//-------------------------------------------------------// when love is lost -by when-love-is-lost- //-------------------------------------------------------// //-------------------------------------------------------// The journal //-------------------------------------------------------// The journal AUTHOR'S NOTE: this is my first fanfic so if it sucks go easy on me. ALSO, the first chapter is slow until the romance so yeah sorry about that. Love can be a very difficult feeling to understand. It use to confuse me, but now I get it. I wish I had the courage to go back and tell her how much I loved her, but now, I'm just a coward. I guess I'll tell you everything that has happened..... BEFORE~ Rainbow Dash had just had her birthday and had flown up to a cloud to take her nap like always. She layed down on the soft, plush, cloud and slowly closed her eyes and fell into a deep sleep. "Rainbow Dash." Called a quiet voice. "um...Rainbow Dash...." the voice repeated again. Rainbow Dash awoke and saw Fluttershy. "Wha....what is it Fluttershy?" Rainbow Dash said in an exhausted voice. Fluttershy swept over to Rainbow Dash's view, she help up a journal into Rainbow Dash's face. Rainbow Dash sat up and cleared her vision. "What is that?" she said. "Why It's a journal that you can write in, such as how your day was, poetry, and letters." Fluttershy squealed in excitement as she waited for Rainbow Dash's reaction. Rainbow Dash stared puzzled at the journal. "I don't understand, Fluttershy. Why would I need a journal?" "Well I just thought that...um...well...you get angry a lot...so you could...I don't know....express your feelings...." Fluttershy hide her face behind her mane, embarrassed. Rainbow Dash did want to express her emotions but secretly, she decided to take the journal. "Here, give me the journal." Fluttershy nodded and handed Rainbow Dash the journal. Fluttershy smiled at Rainbow Dash for accepting her gift and went back to her cottage. Rainbow Dash flew back to her cloud house and fell asleep. THE NEXT DAY~ Rainbow Dash woke up early in the morning. She looked at her desk that had the journal on top of it. Rainbow Dash rolled her eyes and then flew out of her cloud house to do her weather duties. Fluttershy~ She woke up early as usually and went to her animal friends. She fed all the animals and then went back inside her cottage to eat her breakfast with angel. "Oh angel, don't you love mornings like this?" Fluttershy stared at the morning sky in awe. Angel rolled his eyes and went back to eating his carrots and honey.  Fluttershy finished her breakfast and went outside for a morning stroll. Rainbow Dash~ Rainbow Dash, exhausted from the heat, set out to take a nap on a cloud. She couldn't find the extra cloud that she left for her, it must have been accidently kicked by a weather pony. Rainbow Dash was close to Fluttershy's cottage so she decided to go and ask Fluttershy if she could go and rest there. Rainbow Dash stood by door of Fluttershy's cottage. *KNOCK*  *KNOCK* "hello? Fluttershy, you home?" Said Rainbow Dash. Fluttershy was just coming back from her stroll when she saw Rainbow Dash knocking on her door. "Rainbow Dash, what do you need?" Fluttershy said in a confused voice. "Oh there you are, Fluttershy. Can I take a nap at your place?" Rainbow Dash said. "Oh....um...sure....why did you come here though?" Fluttershy said in a concerned voice. "Well I was exhausted and your house was closer to where I was so now I'm here." She said and added  a smile at the end of her sentence. Fluttershy welcomed Rainbow Dash into her home and showed her to her bedroom, angel followed as always. "You can sleep in my bed if that's comfortable enough for you." Fluttershy said in her calm voice. Rainbow Dash jumped on the bed, "Thanks Flutters", she leaned against the wooden frame of the bed. "Well I hope you have a good nap." Fluttershy said with a smile. All the sudden, Angel came into the room, he looked at Fluttershy, then at Rainbow Dash, he smirked. He walked over to Fluttershy and pushed her as hard as he could, causing her to fall toward Rainbow Dash. "WOAH!" yelled Fluttershy as she fell. Fluttershy crashed into Rainbow Dash. both laying on top of each other, shocked. Fluttershy's face pressed into Rainbow Dash's neck. Rainbow Dash blushing like crazy. Fluttershy sat up quickly and got off of Rainbow Dash. "OH MY! I'm so sorry!" Fluttershy exclaimed. She was blushing like crazy and couldn't stop. "Um...I'm g-going to g-g-go now...." Rainbow Dash stuttered. Without a response Rainbow Dash ran out of Fluttershy's cottage. Fluttershy just stood there in shock. NIGHT~ Fluttershy lay on top her bed, thinking. So many thoughts racing through her mind about the recent incident. She didn't know what to do next time she saw Rainbow Dash. "Maybe I can avoid Rainbow Dash?" She thought.  Fluttershy slowly closed her eyes and finally fell into a deep sleep. Meanwhile, Rainbow Dash could barely sleep. She paced around her cloud house floor. "AH! how could this happen! now I look like an idiot!" She yelled to herself. Rainbow Dash kicked her cloud house wall. "It's gonna be so weird when I'm around her now!" She thought to herself. Rainbow walked to the desk that had the journal on it. She sighed and then opened up the journal. She grasped a pencil in her mouth and began to write. "It was an accident but why do I not feel fine I sit here wondering and trying to rhyme I need more time just to think or else I'll be the only one left to the brink." "There." said Rainbow Dash.  She yawned and climbed into bed, trying to forget about the incident.