my sanity

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THE INSANITY BEGINS
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the start

THE INSANITY BEGINS

Well here's another chapter and for each chapter it will get darker trust me seeing what i went through it's pretty dark on with the story! anyway me and my friend were still looking for a way to stop what ever was causing this but each day i was loseing sanity to her and for some odd reason it felt... well good! it felt like getting your first kiss but with each day the sencation escallated and at one point i was trying to go to sleep but it was 1:56 in the morning and it was impossible to go to sleep because she was watching me staring but little did i know that my insanity had my mind in a state of nothing and it wasent aware of what was IN my room i decided to play on a few tekkit and voltz that's when i took notice and we stared and stared we did this for i don't know an hour thirty-min's but i guess she had been waiting to make her move but when i turen'd she took it and brought her right hoof to my jaw pretty painfully i might add and she had knocked me out and the with the panicked state that my mind was in i couldent do anything when i woke i was in restrant's with dash sitting in front of me with many sharp objects on the table behind her at this point i started wheeping silently to my self that this was it im done fore there's no hope of me getting out of this she had taken noticed me waking up and took what looked like a knife from the table but i could tell that wasent a normal knife it was your knife! i rememberd that i had it custom made as gift for my friend who was a big fan of knife's but then she drop't it and turned back to grab an adrinelin shot i quess to keep me awake during the torture so she could just hear me scream my heart beat increased rapidly so this is how it's going to end with my favirote pony RD i chukkeld softly to my self she definatly takes notice of that and get's a oh your dead NOW look on her face and it was like it was on que the knife went straight in to my arm and i screamed in pain and my vision blurred with red and the tangy smell and taste hit my nose and mouth well at least it dident have to end like the fanfic cupcakes and with that thought i laught again she grabed what looked like another knife but this one was biger and had more teeth to it's blade that looked like they were sharper too! she saw me take notice and she smiled at it i started talking to her dash why are you doing this to me!? i loved you and this how i get fucken repaid!? but just forget it now i wish you would just die know i had said at that moment she dropped the knife and ran straight up to me kissing me and removing the knife and from that point it went forward promoting to something a kid shouldent do and she well blew me and... i'll shut up now

Help with getting through all this stuff

well i'm back with a new chapter but here's a song that might explain to you what i've been going through the last few year's how many you ask? let's say roughly about 7 years now so let's get going huh?

Youtube Video

hahaahha it's funny you know the video just might let you grasp what i had to go through to get here and well he what ever let's get started huh?

i was just getting up one morning well aware of what was coming to me at school but nothing came that day instead it came at night i couldent go to sleep this had been going on for sometime now and i was geting tierd of it i went to get a galss of water and a sleeping pill that had help't a lot i knew they would be in there waiting for me when i got back to my room i was instantly knocked out this time i was surpirsed to see MS.sparkel standing there with RD oh hello twilight what are you doing here? usally it's only RD that's here to kill me. Well not this time she dicided to let me in on the fun too! hehehehehe guess who else is here my god i thought to my self as a projectore was turned on in front of me on the screen i saw my friend about to get killed JAKE WAKE THE FUCK UP!!! i screamed at him he jolted awake doged the knife barly by an inch away from his throat then down he went we where both knocked out at the same time i guess with posin dart's when i awoke i saw him next to me jake they got us man they fucking got us at this point a knife went into my calf musule i screamed in agony aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! fuck my life! the light's went on and i saw who had done it it was the lavender mare i started crying Jake im sorry i draged you into this with me man i hope you can forgive me ha bro your funny i'm still here then he to screamed in agony as well i saw RD did that this time hey man what do you say about we have one last HOO-RAH HUH? LIKE THE BOSS'ES WE USED TO BE come on Jake let's do this thing at last the time has come for us to go out with a bang huh cold? EYUP i answerd my slowly dying friend so we'er exacuting plan 3826-HBOTP then? yeah let's go man was his response i took the knife in my mouth and was cutting my restraint's i got my right arm first then my left then did the same to his restraint's then since we both knew what was coming next we both tenssed-up but nothing came so i disided that i could keep cutting and i was right to start doing so again as soon as we where freed we ran like we were on adrinaline,cocain,crack all at the same time (no i dont take or do drug's) as we ran i was aware that both of our blood vessel's had both been cut open and thank celestia with the fucking power of the sun behind her thrust i said quietly my friend laghed at the remark the reason i had said that was because pinky pie had just walked into the room along with the rest of the 6 behind her dash looked around probably looking to knock me out witch another one of her pinky pie cupcake's (cupcake's refrence) the one not even two or 1 chapter ago

the start

well guys this will be a story of my insanity and over coming it well let's get started well it started when i firt bacame a brony long before i knew what i acuttaly was and that's when it bagan and i created my own little world for them know it may seem that this thought might be running through your head "THIS GUY'S A FUCKING SYPCHOPATH" we'll im not and if you've got any thing to say say it! I DARE YOU!! back to the story and with that world there was the one that i loved before my eye's in a dream i was flying about with her and that's were i started losing sanity i started having visoin's and they interacted with the way i was living last summer i was in my room alone almost through out the entire summer and playing either XBOX360 or my computer and minecraft i did enough research to understand what states i was under going so i just called my condition RD INSANITY and was being haunted day and night by her stare even though nobody else could see it i could see it as clears as freshly made glass and i have to say it felt good and bad always it felt good to know that she seemed to be waching over me like a guard'ein angle or something bad because i felt like any moment i would have a vision of her that interacted with real life of her killing me and she would later then heal me just to do it again it was hard growing up for me i was all way's pushed around by the popular kids but tha changed one day when SHE TOOK CONTROLL OF MY BODY and tried killing one of the popular bitches SHE gave him a bloody nose (broken) black-eye and a broken jaw that only made matters worse for me because right after that people began wondering what is wrong with him someone actually had the ball's to ask me after that i just explaind the condition i had and he's still my friend my closest one at that and i actually found out just a few week's ago that he had the same condition i had!! but it was with TWILIGHT SPARKLE and so me and him began working together on trying to find away to stop the condition we both had however were still working on it so yeah dont pity me though i hate it when people do well thats it for chapter one try not to piss me off in the comments i'll give anwsers to those Q's i can answer