Of our thoughts
Maybe one day I can forgive you for this but today I cannot for the tears flow and pain flows into darkness underneath feeding the nightmare within in me. Jealously is a thorn nagging at my heart and tearing to its core. You who bring the sun, my sister and my best friend I love you but I hate you. I want your power I want the love they give you. As I sit on the moon a foreign yet familiar ground under my hooves I think. I think into the silence my thoughts are the color of blue sky and warm sunlight my sounds are your loving voice with fear, wanting, regret, sadness and thick with pain begging me to stop before you shot me to this foreign yet familiar world. I want to rule Equestria with my night instead of your bright sun my dear sister. I wanted to see people with smiles as they baked cakes, picked apples and hear fillies playfully scream and run around until they roll on the ground full of laughter. Instead of that I have the cold empty night with no baked cakes, no picked apples, no smiles and no laughter. This foreign and familiar world is so dark and cold and silent. There are no smiles and laughter in this place and it makes me shed cold tears upon my cheeks. My dream is gone and the nightmare grows good bye my dear sister good bye my beautiful Equestria.
Princess Luna
~~Nightmare Moon~~
To truly feel loneness is a pain that no pony deserves to feel. I was never alone in Equestria. I was never the only pony on a foreign and familiar world. My words that I spoke were never the only the words I heard. My words filled with coldness, revenge and most of all regret. This regret I can never take back. A jealous mind spanning years filled with poisoned thoughts and tongues. Many words never said until too late. My poisoned words broke a kingdom a bond a heart and Equestria. We were of harmony yet all I felt was chaos. My sister’s words were of control, warmth, and loving. She was of harmony. I was of a chaos that I could not control. I was loved by my people and by my sister but I did not feel it. If they loved me why did they sleep? Why did they never do what they did for sister? WHY? I WAS I NOT WORTHY OF THERE TIME ONLY THERE SLEEP ONLY THEIR DREAMS? WOULD THEY PRAISE ME IN THEIR DREAMS I THINK NOT! I WANT MORE! I DESERVED MORE EQUESTRIA!
Princess Lu~~na~~
~~Nightmare Mo~~on
• Princess Luna of Equestria
• Princess of Harmony
• Princess of Night
• Princess of Dreams
• Luna of Chaos
• Luna of Jealously
• Luna of Hate
• Luna of Not Herself
• Luna of Spiteful remarks
• Luna Interruptions
• Luna the child
• Luna the sick of it
• Luna of control
• Luna of failing
• Nightmare Luna
• Night Luna
• Nightmare Moon
These titles tell the story of my short and sad life. The titles that tell of truth I do not want to think about. I earned them by my own hooves I earned them. The chaos begged to be let out. It screamed to me telling me the clam and harmony filled Luna was a lie. I was the chaos and she was me. It was too tempting not to peel away the skin of my lies and be who I really was. I knew the risk and I decided upon I plan I thought would work beautifully. The chaos came out and I let it come. I thought I could control it to be of both chaos and harmony. As I let it out I found no harmony left in my heart. Maybe it was there somewhere but I could not feel. Maybe I did not want to feel it.
Princess Lu~~na~~
~~Nightmare Moon~~
Who I am I? How have I become this? I don’t want this I never wanted this. I wanted smiles and wanted laugher not this. I wanted ponies to love and hate. DID YOU REALLY THINK THEY WOULDNT HATE YOU? WHO CARES ABOUT HATE WHEN YOU HAVE POWER! ALL YOU WANTED WAS POWER! NIGHTMARE MOON! No I am not you. OF COURSE YOU ARE ME AND I AM YOU. WE ARE NIGHTMARE MOON! No I will never let be. I won’t let it be so. I know I will wake no I know I will wake up in my bed in Equestria. OH REALLY AND HOW LONG DO YOU THINK IT WILL LAST? HOW LONG DO YOU THINK YOU CAN FOOL YOURSELF? I don’t know all I know is I need to watch the sun.
Princess Lu~~na~~
~~Nightmare M~~oon
The sun is about to raise I can see it clearly from the moon. I can see my sister’s magic around it. The warmth keeps me away the monster I created. The monster I let free. Is she me? I am I really her? I am not sure not anymore. All I know is the sun and my sister keeps me sane until the time has come for my revenge.
Princess Lu~~na~~
~~Nightmare M~~oon
My body felt heavy I started to lose focus and decided to settle down to dream. To “dream” was never the right for it they were nightmares and chaos with the faces and sounds and sights of the life I once had. It was time for the sun rise and as I looked from my bedroom window I saw my sister white wings fluttering raise the sun as I saw her form engulfed by sunlight a bit of chaos slipped out as I used my magic to loudly shut the window behind me. I walked over and plopped myself on my dark blue bed sheets and buried my head in my purple pillow and screamed.
Princess Lu~~na~~
~~Nightmare M~~oon
This song I cannot get out of my head the song that played in my head as a screamed into my pillow. It plays now taunting me as I look out into the vast emptiness. I stamp my hooves and screamed out in frustration and sadness and anger. I tried to run from it but it kept on playing in my head.
Princess Lu~~na~~
~~Nightmare M~~oon
Oh the little princess siting upon the door
How time has come for you and you are nevermore
Your dreams are gone and never will be so
Unless you come my dear and everything thing is always swell
Oh princess sitting upon the door
How you call me so.
Oh how call me so.
You know you really need me
I am only one
Who can guide you to a future that you cannot attain.
Oh little princess sitting upon the door
Now take my hoof we shall be together forever for evermore
You know you really want too I see it in your eyes.
Oh little princess sitting upon the door
Do you think they love you?
