An Inner Desire

Nurse Redhearth House, early evening

Francis was returning at home after the end of the turn and for having lunch: while he was eating, Redhearth showed up, sat down and said

“So, Francis, did the chem worked? “

“Of course yes ! You didn't saw how not only he wasn't crying or anything, but he was HAPPY ?

Anyway, did someone bothered you with that silly questions about your life with me? ”

“Yes... unlucky, they are so annoying : I mean, I became famous for THIS?”

Francis laughed

“Now I'm waiting the gossip in response  to this radio silence about our relationship: it will be bloody hilarious”

“Yes, I already imagine it: “Nurse Redhearth sleeps with the human! New creature incoming?” or “The sweat of the humans could cure everything?””, Redhearth laughed.

Some time later, Francis was searching something to eat in the Redhearth's fridge, but didn't found anything of edible: hay and parasitic grass where everywhere, there weren't anything that Francis could eat, not even a vegetable, thus used again part of his K ration and wrote on a piece of paper :

“Buy some mushrooms and carrots: I cannot eat the grass”; then he went to bed, before noticing a piece of paper over the closet...

Francis grapped it and saw what was: it was a text, it said :

“Due the fact that the active principle of the medicament is almost illegal, the supplies of that mix   of pharmas will be limited and scarce: for now, we will use a cheaper and more legal mix.

Your savior Nurse Redhearth”

Francis let down the paper shocked : the active principle without side effects for stop psychopaths was illegal, and that was needed it for stop him, he started to worry, until he remembered that there was still a stock in the basement, thus he relaxed, changed his clothes, launched over the bed and had a hard sleep.

The Next Day, on the streets of Ponyville

Applebloom was hanging around the town with one of her leg strapped to the body : after the cruelty act of Francis, she was forced to limping for a month with one of her leg unusable.

To add the insult to the injury, Pipsqueak, who passed under the scalpel of the human the day before, said that what she told wasn't true, at all; and Applebloom feared for her reputation.

Appelbloom started to argue about the topic :

“So, you are telling me that he isn't a blood lust freak, but a kind creature? Are you sure that he didn't took off part of your brain ?”

“Of course! He didn't punished me for having peed on his shoulder...”

“Maybe because it's a fear reaction, and know that needs to dirty his hands for gain the  emotion of the fear ? “

“It can be, but... he  was nice with me! I mean, if Francis is a monster, then he would not rewarded me for begin brave! I mean...”

“Something tells me that Francis has preferences... I want to find out why there were so different behaviors between my operation and yours... “

“How about coming with me this afternoon to see his explanation? It might be interesting !”

“I would decline in a normal circumstances, but I am too much curious for do so”, then Applebloom headed for her usual friends, and started to organize their routine for today, this included the arrival of all the three at the clinic after having another round-up at the clubhouse.

In Clinic, Early Afternoon

Francis was very busy : between a mare who seemed the pony counterpart of the mother with the  Transferred Munchhausen Syndrome met two days before and clusters of hyperactive foals who were almost unstoppable and stuffs like that, he didn't even heard the door knocking.

Francis ignored the knock, until, annoyed, he opened the door: all expected but see the waiting room void and Appelbloom, Pipsqueak and other two fillies in front of him.

Francis asked “What do you desire from me? And how did you drove off that horde ?”

Pipsqueak said “Nothing of special: just telling them that you were busy elsewhere and thus they needed to go to Nurse Redhearth instead.

Anyway, we came here for asking some questions...”

“You took me in the worst moment: could not you came later ? Anyway, speak up”

“Well, it's about your difference of handling between Appelbloom and me: she told me that she was operated awake and opened everywhere on the body: care to explain why?”

Francis sighed: it was the moment to tell them why he wanted to cut open the young lings.

He cleared his throat and said

“The reason: it's hard to tell. In short, I have two different behaviors: one is the one that you seeing : sane and kind, this personality is the default one; but when I am in a medical context with foals involved, then my second personality shows up: it's sadistic, rude and very snitch.

