"Rainbow! Snap out of it!" The doctor almost screamed trying to break her out of her panic. She continued to just flail and shriek as time passed. Almost an hour later she started to come down from her panic attack just trembling, scared out of her mind. As the hours slipped by her panic finally subsided, she could only cry.

"Rainbow... It's okay, you are safe... We are here" The young dragon spoke.

After a long silence she spoke "I- I- I need a h- hug" The mutilated mare whimpered.

Without hesitation she felt herself wrapped in the arms of the dragon. "It's okay, we're here... I'm here" nothing was said for a long time, finally, trying to regain what little dignity she had left Rainbow pushed her away.

"I- I'm fine... I'll be alright..." She said

"You sure?" The doctor asked sounding far from convinced.

"I'm FINE!" she said not even believing herself.

"Okay. Are you hungry?"

She sighed and hung her head. "I'm a monster..."

"Now why would you go say that Rainbow?" Rachel asked.

"I want something" She paused "Alive..." There was an audible cringe in the air.

"Like... like a mouse or something?" The dragon inquired.

"Yeah. That would work" She said sounding ashamed of herself.

"Hey, it's alright okay? You don't have to be ashamed." The doctor said

She could hear one of them leave, it sounded like the dragon. She re-entered a few moments later with a loud squeaking. "I found one" she said

"Y- You guys can go..." She mumbled feeling horrid

"Go on doctor. I'll stay with her." The dragon said in a trembling voice.

"Alright. Call me if you need me" He left, sounding a little rushed as if he wanted to be as far away as possible.

Rainbow slowly lowered her front legs off the bed, working up the strength to stand. It took a minute but she was upright. "There... give me the thing."

The dragon drew close shrieks coming from the trapped mouse. she reached out for Rainbow's hoof placing the mouse in it her hand trembling a bit.

"Are you sure you want to be here?" She asked

"Y- Yes R- Rainbow. do what you have to" she replied

With that she slammed her hoof down, the squeaking stopped. She could feel Rachel shaking a bit. She laid down, feeling her way around the bloody corpse. After a while she dived on it taking the ruined mouse in shredding bone and flesh alike with her filed teeth. She eventually swallowed feeling sickly satisfied and guilty at the same time. There was a long silence. "When you are forced to have something so many times... you start to get addicted to it." She said trying to justify her blood lust.

"Here. Let me clean all that blood off you." She replied drawing close sounding a bit scared.

"Alright.... Thank you" She said as the dragon brought a cloth to her face.

The door opened and she jumped. She felt like something was wrong, like Rachel was communicating silently with someone.

"Wh- What? Who is it?"

"Just me Rainbow" The doctor replied making her jump, his voice sounding grim.

"Wh- What's wrong?" She asked nervously

"Well.... How do i put this..." he replied

Starting to get worried she asked "I- Is it my kids?"

"No... No.... It's you." He replied gravely

"What's wrong with me?"

"Your kidneys quitting, they are shutting down... you are effectively dying inside out"

She was quiet a long time. "How long do i have then?"

He sighed "Well... unless i cut you open and remove a bunch of things, probably wire you up... Maybe a week?"

Her head dropped and she cried bitterly "I don't want to die, not after all this."

"I don't plan on letting you. you just have to trust me." He said sounding only about 70% sure of himself.

"What do I have to do?" she cried.

"Stay alive."

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A day passed. Rainbow lay on her side on the hospital bed, trembling a bit.

"Okay. Now we have another problem" He said sounding like he was thinking out loud.

"Wh- What is it?" She asked just waiting to get told something horrible.

"Every time I put you out you ether wake up screaming or just don't wake up."

"Wh- What are you trying to say?" She said not really wanting to know the answer.

"Well. We COULD do all this with you... Awake." He replied as if he was just throwing it out there.

"You want to cut me open and tear things out of me... with me awake?" She questioned sounding horrified wondering if he was completely serious.

"Well it is ether that or nightmare land for a few hours." He replied flatly.

She just laid there quietly for a few minutes weighing her options. "Fine. Cut me open, I can deal with it." she said.

"Are you sure?" He asked

"Just shut up and do it! Before I change my mind."

"Take this." He said giving her something feeling like a block of wood.

"What is this?"

"Something to bite down on."

"come on Rainbow. you got this. you can do it. what would your friends think if you chickened out now? She thought about it for a moment longer and placed the object in her mouth.

"R- ready when you are" He breathed.

She nodded slowly. Bracing herself for the pain.

"Stay still alright?" She only had a second to absorb the command before she felt the blade of a knife enter her body. She screamed out, her teeth digging into her piece of wood. Everything became a blur. There was nothing but white hot fire from the entire length belly and the pain in her jaw, the taste of wood in her mouth. She wasn't aware of what was happening or even how long it had been happening. She became aware of something resting along the back of her spine and some sort of mechanical humming. She could feel three warm fleshy things coming out and two cold metal things going in. It was getting to be too much, she was feeling like she was going to black out. She could feel a hot torch being brought along the edges of the wound then a needle going in and out, strong cord pulling her mutilated body back together. He finished up and the agony very slowly began to die from world ending pain to just life shattering.

"Th- There. Done. How are you holding up?" He asked

She didn't reply and just whimpered.

"It's okay. You are okay." As he was talking she felt something heavy set next to her and a strong jolt from her side. Around this point her mind gave out. Nothing got into or out of her head except the searing pain as she stared off into the void of her blindness.

Author's Note

hazza! i live. although not how i was expecting. an update for those who care, i now live on my own with a room mate and work a full time job to hold my house (not an apartment) down. so yeah. that accounts for the last month. i am honestly going to do my damnedest to get this done in a more reasonable time frame but money is tight right now and i work 9 hours a day that being said this was finished in one day of writing and editing so there isn't THAT much of an excuse. anyway, i hope to have something new by the end of the week (Saturday depending on your time zone)