“…Tia…why did you never take on a lover before me?”

Celestia looked up from the scroll she had been reading, taking off her reading glasses before opening her mouth to speak, “That is a very difficult question to answer my Twilight.”

“Could you try,” asked Twilight, giving her the most adorable pleading eyes.

Celestia smiled at that, “very well, I will try.”

She got up then, moving over to sit down next to Twilight on the bed, wrapping her up in a comforting wing before speaking once more. “I had many reasons for why I never took a lover before you, many of which seem trivial now, but I shall tell you of them. The first reason was because in the beginning, I felt I was too young for such things long ago, so I didn’t bother with trying to seek a mate. When I became older, my life became filled with many responsibilities, so my second reason was because I was too busy to look for one. The third however happened after my sister Luna was banished, for after that happened I…I made myself believe I deserved no love…wishing to punish myself for what I had done to my sister.”

Twilight stayed silent as she mulled over this information, leaning against her lover as she thought it all over. Of course she knew of Celestia’s guilt, something she knew Celestia still held deep within herself. But she would figure it out later, for now she had more questions. “I see, then…why me?”

Celestia took a moment to restrain herself from scolding Twilight, for she knew the origins of that question. “Twilight, while I may never understand your self doubt when it comes to your beauty, I know I cannot change your mind with words, but I will try. The reason why I chose you, my dear Twilight Sparkle, is because you are the only pony who has ever attracted me beyond the physical sense.”

Twilight looked baffled by this statement, “what…but princess, surely there had to be others who you found attractive…right?”

“Oh there were ponies I found attractive,” said Celestia plainly, “but they only attracted me physically. Not once, in all the years I have lived, has a pony intellectually or emotionally attracted me, except for you. Something about you, your mind, your heart, everything about you, it speaks to me in ways I never thought possible, and I am thankful for it.”

This caused Twilight to smile, and she showed her appreciation for that smile by nuzzling into her lover’s coat, before freezing as Celestia spoke again. “And now for a question of my own, why did you fall for me?”

Twilight took a moment to collect her thoughts, and then looked up at Celestia, glaring at the princess as she spoke. “What reason do you need that I have not already stated, you are the most beautiful mare in all of Equestria, your beauty only being outshone by your intelligence and the love you hold for every one of your subjects. You are wise beyond measure, you raise the fucking sun into the sky each and every day, and set it each night, and it also helps that I am into big mares…”

“Are you calling me fat,” asked Celestia playfully.

“No, I’m calling you healthy, cause to be perfectly honest, I prefer for my mare to have some meat on their bones, rather than them being stick figures, for it shows me they know how to take care of themselves.”

“Some would say I need some exercise, especially Luna, she says I could do with losing some weight, especially in regards to my rump.”

“But then I would lose my ass pillow,” said Twilight playfully, causing the solar monarch to laugh long and hard, before she finally calmed down.

“I’ll concede to that,” said Celestia, “for I have to admit, there is something simply…reassuring when I wake up to find you resting comfortably with your head on my rump. But now to more serious matters, I am happy to know why you love me, but I have just one more question.”

“And what is that princess?”

“I want to know how you became so…knowledgeable in the ways of sex, for I am pretty sure you couldn’t have learned all that in school.”

This caused Twilight to blush, the younger mare gulping a little before she was able to get up the nerve to speak. “We…well you see princess, as you know my talent is magic, and during one my um…late night study sessions I may have stumbled across a few books involving se…se….sex magic…”

Celestia raised a surprised and intrigued eyebrow, “continue.”

“I um…” started Twilight, “I figured it wouldn’t be um…appropriate to try and get help in learning the spells from my teachers, so I…I decided to learn them myself, kind of a private project.”

“And how old were you when you started this?”

“16.”

Celestia’s eyes widened at that, and then something clicked inside her head, “So that explains…”

“Why I would sometimes arrive to our lessons looking so flustered…yeah,” said Twilight. “I will admit, I nearly lost my mind after I found those spells, for they opened up a whole nother side of myself I had only…briefly explored before. But anyways, it was during that period I not only explored sex magic, I also started exploring beyond sex magic, going over the broader fields of sex and self-pleasure, which eventually led me to Fuedra’s sex shop, which is where Death Petal taught me the Futa Spell.”

“Remind me to give that mare a commendation for rendering an invaluable service to the crown.”

Twilight laughed, “I’ll try and remember, but anyways. It was after I went to the sex shop that I started to do…some of the more kinky things in regards to sex, especially the stuff I did during our lessons, and it because of all of that that I am so…knowledgeable, as you say.”

