Tales of a Wandering Soul

I felt something brush against my face as I sleep. I was dreaming of flying, supported by thousands and thousands of butterflies. I felt so free. Something continued to brush against my face, I could feel it and it sure wasn't the butterflies that are in my dream. Eventually I had woken up to find myself outside of the tree, but it was hard to wake up. Why? I opened my eyes, the ground still looked dark and I looked up to find that it's the early dawn. The soil under me wasn't covered too much blood, I just want to see Fluttershy one last time before I leave, or maybe I can rest here but I have to find Fluttershy. I need to find her "Flutter...shy?" I look around, but she was no where to be found from where I lied down. It was difficult for me to get up, why is this happening? Why does my body feel heavier? Better yet why do I feel so exhausted? I got up and I looked around, I was searching in the west direction and she wasn't found. Trotting became difficult for me, not just because my hoof was bleeding but because my entire body felt like it was under a rock or a house. I continuously called out to her "Fluttershy... Fluttershy?" but not a single bright part of her was seen, no animals were seen either, scurrying or flying. I felt completely alone.

I wandered around the forest looking for her, I doubt the bandits would be looking for me anyhow and if they were they would be very far ahead of me. "Excuse me... Squirrels?... Owls?" Maybe I was delusional yesterday and it was all a hallucination, I was sure though that Fluttershy was there to help me. I still have that sap on my wound but what was brushing my face when I was sleeping? Maybe it was a squirrel, maybe it was Fluttershys mane, I had to go back to check. I stumbled over large roots and miniature saplings that sometimes littered the ground. Here's where I was, I can tell from how much blood still remains there, "Fluttershy?" I called out but still no answer.

Where could she have gone? "Mr. Squirrel? Mr. Bunny?" Still nothing, I felt alone but I know Fluttershy wouldn't just leave me here, she's the bearer of the Element of Kindness and she takes care of things, i'm sure she's around here somewhere. I'd have to climb the trees though... to find her... All of these trees look very tall and it would be idiotic for me to actually try and climb one. I hear voices but it doesn't sound like Fluttershy, who is this? Maybe it's one of those bandits, maybe it's my guardian angel. I hid behind a tree and I closely listened to the voice as it passes by and gets louder and closer. I could hear the voice talking about the weather and talking about my escape "How could we let a little whelp like that escape?" I saw him pass by the tree and I remained to be un-noticed. He's probably a bandit, he still wears those animal furs like the other bandits do.

I snuck behind him and I grabbed my from the neck and I unsheathed my machete. I began to interrogate him, "Alright... who are you?" "I could ask you the same thing you damned bastard!" "I'm that whelp that you let escape" I never thought approaches like these would actually work like how it did in those books. "Now tell me! Who are you!!" Continuing to threaten him, "Hah, I don't have to tell you. You're going to die here" "Well, look who has the weapon and the other ponies neck! Where am I!! Where's Fluttershy!!" "Oh, you mean that bitch? Hah, hell if I know but her animals are tasty"

What...did he just say? "What did you just say!?!" I was furious and I grabbed his neck with such power at times I could hear him choke but I eased. "Alright, you have one last chance. Where is the nearest road" "What, just so you can run away like another animal? Waiting to be skinned and ki-" I had enough with him, he threw my mind over the edge and I had done something I wish I would have never done. I cut his throat and I ran away as I hear him gargling on his own blood.

I ran away in anger but at the same time, in pain. Pain from having killed one of my own kind. I continued to run, I didn't care where but away from what had just happened, away from the pony I had just killed and away from my own murderous self. Why did I murder him, why did I threaten him? This pain slowly began to consume me and I cried as I ran to the direction of no where. Fluttershy has left me, the animals are gone, and I had just killed somepony. I'm so horrible.

I don't think my parents would've wanted me to do that in the first place, or want their son to grow up like this. "I just want to go home. I just want to go home" I repeatedly say under my breath, my machete having the blood of some other pony. My eyes were covered in tears I didn't know where I was going, I hit tree after tree I felt like I was going to pass out from a concussion. I stopped. What was the point in running? Why was I hitting my head on those trees? I felt like a complete idiot, killing somepony and running away in anger.

I've had enough of it, enough of the anger, enough of the murder, but one thing continued to stay on my mind and that was Fluttershy. "Fluttershy!!" I yelled out crying, "Where are you!" then I broke down crying to myself from what awful things that have happened. I sat there crying for what felt like an eternity. Then I felt something brush against my face again. It felt familiar to what had woken me up this morning, I open my eyes to see that it's a yellow hoof wiping my tears gently.

I look to my right to find that there is a pegasus, a pegasus with pink hair, a yellow coat and her kindness so strong it even warmed my suffering heart. "Fluttershy..." I embraced her and I felt her hooves on my back, "Do you forgive me?" "Yes Fret... I forgive you..." I hear from her sweetly calming voice. So this is what is feels like? This is what Home feels like?