I'M NOT OKAY (I PROMISE)

Alone. It was an odd thing to feel. You have your entire family and plethora of friends, so a normal human grows up thinking, "Loneliness is nothing I'll have to deal with." That was a lie. Loneliness is a thing that can overtake the mightiest of them all. I knew this best. My name, Twilight Sparkle, and I was alone.

I had lost the whole feeling of having company long ago. It started with my brother going to rule an entire empire with his wife. It didn't bother me much, for I still had Spike. He was my assistant and my life-long friend. Sure, I was like his surrogate mother, but still, I knew we had some forum of feeling for each other. But even incestuously odd feelings die like the rest.

Spike was missing. He apparently ran off with some girl named Krystal. They've been looking for him, but nothing has come up.

My friends, five girls who I hold close, are also a cause of my problems. I loved them, but they all are in some forum of relationship or another. Applejack went and got laid in her barn by some Canterlot outcast named Lucky, Rainbow Dash hooked up with Rarity, Fluttershy and Big Macintosh, and Pinkie......well I really didn't know about Pinkie. She started offering something called "Pinkie Pie's Ultra Super Duper Mega-Sweet Ultimate Special Cupcakes!" ever since then, customers have been spending extensive times at Sugarcube Corner, and they've been having a lot of repeat customers.

I sighed at my friends' luck. Nobody wanted the librarian. She just sits there, alone, surrounded by literature and dust. Her pet owl had died, and her family was all off living their lives. She was a hermit. A recluse. A weirdo. A creep. I'd heard it all. I removed my glasses, and stared at the unkempt piles of books around my house. I took a deep, dust-filled, breath, and flung my wide-rimmed glasses across the room. I felt an ever-familiar wave of remorse wash over me.

"I just want to be happy!", I said to the walls, "Is that too much to ask?" I let my tears fall onto the wooden floor, but who would see them?

A knocking on my door snapped me from my floor. "Twilight? You in there? It' Rarity and Rainbow.", an English voice called. I looked to the spot where I flung my glasses, and went to retrieve them. They had landed by a pile of dust-covered books, but upon retrieving them, I was one of the lenses had broken. I put them back on the floor, and went to the door.

"Hey Twilight! How's it going?", Rainbow asked. I muttered something like "good", and invited them inside. Rarity gave a panicked shriek as she walked into the library. Rainbow and I looked at her, fearing that she had hurt herself in some forum. "Good heavens Twilight! This place looks dirtier than last time!", she whined. Rainbow walked over to her, and grabbed her hand. "Uh, babe? That's because it is messier than last time.", she said matter-of-factly.

I slumped onto the age-tortured couch, and threw my hand up. "Yeah! My house is the epitome of horrendous. Please, remind me again!", I shouted. Rarity and Dash were taken aback by my outburst. "Oh Twilight! We didn't mean it like that. In fact, that's the reason why we're here.", Rarity said. "To clean my house?", I asked. "Well, we should wait for the others.", Rainbow replied.

{(x)}

I waited for the rest of my friends to arrive. Apparently they had an intervention of some sorts planned for me. Rainbow was looking around the library, until a loud crunch stopped her weaving around the piles of books. She looked down, and saw my glasses crushed under her blue converse. "Oh my gosh! Twilight! I'm so sorry!", she exclaimed. "Save it. They were already broken.", I said. Rainbow only looked sadly at the glasses. "I still feel bad.", she muttered. Rainbow withdrew her cell phone, and called someone.

The first of the guests didn't arrive for another hour. A loud knock reverberated around the library, and Rarity went to answer it. "Ah! Fluttershy! Big Mac! How ever are you doing?", she happily said. The two looked at each other, not really deciding to talk. "Um, we're fine....", Fluttershy whispered. "Eeyup.", Big Mac Followed.

Fluttershy walked in with a white paper bag in her hands. "Oh, right.", she said to me. She gave me the bag. I opened it, and looked inside. There was a black case sitting under some papers. I withdrew the case, and opened it. There were a pair of red-rimmed glasses sitting on black fabric. "Uh, we had to get the cheapest pair, because Rainbow called us last minute so we didn't really prepare. I hope that's okay with you.", she said.

I placed them on my nose, and managed a week smile. "They're fine. Thank you Fluttershy.", I said. "So Rainbow?" She turned to look at me. "Who else are we waiting on?", I asked. "Pinkie, Applejack, and Lucky.", she responded, turning back around to stare at Rarity's butt as she picked up some old books.

