Ponyville Neutral

Doctor Lakestar told me to treat this journal as if it were someone I can talk to and tell how my day was, so since I'm following the doctors orders for once by taking you to be my shrink while I'm away from good ol' Lakestar, I guess I should introduce myself and let you know what's going on.

My name is Ambidream. I am a very uninteresting person if you don't count my many personality flaws, which I assume you don't. The only people that seem to want to hear about them are the therapists, but they're all I really have, so as you can imagine, I don't have many friends. I did mention being away from my regular therapist earlier, so I should probably tell you about that.

Right now, I'm at home in Fillydelphia with my parents, but tomorrow I'm moving away from home to Ponyville to start over new. The idea of going someplace where no one knows my name is both frightening and exciting. Exciting because I can be whoever I want to be, make friends, and begin enjoying life as it's meant to be enjoyed. It's frightening because while I am motivated to come out of my shell, I'm terribly afraid that I'm going to let my social anxieties get the best of me.

I really am at a bit of a disadvantage here, though seeing as my social skills are incredibly underwhelming at best. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared to go. What if no one talks to me? What if no one wants to give me a chance? Should I even go? I'm perfectly ok with staying in my room with nothing but my music all day and night and I can do that at home. I could just not get on the train and call to get a refund for the money I put out for the apartment.

No. I'm going. I'm going to make friends and go to social events and be normal for once. I'm really going through with this. (?)