Worthless

by sweetsongthepony

Rating: teen
Tags: Sad, Bon-Bon, Slice of Life, Lyra, Gore, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Length: 1022

Ever since her PFF, Lyra died, Bon-Bon has been feeling worthless

Ever since her PFF, Lyra died, Bon-Bon has been feeling worthless. She has discovered that without Lyra, she is worthless. She is been ridded of all things happy, laughter, fun, she has nothing. Her life is falling apart, and now all she can do is cry. Will Bon-Bon ever find happiness again?
*rating is teen because of violence and thoughts of suicide you may read if you know what suicide is.

Published 2013-02-07 00:30:01 UTC
Last updated 2013-02-07 00:30:01 UTC

Prologue

My best friend, Lyra is my life. I hadn't noticed that until... it happened. Why did she have to die? Why did she have to go off on a quest to save ponyville? Why her of all ponies? Some question stay unanswered, leaving the pony wondering---wondering until its doom. But why? Yet another question left unanswered.

Why, it's a simple question that is not answered, never will be. I always thought tragedies were simply just these questions- the why. I never thought that I, myself would be asking quite a simple question. Once tragedy strikes, you know the reason to the simple question why. Why, to me is something you say when something bothers you so much you can't say anything but why.

Lyra is still with me in my imagination. Imagination- just saying that word makes me cringe. Lyra, I keep this journal for the curious pony to know well... why. Please, Lyra tell me why you had to battle the rising evil, why you had to sacrifice your life, why you didn't realize how much I would be in pain. Lyra, I need you, you're my life. I wish I would've known that before you died, then I would've tried harder to stop you. Why did our friendship distract me from seeing that our friendship is my life? I don't know if you know Lyra, but I'm starting to cry.

Cry, I cried for days. You saved ponyville, but destroyed me. You defeated my happiness how could I forgive you? I know it was for the best, but without you I am worthless. So I keep this journal in memory of you, for ponies to remember you. This is only the prologue and I am in tears already. Don't worry my friend, the tears don't hurt anymore. I'm used to crying.

I thought about adopting another friend, but who could replace you? Now I am filled with hate, sorrow, depression. All I can think about is you, hoping you think about me too. Hoping you remember me, hoping I am not lost. Lyra please find me, make my day. Oh how I wish there was a spell to bring ponies back to life. I would make Twilight do it as soon as possible. Lyra please remember me, please think about me, please find me. You are my only friend. You're my only hope. I better stop writing now, before I cry so hard I dehydrate and die. Well actually I wouldn't mind that. Dying means I'll be with you.

Author's Note

No hate comments please, I know it sucks!

Worthless

Worthless. Without you I feel worthless, like I have no place in this world, no place in equestria. I've had thoughts about suicide. Suicide, to be with you. You, only a dream, a vision now. It's like you never existed, in this world. World, what a cruel world. All I yearn is to be with you, you're my dream, my vision. You gave me a place in this world and now ever since you've passed, I am worthless. Worthless, with no place, what a cruel world now. All I want is you. You- you're my wish, my hope, my hunger. You're the one who gave me a place in this world, cruel world.

You were killed, sacrificed. To save ponyville. But why oh why did it have to be you? Did you volunteer, even though you knew it would break my heart, cause me pain? Or did you not know? I don't know anything anymore, exept that I'm worthless, with no place. I'm lost, with no finder, like a lock with no key. You, you Lyra are my finder are my key. Now, you're gone, lost and I am a puzzle left unsolved.

The puzzle of your death, why was it you? Why couldn't it be any other pony, anypony besides you? Why? I have no clue about anything besides you, the dream, the hope, the wish, being worthless, having no place. All I have is hate, sorrow. Nopony like you will ever come along.

I am ridden of happiness- laughter, fun. I can not replace you, nor have another friend at all. I don't even want a special somepony anymore. All I want is to be alone. Alone, with not a soul but you. To hear the gentle sounds of your lyre again to capture them forever. Forever, you shall be mine. Even if your soul does not exist in the mortal world.

They say everypony has their time, but I always thought we would die together. Together, I wish it was forever. I want to die soon, but not suicide. Suicide, brings too many rumors. Word gets around quick, suicide gives you an unwanted place.

A place, that's all I need. A place to live, a place to breathe. Memories, they stir inside me, each one a stab in the heart. I want those memories to be added to, the memories of us. Us we stood together, never separating. Ever since we met you've been by my side. I never took those memories for granite, until now. I yearn for you to be by my side again, to make more memories, memories that won't cause pain.

Pain, all I feel is pain. Without you around, pain swarms my body. I remember the good days, now they are my wish, my dream. The dream, to see you once more to say a proper goodbye. We always said that when one of us died the other would be there.

There, I wish I was there with you. It was a unicorn only mission, but you didn't have to go. You did it for me, you did it for ponyville, you did it for the best. I wish we died together, then we would be together, together forever. You were my only friend, and when you lose a friend you lose yourself. My heart, crushed the day I heard the news. Now I am worthless with no place in this world, cruel, cruel world.

Author's Note

No hate comments please I know, it sucks!