Diagnosis ''rewrite''

My name is Sam Richards.

If you are reading this it means I finally have been able to free myself from the "nightmare" that had plagued my life.

I wrote this to make sure that these events will never be forgotten, although that seems unlikely because it was such a widespread event, but still this had to be written down.

Of course you know about the events that happened 20 years ago when the portal opened and Earth and Equestria first met.

You may think, What has that to do with this?, and my answer is, ''EVERYTHING!''.

Now I was only three years old at the time and I didn't know just how much this event would impact my life, but I can tell you that when I did, everything I thought I knew would change forever.

This story is of my life, or more precisely of my afterlife.

You should know that I am no one special, At least that is what I thought.

I am your everyday average person who spends his entire day playing video games when I am not at work or wasting his day sleeping.

I am one meter eighty nine long, have brown hair, and I am generally lazy as hell as you might already have figured out.

Of course that all changed that one fateful day.

It all started on my 23e birthday, when I was diagnosed with cancer, WORST BIRTHDAY EVER!

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March 10th 2013.

Doctor Cross office.

I was sitting in the office of doctor Cross. The doctor who had been on my case for the last several weeks now and who would finally give me the test results of my MRI scan as well as my blood tests I hoped, I was getting tired of all those tests.

He was taking his time to get the results in order, and in that time I thought back to the tests I've had and how I met Doctor Cross.

Now I have been in and out of the hospital for several months now, going from one test to the other.

Going to the nurse's office to have some blood taken from me, have the doctor listen to my heart and lungs, and I even had to take some stool samples. That was rather awkward and a bit messed up.

But of course they could not find anything wrong with me so eventually they told me I was going to a different doctor who would take over my case.

Although this was annoying to me, it was nothing compared to the shock I had when I met doctor Red Cross for the first time.

You see, even tough the portal between Earth and Equestria had been around for twenty years now, it is still rare to see a pony in a human hospital due to the difference in species, not so much because they didn't understand our physiology, but because most humans have either some immunity towards magic or they get a bit ill from exposure to it. There are those, however, who are quite susceptible towards magic for reasons unknown, but there are not enough of them to warrant any magical capable doctors and nurses in our hospitals. There are of course always the exceptions to these rules and there are some pony doctors here and there, but I have never seen one around here.

So to have a unicorn stand in front of me who claimed to be my doctor was quite the surprised.

Standing in front of me was a unicorn with a light brown coat and a black mane having a red cross for a cutie mark.

He introduced himself as Red Cross, (really), and told me he would take over my case from here on out.

When he told I had to get an MRI I was a bit excited, see I have always been a techno geek and to see an actual MRI machine and even going in one was quite something for me, I mean, think about it, this machine actually makes pictures of your brain by using a magnetic field, this is going to be so awesome.

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''Boring'' was all I thought as I lie in the MRI machine. Although the machine was impressive to see, it was quite boring to be in it, just laying there doing nothing, but hopefully they would find out what is wrong with me so I just lie there waiting for the machine to finish.

Afterwards doctor Cross and I made an appointment for when I would get the results of the test.

So here I am, Hopefully I would finally get an answer to why I am feeling like crap lately.

"Well Sam, I am afraid I have some bad news for you." said doctor Cross as he looked over the test results.

"We have investigated the MRI scan and tested your blood three times to make sure that we aren't wro..."

"I know you have bad news for me doctor.'' I said.'' I am sick and in the hospital trying to find out what is wrong with me so please stop trotting around the answer and just tell me." I told him as I cut him off, all these months without a decent answer and now all this walking around the answer was wearing out my patience.

"SIGH ...    Alright then,' I am sorry Sam, but you have cancer."

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"Sam?" Cross asked after getting no reply.

"I.. canc... what,' are you sure?" I asked, unable to believe what I was hearing.

"I'm afraid so."  Cross answered.

"NO... no this can't be.... thi... this has to be a mistake,' you did the test wrong, that has to be it,'  yes that's it, it is just a mistake, right.... RIGHT?''  I all but panicked at this point, this couldn't be happening to me, I thought.

''I am sorry Sam, but there is no mistake,' like I said we tested your blood three times just to be sure that we didn't make a mistake, and the MRI is quite conclusive too.

I even have the MRI scan here to prove it.''  Cross said in an even voice trying to calm down Sam.

''How.... how bad is it, really.'' I asked with uncertainty in my voice, not really wanting to know the answer.

''Bad, the cancer is already in an advanced stage and has spread throughout your entire body.

Let me show you the scan so you can see for yourself.'' He said as he opened the scan on his computer.

''As you can see there is a large mass located in your left long as well in your liver and there are some small tumors in the less vital organs.'' He pointed out to me.

''All of these are treatable with the latest medical magiTec.'' He said cautiously optimistic.

''However... there is also a large mass located in your brain as you can see here.'' He said to me while pointing at the scan.

''Normally this is not too bad. However the location of this particular tumor is troubling.''

Despite our advancements in the last twenty years we cannot safely remove this tumor without causing serious harm or even death to you.'' He told me, I was at a complete loss at this moment, unable to believe what I was hearing.

It must have showed on my face because the next thing he said to me was with some hesitation.

''I.. I am sorry Sam, but even if we were to remove the other tumors from your body you would still be dealing with this brain tumor.'' He tried to keep an even voice, but it was strained, not with sadness, but more like anticipation. I however was to focused on the whole, I have cancer thing, to notice.

''I.. i see.'' I muttered.

''Would it.. would it help if we treated the other tumors, at least to help me feel better.'' I asked with a lot uncertainty in my voice.

