Disclaimer: Icemoonbankai and I own absolutely nothing except this really twisted idea…

(STILL TRIGGER WARNING. But, you should also prepare for unexpected feelings. Because what isn’t a MLP fanfiction without a few feels? )

Mine
Chapter Three: Pulling the Invisible Rein (You don’t know me!)

I never understood why you didn’t like me so much, or at least appeared to.

It wasn’t so bad at first; you just teased me a lot. You even did it in front of Rainbow, who liked to tease me too.

But when Rainbow wasn’t around…you got meaner…and meaner.

Even my former bullies became bothered by it.

I wanted to tell my parents or at least a teacher, but you soon found out that I wanted to.

That was the first day that Rainbow began to ignore me.

The Griffon crawled over the now terrified girl, straddling her hips with both hands and looking down with a mixture of rage and that same unidentifiable emotion.

"You think you know me? Bitch, you don't know anything!" A hard slap suddenly connected with Fluttershy's face, sending the girl’s head snapping to the left. She struggled to lift her head back up…

SMACK!

Another.

SMACK! SMACK!

And another. This was different than all the other times, much too different for Fluttershy’s comfort. It was rule number one of this arrangement as far as she knew: never hit Fluttershy in the face or any part of the body that could be seen. It would leave a mark, something that all the cosmetic powder could not cover without being noticed and Gilda didn't want people asking questions that the timid pegasus couldn't answer without appearing suspicious.

This time, however, all bets were off.

"I'm in charge here, I'm in control!" she snarled in the other’s face, her body shaking and causing the Pegasus’s body to tremble with her. It sounded like Gilda was reassuring herself more than anything at this point, trying to convince herself that she truly was in control, and she didn’t lose any dominance over the situation.

SMACK!

SMACK!

The Pegasus now clutched her reddened cheek, trying not to cry or show any weakness. The swelling indicated an appearing bruise, and she knew she'd have to pin the blame on one of her animal friends, no matter how much that would hurt her heart to do so. But with an injury right to the face, she couldn’t explain that she ‘fell’ or ‘bumped her head into something’, no matter how naturally klutzy she was.

"G-Gilda...p-please...please stop-AH!" another smack stopped the pleading girl dead in her tracks, her head slapping back into the wooden floor. Her poor scalp was definitely going to hurt in the morning…

"Dammit, shut up!! I'm in control; you don't have the right to tell me what to do!! Do you hear me!?" Gilda snarled, shaking

Fluttershy violently with both hands on her bony shoulders, practically banging her body against the cold ground. Despite the physical beating she was being put through, the pink haired girl managed to turn towards her abuser once more.

"G-Gilda..."

Fluttershy spoke up again, eyes half lidded in pain before she slowly reached a hand out, touching the now bewildered woman's cheek, causing her to freeze. "...You're...You're better then this..." she whispered, before shakily lifting her head up and forcing herself to press her lips softly against the tensed up Griffon's, if only to calm her down. She wasn’t sure why she was doing this, why she figured this would be the best way to soothe the angry Griffon, it was just the only thing that she could think of. She didn't She just hoped it would work, because she didn't know if she could survive an even madder Gilda. The girl squinted her eyes shut, continuing to press the chaste kiss on Gilda’s mouth, a thick silence filling the room.

No more smacks, no violent biting of her lips…

Just silence…which was soon broken by a soft strangled sound, causing the Pegasus to immediately pull away, keeping her eyes shut and waiting for more violence to fall upon her.

But it never came.

Fluttershy soon felt wetness on her cheeks, and soon realized that it was not coming from her. Slowly and shakily, she opened one eye…only to see her tormentor close to sobbing, a reddened flush on her tan cheeks.

"W-why did you do that? You... You're supposed to hate me! I hurt you, and you definitely don't kiss me afterward! Not like that! Dammit….fucking hell! Y-you're not allowed to be that good!" the distraught woman yelled, continuing to hover over the girl as warm salty tears dripped from the Griffon’s eyes and chin to Fluttershy’s cheeks and lips. The Pegasus could only stare in surprise at the woman, before lifting her upper body up.

"Why does it upset you that much? I-I just wanted you to calm down!" Fluttershy raised her voice, wanting her words to strike a mark as she watched those golden irises glance away, almost nervously.

