s my faint count? “I feel fine Twilight, why do you ask?”

Twilight looks back to Celestia. Celestia has a very serious face as she starts to talk “As you know Chrysalis used her magic to latch onto you in an attempt to rebuild herself.”

You nod at her comment.

She continues to talk “When I brought you back here you became worse, so I used a spell to stop her from taking over your body.”

You laugh a little “Ok so why do you two look so serious?”

Twilight moves your head that has been resting on her back from when she attacked you with a hug. She brings it into sight and your heart drops. You stare at it for a moment speechless…

“Are you ok?” you ignore Twilights comment as you stare at your…arm.

The skin that use to be on arm has been replaced with fur that matches your old skin color and you hand has been replaced with a hoof.

Your stomach is a bit queasy as you move the sheets that cover your body…”I’m…I’m a pony?!” You look over your body fur, check, hooves, check, fucking tail, check!

You snap back to Celestia “Why!”

Celestia stands unfazed by your loud reaction “I know this must be a shock for you, but this was the only thing that could stop the spell.”

You bring both of your new hands…hooves.. to your face as she continues to try and justify what she has done. You touch your face with your hooves; they feel like hands and not like some animal foot. You mind races as you sit there holding your hooves to your face.

Twilight put her hoof on your chest “Are you ok?” You look at her purple hoof resting on your fur coat, your hair is slightly pushed up around where her hoof rest. You look to Twilight not really know what to say. You bring one of your hooves to her face; you tremble as you place your hoof on her. You don’t know what to make of your new situation and you try to find words that match this confusion “Twilight…I…I don’t know how I should feel.”

Celestia talks again “You should feel happy that you're better and I think over time you will come to accept your new self.”

You listen to Celestia as you look down at the bed. You’re debating on weather you should scream in anger or happiness. You study the blankets as you try to think of something positive to say “Well I guess I don’t need clothes anymore.”

Twilight gives a little giggle and hugs you again “Don’t worry I’ll help you understand this.”

Her warm embrace is nice you close your eyes and hug her back. You give a loud sigh as you hold her. You tell yourself well this isn’t the worst thing that has happened to you today.

Celestia clears her throat loudly; you both break your embrace and look to her as she talks “Well if you’re ok I need to be heading off.”

You shrug “I’m fine.”

She looks to Twilight “Make sure he gets plenty of rest and that he doesn’t try to pull his tail off. If you need me have Spike send a letter.”

Celestia walks towards the doorway and leaves the room.

You look to Twilight as she talks “I’m really sorry this happened.” She looks to you as she waits for a response. You respond “Why are you sorry?” She looks at your arm as she talks “If I had never messed that spell up you never would have had all this happen to you.” You look at her as she messes with your hoof. You think about all that has happened in the few months you have known her. You bring her face up to look at you “Not everything was bad.”You stare at her and smile until she blushes.You continue to talk “Heck maybe this won't be so bad, huh?” Twilight giggles a bit as she gets up from the bed.

You watch as she walks to the door. She turns around and looks at you “I’ll let you get your rest.”

You say goodbye as she walk out of the doorway. You lay in the bed look at your hooves, still just trying to grasp the fact that these things are now yours. You sigh “Well at least I’ll look like everyone else.” You think to yourself for a moment “Everypony else….no everyone.” You give a yawn and start to close your eyes, note to self continue argument with brain when I wake up.

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