Starting Over 3: Return Of Spectra

by CrystalHero97

Chapter V - Mental Conflict

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Spectra was flying from the Everfree Forest heading home. It was midnight and he could barely see anything through the darkness. Eventually, he found his floating cloud house. He quietly sneaked into his bedroom and saw Rainbow's sleeping form. He exited the room and went inside Rose's bedroom. He saw Rose sleeping soundly in her bed. He smiled and went back to his bedroom. He flew out the window and landed on the cloud he and Luna meet up at. He fully expected to see the princess of the night, but she wasn't there.

'She must still be heartbroken about Star Burst. I wish I could help her, but I can't be Star Burst AND Spectra Speed.'

He didn't want to admit it, but Spectra felt bad about being the reincarnation of Luna's dead coltfriend. He continued to lie there for a while.

"Spectra?! Spectra, my man?! Where are ya, buddy?!"

Spectra's eyes snapped open at the familiar voice.

'No. Bucking. Way.'

Spectra rolled over and looked down to the ground. He could barely see anything. He flew down closer to the ground and spotted a unicorn. Spectra couldn't believe it.

'It can't be. There's no way. No bucking way!'

The unicorn smiled and walked up to Spectra.

"Spectra! My man, it has been a long time."

Spectra shook his head and rubbed his eyes.

"Ed? Is that you?"

Ed nodded. "Yeah, man. Manehatten changed in the past 7 years. More ponies and more crime. I couldn't handle it any more. So, I moved here. Although, I don't have a house of my own just yet. How you doing?"

Spectra shrugged but was still in shock.

"I'm doing great. I have a family, a fortune, a home and friends."

Spectra twitched. Ed chuckled. "Still doin' that?"

Spectra nodded. Ed looked up at the cloud house.

"A family, huh? I'd love to meet 'em, but I have a favour to ask. I need a place to bunk. Ya know a place I can crash?"

Spectra snapped out of his shock and accepted the fact that his old customer was here.

"Ummm....I have a few idea's. But I'll have to run it by them first."

Ed nodded. "Well, is there an immediate place I can crash for the night?"

Spectra put a hoof to his chin and nodded.

"I think. Wait here. I need to leave a note."

Spectra flew up to his house and wrote a note for Rainbow. He flew back outside and landed next to Ed.

"Alright, follow me."

Ed nodded and followed Spectra. They arrived at Vinyl's club. Spectra knocked furiously on the door.

"Hold on! I'm comin'!"

The doors opened and Vinyl stepped out. Her mane was even more of a mess then normal. She gave Spectra an annoyed glare.

"What, Spectra?"

Spectra gestured to Ed. "He needs a place to sleep for the night. Don't worry, you can trust him. I knew him back in Manehatten."

Ed stepped forward. "Please, miss. I only need to stay a night. I'll be gone in the mornin'."

Vinyl looked to Spectra, then Ed. She groaned and nodded.

"Sure. Just no funny business. I have a wife, by the way. So don't try any thing."

Vinyl walked back inside the club. Spectra turned to Ed, who had a look of defeat on his face.

"All the good ones are taken."

Spectra laughed and patted him on the back.

"Ah, you'll find somepony. Look at me. I got married, man. If I can get there, you can to. Night, Ed."

Spectra turned and flew off for home. Ed waved after him.

"Night, man!"

Spectra flew off towards home. Ed walked into the club and looked around. The place was massive! He followed Vinyl to the back of the stage. She opened a door to what Ed suspected was the guest room.

"Me and Octavia are right across."

She pointed to the door opposite side of the stage.

"If ya have any troubles we're over there. Night....I didn't catch your name."

Ed bowed. "Edward, but I prefer Ed. I didn't get your name either, miss. Spectra is a terrible introducer."

Vinyl laughed. "Yeah. The names Vinyl. Night Ed."

Ed waved. "Night, Vinyl."

The two unicorns walked into their rooms and crawled into their beds.

Spectra arrived home and went straight to his room. He found the book Nitro had given him and took it into the lounge room and began reading the rest of it. And he found that what Luna and Discord said was true. Each individual has a unique power. It is impossible to have the same power as somepony else.

"Unless you reincarnated yourself."

Spectra closed the book and gently banged his head on top of it. He let his head rest there.

"Why do I have to be the reincarnation of an ancient Pegasus warrior coltfriend?"