I didn't lost my medical license mostly because I had a special kind of medicines stopping me to act in a bad way and had the logic as backup for my sane part; but here, a dream, my logic falls, and only the primitive emotions stands against the split personality and no medicines were available.

When I operated Applebloom, my split personality was on, and, as you know, damaged her.

When I operated Pipsqueak, I took a mix of chemicals replicating the effects of the “medicines”, thus, stopping me from hurting.”

“It's just unfair! For a mix of chem, I almost lost a leg!”said Applebloom with an angry tone

“You would be still hanging around with a leg strapped to your body anyway, but you would not need to change the bends over the chest. Plus, I'm really sorry for what I have done to you, Applebloom”

Applebloom said nothing about it, and went away angry, saying

“See you later....”

Francis said “I guess that's concludes our talking: now let me go back to work”, the group went away without protesting.

Two weeks later, Clinic's Radiology Waiting room

Diamond Tiara was shocked by the news coming that day: from the results of the x-rays took , the reason behind her... “wet secret” and her smell in the last days, was quite.. weird : she had the most of her intestine full of poo, and this caused a compression of her bladder, who could not keep in the urine, whatever was the condition....

The whole thing alone was embarrassing, but the cause was even more, luckily, no one was going to know it: in the same day she was going to have the “brown rock” extracted from his intestine and free to return to her usual hybris.

Nurse Redhearht went near her and said :

“A sphincter of steel, uhu? Pity that damaged your bladder, don't worry, thought: the mass will be extracted soon”

Then some steps where heard: they didn't seemed a pony walking... they seemed more a walk of a two-legged creature, Diamond Tiara rotated her head, and saw who was : he was Francis, topic of discussion in the pas days by the other classmates: he didn't seemed so much terrifying, nor seemed even a medic!

Diamond Tiara grinned a bit before saying :

“I hope you rember the duty of profession secret: I don't want to tell you what could happen to you if you broke it...”

“I already know, now, before we start...”

Francis's Perspective

“I need to drink something”, Francis asked for the glass of medicines, drunk it and...

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He felt a cold in his in mind, he let the glass shatter on the floor  and heard the mind stalkers : their voice wasn't anymore low and scratching... no, it was loud and terrifying.

“Thanks a lot Francis, you have empowered me....” they said

“What? How?”

“Nurse Redhearth gave you the same drugs taken by the viking berserk, and that powered me!”

“No! It cannot be real ! It cannot be real!”: that were the last words of his logical part before falling in the shadows.

Francis asked to Nurse Redhearth “What composition is this ? It powered up my split personality! I cannot..stop...”, then Francis launched over Diamond Tiara and throw her on the operation bed.

The mind stalkers didn't even asked kindly to do something like before: they simply acted without any permission by his sane part.

The stalkers talked “Now, Miss Crap Tiara, I will saw through your flesh!”

The hand took a scalpel, and charged the lower  torso of Diamond Tiara, for then open it horizontally: she screamed of pain and kicked left and right around the air, in hope to stop him, but in vain.

The next thing that the split personality did was taking eight needle and placing them in the spaces between the fingers, for then jumping over the filly: she tried to crawl away, but she wasn't enough fast, and mind stalkers managed to some drain blood and part of the poo: the whole thing was disgusting for the sane part, but he could not act, and he was forced to see how his split personality was spending its time.

The action of the needles kept going for ten minutes, then the mind stalkers, bored, took a scalpel and said :

“I don't think that you need that white thread connected to the bladder...”, then it cut out the nerve, causing a massive backlash of pain on Diamond Tiara, who was crying like a little baby.

“And that, and this! And this one too!”: every sentence was a thread cut, until nothing controlled anymore the bladder, at that point, a river of urine united with blood went everywhere in the room.