Another rapid succession of knocks drew our attention back to the library's door. Mac went and opened it, and looked at an empty porch. "Uh, hello?", he said to the air. Suddenly, a pink-haired physical manifestation of ADHD popped her head down from the top of the door frame. "HELLO EVERYBODY!", she shouted. Big Mac jumped back a little at her sudden appearance.

"Did somebody call for an intervention? 'Cause I never leave home without my Intervention Cannon!", she shouted, as she presented a large, dangerous-looking, scoped rifle. "Uh, Pinkie, there wasn't a really good reason to bring a gun to this.", Rainbow remarked. Pinkie pouted as he flipped off of the door fame. "Aw man! This thing is heavy!", she said. She threw it aside, and a loud bang came from the destination of impact. "Whoops! Thought I took the real bullets out of it!" Pinkie happily skipped inside, and proceded to sit next to me on the couch.

She looked around the library, and folded her arms like she was stumped. "Where's Applejack and Lucky?", she asked, "I expected them to beat me here." Rainbow rolled her eyes, and crossed her arms. "If I know those two, they're probably busy fucking in the barn as usual.", she remarked. Big Mac stiffened up, and Rarity went over and pinched her cheek grandma-style. "Ow! Ow! Ow! Okay, okay! I'm sorry!", she screamed in pain. Rarity let go of her, and kissed the pinched area.

The atmosphere lighted up a little, and everybody shared in an awkward laugh. The laugh was cut short by yet anoter knock on the door. "Ah! That must be them.", Rarity said. She went to open the door. Standing outside was the final couple that we were waiting for. They were hunched over and panting. The smell of their body odour permeated inside the house, and they couldn't speak.

"We......were......I....we...", Applejack panted. "We slept in.", Lucky croaked. Rarity only stepped back, and let the two in. "Hey Twi!", Applejack said. I only looked at them in worry. "Do you two need a drink or something?", I asked. "Water sounds nice!", Lucky exclaimed through pants.

I went into the kitchen, and took two cups out of the sink. They had little grime on them, so they would suffice. I went to the refrigerator, and tried to use the automatic water dispenser. Much to my shock, no water came out. "That's odd.", I said to the fridge. I went to the sink to see if any water would come out of the tap. Then I lifted the handle, no water spewed forth. I put the cups back in the sink, and walked back to the living room, head hanging in shame.

"Well?", Rainbow asked when she noticed my empty hands. "They....they cut off my water.", I said to the crowd. They all looked at me in sympathy, and Rarity went up and hugged me. "Now now, darling. It's okay. This is why we're here in the first place.", she said in a hushed voice.

"Yeah", Rainbow added, "You can't keep living like this!"

"Piles of books lying around, no water, dirty dishes, and no job?", Pinkie chimed in.

"It hurts to see you like this!", Applejack exclaimed.

"So, um, that's why we want you to stay with one of us for a while.", Fluttershy mumbled.

I looked up at my five friends. I didn't know what to say; what to feel. "Uh, wow guys. That's really sweet and all, but I just don't know.", I said to my five expectant friends. Rainbow let off an angry sigh. "Bullshit Twilight! You can't live in a house with no water! You ARE living with me and Rares for a while. No question, no buts, no complaining!", she shouted, "Go pack your things!"

I only nodded, and walked up to my room.

{(x)}

The crowd of people only cast a mix of glances on Rainbow. She shifted under the sudden pressure. "What? What's so interesting all of a sudden?", she asked the staring crowd. "Well, let's see. You just yelled at a broken girl who we're trying to help with no hesitation, and invited her to stay with Little Miss Perfect and Little Miss Libido.", Applejack said to Rainbow. Rainbow rubbed her head in defeat. "Oh yeah, sorry.", she apologized.

I came downstairs with a small bag of necessities. "I'm ready to go, Rainbow.", I said looking at my floor. Rainbow came up and hugged my shoulders, and guided me to the door. "Cool! Let's get going!"

We walked out of the library as a group, and I took a final glance back at it. The oak tree that it was built into was rotting. All of it's leaves have long since abandon its branches. The windows were dirt-filled, and broken in some spots. The balcony was drooping dangerously low, and the door was filled with termites. It was in sad, sad shape, and I never wanted to go back to that place again.

"Come on, Twi. You're gonna be okay now. I swear.", Rainbow whispered in my ear. I couldn't help but not believe her. "Rainbow Dash, I'm not okay. I promise. And I'm not sure that there's much you can do to help."

Author's Note

For those of you who don't know (or who haven't played Modern Warfare 2), the gun pictured is a Cheytech M200 Intervention sniper rifle.

I will try to make every chapter title to be a song name. You know...just cause.