Spectra didn't notice Rainbow had woken up and was now in the room. His head remained on the book.

"Why me? Why do I have to be Star Burst? I feel like me, not him!"

Spectra lifted his head and banged it several more times.

"I. AM. SPECTRA. SPEED!"

The final bang was loud. Spectra started sobbing. He was in mental conflict with himself. Rainbow walked up to him and gave him a hug. Spectra looked up at Rainbow and stared at her, before hugging her back. She didn't want to ask him what was wrong. Not yet. She would ask him tommorow. She walked back to the bedroom with Spectra behind. He had tear stains in his coat beneath his eyes. She frowned at the sight of him like this. They crawled into bed and fell asleep without another word.

-----The Next Day-----

Spectra woke up and saw that Rainbow wasn't in bed with him. He didn't want to wake up. He didn't want to get out of bed. He felt terrible. He knew that he was Spectra and not Star Burst, but he couldn't help but feel that deep down, he was Star Burst. He slowly got out of bed and walked out of his room and into the kitchen. Rose walked up to him with a cheery smile.

"Morning, daddy!"

Spectra nodded his head in acknowledgement and kept walking. Rose looked at her father with sadness.

"What did I do?"

Spectra shook his head and looked back at Rose. He looked terrible.

"Nothing, sweetheart. I'm....I'm just confused right now."

Rainbow walked up to Spectra.

"What were you talking about last night? Something about Luna's coltfriend Star Burst?"

Spectra nodded and realized he hadn't told his friends about this. He looked to Rainbow.

"Gather your friends. I need to tell you something. Something very important."

Rainbow nodded and flew off towards Twilights library. Spectra sat down on the couch and held his head in his hooves. Rose sat down next to him and hugged him. Spectra smiled and returned the hug. About 5 minutes later, Spectra hears Rainbow's voice.

"Spectra! Come on out!"

Spectra got up with Rose and flew out the window. He landed on the hill and stood before Rainbow and the rest of Spectra's friends.

"I...I have something to tell you all. This is really important and it's been destroying my sanity."

Spectra took a deep breath and looked back up to the group.

"You see, when Star Burst died, he cast a reincarnation spell. Which means he was brought back to life as another pony."

Everypony but Rainbow looked happy. Rarity smiled.

"What's so bad about that, darling?"

AJ took a step forward.

"Yeah? What's so bad about Star bein' alive again?"

Spectra shook his head and felt a massive head ache over take him.

"It's bad because....he was reincarnated into me. I'm Star Burst."

Everypony suddenly looked shocked. Spectra nodded. Tears were falling from his face.

"And that small fact, is slowly ruining my mind. Who am I, really? Am I Star, or Spectra? I don't know!"

Spectra held his head in frustration. His eyes faintly glowing a dark shade of red. Rainbow noticed this.

"Spectra! Don't get too angry about it!"

Spectra looked up at Rainbow with anger and faint dark red eyes.

"Don't get angry? HOW CAN I NOT!?"

Spectra's eyes glowed dark red.

"HOW CAN I NOT BE ANGRY ABOUT THIS!? MY ENTIRE EXISTENCE IS A LIE! I WAS NEVER SPECTRA SPEED, I'VE ALWAYS BEEN STAR BURST!"

Rainbow walked up to him and gave him a hug.

"You are not, and never will be Star Burst as long as you choose to be Spectra Speed!"

Dark-Red's eyes flickered back to normal. Rainbow continued holding him.

"You will always be Spectra Speed to me, and you will always be Daddy to Rose."

Spectra calmed down and just returned Rainbow's hug. Everypony walked up to Spectra and gave him a hug to. He was Spectra Speed. But he still couldn't shake the fact that he was also Star Burst. Everypony pulled away and Spectra stood up.

"Thanks, girls. I don't know what I would do without you."

Rainbow laughed. "You wouldn't be very happy without your friends and family now, would you?"

Spectra lightly chuckled. "Yeah, I guess."

"Come on, Derpy!"

Everypony looked to the sound of the new voice. A brown stallion with a brown mane and tail and a cutie mark of an hourglass was running past the group, with Derpy following behind.

"Coming, Doctor! Oh! Hi, Spectra! Bye, Spectra!"

Derpy called out as she chased after the Doctor. He looked behind him.

"We have to get to the TARDIS! Allons-y!"