"Because I'm not supposed to want you to do it again," she said so softly that the girl beneath her almost didn't hear.

….What did she say?

"....S-Sorry?" Fluttershy blinked, unable to process what she just heard.

"You fucking heard me, you're not deaf..." the Griffon muttered in shame, turning her head with a growl and roughly wiping at her tear stained face. "You hate me, right? I-I fucking hurt you...I..I like hurting you! I treated your stupid friends like shit....fucking hell, I made you cry!"

"...You've made me cry lots of times....it doesn't mean I hate you," Fluttershy shakily mumbled, unsure herself. Did she honestly not hate her as much as she thought? She certainly didn't like her...but hate was such a strong word.

"That's not the point, you idiot! Fucking hell..you're too fucking nice...."
The pink haired girl could only watch Gilda continue to wipe her face hard, biting down on her lip before reaching her trembling hands up, gently coaxing the Griffon’s face back towards her and softly wiping the tears away. To her surprise, Gilda allowed her, though a look of flustered irritation and embarrassment went over her expression.

"You're not the only person who's ever made me cry. Dashie does all the time, even when she doesn’t realize it… but I still lo-" she cut off with a blush, looking away and pulling her hands back to her sides. The Griffon looked at her with shock, which soon switched to annoyance and another emotion…which looked rather similar to jealousy.

"Were you just gonna say what think you were gonna say? That's fucking masochistic right there. No wonder you don't hate me for hurting you, it fucking gets you off! Fuck, I knew you were a freak, but…" Gilda shook her head, muttering a soft ‘Can’t believe you still like her…’ right afterward.

"I'm not a masochist! It's none of your business, anyway." Fluttershy yelped, a flush going over her cheeks. She was suddenly aware of the fact that the tan woman was still very much on top of her.

"Actually, I'd say it's exactly my business," The Griffon raked her nails across the girl's stomach, leaving welts to show as an example, “Or have I not been fucking you for years?”

It didn't help Fluttershy's case when she arched her back into the painful touch. She wasn’t a masochist, no…that would be just awful. But, something about the way Gilda handling her…part of her liked it while hating it at the same time.

"Just so you know, I don't forgive you for anything, I can’t forgive you for anything. You…You’ve done nothing but hurt me since we were kids and got Rainbow to leave with you. You're…You’re an awful person. You just... Something made you this way, and I can't hate you for that," the pegasus clarified, running a hand over the red marks to see if there was any blood. Gilda just stared at her as if Fluttershy grew three heads within that time span of the rant.

"Tch, I am who I am...." the tan woman muttered, continuing to hover over the girl and lean in closer, "So then, little princess, let me ask you a question since we’re on the subject . If you don't get off to pain, then why do you like it when I fuck you? And you do, don’t even try to deny that you do. No, here’s a better question. If you had any chance with her, which you really don’t, would you let Dash do this?"

"Rainbow would never-"

"But would you LET her?" The Griffon prompted, eyes slightly swollen from the few tears. Fluttershy shakily
whimpered...before silently shaking her head.

"N-No...I would never let her hurt me like this.”

“Even if it was just for sex?”

“No…I would refuse to let her do this to me.”

"....But you let me do it, and you...fuck, you LIKE it," Gilda laughed, almost in a deranged and bitter fashion. Fluttershy gulped again, trying to think of the words to say without making things worse for her.

"...You...can make it feel good...." Yup, perfect choice of words right there.

“….Say what?”

"Well!!! ... I mean, it just... I don't..." the Griffon wasn't sure how to respond other than stare at the girl once more.

Of course she never wanted to physically hurt the girl, at least not severely. Gilda knew damn well how much of a bitch she was, and she knew that she could curse out the girl beneath her and cause scratches and bruises all over her body without even batting an eye. But actually severely harming her? No, she couldn’t do that. For one thing, she would get caught…and then probably would get her ass kicked by a certain rainbow Pegasus. When it came to sex, Gilda knew she could force
Fluttershy to like it, knowing exactly where to touch and how to precisely tease. However, when it came to willingly liking it, that was another story. She hadn't realized that the things she did felt good for Fluttershy too.
The thought made a smirk come to her face.

"I don't like it, per say, but on the other hand, it's not so bad. I…I’m an adult… It is sex, after all. I...I'm not that in control of my body," Fluttershy bit her lip. ‘Though, I would have wanted my first time to be special…’ she thought to herself, hiding sadness from her expression.