Celestia nodded, “well, that explains a lot, especially in regards to what you keep doing to me in public.”

“Oh no, that particular kink I developed on my own, I don’t know why…but something about doing those kinds of things in a public setting, or under the nose of those around you, is really fucking exhilarating.”

“Yes, but there are days were you take it just a bit too far.”

“Which is why we have the safe word.”

Celestia nodded, and then leaned close to Twilight’s ear. “So, do you want to fool around a bit, before my meeting with the nobles gets under way?”

“Of course, especially seeing as how I have something new I want to try.”

“Oooh, I like the sound of this,” said Celestia, getting herself ready on the bed as Twilight dimmed the lights.

Twilight got into position on the bed, her eyes glancing over her princess before she spoke to her. “Alright my dear student, for this session I need you to close your eyes, for I only want you to rely on you sense of touch this time.”

Celestia nodded, closing her eyes and immediately feeling Twilight begin to touch her with her magic. She always loved it when Twilight would due this, because it served two purposes, one was to relax her, and the other was to excite her. But as the magic started to work deeper into her muscles, she felt something slippery and wet being to slither along her coat, causing her to crack an eye open to see what was going on.

The moment she caught site of what was touching her though, her eyes popped wide open, taking in the site of Twilight with tendrils sprouting from her back, and a disappointed expression on her face.

“Tia…”

“Banana, BANANA!”

The moment the words left her lips Twilight sprang into action, the lights coming back on as she dispelled the tendrils, before she moved over to wrap up her shivering mate in a hug.

“Shh,” said Twilight, “shh Tia its ok, its ok, just tell me what’s wrong?”

It took her a while, for the experience had shaken her greatly, but eventually she was able to gulp down her fears and speak. “I…I’m sorry Twilight, I know you were probably looking…looking forward to seeing how those worked…but I have had really bad experience with creatures who had…similar appendages.”

“…Where,” asked Twilight.

“In Tartarus…my sister had taken me there…to show me the dark things inside…”

“Shh,” said Twilight, hugging her mate all the tighter. “I’m sorry my Tia, I should have asked you before trying that particular game…I shall be more mindful in the future. For now though, do you wish to take a break?”

“N…no, your…your touch will calm me down, just do something normal…ok?”

“Ok,” said Twilight, before beginning to slowly guiding Celestia into a comfortable position and beginning a massage.

As she worked her hooves over Celestia’s back, she marveled that this was the 3rd time that Celestia had been forced to use her safe word, for very little seemed to freak out the princess. The first time, it had been when they had first tried out the wing straps, for Celestia, like Rainbow Dash, loved to fly, and not having access to her wings was very foreign to the older mare, like Twilight without her magic, but she had gotten comfortable with it eventually. The second time was when they had tried using a blindfold, which had proved very disastrous, causing them to switch to Celestia just closing her eyes.

“Now we can add tentacles to the list of things never to do again,” thought Twilight, finishing the massage before leaning over and whispering into her mares ear, “you ready?”

Celestia nodded, and then groaned as Twilight began to nibble along her body, rolling onto her back to give her stallion better access. But as Twilight nibbled, Celestia made the mistake of closing her eyes again, and was once more beset upon by the horrific images of her past, causing her to shiver in fear.

“Twilight….stop…”

Twilight looked up, her eyes softening as she let go of the spot her mouth had latched onto, instead moving so that she was sitting beside the princess. “That bad huh?”

“Y…yes…” said Celestia.

“You want to talk about it?”

Celestia shook her head, instead opting to roll back onto her stomach and wrap herself around Twilight, the younger mare getting the hint and draping her neck across the back of Celestia’s own. “It’s ok Tia, your safe with me.”

Celestia nodded, but in the back of her mind, she knew even her mate couldn’t keep her safe from that thing. For deep within the halls of Tartarus, in the lowest level of that hell, lay the soul of her aunt Discordia, trapped forever…and hungering for revenge.

Author's Note

Before anybody says anything, yes, Celestia's safe word is Banana, I thought it would be ironic due to the whole do you like banana's thing. Anyways, once again, no clop, for I felt this chapter was kind of heavy, plus I also dropped a tiny indicator as to why Celestia believes Discordia is dead, due to her seeing her effigy in Tartarus (more on that in Discordian Society). But beside that, hope you all enjoyed the chapter, and as always if you have any questions or comments, please feel free to drop them on by, you know I love hearing from you guys.