The duo ran past the group, leaving them dumbstruck. Rainbow broke the silence.

"Lets never speak of this again, agreed?"

Everypony nodded and said the same thing at the same time.

"Agreed."

Twilight looked to Spectra.

"You have a lesson to get to, today! Better go get ready."

Spectra nodded and flew up to the cloud house. He ran to his room and grabbed the book on Alicorn magic. He had to return it to Nitro. Spectra turned around and flew out the window towards Twilights library. When he got there, he walked inside and spotted Nitro Pressure reading 3 books at once. He looked up from his reading.

"Ah, Spectra. Good evening. Do you have my book?"

Spectra nodded and held the book out. Nitro jumped up and grabbed the book.

"Did you find out anything interesting?"

Spectra frowned and nodded.

"Let Twilight tell you. I'll head upstairs to study."

Nitro nodded and continued his reading. Spectra flew upstairs and into the room he studies in. He sat down and continued reading the book he left there. A few minutes pass and Nitro walks inside the room with a sad look. Neither of the ponies speak as he sits down. He looks at Spectra for a bit before sighing.

"That kind of news doesn't come around everyday, ya know. Reincarnation spells. You know those are so ancient that-"

"That they are undocumented and all copies have been burned during the absence of Princess Luna and during Nightmare Moons imprisonment due to the fact that anypony could cast it on another and kill them instantly therefore increasing death rates in Equestria?"

Spectra looked back down to his book and continued writing, leaving Nitro Pressure in shock. Nitro laughed and sighed.

"You really are one with history, aren't you?"

Spectra continued writing and reading.

"Yeah, considering I am part of history."

Nitro frowned and sighed again.

"You are not Star Burst, you hear me?"

"No but somewhere deep inside me he is there."

"Maybe, but as long as you think and talk of your own accord, you still are Spectra Speed. Fastest pegasus alive and the most unstoppable force in Equestria."

Spectra laughed. "What makes you think I'm unstoppable?"

"Well, not you specifically. Dark-Red is."

Spectra stopped writing and looked up to Nitro.

"What do you mean?"

Nitro looked at Spectra weirdly.

"You don't know? Dark-Red's power is literally unlimited. He can be as powerful as he wants. There's no limit."

Spectra didn't know this. Spectra nodded and looked back down to his work.

"Good to know."

Nitro got up and walked up to Spectra.

"Look, my friend..."

No twitch. Spectra has never befriended somepony so fast before.

"....always remember that you have friends that are always willing to help you. You have many friends, and I envy you of that fact. I myself never had friends. Feel lucky."

Nitro headed for the door.

"I'm your friend."

Nitro stopped walking and turned to Spectra, he had a smile on his face.

"Right?"

Nitro smiled back and nodded.

"Right."

Nitro turned back around and exited the room. Spectra chuckled lightly and continued his work.

An hour later, Spectra exited the room and said goodbye to Twilight, Spike and Nitro. He headed home and greeted anypony who was awake. It was night time, Spectra had over studied. Not that Twilight minded. When he arrived at home, he noticed that somepony was on a cloud near his home. He flew up and sighed when he saw who it was.

"Oh, hey Luna."

Luna smiled weirdly at Spectra. Almost creepy.

"Hello, Spectra."

Spectra gave her a weird look, but lied down next to her.

"I have found a solution to your problem, Spectra."

Spectra looked to her with an excited look.

"You found a way to get Star Burst out of me?"

Luna cackled like a madmare. Spectra didn't like this.

"Oh, I cannot do that. You are Star Burst. I can't remove him, because he's right here!"

She gestured to Spectra. She stood up and loomed over Spectra wearing a creepy smile.

"No, I have a spell that will help you. It's even better then getting Star Burst out."

Spectra was creeped out a lot by this point. He got up and tried flying off, but Luna held him in her magic. She cackled even louder. She lowered her horn to his head and a bright light came from his head.

When the light cleared, Spectra looked around.

"Where am I?"

He looked up and saw Luna looking down at him with a curious look.

"Luna? Is that you?"

Luna nodded. "Yes, it is me. Is that you, Spectra?"

Spectra gave her a weird look.

"You don't recognize your own coltfriend? It's me, Star Burst!"

(Authors Note: LUNA IS GETTING IN DEEP TROUBLE NOW. Oh and yeah, there is a reason I added Doctor Whooves in this.)

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