"Heh, I guess so. Hey, have you ever had sex with anyone else?" Gilda twirled a piece of pink hair between two fingers, thoughtfully staring down at the girl. The Griffon had a lot of casual sex before Fluttershy, wanting to explore her body as soon as she was old enough to do so. However, none of it was quite as stimulating as the Pegasus she always found ‘annoying but with a pretty face’.

"I-I....no...I-I was always nervous about the concept..." Fluttershy stuttered out, feeling herself blush at the strands of hair being played with and the cocky smirk stretched across Gilda's features, "I...when I was in school, I would always skip Health Class because I was so embarrassed about it...m-my friend Rarity would have to look for me."

"I see..." Gilda hummed in response, taking her eyes off the girl for the moment, glancing at the small book shelf in the corner, "...Yet you read a fuck ton of romance novels. ...Really crappy ones too."

".....S-Some of them have good plots."

"Yeah, okay," The Griffon said in a sarcastic manner which was coupled with a chuckle, "So...I was your first."

"...Y-Yes."

"Even kissing?" The smirk became a full out grin. Fluttershy turned a beet red, before averting her gaze.

"Y-Yes...even kissing…” she felt a tinge of annoyance seep through her body, ‘You would know about it…you took my first kiss.’

"Good. I don't like the idea of... sharing," the woman frowned. When it came to Fluttershy, the thought of her actually being with anyone thoroughly bothered her. Hell, the very image of Dash and Fluttershy actually getting together sent her into a full-out rage. Not only would that take away her (former) best friend, but Fluttershy….Fluttershy was….

"I'm n-not yours!" the girl weakly protested, her body heating up from the prolonged contact of their bodies.

"Aren't you? Who are you waiting for, princess? A white knight in shining armor? Or perhaps a rainbow-colored guardian angel? Which one of those can give you this? Let me tell you, this doesn't happen in the storybooks," Gilda emphasized her point by grinding against the Pegasus using her hips, who moaned at the teasing touch.

"A-Ah!"

"You see what I mean?" Gilda lowly purred, slowly pulling her hips away from the trembling girl, "Only I could do that for you...and I'm certainly no white knight. If anything...." a pair of smirking lips pressed against Fluttershy's delicate ear, causing the other to gasp, "I would be the villain..."

"G-Gilda...." she managed to moan, desperate to find the courage to defend herself.

"Tell me I'm wrong..."

"I...." and Fluttershy couldn't. Because, even without realizing it, something deep inside the young girl reluctantly agreed.

‘This is something I can’t win…because if I tried, I would be lying.’
"What do you want, princess? You want me, don't you? I can see it every time I touch you, that need in your eyes. Just say the words, say you want me more than anything else." The hunger in the Griffon's eyes affected Fluttershy, making her head spin.

"Yes," the timid girl whispered.

"Yes...what?" The Griffon prompted once again, and Fluttershy shakily closed her eyes.

"I-I want you...I...I want you..." she gasped out, causing a massively sharp increase in Gilda's ego.

'Who's the lame one now, Dash...?' she thought with a grin, pushing against the girl once again for added measure, a shiver going down her spine once she heard that cute little gasp.

Gilda had cornered me a week before my ninth birthday, overhearing two boys make fun of me for reading one of those fairytale books that my Mother got me. It had to do with true love’s first kiss, and they were telling me that they would be my “princes” and take it from me.

Gilda told them to leave me alone. I thought it was because she was protecting me…

Until she pushed me against the wall and kissed me herself. I don’t remember if I cried afterward, but I remembered her laughing a lot…

After that, Gilda never looked at me the same way again, there was something else in those eyes of hers…

And it scared me.

-End of Chapter Three: Pulling the Invisible Rein (You don’t know me!)-

Author's Note

Feels. That really is all to say about this chapter. Don't go thinking this is going to turn into a mushy romantic thing, though...Fluttershy's just a girl with needs...and probably a LITTLE bit of Stockholm Syndrome. Just a smidge, though. Also...I always liked the idea that Gilda did actually like Fluttershy a little bit and covered it up by being an absolutely jerk towards her...though now she's just a monster and it doesn't excuse any of her previous or future behavior. Anyway, hope you enjoyed! The 'smut' should be coming back next chapter!