As final act, the split personality said “And now the grand finale.... did you pooped in the last days? No? Then I need to CUT IT!”, and the mind stalkers passed the scalpel in the sphincter, and did a vertically cut all along it: at that point, the sane part closed his eyes and tried to forgot what was going on. The only thing that remembered was the split personality cutting all over the filly's body.

When finally the mix wore down, what was left was a disaster: Diamond Tiara seemed a mass of grinded meat, body fluids of every kind flooded the floor and Francis looked like a butcher.

Francis, again sane, took thread and needle and patiently stitched up Diamond Tiara, who groaned of pain at every point made.

When he placed the last bend around her, she stood crying desperately, thus, no contact was possible, so Francis simply picked her up.

When he exited from the operation room, Francis let down Diamond Tiara, and said to the father :

“I'm sorry, but due... complications, your daughter now is incontinent and needs to wear diapers, day and night: I hope that  you could handle such a situation. Dr. Francis close report”

Then he left the room quick as possible for changing his clothes.

Some time later, in the Nurse Redhearth's house, Francis asked :

“Alright, Redhearht, I know that wasn't your fault, but...can you please explain me how you could take the chemical with THE OPPOSITE EFFECT?”

“I'm sorry Francis, but that was the economic system...”

Francis widened his eyes in surprise and said “De La Fia ! Change part of the composition, and you will have a radical change of effect.”

“I see"

"By the way, where you got that? What was the composition of the effective mix?”

“I don't rember very well, but surely we cannot gain the elements.”

“Alright...”, Francis shook his head, prepared his spartan dinner and went to bed with sense of guilty for what he done in the afternoon.

At the Elementary School, the next day

Diamond Tiara could not believe it : she, the finest filly of Ponyville, forced to wear diapers like a one year old filly, non-stop, IN FRONT OF OTHERS.

She tried to wear a long dress for hide it, but failed: the father didn't hesitated to give to the teacher the change in front of everyone, IN A TRANSPARENT SACK !

What was in was recognizable by everyone: a big pack of diapers, labeled unmercifully “Frilly Diapers”.

The rage against her father of Diamond Tiara was so big that she messed herself without even noticing.

When she did so, someone pointed out the smell, and everyone watched Diamond Tiara, then they started to call her names, like “filthy rich and diapered” and “money pooer”.

Fed up by the behavior of everyone and desperate to an incredible degree, Diamond Tiara tore off the diaper and launched it over the crow: the act of desperation wasn't watched well by both her father and the teacher.

Then Diamond Tiara broke off in an inharmonious chant, loosely based on “Fortuna Pango Vulnera” :

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“I was once the respected

the nine piece of this classmates

But when a mad men

cut off

my control of my sphincter

And I started to wore diapers

I fall

But, blank flanks and poor over me

beware from the fall

because in the luck's wheel

on the axis is wrote

“Hecubam Reina!”

The singing didn't stopped the teacher from expelling her from the class, but at least she let the wrath steam pass through.

The same day, Nurse Redhearth's house

Francis felt incredibly annoyed and more snitch than the normal: the chemical mix took the day before forced his mind a state of total incoscience about his acts, and thus, damaging in a unfix-able way the life of a young ling; Francis thought that he could do something for avoid it, but he didn't know what he could POSSIBILY do for avoid that damage: he felt simply in the mood for blaming himself.

Around midday, someone knocked the door of the house: Francis said

“Who is?”

“I am Filthy Rich, father of Diamond Tiara, and wants to discuss about the events of yesterday...”

“Go on”, Filthy Rich entered in the house with a look of superiority, who caused repulsion to Francis.

The stallion said “I hope you have a good lawyer, because I will sue against you”

“For what? Attempted foalcide under effects of hallucinatory substances? Do you know that the chemical mix who caused the breakdown was made of TOTALLY LEGAL SUBSTANCES?”

“Yes: you still tried to kill her, if it wasn't for Nurse Redhearth...”

