The pain hard
The blood as warm as the sun
If you think you could stand it
Do what I have done
Her life wasn’t easy. She was born in Manehattan, and her family didn’t really care about her. She had to manage everything herself, because there was no one who had helped her, not a single time. In school, nopony liked her, cause she lived in her own world. Nopony was there for her.
Years later
A mare, walking in a little alley besides the street. She didn‘t want anypony to see her, neither she wanted to see anypony herself. She was alone, but that didn’t bother her. Her whole life, she was alone, and she had never ever expected she would feel real happiness one day.
Her name was Vinyl Scratch. She never had good grades, so she wasn't able to study, but she hung out every night in little clubs to forget about all the problems she had. Nevertheless, she was very interested in a job as a DJ, so she watched every DJ in the clubs to see how to work with the turntables etc.
Soon, she knew all about it, and she asked the club leader, if she could play one night. He didn’t care about the fact she was not even 15, and the club didn’t earn any money because nopony wanted to visit a shabby club like that, so he agreed.
Despite the club was dark, but not trustworthy, sometimes there were talentscouts searching for new DJ’s.
Lucky for Vinyl.
This evening one of them was at that club, although he was only interested in some illegal substances which were dealt there. Actually, he was on his way back home, but then he heard some interesting wubs, coming from the stage. Strange, no DJ at the club was usually good, but this had so much… eagerness in it. The talentscout turned himself and the he saw – a 14-year old pony, mixing better than anypony he heard since yet. After Vinyl finished her incredible set, a little bit shy in front of the crowd of people, although there were only four other ponies, the scout came near Vinyl and asked, if she would agree with a contract with PonyRecords®, not a very well known, but still a label! After that whole event, Vinyl even got her cutie mark, but she didn’t even recognize it at first, because she didn’t expect to be THAT good.
That was the time were she began to be a braggart. She told everybody, who bullied her before, her talent, but also she began to bully others because somebody had to pay for the pain everypony gave to her. She was suspended from school, what actually made her really happy, so she could better concentrate on her serious business, the music. She worked every day and night on her next big great song, but she had no friends. Despite that she was happy with her work, she mixed at big events like the Grand Galopping Gala. She SEEMED happy with her work. She didn’t even know it herself, but she WASN’T happy. Nobody knew what such a little mare could do.
Back in time
Octavia Philharmonica was a young and happy foal, and her life was without any problems.
Until... the "accident“. Her father worked in a big facility, and despite her mother told him very often to stop that work, just for Octavia, he often said he would be alright and nopony would have to worry about him, but he didn’t believe himself. He worked at a factory which made all the magic substances in all of equestria, and nopony knew what the ingredients were. It was so complicated to make these substances, so it was decided to buy machines for help. These machines… they were big, really big, so there was a barrier to prevent deaths because of falling into the great wheels, which were part oft he machines. They haven't existed for a long time, until someday… someday…
Octavia’s father wasn’t in a good mood at all. He just was told his wife has cheated on him, and he thought about it.
"She needed a new experience, she said. Liar. I know she doesn’t love me anymore, the mare that loved me would never ever cheat on me. Even if she did, she would try apologize, and she wouldn’t meet the stallion anymore. The first time, she told it to me and I could forgive her. The second time I caught them both – it was still the same stallion. Sure she wants to be together with him; I was just told some minutes ago about the third time she cheated on me. Again… the… same… fucking… STALLION!“ he screamed the last word, obviously angry. Then, he turned sad again.
"What if it’s just my fault?“ He looked at his hooves, then looked at the great wheels which rotated very fast. There would be no pain, it wouldn’t even take more than a few seconds. He was sure, this was the last time Serenada would cheat on him. Nopony would be able to do something to him.
Years later
Ocatavia was a broken pony. Since her father died, nothing was like it should be. There were no trips with the parents. There was no "Good morning, sweetie“ from her father anymore. And there was no mother anymore, after she left Octavia. Although it was Serenada’s fault Gavel died, Octavia still thought it was her own fault, and so she thought of the naff off her mother did. But she forgot about that after all these years. She worked at a well payed and famous orchestra as a cellist. She played that instrument since she was a foal… "Mom and dad gave it to me as a birthday present…“, she said to herself, trying not to cry. "How proud they would be if they would see me now…“ It was the first time since nearly ten years she thought about her parents. She sweared to herself not to think about them.
It’s your fault you can’t be with them anymore.
Octavia didn’t listen to the voice in her head. She would forget about her parents fast, she calmed herself. Even if she was right that the memory would fade, it wasn’t out of her memory completely. It would scar her for life.