''Well yes, it would and we already scheduled you in for surgery later this week, but this will not cure you.'' He said, sounding a bit too forced, but I still didn't notice.

''With this tumor still in your brain you will have some serious health issues over time.'' Cross continued, ''Also it may spread through your body again. We can prescribe several forms of medication to help slow the progress of this brain tumor, but nothing that will cure you.'' He told me.

''I see...

Doctor, realistically how long do I have left?'' I asked him with almost no emotion left in my voice.

''It is hard to tell for sure, but after the surgery and with use of those medication you could life for another six years. You must know though that this isn't conclusive, but only an estimate.'' Doctor Cross explained to me.

''You could life for another one or two years or life for eight more. With cancer you never really know.'' He said while shrugging his shoulders.

''And when.. is the surgery precisely?''

''Next Thursday the fourteenth at two PM. I think it would be wise though to inform your relatives and make sure your affairs are in order. Even with the medication to slow the progress of the cancer you will have a hard time ahead of you.'' Cross advised to me.

''I.. thank you, I guess.'' I said not knowing what to think.

''I..I should go now, I have a lot to take care of, I guess.'' As I was leaving Cross stopped me.

''Sam wait, just because you got some bad news doesn't mean your life is over, you still have some time ahead of you.''

''That's the thing doc. I never did anything with my life to begin with, all I did was playing video games and my work nothing else.'' I began.

''And now I find out I only have a few years left, just...a...FEW.GOD.DAMN.YEARS LEFT...'' I started to shout.

''I WASTED MY LIFE DOING NOTHING PRODUCTIVE AND NOW YOU SAY MY LIFE ISN´T OVER, MY LIFE IS OVER AND WE BOTH NOW IT, SO DONT GO SAYING THAT THINGS AREN'T SO BAD BECAUSE OF SOME FUCKING MEDICATION. AND TO TOP IT ALL OF, THIS HAS TO BE THE WORST FUCKING BIRTHDAY PRESENT EVER.'' I yelled at doctor Cross breathing heavily as I slowly calmed down .

''I JUST.. I just....''  I started to stammer not really sure what I was going to do now.

I am sorry for that, I didn't mean to, it's just...''

''It is alright, I understand.'' Cross told me. This was the wrong thing to say though, first I get to hear I have cancer and now this pony thinks what that is like. The last time I checked ponies couldn't get cancer due to their magic, so who does he think he is saying that he understands?

''Do you doc, do you, how can you understand?'' I asked with venom in my voice.

''Sigh,  I guess I can't,  but I do now this. You said you never did anything with your life, now see this as a wake up call, you still have some years left, use them. Be alive for once. I'm not saying that you need to do something stupid that will end you in hospital or will kill you, but do something that you always wanted to do.'' Cross said cautiously, trying not to set me off again.

''Why not make a list,´ how did you humans call it .'' Cross taped his chin with his hoof while trying to remember the word he was looking for.

''Oh right, a bucket list.'

Do the things you always wanted to do and when the time comes you will not spend your last moment wondering about what if, what could have been and how things could have turned out for you.'' He suggested.

I had to say that it sounded good. To for once do something with my life instead of playing those games over and over again.

''I.. I think I will do that, yeah a bucket list,  no regrets.'' I said more to myself than to doctor Cross.

''Thanks doctor, I needed that.''

''You're welcome.'' Cross replied.

''Huh'' I said.'' you aren´t too bad for a pony, at least you are more honest with me than most humans here.''

''Just doing my job Sam, just doing my job. Now go and life your life, oh but don't forget about the surgery next Thursday.'' He reminded me, I almost forgot about it, thinking about what to put on the list.

''Thanks and I will.'' I said when I left the office.

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Ten minutes later

Doctor Cross office.

''Hmm, that went well, better than expected.''  Cross said to himself.

''Still better report this in with the "company'', now where did I leave that Celestia damned phone?''  Cross muttered to himself, trying to find his cell phone.

''honestly, those humans make these things smaller and smaller just so we would lose them and need to buy new ones, Ah there it is.'' Cross said as he found his phone and dialed a number combination to long to be a phone number.

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''Boss this is Red Cross, everything went as planned'' He told to the person on the phone while casting an anti sound spell around him so no one could hear him.

''You gave him the news.'' Boss asked, already knowing the answer.

''Yes sir. He was quite devastated about it heh.'' Cross chuckled a bit when he said that.

''And the other objective.'' Boss asked again.

''It didn't take much to get him to make that stupid list and do all kinds of crazy things. This will make it all the more easy for us.''

''Good, you know what to do next. During his surgery you will plant a tracking device in him so we know exactly where he is. We cannot afford any mistakes with this. We spend years just to get him that disease just so it would be believable when he dies, do not make a mistake and most importantly do not let the other surgeons see you plant the device.'' Boss told to Red Cross. the unspoken other half was perfectly understood by Cross, Do not fuck up or you will die next.

''Yes sir. Consider it done.'' Cross answered nervously, not wanting to fail his superior.

As the call came to an end Cross opened his drawer and picked up a small box containing a small tracking unit which he had to implant in Sam later this week during his surgery.

{color=red]''Luckily you are small, any bigger than this and this might not work, at least not in the way I have planned.'' Cross said to himself as he looked at the device, no bigger than a grain of rice, and carefully placed it back in his drawer.

''Still a lot to do though before I can continue with this.'' he thought as he stood up and left his office.'' he he he if only you knew what we have planned for you kid, you wouldn't be so quick to come for the surgery.'' as Cross thought about all that was about to be done he couldn't help it when a sinister smile crept on his face.