“You are wrong, sir : the mix caused a berserk, I cutted her everywhere without control, then it wore off and could act normally: that's how happened”

“My daughter says the opposite”

“The fillies and the foals can construct a fake memory, if you ask them frequently the same thing, and it's the case of your daughter”

“It isn't the truth! My little jewel is honest, how dare you say that she is a liar?”

“I'm not saying that she is a liar: I'm saying that you should take the info carefully.”

“And still that doesn’t justify your acts: we will see soon!”

“Yes, in tribunal, with your pride in a body bag”, the last phrase seemed the soft part of the stallion, who said

“HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT? DO YOU WITH YOUR ARE DEALING WITH?”

“No, and honestly, I don't care”

“PITIFUL ALIEN! YOU CAME HERE TO HUNT DOWN EVERY YOUNLING HERE AND SHAPING IT AS YOU LIKE!”

“Or maybe I am your karma punishment: you are so pride that a cosmic force said “Enough” and sent me to humiliate you and your daughter with a painful and embarrassing problem”

“BETTER BE PRIDE THAN A SADISTIC  BEGIN !”

“If you grew with the blind, you will be blind, and so, in a world where everyone is, to some degree, sadistic , you begin one”

“You didn't justified! You are just worsening your situation!”

“Funny thing: I'm classified as “Borderline insane”, guess what does it means...”

“Nothing!”

“Nope, it means that it will be a lower punishment than the one received by a sane one doing the same thing.”

“You are playing with the fire.. be careful to do not take a burn...”

“Well, good luck trying to execute me for doing something to your daughter....”, Filthy Rich went away smashing the door: in the process, two pieces of wall fall down.

Some time later, Nurse Redhearht returned from the turn, and asked to Francis why two pieces of wall were missing, and Francis explained the whole conversation with Filthy Rich, when he finished, Redhearth said :

“I knew it: if you touch Diamond Tiara, her father will try to execute you in every possible way.”

“I see, anyway, any news about the medicines ?”

“Yes, a new chem mix had been found: this time is more powerful, thus no mental breakdown if taken.”

Francis nodded and went in the kitchen for doing some tea.

Meanwhile, out the Elementary School

“Hey, now how does it feels begin the target instead of the executioner, money pooer ?” said Applebloom to Diamond Tiara, who tasted her own medicine that morning.

The pink diapered filly answered

“You won't say the same thing if you had passed through what I passed !”

“I passed that experience, and it wasn't pleasant, but I can tell one thing for sure: you deserved it: your past deeds and pride sent you to this fate: a slow, painful moral death.”

“Well, I guess that he gave you anesthetic, like every medic does with a blank flank”

“Nope Diamond: I was fully awake, and felt the pain in all its power.”

“Are you sure that pain wasn't when Francis gave you the tranquilizer? I know that you are soo terrified by the needles that you could exaggerated the pain caused to a needle to incredible degrees.”

“Diamond, stop begin proud of yourself and accept defeat: you lost your status of sacred cow and you fell in the “common people” mud “

“I'm not still part of the ο πολλοί !”

“The what?”

Diamond Tiara sneezed of pride and said

“Something of too much refined for you...”, before, ironically, wetting herself.

Ten minutes later, Diamond Tiara returned home, still angry for the events of that day, she ran in her room and sat down on her bed and rated about how the last events were unfair to her eyes :

“Francis... damn you... you damaged me...for no reason at.. no reason.. at.... all”

The rating continued for a long time, until the father come in and said

“What's the problem, jewel? Are you in anger for that mean doctor ?”

“Yes! It's not fair! A worthless filly wasn't hurt at all, while I need to pass under this humiliaton !”

“Don't worry, soon he will pay for his deeds”

“How ? I mean....”

“I will use a cause against him: he will lose the possbility of act as medic for the rest of his days...”

“That's a relief...”, she sighed.