Icing On The Cake

I sealed it. I wanted to keep it short and sweet.

Finally, I wiped my eyes. Tears still leaked out every once in awhile, but they soon got more and more sporadic.

"Cup, open this door! Please! We want to help!" I had ignored my two best friends for at least half an hour, trying to write that simple letter, but Carrot sounded close to bawling.

I opened the door slowly.

"Holy buck... I was so scared for you... What's wrong?" Carrot gave me a huge hug the moment he saw me through the crack in the door. He had obviously been crying as well.

I looked at my closed blinds. "I realized that I had made a huge mistake."

"With what?" Fanny slowly creeped into my room, and sat on my bed.

"Him." I closed my door, I didn't want my parents hearing this conversation.

"What did he do?" Fanny Pack tried to act like he didn't see this coming.

I sighed. A few more tears fell out of my eyes. "He did things... That..." I couldn't even tell my best friends.

"Take your time." Carrot said, taking a seat right next to him.

"You don't have to tell us." Fanny urged.

"I want to, that's the issue. I want someone to know what I'm going through. It's just... Hard. Extremely difficult." I laid down on my floor, putting my head in my hooves.

Fanny got off the bed and sat on the floor near me. He put his hoof on top of mine. "We'll both be here for you, you don't ever have to worry. You can trust us."

Carrot followed his example, but didn't put his hoof on top of mine.

"Remember earlier today when we were talking about my idea of the perfect colt?" I took a deep breath in, and I started shaking. I sat up to face them both.

They nodded.

"He's not my version of perfect. He's nowhere near perfect, quite honestly. I don't even know why I fell 'in love' with him.

"He used me." Tears started flowing again. "I was pretty much a sex toy for him! We may of never had sex, but he definitely used me, I know that. I don't even want to describe it. All I wanted to do was make him happy. For once in my life, somepony actually liked me back, and he used it, and ran away with it. And now I'm stuck in this ridiculous mess of not being able to trust him. Ever. All I know right now is that he's probably cheating on me... Using another poor mare... I don't even want to confront him to break up! I'm afraid of confrontation! I'm afraid he'll doing something to hurt me. Guys, this isn't normal!" I bawled to the point I couldn't continue.

I fell to the floor in a heap of tears. All they could do was give me a big hug.

"Hey, Cup, you're going to get through this. One day, you'll be looking back on this. We're going to help you make this your past. Because it isn't your fault. You got hurt. Terribly hurt." Carrot hugged me tighter.

"What if he doesn't let me even break up with him? What if I'm stuck in this relationship forever?" My heart sank.

Carrot and Fanny looked at each other. "Listen Cup. We're like your brothers. If this kid gets in the way of your well-being... We already have something against him." Fanny stood up, and put on his tough face.

"Fanny, I hardly think you're someone to start a fight." I giggled a little.

"Hey! I was being serious!"

"Cup, you've got it wrong." Carrot laughed. "He would START a fight, but never WIN one."

"Hey!" Fanny exclaimed, but then decided to join them in laughing.

"So are we going to send this?" I held up my letter.

Fanny grabbed it. "Right. Now."

We all walked outside and went on a trip to send it.

"Um hey... Carrot?"

"Yeah Cup?"

"Are my eyes still all swollen and red?"

Carrot looked at both of us. "I'm going to take a safe bet and say all three of us have bright red, swollen eyes."

Fanny rolled his eyes. "Tell me about it!" I smiled.

A few awkwardly quiet minutes later, we got to the post office. For some reason, I couldn't go in. I just couldn't bring myself to go inside.

"Hey, you guys can go inside without me." I waved them off.

"What?" Both of them looked at the other. "Well, okay... I guess..." Fanny had a very confused look on his face, yet he did it anyways.

Carrot stayed behind with me. "Hey... What's wrong?"

"Nothing." I actually didn't know what was wrong with me anymore.

"Are you sure? You and I both know that isn't true."

"I'm still a little emotional." I didn't want to listen after that.

"Cup, you know I'll always be here for you?" He gave it one final shot.

I nodded. That was the last of it.

Fanny then came out, almost right in the nick of time.

"Sent! He should be getting it late tonight. The pegasi said you could get a reply as early as tomorrow afternoon, if he's quick enough to respond!"

•••••

I couldn't sleep. I knew he'd get the letter in the morning. I couldn't think about anything else.

What would he do?

How would he react?

Would he take it well, or would he overreact?

Did I just put myself in danger?

What if I'm making a mistake?

What if I just need to suck it up?

I think I'm making a mistake.

It was 2 AM. I didn't care, I had to go outside, get some fresh air.

I slowly sneaked down the stairs, and out the door.

The cool spring midnight air felt nice, I was in a nervous sweat.

The world was open to me, but I decided to go to the place I felt the safest: Carrot Cake's.

I knew the way to his house blindfolded, but tonight, I barely knew the way. My mask of tears didn't help, and my brain couldn't think about little else. I stumbled into his backyard.

His room was on the ground floor, so I simply softly kicked the window to wake him up. If he said he'd always be there, I hoped 2 AM counted as always.

A very groggy Carrot Cake opened the window. "Who is it?" He rubbed his eyes, and then saw me crying in a heap outside his window. "Oh my..." He gave me a big hug.

We must have sat there for half an hour, him just holding me, and me uncontrollably crying. He was warm, and his fur slowly got wet from me crying, but it was soft...

After awhile, I stopped crying, and we sat in silence. Just him holding me. He stroked my hair softly with his hooves only to comfort me a little more.

An hour maybe passed after that. "Hey," he said softly, "it's going to be all right."

I buried my head into his chest even more.

He turned his head towards the sinking moon, as he pulled me closer to him. "One day."