Do you think they respect you?
Do you really think you think you can do this alone?
Oh little princess sitting upon the door
Open up
This song repeats and repeats in my head over and over again and all I can do is scream into the darkness hoping it will fade away.
Princess Lu~~na~~
~~Nightmare M~~oon
Author's Note
This story still needs to be edited. I am looking for editors/pre readers.
I was so sure my way was the right way. I had no doubts about that. My way is the best. My eternal night would be mine. Why could they not understand? I was only trying to improve their lives. Why did the look at me with such fear? Their eyes looked creased with pain. Mothers held their children close. The lights collided and the guards came. The screaming came and poisoned words. My hate my nightmare. She said such terrible things to my sister. No I said such terrible things to my sister. I heard our sisters pleads we mocked her then nothing.
Princess L~~una~~
~~Nightmare~~ Moon
I am the moon and it is me. The moon is white. The moon is cold. The moon is bitter. YES IT IS BITTER IS’NT IT? IT SUITS YOU DOES’NT IT? It does. My sister and I would always look at the moon and she would call me Lula. My eyes widened “Lula Moon!” She told me the moon is beautiful and pure just as I am! N0 I am not you! WE SHALL SEE SHALL WITTLE WOONA HAHAHAHAHA! I am not you nightmare I will never be like… I am I like you?
Princess L~~una~~
~~Nightmare~~ Moon
Tick Tock Tick Tock how many hours. How many days? How many years? How many centuries? My life is long but my mind is well I have no clue what my mind is right now. I have nothing to say nothing to do. My life is of the nothingness of space. The ground is of dust instead of soft grass. The sky is as black as my nightmare. The stars are bright but they do not brighten my heart. I want someone to talk to. I want something other than my nightmare to talk to.
Princess L~~una~~
~~Nightmare~~ Moon
I found a spot to draw my new best pony. I draw her outline in the sand her online is a little off but she is definably not a filly but a mare. She has a light Lilac coat. She has a cute and warm smile. She hides her heart of gold underneath a workaholic exterior. She has curliness for her bang and it warps around her neck. Her hair is dark purple with streaks of hot pink and purple. She has no cutie mark but that is okay because she my friend. I tell her she is very special to me. As I tell her this her dark purple eyes have love and warm tears in them and we hug each other. The dust falls around me as I cry as well.
Princess L~~una~~
~~Nightmare~~ Moon
Looking upon my creation all I can wonder is what will I call her? No name really seems to fit her. She is my best pony and I cannot come up with a name for her! Ugh this is so hard! I start to look around my settings for something to use. What about this name? Would sky, dark, star, dust, and white or maybe I have no clue what to name you be a good name for you. Well maybe not but I lost so many of my words I am not sure if I can ever name you. I know your fine with being call my best pony but that is not enough. Is it enough?
Princess L~~una~~
~~Nightmare~~ Moon
When I close my eyes I open them in another time. I see a closed off space within the castle and smells? This is the garden my sister made for me. I remember now. I remember telling my sister the sunlight that flittered through the clear and stained glass windows in the castle. It stung my eyes and made them red and watery. I hardly walked around the castle during the day my sister knew that but she smiled and said she would see to it. The next thing I remember was being dragged from my comfortable warm bed as she playfully teased me to wake up and stay up as she escorted me to my surprise. . My eyes were half open and I didn’t realize the castle had gone darker and that sky blue lamps were hanging from the ceiling. I only noticed it when I arrived at the garden where the sweet smells of flowers waken me. When I opened my eyes I saw the beauty of flowers in my night. I hugged my sister and said thank you dear sister and then sat by my sister in awe at the beauty that came from the night not only from nature but from my sisters beautiful smile.
Princess L~~una~~
~~Nightmare~~ Moon
When a heart is seeking something it normally wants to hear the truth. Within my garden everything was quiet and serene. In my garden with the sky blue lights I saw shades of white, blue, purple and red and many other colors. I don’t remember all of the names of the flowers that were there but the mare gardener named Green Thumb told me that the blue and red ones were roses while the white ones were lilies. The purple flowers were violets. I wasn’t sure why there were red roses in my garden but Green Thumb told me my sister requested they be planted alongside the blue rose’s .I liked listening to Green Thumb her voice had an accent of one living in a small town outside of Canterlot. She had a light stem green coat and a tied back black mane. She had sun yellow eyes and a mother’s smile on her face. I talked to her about her home town where it had fields of flowers that stretched miles around. It had all the colors of light upon glass and in the spring wind it smell of the finest Canterlot perfume. She missed the openness of the town and the homey feel everyone had. Everyone knew each other since they were fouls. In the big city which is what she called Canterlot was both close and apart. Close building and people who lived their lives apart from one another. Everyone was doing their own thing. I asked why was she in Canterlot and she told me because it was a once in a lifetime chance and she just had to take it. Just had to take it?
Princess L~~una~~
~~Nightmare~~ Moon
Have yet to name you haven’t I? You told me it was alright but it is not. Being nameless is not okay! Having your name torn from you is not okay! Being called Nightmare moon was never okay it was not my name and it was the same as being nameless. As I look at yellow orange and the black night mix. It glows and is warm and yet sad and haunting but loving and also very beautiful. I know the name for this time it’s called Twi.
That is what I should name you! Your name shall be Twi.
Princess L~~una~~
~~Nightmare~~ Moon
Author's Note
Hi everyone I am sorry about my lack of updates. I have been busy with school and some personal matters. I would still love to have some pre readers for this fic.
( For Liam Cahill I would love for you to become a pre reader for this fic. I just been so busy I have not gotten to it and I am sorry about that.)
