Promise
Waiting, watching, her standing there with a horrified face. Filled with pain and disappointment. I tried not to go completely insane. She looked at me hard and powerful. This way,I thought I was more powerful. Why couldn't I have been more powerful? Stronger? More.. more ..loved?
Why couldn't she just understand?
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My mistake of trying to get her attention hurt so much. Knowing I basically threw my life away then. Being away for 1,000 years seemed like forever. It went by so slow.Lonely, restless nights. So cold. Her eyes so cold, digging into mine. The memories came flashing to my mind. I screamed. Next thing I knew I heard her galloping to my small room. The room I had before I was banished. She ran in without knocking.
She saw me laying there,hooves to head. She sighed and came gently walking up to me. She closed her eyes and lay next to me on my blue bed. She opened her eyes to look at the bright yellow stars printed on the sheets."Are you alright,princess?" She quietly asked me. Her eyes wondering else where.
"Sister.." I quietly said to her wondering of what she was thinking. She looked at me,eyes still so cold.Her hoof caressed my cheek. "Yes, my beautiful princess?"She answered. "Why did you banish me?" My wondering voiced trailed. Yet she smiled at me and said "Listen dear Luna, surely there is no other pony, so lovely and beloved as you. "Her smile faded and her eyes wondered off again.
"Luna I love you more than you know." She tried looking at me again. "My thoughts failed and I ended up yelling at her. "Why!?" I repeated non stop. "WHY? Why? Why? why?.. why..? ..... why ..." My voice trailed off again as tears raced down my cheeks. "Why do you care so much for that filly? Huh? I'm your filly! Not her!" I hit her chest vigorously.
"I understand, Luna. " She finally said. "No you don't!!!" I pushed her away. "I'm sorry,Luna.No one...absolutely no one can replace you Luna, you're my most Favorited filly in the whole wide world! I love you more than more than the Sun" Her eyes became teary." I am just using Twilight for work."She tried to comfort me.
"No you don't! And what work? WORK??? YOU DON'T WORK? YOU GET YOUR STUPID GUARD AND PEOPLE TO DO YOUR WORK AND TAKE THE GEMS AND GOLD THEY WORK HARD FOR!!! "I was then standing on the bed above her." L-Luna.." She tried to calm me down. "I may love Twilight,but no one,no pony could ever compare.I take letters from her to note." Celestia was so honest. "I read them to try to be a better sister!" OK that caught me off guard.
"I tried so hard...not to go completely insane,dear sister" She got up and stood off the bed." I put my trust in you for all this" She said pulling me down." I tried too hard.... " I tried reminding her."I wrote you so many letters!" I actually did want her to know what pain she made me go though. "I'm a monster aren't I?" Her eyes widened. "What..? No you aren't! You are my little princess!" Her eyes still teary. My eyes went blurry as I shut them, " Then why did you hate me?!!!" My heart...burnt....
"T-the reason is..." Celestia started.I stared at her waiting. "I-I'm so sorry to say but..the ponies would get so scared and panic!" There it was. Now she was the one waiting. "I couldn't let them go crazy, I didn't understand then."She continued. "So..you banished me because of the ponies? "I honestly had a hard time controlling myself, yet I did sound kinda calm.. "If they found out there would be no day, they would freak!" Celestia cracked a smile. "I'm sorry it had to be like that." She looked at me. I knew it would never be OK.
"Letters?" Tia asked under her breath. Her eyes were so wide. I nodded and opened my eyes and looked into hers. "I-i didn't receive any letters..?" She sounded heartfelt. "I wrote one everyday for 637 days.Then I knew you would never write back. I finally confessed. "Oh Luna..I am so sorry!" She hugged me. My tears rolled onto her back. She shivered from my coldness, she was so warm. I can't explain what happened. Who knew anger, fear, love could be so dang controlling. "I-i love you sissy Tia" I managed to choke out. For finally telling me.
Hugging her right now yet I feel so...distant...so...far away... I love her so much.
My dear sister.
My dear princess.
My queen.
I couldn't ever resist being away from her. "Luna?"She asked me gently. "Yes sissy Tia? "I replied as my eyes opened, tear filled, blurry. "I will never ever ever leave your side, OK?" I felt a smile stretch across my face.
"You promise?"
"I promise"
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I love her.
I love her so much.
That promise changed everything.
That night changed everything.
Probably since I was confident with her.
The word promise made me smile.
Making me think back to that moment when
me and my big sister promised never to part.
And I am happy to admit I get along with Twilight Sparkle now.
She also made me so happy!
Twilight,now is one of my best friends!
Admitting to me and why I need to let go of being scared.
My elated life.
I may look sad but inside I'm so happy.
Smiling,playing,with my big sister.
Seeing her,she looks so exited to see me smiling again.
My life,no longer a lie.
My screams fade.
My calls for help trail off.
My restless nights over.
She smiling at me is what I had missed most of all.
My nights now filled with endless wonder.
"I promise"
~Fin~
